The Eyes of an Entity 👁👄👁

I want to forward that my home girl from Texas was the one that made sense of this for me. For a longtime she kept talking about projections and I wasn’t quiet getting it. But finally we irons everything out and I understood what she was explaining which in confirmation is something I have seen.

While there might be different functions or types of entities (demons, aliens, astral whatever’s), I can not say with full confidence this is every entity.

I will say whether you have seen psychedelic art work or experience the TRUE astral and not the illusion, the eyes are very important. If not every where.

While they say “the eyes are the gateway to the soul”, at least for humans, for entities for so than the soul it is an environment and ecosystem voided of one. And maybe why they feed on us because they do not have a soul, a fire that replenishes them. So they feed on our spiritual energy, because 🤷🏻‍♀️ hey we got a source.

Source/ God the Most High is life giving (soul) and in turn that feeds spirit (entheos) which animates the body. So when I hear people say that this or that is after your soul, I tend to cringe. I know language is a bit wonky but I guess what I see in the astral is these “beings” after your life but ultimately you spiritual energy. They alter your state of being (say through thought or outward relationships) to bring down your “vibes” but really I feel like when we are in “low vibes” and granted emotions are ok. But if we are sad, anxious or depressed or traumatized, confused what happens is our spiritual energy our auric field is easily penetrable. It’s like it turns to goo. And anything can kinda step in and change the environment. It’s not JUST about emotions, because they are natural and powerful actually it’s also how we deal with them. So if at the first sign of sadness we look to get super drunk then…. Avoid …. Project our emotions not even on the right target…. Then.. yea we become even more vulnerable to these entities.

these entities have revealed there eyes too me in many ways. When this first started ALL OF THEM had sun glasses on. I was like WUT?! It was just so bizarre. Over time as they lowered my vibes maybe dimmed my light or whatever they took the sunglasses off. Then I started seeing things come out of there eyes and attach to me or some out of their mouth and attach to me. The only two I have seen are flower like attachments or like a horn shaped one.

Then I guess when I was at optimal low vibes I saw that these “alien” looking entities that first had on sun glasses then also had eye shields. So when people see aliens with big black eyes that’s basically an eye shield. Like sunglasses built in. I think snakes have something similar. The. I saw their regular eyes. Which technically looks like a humans eye more or less. So black eyes are a shield to your light 😳 WOA right!

The forth kind I have seen and why I am writing today is what my friend and I confirmed is that inside of the eye there is ANOTHER entity. I only saw this twice. And the one I remember vividly was a dragon eye came up close to me in my bed and when I saw there was a man or human like figure in a red shirt who when I saw him quickly turned around and went into a door. It was like the pupil of this eye was a balcony and the figure went back inside.

😳

And this is what my friend was trying to explain the whole time was that what we see as “alien” or “reptilian” or whatever other kind of entities is a projection. So it’s like a….. like an avatar. An avatar that functions and is like a vehicle or a ship or something. But what you think you see isn’t all that their is.

• Dreams (non conscious dreams)
• Lucid Dreams/Sleep paralysis (conscious dreams)
• Visions (awake dreams)
• Remote viewing (reality viewed through dream space)
• Illusions (dreams viewed in reality space, can be though of as hallucinations)
• Manifestations/ Apparitions (illusions briefly reality space)
• Astral (the space in between? In which different dimension, vibrations and light spectrum exist? 🤷🏻‍♀️)

I knew there was another layer to this crap. The “projection” was trying to explain is basically an avatar or a Trojan Horse. And it can pose itself as anything or maybe attracted to people of a particular belief system.

So in this order:

• Little unknown figure inside
• The Avatar or Trojan vehicle that look like a Alien 👽 or Reptilian or Dragon 🐉 Mermaid 🧜‍♀️ or whatever I’ve never seen full human ones just yet.
• Then with the Avatar it can use light/ electricity (lol probably from YOUR physical vessel) to look like anything else. So yea it looks like an alien in the astral as the base avatar but maybe it came to you as idk “Jesus” or your “Twin Flame” with light illusion. Which is the same energy used for dreams.

I mean again not all are BAD, some are natural. I just don’t trust anything that will stand around in my field knowing I’m being raped by this fuck up demonic alien and do nothing. 🤷🏻‍♀️

That’s just me. 😑

This is only my personal view from my experience and account for the “astral” and the ecosystems inside of ecosystems.

Silence of the Butterflies: Bestie Edition 🦋

So when my reality was glitching with butterflies, I mean Siri was randomly pulling up String Theory and Butterfly Effect on my phone. And for the record she barely ever listens to me anyway. 😬 Just saying. When my family was watching some Andy Cohen show last year he said “silence of the butterflies” like real randomly. And I was like 😳 dude this is too much.

And while being a big mouth has been helpful in some ways, I am being asked to be silent. 😬 NOT MY BAG! While I have been in the schizophrenic demonic oppression since 2016, I’ve revealed every nasty experience I have had in this blog. It is my safe space to work things out and maybe just maybe someone might think twice about something.

And so speaking out has always been my MO. I turned my schizophrenic experience into a point of advocacy, organizing, it was about justice both on earth and in the “spiritual realms.”.

I told my BF that sometime the more I understand, even though simplistic it feels like it’s becoming more and more difficult to even communicate my salvation that I am so elated about. And my demonic oppression hasn’t even stopped and I am EXCITED!!! Because of the truth of Jesus. It almost feels strange saying that. I never thought I would be some one so excited about Jesus. I was so harden by other Christian’s and the history of violence and slavery and hate. And I’m like that’s the exact opposite of Jesus and yet here we are worrying about WW3.

I am a passionate person, and schizophrenia has dampened that a little bit or pivoted my energy towards seeking God. And recently my best friend and I reconnected. And I was so plying sharing what has been going on for me and I mentioned a point from a sermon from Transformation Church about being “here and now”. And my Bestie who is also struggling with addiction relapsed and had a health scare. And so I’m just doing what I do and trying to swat down the negative thoughts she speaks out loud about herself and give examples from my life and then some how we were in a debate about how Christianity upholds white supremacy and I can’t possible stand by it as a person of colour. 😳😬 And this triggered me back to when she said I was practicing my “slave masters religion”, and like I’ve heard edgy comments like that on the innanet so it’s not new to me. But it is rude, but she ain’t wrong either. The Bible WAS altered. However as a woman of African Decent by way of the Carolinas we were never suppose to survive.

We living in a country founded on white supremacy and so EVERYTHING will obviously have that smeared on every facet of life. But I’m so excited that despite the lies, alteration, despite the condemnation of the church, despite pushing people OUT and away from the church, despite ALL OF THAT! God brought clarity to me through Jesus Christ and humbled my pride. 🥺 And it’s like you want to give your Bestie the answer to the quiz and like I can’t. Because Exhibit A above.

What’s funny is that while being illuminated to the truth of Jesus by pure mercy (thank you God!) at some point i could see the symbolism hidden in music, lyrics, art, old and new! I was like is this artist Christian and would read up about them and find out some roots there or a track somewhere on an album that had very spiritual lyrics. So 😳 it’s been … yea…..

But no one wants to see their friend suffer. And no one wants to be disrespected or have their God disrespected. And so we are at a dilemma. But not…….. because I don’t control ANYTHING! 🤭 Nothing!

And so in some ways I am being asked to be silent (which is not easy for a blabber mouth). I am being asked to trust God’s plan not just in general but specifically in my life and with other people I love. And boy oh boy, this type A high function on the go personality has to CHILLAX!

I thought that if I could be beneficial and active in other peoples lives because my own was on a complete pause, that I could bring purpose into my life. A reason to get up and wake up. I reason to not kill myself because my life was NOTHING but demon raping me. And God let me … play around until I was possessed by the decorating spirit. 😂😂😂😂 and was like slow down. 🤚🏼 Calm down and my loved ones were looking at me sideways. 😂 You know the good-ish kinda crazy.

Either way being asked if not forced to be silence…… is difficult. And I am also trying to not run away. So if she allows me I have to be there and listen judgement free and silent to some truths that she has to discover for herself. And that is holding space.

If Gods will I want to hold space for her. And if not she and my godson are in the top of my prayers.

And then I think about how it must not be fun for God and Jesus to have to refine us. And how painful that it is when all they wanted to do was work with us. And they have to wait, allow us to fall, and see that until we seek them. 🥺

That is why fashion God as a parent. But parenting is not easy. And I know that many have not had great examples. So that’s a trigger too. But triggers aren’t meant to be avoided but leaned into at the right time.

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Social Media Shut Down and Etheric Attacks

So today was Facebook conglomerate shut down. Which is whatever. No tears here

I will say this. It was quiet on my side and I was barely attacked, which is rare. I’m usually attacked all day everyday none stop taking from the entities going on 6 years. But today was almost like a vacation. NOW.

I would say the day before I was PISSED. I mean rightfully so because a couple of family members were getting on my nerves. But I have been battling anger for like a week now and I’m not usually this blood thirsty. Like I can snap back but it was intense. The last two days ( climax being Saturday and Sunday). I actually had to breathe through it, talk myself through and out of the feeling and chalked it up to some retrograde alignments. But I realize……

It was probably because on Sunday Facebook whistle blower did the interview. Now this effects the stock market….. but it ALSO effects how many people are mindlessly scrolling through social media. Social and media has been very much connected to my attacks. And when I am mindlessly scrolling the entities are a bit quiet. They will however ask my opinion on things I have see as if it matters. But never answer direct questions themselves. I don’t mind answering because it’s better than them trying to twist my beliefs around.

During the twin flame bullshit, music was VERY MUCH important to the entities. Certain songs seemed like my twin flame sent them to me…. or certain songs had meaning. The entities wanted me to watch Jupiter Ascending and like think I am some galactic princess or some shit. But magically I stopped believing twin flame and magically all that none sense stopped. For the most part. Of course it all took a nose dive into hell after rejecting their stupid twin flame game but you can read about my torture through out this pitiful blog.

I mean these entities had the AUDACITY to ask me to put on a TV show on my laptop while I tried to go to sleep. Even said they wouldn’t bother me as I slept if I did. So I put it on I forget something probably marvel and imaged this little red outline of a demon dangling it’s legs from the edge of my bed excited to watch tv (it not what I actually saw) but what imaged to amuse myself for this absurd request. Absurd why? Because of the horrific torture, pain and life altering state I have been flung into because of them.

They also sing music a lot. They like gestures and memes essentially these entities LOVE social media and entertainment and culture. At least the ones trying to spook me. I’ve been spooked so much that I’m just like “yeah whatever”.

So when this social media shut down happened it was really interesting that the entities/voices were really low and not talkative. I will also say though I did not hear AS MUCH as usual do but I did SEE a lot of activity. A lot of different color sparkles when it’s been black and white for a long time. Outlines of entities in my house were more clear and smoky white. Seemed like a lot was going on and for once I didn’t have to hear about it.

The only time this happened I would say. This sense of calm…. quiet….. but a quiet rage happened was 1. A mild earthquake in NYC that happen in like 2017. 2. when we had that major solar eclipse in the North East. 3. The election of 2020. And 4. Today. The election was interesting because the aliens were PISSED. Like for real for real …/ to the point I predicted that he wasn’t going to win to my friends.

Today I am not quite sure what this is all about. I mean I get it on the 3D reality end but not so much on the other dimension entity end.

I will say that I might do a social media black out for myself. Lol they are burning my genitals as I write that sentence. So yep that’s what I am going to do. I have mostly been on tiktok. It been interesting but also just an abyss of information and characters.

So YaY for no spiritual attacks today (except for just now), and like yea…. let’s see how this social media black out thing works when they are cut from using my body to gain access to information and entertainment.

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Butterfly Energy 🦋

I wasn’t going to say anything. Because I’m annoyed. I’m annoyed with this “process” and experience. I’m annoyed with symbology and synchronicities. Like I honestly don’t care about any of that unless it leads to demonic aliens (reptilian/grey) preferably thrown into the black hole and obliterated. But I will settle for like them detaching for me and like not raping me every day. 👌🏼 that would SUPER dope!

Like I’m numb already. Dark humor about being raped by aliens that no one else can see but me…….. this is what my life has come to? ☹️

Either way, I have been seeing butterflies 🦋 a lot lately. On TikTok a lot, on jeans, in movies on commercials, fashion. I just chalked it up to just some 90s tramp stamp trend.

I don’t want to put my faith in anything. I literally do not trust anything. I can’t. I’ve been lied to for so long. Hurt for so long. The wonder is gone.

I know that in the concept of “the dark night of the soul” on your spiritual journey you go into a chrysalis/ cocoon and then emerge this glorious butterfly. Whatever that means. I know I was isolated for a long time while being spiritually attacked. And that hasn’t stopped I just learned how to be a bit more social WHILE being attacked. So I’m not sure what part of the butterfly.

I’m still chained to these demonic alien assholes. And I have not developed any real super powers. So 🤷🏻‍♀️ idk.

Idk I have both sat with this experience and pushed through this experience and nothing I do really changes it and I just feel pain and get sicker. So I can’t put my faith in seeing butterflies outside of me. I don’t have many disappointments left in me.

Update: also a lot of amber has been entering my reality for the last week. So butterflies and amber. 🤔

Also the demonic voices didn’t want me to put this up.

Female Entity: She electrocuted me: Worse Zap of my life

Usually as I go to sleep now a days I …. it’s hard to explain. Where as I might hear one or two voices talking through out the day. When I go to sleep it’s as almost my mind becomes a radio stuck between stations. So I will hear little bits and parts of many different conversations. And a whole one going on too. It’s not easy cause sometimes they scream and it wake me up. But I’ve somehow learned to look past it for the sake of getting some sleep.

It’s easy to get caught up in “oh they said this I wonder what it means” but honestly not much has panned out from that. They have the full capability to talk to me directly and say what ever it is they want to say in plain ass English. So all that mysterious single word/phrase drop is BS.

There is a “feminine” spirit that is in the mix (I believe it’s two masculine and one feminine). The feminine one does NOT intermix much. At least does not make herself know through out this experience. Maybe more so in the beginning she didn’t care but I think once I officially was able to see them past the illusion/visions/dream she doesn’t come close. Although she has said some things here and there.

She made it a note that she wanted me to be vegetarian/vegan again especially in the beginning m. However she was not nice about it. Think toxic wellness guru femininity. She wanted me to be pretty. But then also made fun of me. Degraded me just the same. She also likes internet trends a lot it seems or the appearance of being youthful. 🤷🏻‍♀️ not significant but an observation. She also seems a little bipolar. I mean I like internet culture too and fashion and trends like the next one, so it’s not that it’s that much different than me. But idk I know where my age lane is lol. It took me a while to even dl TikTok. But I was bored and wanted to see what the algorithm was about. Apparently I get new age shit no matter what platform I go to. Lol. However there is not much on there that I haven’t already heard to be honest.

After my break up with my ex, the feminine voice suggested that I have a “glow up”, get healthy again and look cute and then tag my ex with the caption “he said I would dump him when I got skinny but I dumped him when I was fat”. I’m not opposed to a glow up. I could use a different energy, I asked her honestly but also sarcastically “are you a pedo like the other one?” Cause honestly if they gonna be here and I can’t seem to get rid of them no matter how much I pay some shaman psychic guru. I’m going with the non pedo!

When I asked this the male voice screamed as usual. “Noooooooooo”. And she left my field.

Fast forward to last night. As I went to sleep I believe she gave me a really nice message as I was falling asleep. I think it was about how she hopes I find someone and stuff. I gently woke back up and said thank you. This is where it nosed dived into fucked up.

So because she is talking to me as I go to sleep and I come out of this almost trance. I naturally wake up. Now when I wake up is when I see them the clearest. Whatever that form is. With whatever black patch they put over my eyes or 3rd eye it’s not super easy to see the them always. I would say it’s my natural eyes because I saw them spew the black patch on both eyes. So even with the black patch I can see the THEIR eyes and maybe an outline…. maybe something else but it’s definitely not as clear.

Now when I woke up I saw this flicker of images going back and forth doing math problems and writing. It’s not the easiest to explain but they were simple math problem and writing. I had thanked her for the previous kind words, but then asked why are you doing math problems? And SHE FLIPPED. Didn’t say anything but then I saw the side of a face and her eye that was then looking at me. Then I saw an evil face come towards me and then I was electrocuted in my whole body in the painful way. I don’t remember feeling this much pain from even the electrocutions before. I was PISSED! Like WTF?! You woke me up…., I saw you cause YOU WOKE ME UP….. and now you are mad and going to punish me and fry my last fucking nerves? Like this shit is psychotic.

She is NOT NICE at all. Just pretends to be like all the other ones and get pissed as an excuse to torture me.

After the electrocution, the masculine one stepped in and showed me flickering images of a man sucking dick. 🤷🏻‍♀️ and I opened my eyes not to see it and then I was almost dizzy in my bed. Closed them and he showed me other stuff too that I dont really remember.

They talked about me again as I forced myself to sleep.

To be honest all these tiktokers claim to be quantum healers or some sort and honestly I ask them a question and no one answers back. I want to interview the “healer” prior to giving them my money so I know they understand what is going on with me. If they can’t help me then cool. But I don’t think it’s fair to drop $250+ just to figure out that they can’t. I need this out of my life.

All I have is writing about it to cope. But I want it gone completely and for everyone. I don’t know what to do. Like I’m getting nerve damage from this shit. Parts of my body is starting to go numb.

A Long Reply: What I currently think about my experience.

Thank you for reading my insane blog. I thought was important to document for this exact reason. While I do pray to God for forgiveness, relief and guidance. I have honestly not seen God revealed in my life over the years. That’s where faith comes in. But I’m being honest.

I will say I totally hear you about the government surveillance. I mean they can track our cell phones and computers, out in the streets. At least here in NYC and I’m pretty sure most major cities. It’s all about data collection, advertising, capitalism, politics and the manipulation of sorts.

With that said. A dead/disabled citizen does not equal profit. Schizophrenic are suppose to make up only 1% of the population. However any spiritual group you can find thousands of people having these experiences positive or negative. Often they start off positive…. to get you hooked and into a belief system and then it goes negative either disabling your body or forcing many into suicide.

The ONLY reason I don’t believe this is government technology is because almost all religions talk about none sentient beings of some sort. So to deny that aspect will only keep us blind. There is a whole other level/reality/dimension whatever you want to call it that is in ours. Whole ecosystems of beings. Functions. Needs. And many people play with it innocently thinking they are talking to their deceased loved one, angels, aliens, goddesses. Essentially something good and strongly believe most are being lied to. You can be lied to and still have a positive experience with this.

With THAT said, there is a very good chance that the government is involved in this directly or indirectly. Governments/Corporations will always turn a negative or disparity to their benefit. So maybe the 5G/Cell waves effect our brains negatively that we are now open to these beings. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Maybe it’s the food we eat, maybe it is nano tech/heavy metals in the air used for something else and our suffering is just a byproduct. And the government knows there is a mass issue of citizens experiencing “psychotic” like symptoms. Maybe instead of fixing it the choose to collect data or manipulate it. Maybe they manipulate the fact so many are experiencing this torture to manipulate elections…, world power or currency. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Knowing they can manipulate the story to fit anyone and an outcome to benefit them.

I just have a hard believing that these beings are showing up in my house talking ALL DAY, like matrix SIMs controlled by some human to force my wonderful soul into suicide. Or make me feel raped, or sick, or sleep all day. It doesn’t make sense. At least at this moment.

Now from what I SEE, which is everyday for the last 4 years. Is beings. There are few different looking ones but essentially they have been narrowed down to a handful that I see. I see also huge “energy globs” attached to buildings with a color/hue associated to it. I have seen many of them clear…. like rippling through air/space. Many of these beings are made of or use light. Especially to move around. Larger ones don’t move around as much and I find to be duller. This light also has a EMF an electro magnetic field. This also affects our experience. Between “light” and an EMF I am pretty sure they can mess/hack our vulnerable bodies. Be it vibration, the feeling of swelling, burning, electroshock, triggering certain organs. Whatever I’m sure these beings have had billions of years to perfect the torture techniques. But can they change the righteous? I say this because I was born into sin, I am a sinner. However I’m also a decent person and a work in progress. And maybe my heart bleeds for humanity more than it seeks God but I try my best.

An example of vibration. When I slowed down, got out of “fear” and observed these beings. I saw this being spinning really fast on the area that was vibrating on my body. To create thought/visions/dreams they use light. How this happens exactly, I’m unsure. I have seen these same being cover my eyes with something that came out of them (a black patch) and then show me visions. They are able to connect to our mind/body/consciousness and PROJECT illusionary images.

Again the only reason I believe they are entities is because seeing/hearing them observing the way they behave like animals….. they are like this mix of a psychotic human personality (if not acting good for the moment) inside of an animalistic natured alien looking being. BUT they will PROJECT illusions that are familiar to us. There is a personality, a profile. A physical reaction. When I cry some turned around and did not want to watch me cry. If they see I see them fully in detail they immediately run/float away. That’s extremely reactionary. And this is me with my eyes closed looking at them… so how do they know I see them? I find that hard to believe human simulation technology could create such a natural reaction.

Either way that is my short and sweet observation. I don’t rule things out completely. I think every idea has its place. But these are just my observation.

Their whole point is to not let you enjoy your life HERE on Gods green earth. And be that love (relationship issues/“twin flame”), societal issues (feeling like an alien here/oppression), paranoid of the government following you (targeted), or just personal struggles. The list can go on. These beings will take advantage of ANYTHING and take it to extreme and make you HATE LIFE. Hate living.

Miserable little 💩💩💩. And misery loves company.

Morning Spiritual/Astral Rape

I woke up this morning being astrally raped. The way I know it’s not my subconscious mind is that these being take over my dream state and I made such a big fuss about the raping me in my waking and dream life that they have tried to move to raping me and making it seem as though I am masterbating in my dreams. REALLY!? I feel all of it, and since they are nasty fucks they wanna make it seem like it’s me. It’s not. Rape is rape whether you show a visual simulation of me masturbating in my dreams or not.

And they still do the pedo shit.

I heard one of them say something about they are doing this ethically and not lethal which could be them just repeating stuff from a target individual group, but there is nothing ethical about what they are doing. They want me to know it’s a rape dream they want to rape. Otherwise it would be pretty simple to have me live my life think it was all sex dreams which I never had in my life until now.

I fucking hate these entities. God said we suppose to forgive these entities are just sick. Please someone put them out of their misery.

I’m tired of talking about astral rape. I’m tired of getting raped. Them replaying traumas in my mind. Pedo 💩🤢🤢🤢🤢. Incest 🤢🤢🤢. Physical pain. Like over it. This is how I am suppose to start my day?

I just told my best friend that I really hate rapist. And that since my rape over the last 4 years I wake up to being raped by some entity every other morning if not through out the day. And it sucks.

There has been no progression in my case really. Nothing. Just a stand still.

East River NYC: Entity in the East River: How I see Entities

So I see entities a number of different ways. One way is in a dream state, the other is vision, which is very similar to recalling in the imagination, but forced in the mind. The next is if they are feeling BOLD it would be considered a hallucination or an apparition. So actually seeing an outline of these Entities just randomly in my living room or bedroom. As a side note they tend to stay in the same thing places. They don’t move a that much unless attached or seen.

Most often I see their watery outline. Or I see a smoke like line move through space. Or sparkles if I am looking it’s way randomly.

Most attribute sparkles to Angels and I have not found this to be the case. I have found this to be entities of whatever sort, connecting to or getting closer to you. That’s how they move. If you see a sparkle I think it’s an entity getting closer to you.

Now another way I see them is through what I call patterning. It’s difficult to explain because I’m still kinda understanding it. But against pattern be it in nature or in this city skyline I can see them as well.

The most recent occurrence would be a perfect example. So I take a cab home usually after taking care of my godson. The Uber goes up the FDR on the East Side of Manhattan. For a couple of weeks I have seen entities “patterned” against the LARGE skyline of Brooklyn but found it to be Queens later. I explain my experience HERE.

Basically I saw the entities face against the sky line and the a blue light dropped out of the sky. It was SUPER ODD! And even the voice/ entity that harassed me said “OH SHIT!” when I saw it. They are dramatic so I take that aspect with a grain of salt. But they looked similar to the entities that where harassing me. I calmly observed. Some nights I saw them in THE SAME AREA, which is where the Pepsi sign is in Queens. Some nights I didn’t but mostly I did.

Now I said since I give no fucks nowadays that I was going to go over there and see what’s going on energetically. And then you know what happened today? Lol they moved to Brooklyn. Lol so I saw the pattering against the night skyline in lower part of the East River.

Are they scared of me going over there? Why move? They act buck wild most days.

I’m not going to chase these demonic alien bobble spiders heads all over NYC but they can kindly get the fuck up out my city and my life.

If anyone does energy work or matrix work definitely check the East River or edges of NYC. HUGE entities over there.

Imma snitch fuck em. 🖕🏽

Update: It near Grand Ferry Park in Brooklyn.

New Age Healing Trap

So over the last few months I have been to healers. And I was REALLY HOPING they could help me with my situation. I mean they can see the astral or matrix and beyond what I can see remotely.

See I see the astral right in front of me. I can see it physically in the 3D world on people. Not remotely or long distance. I see the astral all around me. Connected to people, places (building/parks) and thing (cars, things in home etc). So I don’t know how it works for someone who can remotely view.

However I need help. and while I want to wait on God, the nature/subject of my spiritual attacks and the pain, makes me feel like I have to try everything in my my means to make it stop.

I have an alien looking demon octopus spider thing that is “spiritually” or better “psychically” attacking new through the astral/matrix both mentally (non stop fucking talking) , emotionally (instilling false emotions) and physically (migraines, sparks of lights and shadows, back pain etc). Now this thing calls me a “child molester” all day. And will even describe the molestation of kids in my life in some way. After it describes it or says something it will then go on to molest/rape me! And I’m not a fucking child molester and it’s gross 🤢🤢🤢🤢 and no one wants to hear about no kids stuff. It’s so terrible.

One of my “love and light” new age light worker friends went so far as to say “maybe I was in a past life”, like fuck OUT OF HERE! So she fashions herself as Skemet or Isis reincarnated, but I’m a child molester? She (like many others) had them call her one too, just not as much as I have. Does she think SHE was a child molester? Then she said it must be a generational curse from my bloodline.

Imma need y’all new Agers to puck a story and stick to it.

I know that I think child molesters are the worse thing in the world. And my best friend has actually worked with me on having some compassion for them because many were molested too and they are probably suffering spiritually because of these mast bobble head alien demon fucks. And I think because it is a childhood fear and I want to protect children (I said this since I was a child), it’s easy to attack me saying I’m the very opposite of who I know myself to be. And I think because of this attack the need to spectate myself from someone like that it is easy to lack compassion for them because I am being attacked.

Think about it. Someone who is not gay, the alien demon calling them gay or homosexual, and then because they are being attacked they over compensate by having hatred towards gay people. Either taking it to the extent they actually hate or harm a gay person.

Granted child molesters are 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢. But they are sick. I’m not sure if they can be reformed but I can still have compassion for them as possible victims while still hating their actions.

I aim my hatred correctly. These demon alien things are fucked up and gross rapists!

With THAT BEING SAID!

I went to healers in desperation. I figured they know more than I about this dark side. Light workers kept calling me “of the dark” when I would beg for information on my situation. I could not understand why I was of the dark when most of my life has been to serve people of my community I gave over 15 years of service. Try to find the flow of God, to make my God and my parents proud of me since I was a fuck up in my teen years. And now I’m just a schizophrenic loser who sleeps all day because I can deal with the pain of entity attacks or listening to these rambling demon aliens idiots all day.

So you gave these healers my money. Hoping for healing or a reasonable reason this was happening. A magician told me that my spirit was a truth teller taking night classes in hell to get over fear. Oooooookay. The that my friend paid for said that I was in a room full that looked like a ball from the 29s dimly lit and a Chimera came in and said he was going to protect me (my sciatica felt ok for a day before coming back).

The latest that I paid for said I had a spider on my back and removed it. My sciatica help so much better and I felt lighter walking, however the migraines came back so my guess is that the spider just moved to the top of my head at that time.

The latest healer said that the “male part of my spirit” feels hopeless and that no one can save him and that anything she does will not work. 🤔🙄 Then she offered me to talk to her husband who does this work and that it will be “life changing”. Soon as I stopped talking to her after a week the sciatic came back.

Anything I do is to get rid of these nasty entities that are attacking my mind and body. My life.

I feel so alone now. That last healer was my final dig at trying to get help. To maybe someone understanding me. I really don’t have money to waste like that. If the healer can not permanently remove an entity then they are not healing. I’m tired of excuses. And I have done a lot of work to aid this process.

And I am suppose to wait on the grace of God while these demons rape me? It doesn’t make sense. I’m suppose to have a relationship with God when I do t feel like God is here? Isn’t that a little crazy? Like how? When there is prof he is not here with me? How many times must I repent? Account?

I want my mind and body back. Simple. I want these nasty demons removed and protection. That’s it. Seriously these demons are HEAVY. They have weight energetically. It’s not easy or fun.

Ever have a day where you are walking through your normal routine and it just feels hard to walk or like you walking through water or lag? That’s what most days feel like for me.

I know a lot of people are learning. But I don’t think I should be giving so much money for people who are learning about this shit. And they should have advanced people they trust to refer you to. Just over this bullshit. If I was a healer my main concern is protecting our people and giving knowledge as to what is happening to us. Donation passed. Seriously if any of these healers got rid of these nasty fuckers I would be more than generous. Guess I gotta really go at this alone, God is not here, Jesus isn’t here, these healers care about the coins, and I am over it.

Astral Spiders: And their web of lies.

🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢

What I see mostly NOW is astral spiders.

Unlike before where I saw developed trolls and reptilian looking beings.

These astral spiders are also like an octopus 🐙. Like a big main head, then these legs that can do many things.

This is just a quick drawing how I have seen them. I have seen 3 max at one time one on my left one on my right and one that looked female and shot out my perception when I awoke to seeing them. The the one on my left proceeded to take a straw that came out of their mouth and spewed “black energy” into my eyes so I could not see them as clearly any more. I could still see them moving around just not clear.

This attachment to my eyes allows them to show me dreams, and visions. Usually sick gross visions.

They are a hive mind and will often repeat things I am doing or thinking or feeling to the others. they have come to understand my emotions pretty well even the silent ones. They will also lie about my emotions trying to manipulate them and make me think a certain way.

BUT I KNOW MYSELF VERY WELL!!!

Fuck em!

They seem to attach to the nervous system.

Brain, Gut, genitals seem to be the easiest. They don’t seem to attach to the heart very often but occasionally.

The healer I paid to help me with my situation, while I thought she healed my sciatica caused by the astral spiders she seemed to have maybe moved them. They either attach to my lower spine/butt area ( severe sciatica) or to my skull/brain (SEVERE MIGRAINES). When the are attached to my spine no migraine, when they are attached to my brain no sciatica. Coincidence? I think not.

There are other cartoony looking looney toons in the mix but the main players right now are these spiders.

My guess is that the work for reptilian (whatever hellish hierarchy of demonic aliens they are), or bottom feeders.

Either way they hurt like crazy. My body hurts so much for so long because of them I actually for what it feels like to be ok. Needless and pointless pain. And I am wasting money going to the doctors for them to say nothing is wrong with me. They will give me a pill anyway. So like the schizophrenic meds don’t work.

They gave me high blood pressure meds, but my guess is that that when these demons mesh with your body, with your cells, possessing your skin, flesh, organs your nervous system, to obtain whatever the fuck it is they are trying to obtain…… it naturally raises your blood pressure. And then even MORE if they are trying manipulate your emotions and mentality to get you worked up. They also rape, just like the reptilians but maybe not as much.

I call the one I have seen talking to me “Baby Ghost” 👻 because their large heads kind of looks like Casper. Lol yea I hate them though. I’ve spent so much money trying to get rid of them. I would give the healer all I had if she was able to get rid of these things, but I tested her for 4+ sessions and I did not see much result or anything that was able to be maintained past my interaction with her. So it’s kind of pointless. Just a money suck …… for me anyway.

The healer said she got attacked by astral spiders before. And she does not like spiders at all, and going into my session she had to overcome her fear. To be honest it was martyring herself in a way.

This guy I watch called Detox Dude on YouTube said essentially if your healer is getting attacked then you need a new healer. A healer should not be making you feel like they are being harmed by your presence.

I mean I can see not remotely but in the physical 3D world things attached to people and I can assess their symptoms to astral attachments. I could also come up with a story as to WHY. But I didn’t go to a healer for a story I go to them for removal and that is what I keep getting from them. Story time. Not removal.

Not sure what to do anymore.

I just document this experience in hopes others don’t feel alone. So I don’t feel alone too.