So an an observation that has been for a while but I wasn’t sure if I could call it this was Narcolepsy.
Now I’m not saying everyone with Narcolepsy is demonically oppressed or anything.
At first I thought some of it had to do with my medication.
But after long observation and double checking my situations, even when I wasn’t on meds. I would have to say this is definitely Entity related.
Most times I won’t fight it. And I never mad a big deal out of it because most of the time I would rather sleep than deal another day with these demons.
However the first time I noticed the “narcoleptic” aspect of this schizophrenic demonic experience is when I was working with a healer. And we would write long emails back and forth.
And the entities did not want me talking to her, for whatever reason. So I was in the middle of an email fully awake and rested and they made me so tired right in the middle of the email that I had to lay down. This happened once more before I was able to finish the email. AN EMAIL YALL!
Passing me out and taking away my sovereignty for a fucking email!
Now the flip side to this same coin of making me fall asleep whenever is also waking me up when ever. So I RARELY unless I am super tired AND took anxiety meds will I sleep straight through a night like I use to.
So I have broken sleep. Waking up two or more times a night and a bunch of REM cycles. Never going into deep healing sleep.
This is what actually got me obsessed with taking Benadryl. I was either up because of the voices or passing out for short periods of time so they can play DreamWorld in my consciousness. I thought they were trying to keep me from deep sleep for a reason and I desperately wanted to just feel rested. So I ODed on Benadryl/Unisome a couple of times trying to get to deep continuous sleep.
A couple of times now more recently which moved me to write this post was that anytime I study the Bible, or listen to people who came out of the new age testify, I have been getting zonked out by the Entities.
So a lot of it has been trying to block me from spirituality it seems in some way. At least for me. Anytime I’m doing something spiritual, email to a healers, church, listening to testimonies online, they will just zonk me out. And I honestly don’t fight it. I fight a LOT of things in this experience, but sleep lower on the list.
It’s not just about the sleep. It’s about not having control over my mind and body. I can’t sleep when I want or how long I want, I can’t stay up when I want. Like I have no control of when these sensations come over my body. It’s just like the pain feelings I feel in my leg or migraines that I KNOW is the entities because I have felt them go away when I mention them (but then come back).
It’s like whatever is causing this pain or feeling or sensation is a scared little etheric animal that doesn’t want to get found out and any time I shed light on it with my thoughts it’s swims away, but then comes back when I’m not thinking about what a piece of shit it is.
That’s how they work. Mental (loud voices or suggested “subconscious thought”), Emotional (a feeling that is rationalized by a thought (mental) or vice versa), Physical (pain, sensations, exasperated medical conditions, fatigue etc).
So like for instance they can make you feel love, love for them ….. YUP. And if you want to be a fucking idiot proceed. But nah! I had maybe 3 new agers have the NERVE to tell me I am in love with these entities, are 👏 you 👏 fucking 👏 kidding me?! 👏👏And these are the same New Age assholes that tell you to “love and light” your enemy and the darkness and all this shit WHICH I did in the beginning out of pure desperation to stop being raped by them. I rationalized with them! I told them that we could work together for good! Anything else other that raping me all day and showing me visions of child abuse and incest stuff.
But IN LOVE nah! I don’t know where these people were getting their information from but it’s a lie and they are really fucked up.
I am really going off topic here.
I guess my main thing is just not feeling like I have control over my body. Like are these entities walking my body outside and in front of traffic. No. But they are passing me out, waking me up, causing pain and suffering, that redirects what I would normally do. So just like feeling pain in my head or leg every time I’m about to go outside, again trying to keep me from doing something.
Or, passing me out so I can’t write an email, or reading books ahead of me and scrambling the words so I can’t read fast and it frustrates me so I stop. Making my legs hurt so I can’t take long walks like I use to and lose weight. Or causing a migraine that makes it difficult to even complete tasks.
Not having full control over my body is not something I am use to. Like regular I stubbed my toe pain ok, but like this shit they are causing to prevent me from doing anything but take a piss I am over it.
I honestly don’t understand why God won’t just wipe these Demons out! Why allow them to have any privilege of authority to a body? Or a mind? And convince people to do bad things? It really doesn’t make sense to me.
I gave my life to God and it’s like God is saying NOPE. If I would have believe these demons were God, like they said they were, my suicide attempts would have been successful.
This is all really fucked up. And I see all these other people getting forgiven and saved from these demons. But not me.
It’s like SUPER depressing.