I have written a few posts about sleep cycles, dreaming and the relation to my experience.
Brain waves, sleep cycles, horome release, dream quality…. All super important.
Other than falling down the rabbit hole….. Each time I try to identify the beginning of this experience with this Entity I realize I was in the rabbit hole much longer than I thought.
I mean, I had a shadow dream here…. Or felt someone sucking air out my chest, or hearing spirits here or there, “prophetic” dreams….. Thinking I had telepathy with my ex. All kinds of “spiritual” experiences if you will. Things I now associate with this Entity. And I could be wrong in division of labor. Either way it doesn’t matter.
HEALING has been my major focus. I rant, bitch and rave on this blog. But believe me with the little bit of brain I am left with I search for ways, paths, methods, information to heal, to be better …. To get better.
One thing I noticed for me was sleep. This why I was trying to understand the different state of sleep and brain waves. I felt I was being kept from sleep…. Because I was always awakened in the middle of the night or not allowed long sleep durations. 1-2 hour max intervals.
I researched the body needs that last few hours of a 6-8 hour sleep cycle to release important hormones to the body.
So when I realized that I was being kept from this…. I questioned.
I recently read an article in VICE magazine that was dedicated to people who take MDMA. Apparently the experience these brain zaps or electrical zaps that hurt. I am currently not taking any drugs other than Zquil and advil for headaches. I have smoked weed, taken shrooms like twice, X once, molly once …. Some coke as a kid. Nothing super serious over my 15+ years of adulting.
Either way point is…. I also experienced these electrocuting zaps in my head (an vag) that accompanied the voice/ Entity …. Mostly as I tried to go to sleep or wake up. So the article suggested repairing the brain with Essential Amino Acids found in salmon, eggs and stuff which helps with boosting serotonin.
I think this is why my I had a natural inclination to just sleep A LOT once I gave up. I gave up in the sense of trying to act like everything was OK. I am not OK. And I don’t know when I will be OK. But I am trying every approach in hopes something works.
Sleep is healing…. It helps with my mood. I can’t run on 4 hours of sleep like use to and that’s OK. I would like to require less than 16 hours but hey….. Baby steps.
So I haven’t tried yet but I have this supplement called L-Ornithine which is suppose to help with sleep and is an amino acid.
I am gonna see if it helps with anything.
But I am not sure if this will directly help with the Entity. I mean my mood is blah. Like I’m still me…. But doing none me things to cope with the Entity. So its a strange place to be in. Its like I personally don’t feel like much is wrong with me (other than needing to eat right and be more social like I use to) other than coping with the Entity…. The voice and what happens to my body in its presence.
Either way I will update on any advancements with the supplement.