Morning Spiritual/Astral Rape

I woke up this morning being astrally raped. The way I know it’s not my subconscious mind is that these being take over my dream state and I made such a big fuss about the raping me in my waking and dream life that they have tried to move to raping me and making it seem as though I am master STI g in my dreams. REALLY!? I feel all of it, and since they are nasty fucks they wanna make it seem like it’s me. It’s not. Rape is rape whether you show a visual simulation of me masturbating in my dreams or not.

And they still do the pedo shit.

I heard one of them say something about they are doing this ethically and not lethal which could be them just repeating stuff from a target individual group, but there is nothing ethical about what they are doing. They want me to know it’s a rape dream they want to rape. Otherwise it would be pretty simple to have me live my life think it was all sex dreams which I never had in my life until now.

I fucking hate these entities. God said we suppose to forgive these entities are just sick. Please someone put them out of their misery.

I’m tired of talking about astral rape. I’m tired of getting raped. Them replaying traumas in my mind. Pedo 💩🤢🤢🤢🤢. Physical pain. Like over it. This is how I am suppose to start my day?

I just told my best friend that I really hate rapist. And that since my rape over the last 4 years I wake up to being raped by some entity every other morning if not through out the day. And it sucks.

There has been no progression in my case really. Nothing. Just a stand still.

East River NYC: Entity in the East River: How I see Entities

So I see entities a number of different ways. One way is in a dream state, the other is vision, which is very similar to recalling in the imagination, but forced in the mind. The next is if they are feeling BOLD it would be considered a hallucination or an apparition. So actually seeing an outline of these Entities just randomly in my living room or bedroom. As a side note they tend to stay in the same thing places. They don’t move a that much unless attached or seen.

Most often I see their watery outline. Or I see a smoke like line move through space. Or sparkles if I am looking it’s way randomly.

Most attribute sparkles to Angels and I have not found this to be the case. I have found this to be entities of whatever sort, connecting to or getting closer to you. That’s how they move. If you see a sparkle I think it’s an entity getting closer to you.

Now another way I see them is through what I call patterning. It’s difficult to explain because I’m still kinda understanding it. But against pattern be it in nature or in this city skyline I can see them as well.

The most recent occurrence would be a perfect example. So I take a cab home usually after taking care of my godson. The Uber goes up the FDR on the East Side of Manhattan. For a couple of weeks I have seen entities “patterned” against the LARGE skyline of Brooklyn but found it to be Queens later. I explain my experience HERE.

Basically I saw the entities face against the sky line and the a blue light dropped out of the sky. It was SUPER ODD! And even the voice/ entity that harassed me said “OH SHIT!” when I saw it. They are dramatic so I take that aspect with a grain of salt. But they looked similar to the entities that where harassing me. I calmly observed. Some nights I saw them in THE SAME AREA, which is where the Pepsi sign is in Queens. Some nights I didn’t but mostly I did.

Now I said since I no fucks nowadays that I was going to go over there and see what’s going on energetically. And then you know what happened today? Lol they moved to Brooklyn. Lol so I saw the pattering against the night skyline in lower part of the East River.

Are they scared of me going over there? Why move? They act buck wild most days.

I’m not going to chase these demonic alien bobble spiders heads all over NYC but they can kindly get the fuck up out my city and my life.

If anyone does energy work or matrix work definitely check the East River or edges of NYC. HUGE entities over there.

Imma snitch fuck em. 🖕🏽

New Age Healing Trap

So over the last few months I have been to healers. And I was REALLY HOPING they could help me with my situation. I mean they can see the astral or matrix and beyond what I can see remotely.

See I see the astral right in front of me. I can see it physically in the 3D world on people. Not remotely or long distance. I see the astral all around me. Connected to people, places (building/parks) and thing (cars, things in home etc). So I don’t know how it works for someone who can remotely view.

However I need help. and while I want to wait on God, the nature/subject of my spiritual attacks and the pain, makes me feel like I have to try everything in my my means to make it stop.

I have an alien looking demon octopus spider thing that is “spiritually” or better “psychically” attacking new through the astral/matrix both mentally (non stop fucking talking) , emotionally (instilling false emotions) and physically (migraines, sparks of lights and shadows, back pain etc). Now this thing calls me a “child molester” all day. And will even describe the molestation of kids in my life in some way. After it describes it or says something it will then go on to molest/rape me! And I’m not a fucking child molester and it’s gross 🤢🤢🤢🤢 and no one wants to hear about no kids stuff. It’s so terrible.

One of my “love and light” new age light worker friends went so far as to say “maybe I was in a past life”, like fuck OUT OF HERE! So she fashions herself as Skemet or Isis reincarnated, but I’m a child molester? She (like many others) had them call her one too, just not as much as I have. Does she think SHE was a child molester? Then she said it must be a generational curse from my bloodline.

Imma need y’all new Agers to puck a story and stick to it.

I know that I think child molesters are the worse thing in the world. And my best friend has actually worked with me on having some compassion for them because many were molested too and they are probably suffering spiritually because of these mast bobble head alien demon fucks. And I think because it is a childhood fear and I want to protect children (I said this since I was a child), it’s easy to attack me saying I’m the very opposite of who I know myself to be. And I think because of this attack the need to spectate myself from someone like that it is easy to lack compassion for them because I am being attacked.

Think about it. Someone who is not gay, the alien demon calling them gay or homosexual, and then because they are being attacked they over compensate by having hatred towards gay people. Either taking it to the extent they actually hate or harm a gay person.

Granted child molesters are 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢. But they are sick. I’m not sure if they can be reformed but I can still have compassion for them as possible victims while still hating their actions.

I aim my hatred correctly. These demon alien things are fucked up and gross rapists!

With THAT BEING SAID!

I went to healers in desperation. I figured they know more than I about this dark side. Light workers kept calling me “of the dark” when I would beg for information on my situation. I could not understand why I was of the dark when most of my life has been to serve people of my community I gave over 15 years of service. Try to find the flow of God, to make my God and my parents proud of me since I was a fuck up in my teen years. And now I’m just a schizophrenic loser who sleeps all day because I can deal with the pain of entity attacks or listening to these rambling demon aliens idiots all day.

So you gave these healers my money. Hoping for healing or a reasonable reason this was happening. A magician told me that my spirit was a truth teller taking night classes in hell to get over fear. Oooooookay. The that my friend paid for said that I was in a room full that looked like a ball from the 29s dimly lit and a Chimera came in and said he was going to protect me (my sciatica felt ok for a day before coming back).

The latest that I paid for said I had a spider on my back and removed it. My sciatica help so much better and I felt lighter walking, however the migraines came back so my guess is that the spider just moved to the top of my head at that time.

The latest healer said that the “male part of my spirit” feels hopeless and that no one can save him and that anything she does will not work. 🤔🙄 Then she offered me to talk to her husband who does this work and that it will be “life changing”. Soon as I stopped talking to her after a week the sciatic came back.

Anything I do is to get rid of these nasty entities that are attacking my mind and body. My life.

I feel so alone now. That last healer was my final dig at trying to get help. To maybe someone understanding me. I really don’t have money to waste like that. If the healer can not permanently remove an entity then they are not healing. I’m tired of excuses. And I have done a lot of work to aid this process.

And I am suppose to wait on the grace of God while these demons rape me? It doesn’t make sense. I’m suppose to have a relationship with God when I do t feel like God is here? Isn’t that a little crazy? Like how? When there is prof he is not here with me? How many times must I repent? Account?

I want my mind and body back. Simple. I want these nasty demons removed and protection. That’s it. Seriously these demons are HEAVY. They have weight energetically. It’s not easy or fun.

Ever have a day where you are walking through your normal routine and it just feels hard to walk or like you walking through water or lag? That’s what most days feel like for me.

I know a lot of people are learning. But I don’t think I should be giving so much money for people who are learning about this shit. And they should have advanced people they trust to refer you to. Just over this bullshit. If I was a healer my main concern is protecting our people and giving knowledge as to what is happening to us. Donation passed. Seriously if any of these healers got rid of these nasty fuckers I would be more than generous. Guess I gotta really go at this alone, God is not here, Jesus isn’t here, these healers care about the coins, and I am over it.

Astral Spiders: And their web of lies.

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What I see mostly NOW is astral spiders.

Unlike before where I saw developed trolls and reptilian looking beings.

These astral spiders are also like an octopus 🐙. Like a big main head, then these legs that can do many things.

This is just a quick drawing how I have seen them. I have seen 3 max at one time one on my left one on my right and one that looked female and shot out my perception when I awoke to seeing them. The the one on my left proceeded to take a straw that came out of their mouth and spewed “black energy” into my eyes so I could not see them as clearly any more. I could still see them moving around just not clear.

This attachment to my eyes allows them to show me dreams, and visions. Usually sick gross visions.

They are a hive mind and will often repeat things I am doing or thinking or feeling to the others. they have come to understand my emotions pretty well even the silent ones. They will also lie about my emotions trying to manipulate them and make me think a certain way.

BUT I KNOW MYSELF VERY WELL!!!

Fuck em!

They seem to attach to the nervous system.

Brain, Gut, genitals seem to be the easiest. They don’t seem to attach to the heart very often but occasionally.

The healer I paid to help me with my situation, while I thought she healed my sciatica caused by the astral spiders she seemed to have maybe moved them. They either attach to my lower spine/butt area ( severe sciatica) or to my skull/brain (SEVERE MIGRAINES). When the are attached to my spine no migraine, when they are attached to my brain no sciatica. Coincidence? I think not.

There are other cartoony looking looney toons in the mix but the main players right now are these spiders.

My guess is that the work for reptilian (whatever hellish hierarchy of demonic aliens they are), or bottom feeders.

Either way they hurt like crazy. My body hurts so much for so long because of them I actually for what it feels like to be ok. Needless and pointless pain. And I am wasting money going to the doctors for them to say nothing is wrong with me. They will give me a pill anyway. So like the schizophrenic meds don’t work.

They gave me high blood pressure meds, but my guess is that that when these demons mesh with your body, with your cells, possessing your skin, flesh, organs your nervous system, to obtain whatever the fuck it is they are trying to obtain…… it naturally raises your blood pressure. And then even MORE if they are trying manipulate your emotions and mentality to get you worked up. They also rape, just like the reptilians but maybe not as much.

I call the one I have seen talking to me “Baby Ghost” 👻 because their large heads kind of looks like Casper. Lol yea I hate them though. I’ve spent so much money trying to get rid of them. I would give the healer all I had if she was able to get rid of these things, but I tested her for 4+ sessions and I did not see much result or anything that was able to be maintained past my interaction with her. So it’s kind of pointless. Just a money suck …… for me anyway.

The healer said she got attacked by astral spiders before. And she does not like spiders at all, and going into my session she had to overcome her fear. To be honest it was martyring herself in a way.

This guy I watch called Detox Dude on YouTube said essentially if your healer is getting attacked then you need a new healer. A healer should not be making you feel like they are being harmed by your presence.

I mean I can see not remotely but in the physical 3D world things attached to people and I can assess their symptoms to astral attachments. I could also come up with a story as to WHY. But I didn’t go to a healer for a story I go to them for removal and that is what I keep getting from them. Story time. Not removal.

Not sure what to do anymore.

I just document this experience in hopes others don’t feel alone. So I don’t feel alone too.

Smothering the Fire 🔥

Dampening of natural god given gifts for inorganic supernatural spiritual phenomenon.

You always had gifts. It is not realized during a “spiritual awakening” it is exchanged for a supernatural experience. And look at the word supernatural. It MEANS it’s not natural it does not occur with in the natural order of things.

I reread an old blog entry where I said I felt like my “spiritual gifts” where taken away. I felt like I descended not ascended. Like it’s difficult to do art when I literally have some Demonic Alien Entity thing on my shoulder that won’t shut the fuck up. It has been difficult to connect with people because of isolation and if I do it’s difficult to do solely from the depths of my heart because I’m constantly distracted because Demonic Alien thing won’t shut the fuck up.

I’ve always been a Logic Intuitive. So I can genuinely say my Intuition is based off of logic, reason, algorithms from information I have gathered over the years. And not a need to control the future but to improve the way I or others make decision based on previous information and hopefully truthful information.

An example would be, my old roommate was thinking about buying a car to “build his credit” 🙄. I was simply talking about how awesome my friends hybrid car was because we drove maybe 4 states away on just $30 of gas. I have no idea if that is normal or not. Anyways as he moved towards buying a car I actually told him I think it’s a bad idea. Cars depreciate and it just seemed like a lot of money. To spend on in the city only to drive on the weekends. He didn’t listen and bought an extremely expensive car. Now we lived in front of a bus stop so he had to park his new car a couple of blocks away. The cars mirror got knocked off by someone. We were fighting and I almost felt like he thought it was me. He also would drive drunk and scraped up the whole side of the car and I begged him to stop driving intoxicated. So he didn’t even have the car for a year, fucked it all types of ways up and I think started defaulting on payments which did the opposite of what he wanted. It wasn’t the best decision financially or for his lifestyle. But Logically and intuitively I told him, not the best decision.

I mean that’s an OKAY example. Maybe not the best but it came to mind.

I mean I also use to read tarot cards. And even my intuition was about storytelling. While these instances were maybe more pulled out of the air than say Logical Intuition, they really weren’t because there was an inquire (question) and a tool and it was my job to just interpret the tool.

I have had many tarot readers not read my cards right. But in the moment for the inquirer it’s comforting.

Now more than ever I NEED real answers and solutions as to why I have this entity attached and how to get rid of it. Not just some 5 card spread about my (fake ass) twin flame lame love story.

A natural gift is talent. It’s ability to take emotional cues, it’s innovation, the ability to sooth or inspire others. I think so many of the Occult, New Ager and even some Christians want super powers. Like they want to be the Last AirBender or a Power Ranger. (Don’t get me wrong I want them too, but what are you collaborating with? And do you REALLY have the discernment to KNOW for sure the difference?)

Idk. I personally found a lot of these supernatural feelings, visions, voices, prophecies, experiences have been Demonic Entities. Not a “spiritual awakening” or ascension or gifts. Idk again I am only limited to my perspective of pure constant spiritual torture.

What is my spiritual “gift” seeing demons? Lol like …………. can I return it?

And seeing these demons have kept me from my friends, career, being healthy, my natural gifts, things I enjoy. Possibly the ability to take care of my family or build my own. LIFE! It’s taken over my life……

Maybe it’s just an assumption but I wouldn’t think a “gift” is not suppose to upheave your whole life and leave you in the wilderness to figure shit out yourself. Cut off the possibility of advancing in life because demonic aliens want to be fucking sadistic pedo rapist.

Yea and it started with, “aww I saw a sparkle that means an angel is with me” NOPE! Mine were positive, love and light too at first and that script got FLIPPED! So I don’t trust any of them, even though I can see them.

They want to tell the future, but I think they create the future with suggestions. To be honest. Even as someone who is tortured I can see how they harm or kill someone.

I mean they want to run every thought aspect of my life. Be it smoking, eating, pooping, sleeping, waking up, being false positive or negative thought. A false positive (to me in these situations are fake positivity only to lead up to a negative which is devastating). So an example would be the Demonic Alien voices say something like “you look pretty today……” this would only be to further humiliate me later when I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror they will say “oh never mind you’re ugly”. Now I have no problem looking at my flaws and maybe correcting them in a balanced way. If my eyebrows are looking a little bushy pluck them. But these Demonic Entities are black and white. Good only to be evil. Either or. They need to make you feel special so they can devastate you. There is no balance with them.

This is not a spiritual gift.

Narcolepsy: Church

So was watching my church online like I do every Sunday (or Monday depending).

And all of a sudden the Entities knocked me out. Now the Entity woke me up at 3am and then at 12pm knocked me out mid sermon.

The Entities kept calling my pastor gay. Which I wouldn’t care if he was, but he’s not. And the Entities were trying to twist the word and Say Jesus worship is Satan worship. Which is another thing running around in the New Age/ Occult arena.

So it took me a while to figure out WHY these Entities were pushing me into Christianity in the beginning. In the beginning I believed in God above all things and Jesus as a teacher sent by God to teach us how to be better humans. However that is what the commandments are for. I did not believe that Jesus was ONLY PATH (new agey) and that he was God embodied to die for our sins, not so we can sin, but so we can be redeemed.

So I was an easy target for my ignorance.

The reason that these entities played God was so they could then disprove or then make it seem that there was no God or to make me lose faith in the feeling of abandonment as they torture me for the last 4 years.

It’s a simple bait and switch. My “spiritual journey” was at its essence trying to become closer to God and understand truth in this world of lies. And then my weird supernatural experience (caused by Entities /Demons) crossed with the crazy new age stuff I found online (which people think is spiritual) totally knocked me off my feet. And things got really confusing.

These demons are really out here trying to lure people further and further from God. To the point they are pretending to be God.

They will say they are the Voice of God or Jesus and then rape you energetically, torture you, take over your mind to the point you don’t know what is what, show you illusions so you keep running after something that essentially does not exist, because we want proof of something beyond us. Then make you feel as if God abandoned you and try to convince you there is no God.

And I’m like OK so the Demonic Entities that are TALKING TO ME, are trying to convince ME there is NO GOD. Lol how much sense does that make?

I mean the first fuck up was that they made was revealed themselves to me all. That was number one. And then THEY, these astral matrix-y demonic (acting) entities, are going to try to convince ME something doesn’t exist when in fact their mere existence was unfathomable in the first place?

It’s easy to get stuck in our immediate situation with these demonic entities. To think that is all there is. To constantly try to figure it out and blame it on new agey past life’s, karma, twin flames, not having our occult astral shields up, not doing enough witchy baths, government following you cause you went to a protest, not being of love and light…. some bs. Yea NO. And it’s easy to get into these concepts, when trying to figure out WHY AM I BEING ATTACK?!

I will be honest with you ANYONE can be attack. Sinner, the righteous, Good, bad and in between. What only truly furthers our attacks is IGNORANCE.

The lack of truth. Some of which we may never figure out and need to come to peace with that. We aren’t meant to know all the secrets of the universe lol because then that would make us God. And we are not God or Gods as much as we would like ourselves to be.

So be at peace with not knowing everything. Enough was revealed to us to know what these things are and that they attack who ever. Even Jesus in the desert for 40 days, and he is Holy!! That is how bold these demons are, they attacked the son of God, in hopes he would weaken.

So why not us?

Or a lot of us…… not all.

So know this. All of these theories. While they can help in the absence of faith to have something to cling to…… they can be VERY detrimental in the fact they can be skewed, twisted, ever evolving to get us to the point there is no God. The word of God is unmoving (well for the most part, minus slavery and stuff, BUT it says in the Bible that it must not be altered and those who did so at any point in time will face severe consequences).

You know what’s funny, is that I actually think a lot of the technologies that Target Individuals talk about exist in some fashion. I guess my point is that more likely they are NOT using it on you. Bob next door does not have DARPA weapons aimed at you and follow you everywhere you go.

But the devil knows how to get you worked up enough to think so. If you cant see through the lies then we are definitely doomed.

Man all I wanted to do is watch a sermon this morning. And I’m out here on my internet soap box.

False Teachings: Kundalini, False “Awakenings”, Ascension… The New Age 🙄

So this was a comment on a video I was watching. I can attest to the false and misleading teachings.

Again I slipped into New Age trying to find God for me. And trying to figure out why I was having “supernatural” experiences, And just found some wacky stuff. But at the heart of it there was some…… idk truth to the matter but it is only meant to suck you in even deeper.

So while I might not see the “serpent going up my back” I have seen snakes in the “astral” and I have seen these other things placed over the forehead that represents the 3rd eye.

One time I was walking down the street, neck deep in the thick of this experience. And a old school (but young) psychic woman stopped me on the street. She said she had something to tell me. And I went to her apartment. She said I had a “tear in my aura”, 🤯🙄🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️ (okie dokie) she pulled some cards and asked me what do I think the blindfold represents. For some reason I said protection (and I know how to read tarot unfortunately). In that moment the blindfold for me meant protection and keeping us from seeing certain things.

I don’t know if God removed “the veils” from my eyes, but the way the Entities try to cover them is COMPLETELY different than the way I have lived my life over the last 30 summin years. Like I can actually see a black patch in front of my eyes. It’s subtle enough to not completely ruin my physical vision. But still there. This black patch (or attachment) creates visions illusions dreams. And when they remove them when they feel like it, I can see them (be it real astral or an illusion) something is there and or something put something there. So this aspect developed in 2017 a year after hearing the voices. Seeing the entities would scare anyone. Seeing Troll/Demon/ Reptilian, Alien heads Floating around, Praying Mantis, it’s uhhhh not fun. I mean some may think it’s fun but it gets old real quick. Especially once you realize you don’t really have much control over the experience.

I wasn’t even deep into yoga. Just went to two classes with my coworkers to have a “healthy lifestyle”. I’m not gonna lie I enjoyed the strengthening aspect of yoga and stretching areas that normally would not get attention. But honestly in my process of elimination I have no problem letting that go as well.

Like as much as people want to deny it SOMETHING IS UP and A LOT of people are feeling it one way or another.

I mean to me the 3rd Eye is a light receptor. That is my take. Super Natural or not, I don’t think anyone would see the “supernatural realms” if these entities were not in VERY close proximity. Like I saw sparkles when I was younger but that is an attack from a further range by an entity. But if the entity is close by (at least for me personally), you might see black shadows, actual entities, get pain in the body.

Entities as I keep reiterating in this blog , from my observations, are made up of light, light can apparently have consciousness and through their own consciousness they can create illusions with the light that they are. That is the best way I can describe it.

Some want to play with these realms and do you boo, but not me. At best I want to release myself. And that’s been my goal ever since this stuff started.

But it has been interesting putting together some of these concepts together. At least I have SOME understanding of my spiritual oppression.

Kitchen Witch 🌿🌸🌿

So my friend sent me a video of some New Age witchy ways to remove a curse. (Not you Tess)

Now I will be honest I LOVE witchy stuff. Herbs, crystals, oils, candles, incense, the craft, alters, learning about mythology, symbolic meanings, all that stuff I love it I think it’s pretty, it’s smells nice, i like learning about the history. I like the art.

Recently I threw away all my stuff. Tarot, crystals necklaces, books etc.

Understanding how these Entities work to a limited extent, this is WAY beyond an intention spell/prayer to arch angel Michael, salt baths and white light.

Honestly if I have guides, angels, ancestors, God, spirit animals, alien star seeds, on my side wouldn’t they be kicking this entities ass already? Wouldn’t they have prevented me from being psycho-spiritually raped everyday for 4 years? Which continues.

Why do I have to light a candle when I can speak directly to the”energy” which is a conscious entities and tell them to leave NOW. And they tell me “I’m not done yet!” Or “one more year” every year?

As I have said before something is not adding up in all of this. And I know a lot of it comes from my “perspective” of being tortured. But I did the work, I got out of fear, I stood up to these pieces of shit. I dropped all these New Age wrappings of excuses for entity torture, And they tell me “I’m not done yet!”.

Done doing what?

Because I’m not playing the game anymore. I’m not playing this twin flame game anymore, I’m not playing the targeted individual game where the government is monitoring me anymore. I’m not playing this matrix ascension game anymore.

Ascending to where?

I’m woke as fuck!

So woke I’m tired!

So what exactly are these entities getting out of this and masking it as some belief system?

I am so beyond this New Age shit.

And I am over this experience.

I’ve honestly have done almost all I can humanly do.

What’s interesting is that healing work or certain witchy things actually helped my friend, but not me. We would do the same things sometimes or even she would be so kind to gift me a healing session from the same healer in the past and they would not work for me or they might stop a migraine but not the full experience.

Other reiki healers would ask if I felt anything and I would say pressure on my skull and they would say “that is me” and it would hurt and nothing would come about it. You are working with “energy” but that energy is a conscious being which you have agreed to work with and collect money to do this “healing work” that did nothing for me be give me a fucking headache.

So again I’m not sure what’s going on EXACTLY, but I am ready to kick some ass.

You have no idea how gross this shit is. Seeing entities (smaller) attach to my genitals or to my breast and stimulate me randomly. Some deep in my gut making me sick, photos of them attached to my brain causing migraines, seeing them swim around in and out of my field. Little animal beings attacked to my eyes. It’s YUCK 🤢!!!!!! Like WTF!

I mean I really tried to rationalize all of this. I really don’t think I’m crazy, but I am having a crazy experience which most can not fully relate to and thus I am being seen as crazy.

But if it’s some pretty witchy, ascension shit that’s all gravy. Like fuck out of here.

And I said in a comment before. Like if this is just the chain of life. Like we eat plants (and animals) for sustenances, and then “spirits” entities, I don’t know, absorb our electromagnetic field energy to survive then OK, BUT whatever the FUCK THIS SICK SHIT mofo is, takes it to levels beyond fathomable with rape and torture and showing me child porn or saying I want to fuck my family members and then raping me. Like what the actual fuck?

All because I didn’t play the Twin Flame game and I won’t go into a hypnotic paranoid delusional state. Or accept their negative thoughts as my own? Because I know who the fuck I am and I know how I think and I know my intentions. I have been me all my life! And they are going to try to step in all of a sudden and tell me who I am and I am suppose to “surrender” to the process. Nah!

So honestly all these rituals are not gonna do it for me. I can set my intentions right now! I have with giving up everything! To show how serious I am. And now I am in a stand off with these Entities. I won’t play their game and now they got be physical to stop me from being me. To keep me in bed laid up with pain and fatigue.

Do you know they can wipe me out in a matter of seconds. Like one moment I can be fine and then the next they will make me so sleepy out of no where! Then wake me up an hour or two later. And any time I try to make progress in my life they create a pain in my body that feels like every cell is screaming. Like damn y’all I’m just trying to go to the grocery store and y’all gotta attach some bullshit that makes it painful to walk half a block?

So they want me home going to sleep and waking up to torture me when ever they want. This shit is hell! I am angry and I don’t deserve this shit! No one does if you think about it in the grand scheme of things!

I a specific prayer to remove these entities (which I cited in this blog) and you know what I got a FULL BLOWN ATTACK. I saw more entities enter my home in a a white mist and attach to the lining of my apartment. And large entity and maybe 30 smaller entities hovered over my bed and electrocuted me and then they all shot these “sparkles” into my stomach. My stomach started to rumble and felt like things were knocking around in my tummy and then immediately I had the WORSE period cycle ever.

They are going above and beyond to torture my body because I refuse to play their black magic mind games!

Like this shit has to stop!

I can’t trust the Voice of God now 😔

So there is a forum for schizophrenics that I am in and it is common for people to “hear the voice of God”. However, it usually comes with fear and persecution that has a negative impact on the individuals mental health or quality of life.

As I try to grow into the Word of God, and I listen to preachers (because it is difficult to read the Bible on my own with out it being twisted), I find so many on YouTube that call themselves “Prophets” and Preachers that hear the voice of God/Holy Spirit.

And I can’t help but question whether or not they are just having a “positive” experience with in “schizophrenia” or demonic oppression.

Calling yourself a prophet is pretty….. bold and presumptuous.

I mean I had a positive experience prior to schizophrenia thinking “my angels were with me”. I also had these Entities called themselves God or Angels on several occasions which would have been deemed positive and supernatural, but later turn south. And many pastors preach of a supernatural God.

But again, unfortunately, due to my experience i can’t help but be on guard. And wonder.

What makes them different than me? Other than the negative experience?

There are New Agers that have positive experiences with voices as well, and believe they are channeling different alien races or arch angels…… “spirit”.

So I am like ARE WE ALL BEING DOOPED?

Just being dooped in different ways?

To me this doesn’t mean that my belief in God is absent. It just means that I’m not sure that God just verbally talks to US. And I know in the Bible talks about God speaking to people. But usually that is very specific people.

I guess I’m into this idea of discipleship, understanding the word and applying it to my life as best as possible. Like a clean diet of God with out the hoopla.

But this supernatural stuff is really got me messed up.

I really don’t trust it, because it mimics many of the ways I slipped into New Age. And I am abused by entities to the point I can’t move some days. So how do I know it is MY GOD?

And I know there has to be better and more pure experiences than I have, my experiences can’t be the absolute, but it is just I’m really cautious and unsure who and what to trust spiritually.

Observations: Eyes Taken in the Astral

An observation that I have noticed is that many times I have had my “eyes taken”.

Often is feels like my eyes will go blurry and then a series of “visions” will come to mind.

For me this is something that the Entities/demons do. They do this especially to twist ideas and distract you or suggest you.

When this first started the Entities kept saying “my eyes are your eyes” and pretended to be someone and something other than the pathetic POS that they are. And then another one would scream “I hope she never has eyes!” They are absolutely insane and I can’t believe is my real life….. 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s much like when they create dreams. From what I saw in the “astral” if we want to call it that is that they place “black patches” attachments to the eyes and this causes you not to see the actual entities as well. However it also allows them to have control and through these “black energy patches”, for lack of a better word, they also feed visions to us/ me.

When you are working on your “third eye” and focusing on the center of your skull what you are actually doing is blinding yourself to submitting yourself to visions. This visions are created by Entities with etheric light energy. They ARE the light, they use the light to create an illusion. And by you not focusing on what is actually happening in front of your eyes you have submitted to an illusion. If you had a vision and then focused your eyes to what’s going on right in front of you you would see a COMPLETELY different world. It’s not all pretty. It is barren, and full of illusionist trying to get their rocks off.

They are liars. And they assault the mind, body and spirit.

I can’t tell you HOW many people both schiz and not, man or woman, have been sexually assaulted “spiritually” if we want to call it that. I would say Etherically.

Maybe most of them have not had theirs go on for as long as mine. But it has happened there is literally a METOO movement happening in the Ethers.

I know that my opinion will be an unpopular opinion but honestly you are not “activating your third eye” you are blurring your vision with your eyes closed and allowing entities to lie to you RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE!!!! In your eyes! Like they can be big or tiny tiny. And yes we have a pineal gland and maybe that has to do with light receptivity. But either way these Entities are full of 💩💩💩💩💩.

I have mentioned in this blog so many times that on MANY occasions I have looked past the illusion (or one of them). On one occasion I saw the image of a woman in my ” third eye” and something told me to look straight ahead and what I saw the woman then began a praying mantis. And soon as the praying mantis saw that I saw it, it jetted out of my field.

Why you scared?

How does the mantis know I am looking at it straight ahead?

Why are they lying to us?

So many questions!

But honestly I do t even want to write about this stuff anymore. But I feel the need to document it for anyone out there or for the next wave of people. Because the deception is REAL and we are looking like FUCKING IDIOTS!

What I am currently trying to do is strengthen my understanding and relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I know I am a sinner. And I can’t not get out of this hell matrix with out Jesus!

The New Age really got me! And I was lead there by the demons that hung around me, I would experience something “super natural” and google it and then some new age site had an explanation. But NO real solution other than “a bright white light around you” 🙄 So you say that the dark is attracted to my light, but then you tell me to rev up my light to repel them? OKie Dokie!! That makes sense! 🤪

Either way, these demons will lead you astray in what ever form! And you will end up in some occult bs with out even knowing. You were groomed since sin, by demons to end up where you are. Where I am sorry. And yet I still have to be accountable for my nativity.

So slowly they will give you these “super natural” experiences ……. grooming you. Making sure your belief is just right. That you are far enough from God to attack! And they will devour. And if your are lucky you will be saved. I have yet to be so lucky. And I am not sure why. But it is something I have to accept in the moment.

These demons what ALL of you. Touching your hands, genitals, I had one kiss me, 🤢 not to mention rape. Like I’m not making this shit up and it’s NOT my mind. I mean there is YouTube video after YouTube video of people saying they have had these experiences. And they DO NOT consider themselves schizophrenics.

Awakening is bullshit, Third eye bullshit, even the “astral” as normally explained …. bullshit, ascension to whatever dimension is bullshit. It is a lie, lie if people who have been lied to and spreading their lie and thinking they are a Guru because they had a DMT trip. Like this is soooo dangerous.

One dude on YouTube was talking about how he has sex in the astral! LOL are you that hard up bro? That you are fucking with astral spiders that are an illusion of some fantasy woman? Get your WHOLE life together! And he thinks he is a Guru of “astral travel”!

Astral travel is bullshit! You are just being given a waking dream by entities. Are being sucked into their ecosystem which is their being which comprised of smaller beings that all make up the worlds in which you think you are traveling in.

They make you feel by attaching to you. I once felt like I was being jerked around in a dream and as I woke up for like maybe 20 mins I still had 2 things attached to my back that were still buzzing. And I literally felt the suction of them releasing from my body.

I’m not going to say I know everything cause I don’t. But I did my research and I surveyed A LOT of people and this shit is BUUUUILLLLL💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩!

And we are gladly handing over our soul for apparent ” live and light” and our mission to save Earth! You wanna save earth? You want to “awaken” WAKE UP! Look right in front of you!!! Right in front of you! You are being lied to! But if you want to keep the illusion FINE!!

Shit is scary!! But you don’t want to save the Earth! You want to play fantasy game of “I’m an angel” or “I’m an alien” or ” I was Isis in a past life” simulation game by these matrix entities that is DEMONS! Old fashion ass DEMONS!

WAKE UP! For real this time!!!