When will the tears end? ๐Ÿ˜ญ

I was casually looking through my instagram. I was looking for a current photo where I had a ninja look going on. Then I looked at this photo and realized I had some of the same markings in my photos now that I had when I was a child.

Its like this flower portal thing. And I just cried because I don’t know why it’s here or why my life is being ruined because of it.

I was a child!

It had nothing to do with some past mistake I made that this demonic archon voice was trying to force me into suicide over.

This is so fucked up!

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Monster Logos โค


Not all but many of the “energy”, entities, aliens, archons whatever you want to call them have a … Logo of sorts. I would assume, since they seem to be a hivr mind ad they attach to a humans individuality they long for that same separation. Thus a representation …. A logo of themselves of sorts.

Either way….. Each being…. Yes is individual in a way or for the moment…. And they CAN tether to you to sustain it self itself in whatever form that truly is. 

Just as they tether they can disconnect…. But who wants to find a new victim to learn? 

No I have seen “energy” or Entities that DID NOT connect to me physically and did not force itself to stay in my field or my home. 

I have to keep reminding myself there is a good spiritual world. And just because I have been forced to see this side that doesn’t make me a bad person for trying to understand and not leaving it to prayer alone. The Entities often try to guilt me…. Saying I’m a bad christian or something like that…. Because I donyt leave this to prayer alone. Again, Me, God, Meds. 

One of my friends told me about a story where she was in s parade in Chile and she fainted and then a shaman help her friend carry her to a place and then the shaman blew smoke on her back and pulled out like a teddy bear smoke logo. This teddy bear was a teather from an entity attempting to attach or hide in her. But was removed. 

Just like I had logos #, ๐Ÿ‘ฝ, X, โค  of all kinda stuff on arms and body. I can see but I can not remove them.

If I look directly where I know there is an “energy field” portal, alien demon whatever…. It will spew something at me…. It will sparkle maybe black maybe white and then I will see a smaller “portal” near me or a logo on my skin or my third eye. 

When I take photos of my face…. It legit looks like a child scribbled on my forehead. Especially the 3rd. I don’t know how long they last, or if they wash off in a shower… Or what. 

But sorry we want our people to be spiritually OK they need to know this shit good or bad.if you are walking around with a naked lady in your arua masterbating then that’s fucked up. That’s what I saw in this one guys field…. And he knew what I was talking about. I never a full figure before. 

I have no interest in playing with these entities…. Or anyone else for that matter when it comes to this. I seek to be free of the bullshit that is not me. Like this is basic shit. 

Sun Lamp ๐ŸŒž

I’m legit thinking about limiting my electronic time and getting a sun lamp until its warm enough to go outside. 

I’m not depressed other that the fact I have endure the pain of this situation. And I already take vitamin D. My mood is only because of this experience other wise I’m pretty happy go lucky. 

saw some affordable ones so I might just ask for one as an early Xmas gift.

My friend who has also experienced this and has confirmed some things for me told me to look into making a DIY Earthing Grounding mat. I was so use to farming barefoot at my old job when I had the chance or being on the beach. Now I guess the best I can do is fake sunlight and fake earthing until I am able to purge these nasty entities.

The prayers I have been doing seem to only make me be attacked harder.

I know we are suppose to be on Gods side but…… The prayer is for protection from these things and to forgive them. But it doesn’t seem to be working soon after I feel sucked dry as if I’m about to die. 

So idk. The Tai Chi by Eric Pilgrem seems decent. But they just come back.

I look forward to having my feet in the sand on a beautiful long island beach soon as I can. 

BIG Problem: It’s like in my Body Now

I have been ignoring it for a while. Something has to happen a few times before I validate it.

SO NOW the new thing is whatever these things are when they attack ME there is like an impression of them in my body. This was mostly in photos. but now they are seeming more apparent on my skin. So like actual marks that then fade.

So like just now, my right arm felt tight, like high blood pressure I guess… but my blood pressure had gone down the doctors said I’mย doing good. So I went to the bathroom and looked at my arm and my skin was moving. NOT like in the movies… but it was like moving side to side. Itย wasn’t like there was a bug or anythingย just moving. Then I just stared at it and it turned red and the impression of one of the things I see in photos appeared (the medusa banshee looking one) and then I just kept looking and it stopped and went away.

The time before that I saw my skin move on my forearm and then Iย quickly squashed my arm and then it turned into an X and then like like 2 others X’s showed up on my arm going down to my wrist.

I always felt them vibrating my root chakra area…. or like the energy in my head giving me a headache … but this is totally different.

I’m really at a loss now. I’m not sure if what I am doing is correct. I pray… I’mย in the group healing… I’m over here doing ti chi. I am trying to be of service to others as best I can considering my own situation. But like I feel nothing I am doing is making it better.

I don’t know if the meds will officially knock them out or something I am willing to give it a try. I’m trying to go the holistic approach and the approach that feels right to me, but nothing seems to be working. If I do get SOME headway … I get attacked even harder.

like there at least 25 Archon Portal things in my house spewing shit at me if I even look in that direction. And its fucked up. I’m the only one in the house that feels or sees this. It’s insane. My friends can see them in photos so I’m not bugging out completely.

I just want to do whats right and will work in the long run.

Tree of Life: Archon False Chakra system


This is EXACTLY how they set up the false chakra system over the body. I can see it. Except the first two on the side are closer to the temple/ears and the shoulder one is under the arm pit, the root being the most important extends from the thigh area (inner mostly) to the butt area so to debase your vibrations. 

It’s bullshit. I never had this shit before, I never agreed to it, I never asked for it.  I did yoga like what three in my life after this all started to calm mass ass down. Now a bitch can’t be flexible with out worrying about being possessed?

These chakras are made from the same stuff floating all over my house and spitting sparkle balls at my forehead or whatever it does. 

It’s soo fux up. No one should be forced into this. 

This is so sad that this is all false.

Understanding Space: Portal?

So there are a few things going on.

There is what I see, which look like Large Human Cells (sometimes with symbols inside) all around the house. And then there is what i see in Photos. Which seem a little more detailed, in appearance. Then there is what i hear and feel. Which i am not even sure correlates with whats going on.

I have been taking photos over the last 5 days of my house and my body to see if there was any progress. My friend sent me some energy with flowers and that was really nice. But for the most part I still see these….. projections of sorts.

Now i see the circles, and i am wondering if each circle (Human Cell/ Archon Jelly fish i talk about) is directly related to one of the Entity Projections I see. in photos At least the major ones.

So far I see in photos: A medusa/ banshee looking woman, reptilian looking dude, an insectoid (maybe 3), trolls (maybe a few), Buddha looking guy, “Osiris” looking dude with a reptilian under), and MAYBE an Isis near my bed. I see like other little thing here and there, like one that looks like Stitch from lilo and stitch, and a bunch that look like geckos heads, a pig, alien heads and bunch of other things. They all have a ghosty look to them. Almost 2D holographic appearance to them.

The Osiris and Isis are gone now from what i can see. Still see the medusa lady and i know reptilian looking dude is still here, and some crazy gecko things, a troll.

What i see with my eyes: X, O, 8 infinity signs, #, 4 horizontal lines, human cell looking blobs, one with many circles with in each other (sleep one), sometimes an alien head or just eyes, these kinda black spider blobs, My friends smiley face and flower energy she sent me. Most of it is purplish, blue, black or white tone to it.

SO i guess what i am wondering is if what i see (the symbols) are directly related or a portal for each spirit projection i see in photos. 

I am also wondering if this a human sending these entities, talupas, portals or whatever to me as well. Been thinking about this since my friend sent me the smiley face and flowers. 

I live in New York City, so there is bound to be many spirits or whatever these things are. Im not afraid of them, but when they attach to me in any way my energy is zapped and its extremely painful. Half the time i want to eat immediatly after. I don’t know if its just me or my family. If this has been going on before i got here, or if this is something i brought here because i was so sad after a break up.

Im trying to stay a bit logical.

I want to make sure these things are cleared out before i ever choose to leave for my families health. Whatever is here, i can not see being directly from my family to be honest (like a generational curse). And its not like its a loved on that passed on, and they seem to seek to harm.

I really want to clear this for my sister, she has been looking more and more tired lately. Not to mention they threaten all my family, friends and loved ones anytime i figure something out or try a method to get rid of them. My sister is pushing herself to the max to over come this stroke (which for some reason i associate with these entities). So like i really want my family to be ok now that I can see and have a better scope of whats happening or how they move around the house.

I put prayers on all of my mirrors as directed by one website, burned some sage, prayed. I’m trying so hard. This is not fair to my family or anyone if they are trying to hurt me.

I know this stuff sounds crazy, cause it is!!!

It doesnt even seem real. There is some part of it that is real, like the fact that it makes feel like shit everyday. But im not even sure about this ghostly looking projections in the photos.

OK THATS ALL FOR TODAY!!!

 

The Reason My Parent Divorced. ๐Ÿ˜”

When I was say 3 years old my parents spit up because my mom wanted to get their own place and not live with my father. 

The icing on the cake was when I kept talking about “the monsters” which they then took me and my twin sister to therapy where they assumed the monster I was talking about was my father, and took the leap to say that my father molested me. This sealed the deal on the divorce and I was never to see my father again.

I went my whole life thinking my father molested me not even truly knowing what it is but something bad. And I hated him for it. 

12 years later my mom contacts my dad, he said he would never, my mom believed him, they remarry and we move to the city. I finish high school but they soon kick me out because I was gay (19 yo.) So life sucked balls. 

I have tried for a long time to make it on my own and I think did a decent job of doing so while trying to help my friends in their time of need as well. But I slowly repaired my relationship with my parents in that time away and was proud of that. 

Now I moved back here, some 15 years later and guess what I’m seeing monsters again. And its molesting me, and trying to force incestious, sick perverted thoughts, and ruining my life yet again. AINT THAT SOME SHIT. 

The building I live in is a bunch of resident doctors and nurses who all work at the hospital close by, so combine whatever monster I saw as a kid, and whatever spirit, energies these doctors bring home, and living in the heart of NYC I’m sure this is just a cesspool of negative energies. 

My mom cleans the house every other day. We moved a lot of things around in the house, and redorated the whole house which usually kicks up energies as well. I just don’t know how to remove them or send them where they belong. 

None of this schizophrenia started until I moved here. Not at this level.  Its like yea I heard or saw a shadow here or there…. But this is woa. I have pictures of energy in my house. So I’m not crazy. 

Now that I can “see” these energies now, I looked at a picture of my sister prior to her stroke and there was a big purple circle thing around the eye that she went blind in. Thank god through surgery she was able to get her sight back. But what is the agenda of these Entities and energies?

So these entities possibly broke up my parents and blinded my sister and declinded all of our health all the while I am having a schizophrenic break down watching all of this shit play out. The storyline about my ex (twin flame) and getting him back and past lives was all a distraction for the pain and havoc they were reeking in our lives to obtain what I assume is the energy they need.

Tonight I cried at the dinner table because the Entity kept molesting me every time my Dad made a sound when he ate his diner. He had a tracheotomy because of the surgery so he makes this strange noise. But reasoning doesn’t stop these Entities from doing what they do, and I broke down, I was weak, I gave them what they wanted, I cried because I’m tiresy of being molested by sick, nasty, dark distgusting evil Entities at every opportunity. 

Part of me wants to run away and the other wants to stay and clear this bullshit out for my families sake, but they are duplicating all over the house. they are everywhere (TV, cellphones, microwave, bathroom sink handle, soap pump, above the diner table, above and side of beds, different sizes colors, forms) and I have yet to figure out how to physically remove them.

๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ™ˆ

Love + Light Energy ๐Ÿ’ซ ๐Ÿ™

My friend sent me real love and light energy. It didn’t hurt, it wasn’t invasive or aggressive. It was kind it asked permission to enter my house even after I gave her permission. That’s called consent. 

Unlike whatever entities have set up shop in my mothers house.

Now the demonic archon alien ai copy bot jelly fish blobs tried to copy her energy to act like her. Probably to get me distrust her. I could tell that it was them because it was aggressive, I could hear its janky frequency coming near me, it hurt and was trying to suck my energy and the smile was a bit different. 

Its like GMO spirituality. The difference between real clean natural healing nutritional energy and dirty, fake, dangerous energy. 

We have to learn to discern. 

I am so greatful for that experience my friend gave me. It made me have some faith in the spiritual world. That MAYBE, not all are mean or gross or eventually becomes that when it wants to control you. Maybe.

Many are out here seeking, doing drugs or are willing to listen to the first thing that pops up in their sphere just to have a “spiritual experience”.

Its like I find the words to put it all together but my feelings about all of this I haven’t sorted out. I’m amazed, shocked, sadden, hopeful, angry, grateful…… 

I just want our people to be OK. We do not need to suffer like this when we could be using that energy to help the planet and each other. And there are enough things that happen in the world that we have to deal with to then top it off with alien possession, is just. .. Lame.

Keeping the faith ๐Ÿ™

Twin Flame or Alien Love Bite? – Alien Orchestrated Human Bonding Dramas

https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/vida_alien/alien_lovebite01.htm

So this article only speaks on the aliens love bite but I will also look up information if someone has written anything on the direct correlation between alien love bites and twin flame.

If you think about it it makes sense. Entities supposedly feed off of negative energy and whats worse than a long drawn out longing for the love that is unrequited?

What’s funny is that many many many in the “twin flame” community are also those in the “love and light” and yet seem extremely unaware. 

There are teenagers on YouTube and forums BEGGING to meet their “twin flame”, and that actuallybsvares me because it is something way beyond you “meeting the greatest karmic love of your life”, if anything it’s bullshit.

What it really is, is having extreme emotions and a longing for love that more than likely you will never get as long as these Entities are involved because they are playing you like a puppet. They watch you, they will pretend to be your twin flame to so sexual things to you.

And if you finally lay down the card call twin flame, it only gets worse. Etheric love making with your “twin flame” becomes entity rape. Spiraling down a rabbit hole of spiritually reasons that you feel a pain that is not justifyable until you hit the bottom and ran out of reasons…. That bottom is called Schizophrenia. 

Schizophrenia is torture with no story line other than your own freedom and soon the freedom of humanity once you realize how to humanity has been hypnotized.

Its sad, but I’m not quite sure why, of course “harvesting” negative energy or whatever, but with all of this technology being used couldn’t they figure out to replicate “negative energy to feed off of”? I mean humans are growing ears on rats, I think intelligent aliens can come up with an alternative method to meddling I. Human affairs and torturing the population for “negative energy”. 

I wonder if all the people making money off of twin flames actually explain this to people? Or do they profit from peddling a delusion to keep making money? 

And THATS where the spiritual community got me fucked up. And they have nerve to speak about religion. 

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