Who am I? What Am I?

I spent all morning racking my brain around, WHAT and WHO exactly am I in this “menagerie” of Entities and beings floating around me and my house.

These beings are starting to cover my own face to the point in a EMF photo you can barely see my actual face. (Again if you want to see you can just ask but those particular photos were scary so I won’t post them till I understand them better).

I feel like if you aren’t careful any being will come in and tell you who and what you are, just feeding yet ANOTHER matrix of lies to crawl out of. I don’t mind observing possibilities of truth, but I’m not taking anything for absolute truth just yet.

So you’ve seen it…… the memes that say we “are the light, be the light.”, that we “need to look INSIDE ourselves for the truth” all these riddles when we could just say hey this is what’s up. Either way…… how exactly am I suppose to look at myself physically or with in?

This part is kind of confusing me. I’ve worked on my mental A LOT and my emotional and while I might be 100% compared to where I was 3 years ago I did THE WORK while getting my ass rapped and beat my Entities.

I guess because I was/am assaulted by Entities there is a part of me that wants to just jump out of my body and handle them properly.

But also this all came from realizing how the have high jacked my imagination/ 3rd eye vision and my dreams. I’m my dreams I realized that it wasn’t mean driving or creating the dreams it was them. One of the Entities even was so bold to draw a simple drawing of who he was driving my dream, he was also trying to write but was having difficulty. I was only the observer. But how? Why? Very few of my dreams make sense now. They are mundane or just …. fast pace…. overall weird…. and I dream ALLL THE TIME. So it’s more like a place for them to play or live and act out and less likely my own consciousness. They are looney that is the best way I can describe it.

So as the observer and I can control this body 95% I say that because they can jolt my body and make it shiver, burn, be in pain etc and on rare occasions moved a limb, a toe or a pinkie. They can make me feel but they can not make me move with out a strong suggestion that I agree to. Say going to smoke a cigarette.

But how do I find that light with in? Truly? Not some illusion set up by the Entities.

Why in a photo I can see them but I can’t see myself (spiritually)? Am I locked in this body? Which is fine why is that these other beings can come and go as they please? And hurt my body?

I have so many question? And I again just don’t know where to go for answers. Or if those answers will suffice.

Part of healing to for me is deconstructing how and why we suffer. Critique it, trying to make it better for the next person. I take what I learned in 3D about healing and apply it spiritual. I have the option to wait on Gods grace (and the assumption) do nothing about my situation or I can be an active part in my healing and try to break this shit down not just for me but for others that feel like they are loosing it because of this odd experience.

I doubt any one reads this crap but lol if you have any good books or articles or methods to understand this better let me know.

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How The Illusion Works

Examples:

Kim Noble: painting. Kim is a painter who has multiple personalities and allows her personalities to paint. This is an example of one interested me because it resembled one of my hallucinations. I would say this represents the Energy one would see which is usually not the full picture.

This is a quick drawing by me of a frequent “hallucination” I see. I feel like I can see the bare bones of what these beings really are but they can use light or dark to change themselves.

I don’t know who made this image but it showed up on my time line. I know it is suppose to be the divine mother Mary. This image caught my eye because again it looked very similar to that of Kim Nobles and my drawing. Now my drawing above can use light to create a dream or a vision to look like the image below. And that is how these beings create illusions. It’s the best way I can describe it.

Turning My Spiritual Attack into a Blessing

So don’t get me wrong. I have my days. And I want it to stop and I am standing my ground firm on that the best way I know how.

However…. my eyes have opened to knew worlds and communities of people I never knew existed. If it wasn’t for the internet I might be dead to be honest. Between the twin flame community and the targeted Individual community and the schizophrenic community there are so many that I can relate to. Most of us have learned to be soft with each other and built heart connections based on our traumas that we really can’t share with many people with out sounding completely looney.

But it’s important to really talk about it and unravel everything. Even as much as I write about everything it’s still difficult. Multiply storylines and merging storylines happened as well as confusion so at times I can only follow one frame work but usually there were multiple happening at the same time.

I want nothing more then to stop hearing voices all day long, and being raped by demons and being called vile names and shown distrusting images.

But this torture only propelled my fight to be outspoken for those who are are afraid to speak, to research, to observe.

I will always say I traded my FEAR for CURIOSITY. That was the first step to no fear. I picked up my pen and drew what I saw or I typed in my blog exactly what I was experiencing in that moment.

I then was able to reference back to these things at a later date and hopefully see a progression of sorts. And there has been progress. Slow but progress.

Carl Jungs Shadow Work also helped me learn WHY the demon aliens chose the topics they chose. Shadow Work is like root work ….. it’s getting to the root of an issue and a core belief system. I know that child sexual abuse is a big trigger for me cause of a childhood wound (that I mention in this blog) and because it’s just wrong. And they know it upsets me so just keep hitting that button over and over and over again. But I realized where it stems from and made some piece because at first it seemed like it was coming from no where. Like hearing “you’re a child molester” one day out of no where after not thinking about my childhood trauma for eons just seems random. But now I know why they picked it. Because I would murder them for what they did to me….. and they know it I ain’t above that shit. I will bust some 👽 alien mars attack heads idgaf!

ANYWAYS! 😇

So other than getting to meet new people and expanding my community (which has been difficult due to homophobia and low key racism in the spiritual community but that’s a whole other story) and learning more about myself, I also seen a whole other world *cue Aladdin theme song*.

While this world was scary and confusing. If this this world exist ….. I know there is a God. While they def look like aliens and act like demons…. I’m not sure WHAT dimension I am in exactly. So again trade the fear of the unknown for curiosity. Not sure how long I will be here but I can document as much as I can while I am.

They can hurt us, but figure out HOW they hurt us. They won’t kill you (least that I know of) just make you want to off yourself. Suicide is kind of like their signature move.

The more we strengthen ourselves and document for others struggling, hold space for other struggling, support them, allow them to feel, listen to them, the more we can start shedding light on these alien demons that are holding innocent humans hostage.

We can turn this into a blessing. Alien/demons are real! Let’s stop acting like it’s just Hollywood. Where you think they get the creativity from? So! Let’s turn it into a blessing and flip this script on all of them real quick. They messed with the wrong generation!

Peace and Love

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3rd eye vs Imagination

This man expresses that the “3rd eye” is from the “tree of knowledge” it is basically the understanding of good and evil. And I guess we are not suppose to know that.

I realized I never tried to open my my third eye. It was already open when I even tried cause I was scared cause I was getting these strange visions of my ex’s (false twin flame) remote viewing me. So that freaked me. But my 3rd eye was already open technically for me to get a vision like that.

Also when does imagination end and where does “3rd eye” start? I use to listen to music on my train commute and make beautiful dance routines of different colors on my way to work. Was that my 3rd eye? Was that Entities?

What about dreams? I know now for sure Entities play in my dreams. But what about before were they the ones creating my dreams before? Did they get bored and wanted to take control of my life?

So when it comes to the third eye you have hallucinations (eyes open apparitions, flashes of light, sparkles, shadows, ghostly mists etc) , then you have visions which is what I think more people think (eyes open or closed but works with in the imagination and is more involuntary), imagination (eyes open or close more voluntarily), dreams (involuntary unless “Lucid dreaming” which could then just be imagination or visions).

Point is I wasn’t really trying to go this route to be honest. The tree of knowledge. I was kind of tricked like Eve I guess. Dumb AF. 😞 Strange things were happening to me and I was feeling strange things and I needed answers! Just like you would go to a doctor if you felt sick right? Only I got like thousand differ answers and I was left to sort through them and I am choosing now to leave it all behind.

I don’t know if I am ready to leave my blog yet. But I am almost ready to leave all the new age esoteric stuff alone cause it’s not doing anything for me. And the people that do know aren’t able to help me either. Just saying.

Not sure how to cultivate a better relationship with God when I’m literally covered in demons. From above my head to below my toes. I guess I was trying to search for a good layer. But I haven’t found one. So I just need to ignore this demon matrix and get on with my like they already took 4 years of my life.

Communities I Keep an Eye On 👀

Spiritual Community: This mainly includes: twin flames, 144,000, light workers, kundalini, spiritual awakening, ascension, channeled messages, The Event, 5D, entities attachments and attacks, energy, healing, empaths, occultist/ esoteric. Meditiation, Many different spiritual/religious belief systems in one place. Incubus, spirit husbans, reptilian,archons, matrix, star seeds, ancient cultures,

Alien Encounter Community: understanding acturian, paladian, grey, reptillian, mantis beings. Channeled messages. Earth bound conscious abductions. Star seeds, 5d earth, the event,

Targeted Individuls Community: gang stalking, street theater, mk ultra, v2k, project paper clip, nano technology, chem trails, electronic harrassment and torture, Morgenellas, CERN, EMF radiation, ELF waves, government patents.

Schizophrenic Community: paranoia, delusional states of being (even if you are right), anti-psychotic medications, symptoms mimick that of targeted individuals and spiritually opressed people (or vice versa), being seen as crazy, healing, theraphy, cognative behavioural therapy, transpersonal therapy, carl jung’s shadow work, hearing voices as a large scope of people rather than just schizophrenics (who twnd to have a negative experience). Sub vocal speech article,

Christian Community: Are they voice hearers? Hearing the voice of God? Is it God? The Event? Is the same as the rapture? Armageddon? Understanding demons/spirits through a Christian/ religious lens. Book of Enoch. Keeping/strengening my faith in God through all of this, the 144,000, Jesus, history. Story of Job, of Paul, of, Saul and Jesus all having been taunted by demons and the devil in the bible.

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Most people i have met are stead fast on their path and stick to their path. Thats fine. I found that there are MANY similarities between the the belief systems. And thats just in the 3rd Dimensional world explination.

Could it be that all the alien encounters, hundreds of praised gods and goddesses were just spirits or major demons trying take Gods glory because they simple could? I mean the Entity here with me has NO problem saying they are God and rape me in the next moment. Sick right? That is enough to make anyone to loose faith. Its a win win situation for them. Either they make someone loose faith in the One True God OR they Get some one to believe they ARE God or an authority of sorts.

But that is besides the point. These are the main communities i have studies and i have reached a plateau in my research. I can see them, hear them, feel their gross energy. Ive drawn what i have seen. They conflict with some of my research. And i havent found anyone i can use as a sound board to really confirm much of what i see. But definitely confirmed what we hear and feel. Visions and and hallucinations are a bit different. A vision is in your minds eye. A hallucination is standing in your living room you can walk around it. But they are not 3d theybare more flat 2d line drawings i can walk around.

Anyway the plateau is frustrating. Cause i want to move beyound this or i want it to be over.

Its my anthropological mind that got me here. Im always too curious. Why…. How? Whats the story? I could not accept this as a broken brain. I was hearing words and phrases i never even heard before. I had to google them.

I have heard people who have been cured of their affliction similar to mine to mine through medication, but also though shamic healing, also through prayerand the grace of God, some meditation, so im just wonder IF i will ever find my healing.

I mean being all over the map has both a blessing and a curse. In one way as i research and went to healers who gave me information that conflicted with something in the storyline the demons were creating. First it was telepathy as twin flames with my ex as were supposedly fractions of Isis and Osiris souls. 😔 spare me. Then when i rejected that they went on to say i was being raped and called a child molestor because i was “paying for my father” which was my dad was accused of molesting me which he didnt (i wrote about it many times in this blog you can search it). Then they weree trying to convince me they were God by blacki g me out like 3 or 4 times. Then when i started seeing them and they looked like alien or reptilian or demon trolls heads floating around…. Things got UBER confusing but that didnt stop their torure one bit.

So jumping around helped me understand most of it was bullshit. BUT the path to actual healing looks future away. Or confusing. Amd no salt baths and picturing a bright white light around me did not work.

I was recently told i am one of the 144k and a light worker and i have no idea what that even means. To me i was wouldn’t have have the innate power to blast these things away? Just saying. I just feel like 4 years of my short life has been wasted all to a demon. This is not why i was born. To be raped by demons all day everyday.

Im still pushing through tho. I still wish i had a mentor that could help me ubderstand this stuff. If im going to stuck with them might as welm make them my lab rat expiriments. Since thats what they are doing to me. Fuck em.

Targeted Individuals: Demon vs Alien (what i see) 😮

Soooooo………. Some days i am super confused as to what this expierence might actually be. Of course i lean towards my narrow understanding of the world and religion but im trying to keep a bit of an open mind. Being fooled so many times by thes being.

Now i have been observing the beings that i see over the course of maybe 2 years. I can only see them in part with my naked eyes most times. So i might see their dark/or misty white energy cluster hanging around the house most days. A few times i have woken up suddenly as saw them floating around in their full outline. This confirmed what i saw in photos.

One entity can make or project itself to look as big(ger) as a human or as small as a pin hole (can go into your eyes). I have notice that the smaller they are they can emanate light of sorts. Large projections tend to have deep black outlines not using light.

So i can see some stuff with my eyes. But not a lot and not for long enough to study. I took photos of them and studied them for a long time. Many of the entities (i am referring to them as entities for sake of argument) have a few different looks. It took a while to sort them out in photos because they can look all meshed together.

The “entity” actually said to many way too many times “my eyes are your eyes” meaning my eyes were the entities eyes (they like opposites to confuse people) and it had also said to me “i hope you never have eyes” my assumption is eyes to see them….. Which i now do, which they probably wanted so they can scare me, again working in opposites.

Now there are a few different types of eneties i have seen. One was a praying mantis. Another is a snake looking head with a circle around it with many other smaller skulls or snake heads around it. Another is a small troll looking one that kind of looks like a teddy bear with a droopy top lip (still havent figured out these ones), some look reptillian or snake like heads. A casper baby ghost looking one (the worse one tbh). A shapeshifter that shifts like a flip book. Long snake or parasite looking ones. Traditional alien looking ones. Funny enough they can “fly” or hover, looks almost like swimming or hurling themselves through space. But i have not seen any wings on any of them. Those are the major ones. You can also gonthrough my mefia gallery for some of my drawings.

Now at one point i was like WTF is this Mars Attack? You know when they only had heads running around. Anyway. WHAT I SEE ….. LOOKS very alien to be honest. The eyes are big. There isn’t a bunch of detail to them unless they use the “light magic” to create the illusion of something else (like a womans face) other wise their details are minimal. ALSO they are mostly just heads. I have rarely seen a full “body” of sorts. Now under this body many time i have seen what looks like a tripod “legs” or chicken feet or almost mantis legs.

A rabbi on youtube explains in a Kabbalah Series: Angels and Demons at the 20:00 mark he explains what the Khabalah says demons look like. To my surpise this is what i saw mostly saw if i didnt just see a head.

What also i saw was that they spew this flower looking tongue (or thing) to move or attach to people. Im not sure what to call it but i see them all over photos. Flower shapes with a line i cab follow back to an entity.

With my bare eyes if i look in the direction of a entity many times i will see flashes of light or tiny sparkles being spewed at me. Before i was viciously attacked i saw these and thought they were angels. “If you see sparkles it means your angels are around”. Actually this an entity moving closer to your field. I am not sure if they are actual energy attacks or smaller little copies of themselves. Its my belief it is the later.

Also if they are attached to me or if I put an EMF app reader next to a stagnant energy blob the reading goes up. This means they emanate EMF radiation, which means they use and solidified my assumption they use or are made of light.

So are the demons or aliens? Are aliens what we think demons are? Are demons pretending to be aliens to get us confused?

For the most part they i believe they are demons i mean they definitely ACT like demons ranging from mischievious and misguiding to straight up evil and vicious. They also have “toys” of sorts. Like masks and cover ups i have even seen them with sunglasses on. They werw saying i was “too bright” 😐 i honestly dont believe that shit since they are practically made of light.

The “alien look” may be a trap to misguide us. Not to say there arent aliens. Just saying what most are expierencing are probably demons.

Even the fact that there are “ufo” sighting where the balls of light drop down put of the sky or orb sightings. Again these being know how to use LIGHT. Honestly if aliens are trying to be covert all they gotta do is turn the head beams off. There is a sense of wanting to be seen (not in their actual form). Which is another trait of the demons. If they are not seen its like they don’t exist. The illusions…..they games…..the play. Im not even sure what is real in their world. Every thing seems to be make believe in one way or another. They are sadistic though.

The one(s) with me crave constant attention and even wake me up in the middle of the night. Last night they woke me up 3 times 😕! They love to copy other people. So they acted like my ex (false twin flame) for over a year. Using HIS voice and his image in my minds eye to convince me it was him telepathically communicating with me. If they can do this what is to say they are not doing that for all the angels and goddesses and aliens and even God! They want the glory. If they are not trying to scare the 💩 out of you they are trying to position themselves as an authority.

I really believe targeted individuals and schizophrenics are victims of demonic oppression. I am still keeping an open mind that it could be alien or government. I def don’t think this is government technology just because there seems to be an organic nature to it. From the way they move to the way they respond. They don’t want to be seen, they will turn around or hide in their dark every bubble. Its like I ALREADY SAW YOU! Its almost like what small animals or insects do when they encounter a human. That is a natrual response to run and hide. Not a “program”.

They also seem to have a hive mind. If one knows something all the others must know as well. And this can be near or far. Information is exchanged quickly. I have heard one of them explain my response to something they did to me to the others as if they did not understand. I have made my response minimal and more subconscious. But if i talk outloud in my mind or do something physical there is no explaining what my reaponse.l was.

If it is technology its def not human and its light based. At best maybe our technological advances such as all the EMF waves have allow the alien or demons to be more mobile….. Or something MORE over the last decade.

Just the quick response. The even subconscious response where THEY dont talk outloud to convey a message. The quick response to environmental visuals and sounds. It’s really impossible for this to be a human. Even a computer is pretty slow. The ability to make me feel like i should be smiling at something awful? Jerking my whole body out of my sleep.

I tried to lay this out as detailed and clearly as possible of my observations over the last two years or so.

I am leaning more towards demon as much as i do NOT WANT TO SAY I AM DEMON POSSESSED. I almost would rather it be alien to be honest. But i mean all the signs are pointing to good old fashion demon.

Uhg im really starting to hate this life. Why couldnt i just be boo’ed up, minding my own business like o king cute and making my coin and just enjoying life? NOoooooo i gotta be all demon possessed and missing four years of my life.

Awakened or Woke? 👀

Lol at this image tho. Like my skull felt like it was literally being cracked open like an egg by tgese demons.

Im not gonna lie. I drank the red kool aid. Like guzzled that bitch down like it was a chaser. I wanted answers and the New Age knew EXACTLY what to sell me.

Prepped with spiritual memes….. FB posts showing up on my timeline about the “1111 awakening” “are you seeing 1111?” Which is basically an initiation into their demon matrix to see how easily suggested you are. Angels and seeing pretty sparkles lights….. Orbs.

Awakening. I thought it would be like an awesome DMT trip. Maybe i would meet my “spirit guide” or a loved one….God…. Maybe the angels that i THOUGHT followed me all this time. I thought i would be in a different place some how. All the cool kids talk about astral projection. Who doesnt want to know what’s out there? Beyond.

But “the veils lifted” or maybe more so the wool was officially pullwd over my eyes…… the “shift happeded” i was “awakened” and i was not happy. At all.

See what i found was …. From my perspective is that from what i see this is just demon play. You are basically playing with little devils. And yea they maybe nice to you at first. Say they are an angel or a goddesss (mine did), but they lie and want to rape you and play with you and force you into suicide or misery. So that is the short version.

Ops so your awakening is fun…… Must be “the dark night of the soul”. Like yall got the juice for everything. Honestly dark night was being demonically attacked with nothing being able to stop it. They controlled my mind and body. They could insight false emotions ranging from a “happy/love” to “depression/suicide”. I knew it wasnt genuine. I could feel it in my body. These werent my genuine emotions. And it was sligjtly depressing….. But i knew the difference. “Dark night of the soul” “karmic lessons” are poor excuses for demonic torture really.

These demons place you in a matrix (for lack of a better word) of themselves which is inhabited by smaller little demons … And even smaller ones then that. So small there could multipul ones in your eyes. They are the vital structure and characters in our dreams/visions…… Even you as the onlooker.

So you are in this demon matrix….. Since you have no clue wtf is going on …… You can easily be dooped into thinking its an Angel or a nice being…. Alien maybe even who knows. But we only see or feel in part. Not the whole. Or mayne they only show you their light illusion version (can shape shift into anything) and not what they really look like.

When folks do their astral journeys and such they are really just having some really bright demons playing around in their head. I hate to burst the bubble. Its a dream. An illusion. The demons are the astral and made of aether (i think), something like that. They are made of light and work the aethers. Space. Lucifer was described as the “light barrier”. These beings/demons are made of light as well. And they are all attached to each other in a hive mind like matrix.

Its hell on earth.

So are people really awakened? Because honestly it feels like everyone is just telling a bunch of lullibys to some really scary shit. Like what they do with faries and vampires. Before vampires where like the scariest thing in the world….. Now we got movies where bitches is marrying one and having babies them. Like watered down shit.

I get it. Its scary. Its not fun….. To just accept a bleek reality that our world is over runned with demons who are using you and lying to you.

But its the reality. They are putting illusions over your eyes. And we are drinking the kool aid….. Its our own spiritual death really.

In the New Age community they are talking about awakening and acension ……. And 5D new earth…. 3rd eye astral…. and its always about getting some place other then where you are in the present like its some unobtainable video game. Find your TRUE “mission” when you awaken.

I was of service and dedicated my life to my community for 15 years and maybe even longer if you count as a child cleaning up the forests. And no this doesnt have to mean i was an”indigo child” , i cleaned it up cause it was gross and i wanted to play.

Like why isnt your mission some regular degular shit? Like why it gotta be “saving humanity”…… Buuuuuuuuut you are just basically sharing delusions and false information on youtube.😐

Unfortunately giving a fuck in this society seems like a super power. But its what we are suppose to do. I give a fuck. I give a fuck that my people that are being given false hopes and information to drive them into demonic play that will slowly lean them astray and further from God only confusing them more and possibly loosing all faith if not having some remixed version of the truth.

Are we going to be awakened or woke? Woke to the realities of both the 3D physical plane and the lies of the spiritual world?

Im not playing the game anymore.

To be honest with you (i wish)

To be completely honest …… I wish i was sold the lie. These demons didnt even try to lie very well. After the Osiris/Isis twin flame telepathy bullshit didnt pan out (posing as telepathy with my ex) they went straight for mediocre lies and then torture.

I mean beleive me. I WISH this mofo was my higher self, spirit guide, ancestor, benevolent alien sent to help humanity. ……….. I wish it was telepathy with my ex so i could tell him how much he made me feel insecure and didnt fight for us …… That these demons were using his voice to say i love you and i fell for it.

I wish this was some positive kundalini experience where “my chakras are activated” and my Soul Star is lit up and my health is intacted…… I wish i was the chosen one …… 144k sent to help humanity and these were the trials and tribulations that God put me here for…… I wish this was “the veil being lifted” as opposed to imposed. I wish this was “shedding old belief systems for the the collective”. In fact I GOT some new ones i would like to impose. I wish this was my ascension and NOT descension. I wish is was schizophrenia….. And the medication worked. I wish i was a warrior that wasnt tired.

There were so many options. But the torture remained. It hurts….. Its difficult to breathe sometimes. …. I feel this painful demons attached to my head or chest and or vagina sometimes my butt/spine. Waves of electrocution. I wish it was cosmic attunement.

I see them in my house. I see them attached to loved ones. People on the street…… In some peoples photos.

I wish i didnt see them. I wish I didnt stare at them long enough to recognize them now …. Because im useless. I cant help anyone. Telling someone they got a demon on their head aint gonna do shit but plant the seeds of paranoia for these demons to play with or for my friends to stop fuckin with me. All i can do is give testimony to those that are suffering and struggling.

I wish this was enlightenment…… All i did was awaken to a nightmare.

Faith vs Religion 🙏🏼

So part of me wants to be a moon loving, sun soakin, crystal wearing, incense burning, horoscope reading, nature hippy dippy weirdo.

And then the other part of me wants to be a devoted Christian so that God loves me back. Because apparently burning sage and doing yoga conflicts with faith.

I try not to let the internet and the vast interpretation of religion and bible get to me.

But someone said God looks after his children. And while I know on the material plane I have been fortune to make it to 35 years. But on the spiritual plane I have not been so fortunate.

I can’t say it was because of this or that. But I can’t seem to wrap my head around why I am being attacked. Some say kundalini, some said I’m a budding light worker, a twin flame or one of the 144k that the Bible speaks of and NONE of that has helped me nor seems to apply to why I am being attacked on the “spiritual plane” to the point I must fear for my life.

And it’s not really the “spiritual plane” if others can see them in a photo or if my body is being physically attacked to the point I must go to the emergency.

The post on Facebook says God takes care of his children. And I just wonder why I am left to be raped in every sense of the word by demons?

I guess I am not “blessed and highly favored” or one of God children or the elect “chosen ones” people keep trying to fill my head with.

This doesn’t make me a piece of shit.

I’m just not that. Doesn’t mean I’m gonna go run and pray to some goat God. But all I see is crazy shit. I feel of sound mind and body. But I just hear and feel and see the craziest shit. And THAT’S as if living in THIS world wasn’t crazy enough. We gotta add a layer of hell with reptilian whatever raping me over it.

I don’t know what to do anymore.

Consent in the Spirit/ Astral world?

Is there?!???!??

Is there?!?

Is this the new frontier for perverts?!

I have been SOOOO PSYCHICALLY AND SPIRITUALLY VIOLATED….. raped molested….. where is the fucking consent to be all up in my shit?

Is it ABSOLUTELY necessary to touch my vagina 24 hours a day?

It’s sick shit!

Is it to much to ask to fucking ask for fucking permission before you start interacting with someone?

There are PLENTY of weirdos out there that want to play and have astral sex and whatever other insane shit you can come up with.

Like if I say NO that should be the end of the fucking discussion. If we never spoke about work being done to MY BODY then that should be a conversation FIRST unless I know otherwise.

I trust nothing spiritual or astral or etheric now.

I don’t know if the astral world will be around for much longer. It’s being and been abused. It’s not suppose be a mask to rape unsuspecting victims.

But we will see it’s not my call.