Targeted Individuals: Plasma Beings Theory

So I think many Targeted Individuals some are on the fence like myself as to if this is human technology or if this is alien or demonic in nature or maybe they are just plain crazy.

The time I can see the most (“hallucinations”) I noticed is when my pupils are wide open. The eyes are like cameras, so the wider they are the more they are taking in light, even subtle light.

Plasma “is a state of matter in which an ionized gaseous substance becomes highly electrically conductive to the point that long-range electric and magnetic fields dominate the behaviour of the matter.” According to googles definition.

So with my eyes I have seen these plasma beings glow subtle colors like red and yellow I have seen them be black as well. They move like heat. Like a flame.

In short the reason that man of these TIs are getting high Radiation or Electromagnetic readings is because of the definition above.

I can see them and when I hold an EMF reader up to them I get 70 (which is painful) an above. We are suppose to be at like 15. My friend is currently on 200 and it breaks my heart. I wish there was something I could do.

Many of these being are like animals, like the geckos or parasite I see. And some are more intelligent like the praying mantises that I see. I also see Astral spiders with the heads of aliens, I see centipede with the head of a cow or a dog. Over the years they have become just heads floating around to now I can see their body after lots of observation. This juxtaposition of different body parts reminds me of “Solomon’s Demons” where these beings would be all merged together. Some are some aren’t. It’s hard to describe but it’s more like they are flipping back and forth between say 4 different beings that dismembered and merged with other beings. As one being.

I mean these things are OLD! I don’t understand their world completely. And I don’t want to really. Understanding it keeps me sane a bit if that make any sense. It keeps me out of fear since I am facing it head on. That’s me personally.

I do want this to end. They are not nice and gross beings as most TIs will know.

I won’t write too much about this but this is my belief.

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Attacks at my Best Friends House

Straight to the point these demon Alien whatever they are have been heavy attacking me at my best friends house. They don’t want me there. They did the same thing at my parents house for years and I guess they have calmed down in the last year. But now they have been attacking me under the guise of an entity attached to my best friends boyfriend.

The first attack was music and constant waking me up in my sleep.

The last attack was holding me down in my sleep (also known as sleep paralysis) and then when I woke up I saw an Entity descending away from me into the other room.

They did say two weeks prior to my friend meeting her boyfriend that “she needed a “man play” to get me out of here”, they don’t want me to be happy they want me isolated and alone so they can rape me and ruin my life. And I’m tired of it.

I’m trying my best to both be there for my friend, be there for me, not trigger myself pointlessly but also push myself. Ya know?

The fact that they did this at my parents house as well is a telling sign. They wanted me to run away when my sister had a stroke (which I believe they caused), if I ran away I’m a terrible person and they can loop that endlessly, if I stayed (which I did to help my sister recover) then they get their “loving sister” play that they torture me while I take care of her. Saying this will be the only time I will be a mother, making crude comments about my sister body while I clean her, incest. Sick twisted shit. If I didn’t love my sister I would have ran. Being honest. I wanted to off my self being completely honest. That shit coming out of no where scared the shit out of me.

Unfortunately it’s my life now. I had to learn to just “rise above it” water down a ducks back if you will. But it hurts my soul. It really does. I can’t be me with this. I don’t know how to function.

Either way that’s what they are doing AGAIN! Run me out! I’m tired of being attacked. Played with. Raped, molested, mind twisted, shit is so sick. I know I’m not crazy. You don’t just wake up one day at 33 like this.

Important Revelation: Heavy Metal and Spirituality and Frequencies

So since I can see the Entities with my eye I can see their energy most of them are attached to something metal. When I was in the children’s park they were attached to a metal statue, or the metal chairs. Buildings metal. In my home I see them attached to the metal shower rod, metal knife holder, an electrical hidden box. This isn’t ALWAYS the case but I feel like the main energy might be connected to something metal. Just a theory.

Now here is the next part. We are made of metal. We have aluminum, mercury, zinc, copper, magnesium, lead, arsenic, chromium, (while aluminum is not toxic, I the level in which it is presented in our lives it might be).

The sucky part is we are suppose to have a certain amount of metal like iron, zinc, copper and gold and stuff in our body, but I guess I can research that. But maybe having an over abundance of it makes out bodies (or maybe all of this aluminum) makes us like an antenna for these Entities who use or live on different frequencies waves. Light waves, radio waves, micro waves, etc.

I sure if together all the entities worked together on different waves lengths with they could appear almost real I bet.

I was attacked by these “entities” last night yet again at my best friends house because they don’t want me at her house because they want me miserable. (Good thing I stayed cause she ended up going to the hospital). But they held me down in my sleep and I head a deep scary radio sounding voice and when I awake I saw the Entity exiting the room. I can just see their outlines and that it is an Entity and not so much details usually unless I am close up or took a picture I can take my time looking at.

So this particular entity is probably working on radio frequencies. I’m not sure if they can change whenever they feel like it. It was just an observation.

But our bodies are like antennas for these entities unfortunately. A possible solution would be doing a heavy metal detox but I would only suggest this after tons of research on general detoxing and cleansing the body and knowing the risks of heavy metal detoxing cause you can get really tired from it and that is a sign you are over exerting your body.

More recently my good friend bought 10 Unit Tesla Coil Tower (from a Walgreens in Texas for $70 y’all wild in the south but ok 😳) and zapped herself and she said she can no longer hear the Entities any more. Now I will definitely update this piece if they do come back for he but I mean any amount of peace if kind of worth it at this point.

She just shocked her antenna, of course they went away. It make sense. But I’m not sure if it’s healthy or sustainable.

Hey Man Slow It Down

These demon aliens would have had me running all over the place. Looking for clue like this was a scooby doo mystery (even though it kinda is). But when I first put my foot down and said I wasn’t going anywhere anymore. I wasn’t doing anything until I figured out what the actual fuck what happening to me that was when I saw them.

Although my mind was still racing with thoughts my life was slowed down. I eliminated enough triggers.

The first day I saw them and am pretty sure I blogged about it here, is I was in the bathroom and I let out a deep breath and the clear air in front on me rippled and tiny sparkles and I was like HUH! And I stared some more with what I call the artist eye which I can explain later in the comments if you ask. Basically I looked into space and focused more on the space in front on me and while I could not see details I could definitely see something there.

After that it was a wrap once they knew I could see them they wanted to scare me, and they did, and I got over it, and I got photo of them.

So they are definitely “real” to some extent. But not real enough. I can account for many times where they have sabotaged something in my life other than a relationship. Like once when I was in college I wrote a paper about how the spirit of Zora Neale Hurston came to me for my thesis paper and little did I know that Alice Walker already wrote a book on that exact topic. Thankfully my teacher believed me and I wasn’t kicked out of school. But plagiarism is a real offense. I til this day haven’t read that book. Lol. And I’m a huge Zora fan. But I know it was them playing with me.

They have their hands in entertainment. This includes books. I don’t know how but they do. Even one of my dreams looked exactly like a scene from the suicide squad before I went to go see it. The part where the Goddess witch was making stuff in the tower.

So I slowed down so much I see how they play, I don’t know how to be accountable in all of this because it is EVERYWHERE and in everything! While suicide may seem like the sweet relief I have a funny feeling it’s not. At least not yet.

So slowing all the way the fuck down I saw some shit that I can not unsee. I saw what was kicking my ass through life and I kept trying to make the best out of terrible situations. It became a life skill. I can point out who at this point in a line up of entities. That’s how much I slowed down. I faced them head on. I just don’t know how to defeat them. I don’t know how to get rid of them. I mean they will call in an army if need be, like they did in 2016 to jump and rape my ass for years. And honestly I don’t know if my ass has it in me. It’s like the boat it just a little steady and I’m not sure where to go or if I should go at all.

Should I swim, will I get sucked under? Again?

As much as I want to know all the wonders of the world, this SUCKS and I doubt I will learn much more other than these assholes exist. I’m here to have a 3D mutha fuckin life and eat some fresh fruits and be boo’ed the fuck up and be chillin and praise and do some good in this world before this body decays. 🙏🏼

I was bugging out because of a break up in ways unknown to me and I was searching for reasons why. Why was I feeling not like myself, why was I seeing this mans name everywhere, why was I having (false) telepathy (but accurate) with him, hearing his voice all the time, like I was doing anything to shake it cause it was not like me to be stuck on someone. Care about them ok, stuck and obsessed no.

So finally when I slowed down I found the culprits. I had to face them. Of course I had to be accountable for my actions. I could have been more graceful. But essentially they demon aliens told me the other day “the reason we picked your ex (false twin flame) was because he wasn’t that into you and so it was more humiliating and funnier” and I told them thank you for being honest. They kind of lost it because I didn’t feel any type of way about it. I mean he probably wasn’t knew where he stood with me which was not long term and I was looking for something long term. So maybe these beings pick up on his intentions and knew they could exploit that with me. Put on a whole production. And when I didn’t want to play I got raped and pedo shit.

Either way. That’s what slowing the fuck down got ME. I’m not really sure what the future holds. I know things can not go on this same cycle though. This shit is OLD. To still be talking about my ex 4 years later is mind boogling (in the way that they do) But whatever.

This is what Schizophrenia looks like

So in the last month or so my therapist has been telling me I don’t “look schizophrenic” or act it etc. for whatever reason I don’t fit the bill. Which is fine because I’m probably not because this is an Entity matrix problem but whatever.

Then recently I’m taking all their cocktails of medications and my friends and family are now telling me me “I lost my spark or energy” ” my eyes are dull” and I have low enough self esteem because I don’t feel believed by anyone “sane” that I’m really going through this, and I pretty much ate my feelings and cookies were my drug of choice.

So I lost 4 years of a weight lost journey because of this. I gained 100lb in almost 1 year. I did not leave my house or bed. And I comforted my self with sweets and zootopia cause I was being shown vile images of child abuse. (This was post sui attempt). It’s all I had the energy to do, since there were days I barely had the beefy to make it to the bathroom the energy was so heavy. I would feel dizzy, or nauseous. These feelings usually come from when the main larger entities are in the room. Or on you.

On a normal partial possession they use smaller entities with less (like the hairball astral spiders ) or no consciousness as a leash to connect.

I know this is off topic but this my journal and I am free writing. So 😊

Either way I already feel like shit about how I look. And how I feel. And being being believed. And it’s being highlighted now. Even though I plan to loose weight soon, not totally for how I look but mor about my health and happiness and I want to cleanse our organs and I want to see if that has anything to do with schizophrenia and or matrix possession.

I Gave Up Everything 😞

So I think because the story of Job we are encouraged to just let things go when life is taking a nose dive into a hot concrete pavement.

I mean I let go my job which I loved, my relationships, friendships, all my possessions (cause I could no longer afford to have them in storage), my comfort, dreams for what I thought my life would be like, health, money (3k in spiritual services), beliefs, food, sex, even at one point stopped wearing jewelry, ……….. I honestly don’t know what more to give up. I know the voices wanted me to run away and be homeless AGAIN. And I’m not doing that. The main reason I didn’t run away was that my sister had a stroke and I needed to be there to help her otherwise I’m not sure what I would have done to try to make this voice and torture stop. But I gave a lot. And I’m done giving up everything. Short of my life (which they even asked me to commit suicide almost everyday and I attempted twice because of the child sex abuse visions).

And while I am all for Gods corrections at what point are we just allowing ourselves to just be tortured and misdirected by demons who want to present themselves as Gods or Authorities?

I made the intention to go back to school hopefully next year and so what I have been doing is studying “spirituality” in its different forms. Recently studying I tried to study the Zohar which is the study of the soul and Gods correction of the soul but the demons just like the Bible made it extremely difficult to read and study. Twisting concepts around. I have come to plateau with these demons. I know how they work. They say and do the same things over and over again. I see what they look like even if they look different. So more or less I see how they build on each other or connect to each other and me. So I’m pretty much done and annoyed. But more annoyed and a bit disheartened that I might not be able to finish school like I want to. I just don’t want to waste money or fuck up cause of this experience or be in class and them talking about how I want to fuck my teacher or classmates all day. Cause that is NOT how I think!

I have been waiting on this miracle, but I’m not sure to what extent I am suppose to step out and what part I’m suppose to wait. I’ve been laying in this bed for a good 2.5 years and I’m done. I’m as zen as I’m gonna get. I’m not a threat to anyone. Maybe myself if I don’t figure out how to get this demon out. Cause I KNOW it’s not schizophrenia…. I have photos proving it’s not…. it’s definitely an entity and it stalks me all day and never shuts up. Why it’s stalking me I don’t know, but I can’t say I’ve done anything to justify this torture. I’m not perfect, but shit man…… this is out of control.

So I guess I wanted to check myself on all that I have given up on thinking it would help me shake this demon and it hasn’t helped.

Taking these extremes have helped me in same ways uncover who these demons really are. No they weren’t my ex, or my coworkers as they pretended to be. No it wasn’t God (thank God for discernment). No this wasn’t schizophrenia because they were stupid enough to show up in my photos. And this wasn’t because I was a terrible person and deserved it, no different than like anyone else that is sick and deserved it. You can do everything right and still get sick.

So I still have a lot to sort through. But I while giving up everything DID uncover them…… I am starting to feel like I am only self harming and living a life of misery (which is what they want). It’s so weird being a happy depressed person. Like I still have optimism but like I wanna die cause I hate this experience and the pedo shit.

There are days I wake up in bed and the demon says it wants to have sex with me and of course I say NO and of course it molests me anyway. It will try hard to make me almost feel sleepy or drunk. And I will end up going back to sleep because my energy is zapped. Like that’s my fucking sad ass life. The pedo/ father shit didn’t start until I realized it wasn’t my ex ( false twin flame) and I started rejecting this demon. My life is SO fucking sad and lame. But I’m trying to remain hopeful. I guess it was my fault for thinking two people could love each other so much they could have telepathy. But it wasn’t my fault. I just didn’t know.

Womp womp!

Anyway!

GodSon: Little Devils

So I came to babysit for my best friend while she was at school the next few days. And my godson was acting up. But it wasn’t so much that he was acting up or bad …… but he was VERY emotional about it and even more so when I or my friends boyfriend spoke to him about what he was being told to do. It was intense. But that happens every so often, I noticed he starts to crave more attention when there is two or more people in the house. But WHATEVER…..

What really got me is when he said that he had a REALLY BAD headache to the point he almost didn’t want to eat. The headaches or random pain is a very obvious sign of Entity etheric attachment. It is not the main one but smaller ones no bigger than a fist.

So while I was calmly talking to him and giving some time to breathe I stared at the top and sides of his head….. shoulders to see if I saw anything. And low and behold the demon revealed himself. I saw a darkish purple energy outline of the being walking on top of his head AND when I looked at it the demon spewed a sparkly energy orb thing at me so while I might not see exact details of the face I saw enough to know something was attached to him and making him feel bad.

This demon or alien thing has been stalking me wherever I go. Even to the doctors office. I mean I’m not sure if it’s because I am around or not. I have seen some in the children’s playground that had nothing to do with me.

But I don’t understand why they would attach to an innocent child like that! It infuriates me.

I spoke to a friend of mine that does astral healing work (he is really legit and the sweetest man alive) and he said in fact there was a demon attached to both my godson and I. And he removed it.

Today my godson was way more chilled and listening and not super emotional to the point he didn’t even understand why he was feeling the way he was feeling.

It was good to have my sight of the beings confirmed by my friend. But at the same time I’m really upset that it’s happening at all and I just don’t know if it is because of me.

While my friend has been able to remove astral etheric attachments for me before he hasn’t been able to remove the voice that attacks me all day. Just like the really problematic immediate issue or symptom of a larger problem….. the stalking entity. But he is good at what he does and I don’t dole that out to just anyone! Especially after being taken financially taken advantage of by many “healers”.

It was nice to have a very energetically calm day with my godson. It’s too hot for all that mess tbh.

I really wish I had super powers to help heal people in that way. He went to school for this so he knows what he is doing. And he is a teacher. I just wished he could just pluck this nasty one out though. It is literally a thorn in my side.

Trying to remain hopeful I can beat this!

update: my godson is in the kitchen learning how to cook with my best friends boyfriend while I chill writing waiting for dinner and my friend to get home from school. Super loving environment like he deserves!

Is the concept of “Divine Feminine” just a part of new age “Respectability Politics”?

Honestly everyone has this very Puritain Christian idea of what the Divine Feminine is …… that we sit her and purge (receive and suffer) for the divine male counterpart. I feel like this feeds into the idea that woman must suffer in order to be loved & respected by their male counterpart as ultimately God.

Many of the goddesses and archetypes that don’t fit into the “Divine Feminine” story being pushed are often women who went against the grain, had more than one lover, the idea of the “harlot” as if the “harlot” is not divine or respectable.

Again another way in which New Age is mimicking much of the remixed Christian views with a Guru model.

Humans as Energetic Crypto Currency

I was reading the article “reversals produce loosh” by Lisa Renee and I immediately saw myself as a crypto currency machine.

A few times I have heard the voices talk about money, seemingly asking another entity for money when accessing me. I also heard something about a “shop”.

Loose is basically energy harvested from animals usually through torture. This makes me wonder if this is why sacrifices (human or animal) of any kind were usually apart of rituals or offerings. THE LOOSH!

While I’m not currently a practicing vegan anymore I know I want to go back. One thing that I never understood in the Bible is why God would want us to kill or sacrifice one of his creations in such away. That the smell of burning flesh pleased God. Which is why I often wonder if the Bible sometimes confused God for one the low level asshole looser astral Entities. Sac religious I know. Forgive my ignorance I just go with what is i my heart and what is here in this reality and they conflict …… a lot.

So I had the unfortunate pleasure of seeing into “the astral” which is basically hell and I saw books and boxes of tool and coverings of sort. One of the boxes I saw was a tool that looked like a long horned trumpet. I saw the Entities (many at one point) use these trumpets to either suck energy from me it seemed. I wondered if these supplies we made also out of my loosh. I also saw clothing that looked like Casper the friendly ghost and the box (which looked like a small casket) which it came in. With out the covering the smaller entities look like skeletons of some kind. I’ve also seen masks and those smaller entities conglomerate into a larger one.

So I wondered if I am like their personal crypto harvesting bank of energy. Because it works more like crypto and less like employment and a bank etc. And they habitually abuse me through pain or emotional turmoil of gross stuff (which I mentioned in my blog numerous times). I can tell you I don’t have much left. I sure feel wasted.

I never wanted to encounter the astral it just happened. And what I saw was during when I was trying to figure out what was happening to me. And I hoping this is just another layer of the lie…… the illusion.

The really sucked the fun out of life. Seeing all of this. Just makes life really Bleh.

Decolonizing Socio Political Spirituality

“The personal is political, the political is personal”

As i wade through the “spiritual” community i have tried to keep an open mind that other wont share the same views or experience as mine. That i was entering a vast arena with people from all backgrounds but our main common thread is spiritual growth.

And while i have been able to keep my cool in most discourse as they crop up, i have found myself feeling more and more isolated from the “spiritual community” due to socio political differences or ignorance.

One of the main and most recent happenings that has boggled my mind is this exaltation of Trump as a “whistle blower on the Illuminati” or elite pedos….. in the spiritual community, which i am still trying to figure out HOW. It is absolutely ridiculous. Anyone who supports Trump supports poor moral judgement and dare i say white supremacy. While many feel that it is freedom speech, this human has gone on to make fun of the Disabled, Women, Native Americans (calling warren pocohantas), and people of color openly at his rallies. I see him more as a bully than i have seen any other president in my life. But more so, it is his history and policies that scare me the most as he creeps into the “spiritual community” as some savior, which is clearly a tactic by conservatives.

Let us not forget that his father was associated with KKK in a riot that broke out in Jamaica Queens in 1927. Also in 1989 Trump took out an $85,000 Ad calling for the death penalty following the Central Park 5 case in which 5 young black and latino boys where forced into admitting a rape they never committed. But in April of 2016 Trump was also brought child sex allegations that fell on deaf ears and who later retracted her case because there were severe threats on her life. Now three years later there are “spiritual” and conspiracy blogs trying to paint Trump as a whistle blower on the elite pedophiles. I am really confused. To me if he is blowing any whistles it is only to save his own ass and to separate himself from Epsteine who he was close friends with.

However Trumps administrations handling of immigrants here in America is deplorable alone. Children in cages, loosing 1,500 children, Over 4,000 children reported being sexually assaulted in the ICE detention camps and the round up of ALL undocumented immigrants which apparently began Sunday and will create fear with in many communities. If the administration did not have the infrastructure to properly handle immigration in such “a hands on” manner, they should not have separated children from their families until there was structure and employees in place to handle immigration at this magnitude. This isn’t about being a democrat and republican to me. This is about what is right….. and how things have been handled has not aired on the side of right TO ME.

I just watched an ICE rally and all of the Trump supporters trolled the comments echoing Trumps statements and telling people to “Go Home” “If you don’t like it here leave” …….. Why if i don’t agree with a policy my only option is to leave my country of origin? Is that not what democracy is about? Trump knows exactly what he is doing! Trump has not empowered the American people but has debased them to their lowest selves and lowest common denominator ….. Hate and fear. The racists are prompted by the trigger words that Trump uses. It’s like a tick in their brains. They are like small children repeating what they hear. They have no real analysis on the issues, just racist rhetoric and trigger words spewed by Trump. It almost makes me want to cry to see what we have been reduced to because the president has set the standard of our country.

It actually breaks my heart to see racist belligerently yelling at immigrants and people of color and telling them to go back to where they came from. Because from a spiritual perspective these individuals are not acting as their best and highest selves. They have demons inside of them that hates …. And they are feeding them fully with in this administrative term.

Moving along from Trump cause honestly i could go all day. Another big issue that i have seen in the spiritual community is blatant Homophobia and Transphobia. I all too often had to swallow my pride reading some of the homophobia that is circulated on facebook. I am not going to battle every single homophobe, i don’t have that type of energy to waste however i will unfollow, not support, and move on with my life. I had a few “spiritual” friends who would post anti-lgbt misinformation. Like one video where they were connecting LGBT to pedos (which is what they have always done as a fear tactic) because one school wanted to teach LGBT history in it’s curriculum . LGBT people are not pedos, that is like saying all LGBT are rapists. Pedos are rapists of children, it is not a sexual orientation between two contenting adults. Thats one and two, many carry their conservative Christian beliefs around sex, gender and orientation and some how wrap it in New Age language further isolating those who do not identify as cis heterosexual people. It wasn’t until i watched this video on Higher Self (a spiritual youtube channel), did i have enough. That particular channels is suppose to be talking about aliens and spirits and energy updates and for whatever reason they allowed this 30 minute rants about how transgender isn’t a real thing and they are just confused people.

What people don’t understand is that they have the privilege of not having to think twice about post like these. It does not hurt them or their immediate communities. However these sentiments being spewed on whatever forum or platform is the same sentiments that allowed for 1 trans person killed per day in 2017. If you are spewing this type of hatred then you are a part of the problem and are co-conspirators in the death of innocent trans peoples lives. It is really that simple.

I am already exhausted.

I think the one major issue that no one really wants to touch, is race here in America. All too often any time a major racial charged conflict come to light in America, I hear the spiritual conspiracy theorist start talking about “false flags” and all this nonsense. No one wants to claim their ancestors deeds and no one wants to claim their privilege that they benefit from and that is one the major reckonings here in America. Any time someone starts talking about race some spiritual person comes in and starts talking about how “oh this is a false race war being created” or “people need to stop being victims” “slavery is over, I’m not a slave owner” “that is “reverse racism”” these are just SOME of the nonsense i hear and commentary used to silence black and brown people from analyzing in public forums and speaking out about the pain of their experience here in America.

Slavery and soon to be the policies around the prison industrial complex is a major demon that ALL of America has to face. People want to look to the future but don’t want to see all the ways in which our present is being shaped by our past. Much of the prison system is a form a modern day slavery, and we know for a fact the black and brown people are arrested and sentenced at a disproportionate rate. We have in NYC policies like the “Stop and Frisk” in which officers where told to racially profile in specific black and brown neighborhoods to meet daily quotas. This is just one example of the many ways in which black and brown people experience real racism and systemic racism here in America. This isn’t made up, a false flag, someone just trying to play victim. Communities of color face many forms of police brutality (which stems from the civil rights era when the police would use excessive force like water hoses and dogs) and you want to say “All lives matter”, but never show up when its an innocent black person dead at the hands of the cops. And when Black Lives Matter was created, it was created to say STOP KILLING US! But for some reason BML became a threat because their platform was so vast and gained support of celebrities and politicians alike. Now the racists or covert racists want to believe that the Democratic party is garnering hatred for cis white heterosexual males, instead of understanding it an an analysis of their history of violence here in America (world?).

The fact that most “spiritual” people don’t have to, or choose not to think about these things is a privilege. Their communities aren’t being devastated. Their people aren’t being harassed or murdered by hatred. And I think about this every day. The lives that were lost for merely existing. If your spirituality excludes actual history and analysis and includes hatred or blissful ignorance, count me the fuck out. And that is what privilege is. It is not your experience, it is not in your face everyday so you don’t have think about it everyday, you just benefit from the fact that these isms exist. Everything is catered to you. You don’t have to carve space out in a the “spiritual” community, or defend vulnerable/ marginalized communities that are suffering at the hands of racism, homophobia, xenophobia and ablism on a daily basis.

And what kills me is that our history has been sooooo white washed that Jesus and Nefertiti who are of African blood are apparently white now. Much of the spiritual community gets to pick and choose what they like from other ethnic groups while not really giving a fuck about that particular community. Spiritual appropriation is a real thing. And honestly I believe we need to Decolonize Spirituality.

What does Decolonizing Spirituality look like?

Glad you asked! An understanding and appreciation for indigenous people culture and healing practices with out using the Wellness Guru Model to profit off of it for white consumption.

Decolonize “Inspirational Meme Culture” which makes me want to vomit a little bit, understanding that putting some “inspirational quote” next to a half naked white woman in a traditional Native American head dress in some forest IS NOT SPIRITUAL. Not because she is half naked but because that quote and that image are two very separate things. The image is one of appropriation, and is disrespectful to indigenous culture.

If you want to act like you care about black and brown people supporting environmental factors that effect black and brown people…… i don’t know say something as simple as WATER. We can all agree that water is a basic human right, right?

Creating new healing modalities that address racism, sexism, homophobia, xenophobia and ableism with in the spiritual communities. Anti-racism work IS apart of healing, for all of us. Understanding the ways in which we perpetuate racism, sexism, homophobia, xenophobia and ableism and ways we can dismantle that, is in fact spiritual growth. The longer we allow it to fester, too afraid to touch it because we think love and light is enough, the bigger of a monster we will have to defeat, and the beast is pretty damn big already.

We need to embody our highest selves and fighting for the liberation and rights of all people is in fact a spiritual process. Caring for the safety regardless of sex, gender, race, orientation or creed of all people is the highest form of empathy. Unless we can do this, look outside of our own experience, then love nor light will help us and the evil ones will prevail in keeping us divided.

We are here to brake the chains of for ancestors and at the same time create a BETTER world for the future generations. If we simply think that love and light (thoughts and prayers) will save us and not deep analysis along with structural change we will never meet the healing that is waiting for us as a generation.