So let’s start this off with….. a healer that I watch said we can call back our fragmented consciousness but just stating this through meditation. So I did that (hey why not I just want to get rid of this!) and then I’m laying in bed and I had a REALLY bright vision of a Latino man, and h said “this her landlord, it’s time to go!”. The more silent voices (or what would be deemed as (false) subconscious thought) tried to convince me this was Jesus. 😳 lol yea I know.
Now I’m down for Jesus. But it’s crazy shit like this that makes me feel like this is just a big joke. So I was aight Jesus told you to go…. GO!. Go with Jesus. I just observed to see what was happening and of course the voices/entities had to put on a big production because believe it or not they are absurdly dramatic to the point of comedy. So I sat their waiting to see if “Jesus” took these fools away. And I had to sit there listening to them scream as I try to fall asleep.
So, Jesus lol did not take them away and they just was playing out a play and playing in my mind because their existence of just floating around in space is miserable I guess.
Another reason I know this vision wasn’t Jesus is because 1. It hurt a bit and 2. It jolted/startled me. I think if Jesus knows me and is my “landlord” He would not have hurt me or frightened me. BUT this vision was the brightest I have seen in a while. So my assumption is that it is a different entity. The one that is with me constantly over the last few years since this attack started is very dark and dim. Even the dreams they make are dim or darker tone than I am use to. AND the one that is here all the time i mean is CONSTANTLY giving me dreams and visions. I mean so selfish enough to wake me up 2-3-4 times a night to keep me in the REN cycle so it can play in the dream state. POS!
While most will say that dreams are “subconscious material” I beg to differ and I honestly think NOW that dreams are just a lower level form of Entity control. A more acceptable form. Same thing as visions. Again I have not encountered a truthful Entity as of yet. And to me that is an indicator of SOMETHING is not adding up.
I’m not going to blindly accept any vision as Jesus or Buddha or “my spirit guide”.
The way my pastor explained communication with God and His Son Jesus/ the embodiment is through the Holy Spirit. So the Holy Spirit must be an Entity as well. A conscious being that is more or less omnipresent. What that actually looks like I don’t know, he that actually plays out I’m not sure.
I do know that whatever this is that is attacking and harassing me are 1. A hive mind. Literally connected to each other to communicate (repeats what I am saying so other entities in the hive can know). 2. DO NOT look like anything I would imagine is heavenly. Or human. Some mix between alien, demon, disembodied astral being mix. 3. Uses light as an illusion to create vision and dreams. They can manipulate light in a way dark or light to create an image that they want in OUR minds.
So wonder what would they be with out our minds? Our physical hardware? Who would THEY actually be if we did not perceive them?
I know my opinion is not popular. People want a supernatural life. Either through God or New Age spirituality. I just think many don’t understand what it entails.
Again I want to be wrong. But I am not being proven otherwise in my experience. BUT my experience does not dictate my faith. I can still maintain faith in God with out necessarily believing that the hand of God will part the clouds and be this actual physical manifestation. I guess my main concern is that the enemy. These demonic alien troll looking things that harass me, are actually duping many of us into believing THEY are God.
NOW, I today’s age we have all these YouTube “prophets” and Gurus. Like they communicate with angels or God gave them a message. Like I want to believe people. But idk. Something is not right. I mean I feel like a lot of people preach from their judgement, from their political beliefs and not necessarily from doctrine. Regardless of ones political belief they should just allow for people to understand the word as sound spiritual doctrine. Not go off on 30+ homophobic rant about how the Gays want your kids (which they don’t). The gays want people to stop killing them. And the only way to do that is to create compassion among the youth and adults for people who are different then them. Essentially keeping actual gay or tran or kids who are perceived as different from being bullied, beat up, killed (by kids or parents) or pushed into suicide and keeping perpetrators of this none sense out of jail. By just accepting people for who they are. Gay is not the gateway to pedo! They are not mutually exclusive and they are not the scapegoat. I mean conservatives are trying to paint Democrats as pedos in the spiritual community. I’ve posted this in my blog. People were saying in spiritual forums which some how became fake “woke conspiracy” community, that Hillary Clinton is a pedophile and a video of Hillary wearing the skin of children on her face in a ritual will surface soon. Think whatever you want of the elite, rich and or powerful. But that is CRAZY. And it’s propaganda, it doesn’t even stem from anything anyone has ever seen.
11pm: I took a break from writing and now I am back.
I guess where I was going is that people prophets or gurus who are talking to these Heavenly Beings. I just wonder sometimes if they are just being mislead by entities. Nothing feels spiritually safe anymore. Just lies. Or if it did have purity in the essences of its message that these entities have now over shadowed the concept or belief with lies and twisted shit.
Idk. I really feel like I’m out here alone. No strong footing on anything really. I have my experience….. one I wish wasn’t as really as it feels. One I hope is not true. I look to others in hopes of answers, guidance ….. something outside of this experience. To be pulled from it. Like not even Jesus can or will save me. Why would Jesus want me to be left out here in these spiritual streets with a pedo demonic alien troll thing? Be raped? Faith in question.
Idk. 😓 bummed.