Targeted Individuals: EMF reading at Kids Playground

So a last week I was at the park (btw I live in NYC) where I take my godson to play and I was on the park benches and while I was just staring around the park I noticed on the metal bench I was on the was a clear white misty cloud form on the top back of the benches. I double checked my eyes looked to other parts of the park. But the top back was were it was the most predominant.

So yesterday I took my godson again to the park. I sat at a different park bench and decided to do an EMF reading because I was getting migraines that were making me almost nauseous.

So I remembered what I saw on the bench but I didn’t really see them at first. I do the EMF reading on myself which was at a 60 but then quickly went down to like a 40 something once I turned on my reader. So no wonder I was feeling nauseous.

Then I casually did a reading for the metal bench armrest it was 119. It wasn’t easy to get that reading because when you put it on the arm rest and you get like maybe a 90 at first but if you move it slightly one way towards where the numbers go up you find the “hot spot”. The reasons that they are not the easiest to find is because the beings or projections are flattish. The are usually not much thicker than cardboard. So the are facing one way or another on the axis point.

Then I did a reading for the top back part of the bench like I saw on the other bench last week. 214! This was by the way only isolated to one spot towards the end of the bench. This is touching people! My head was there just a moment ago.

I feel like if I followed a trail of EMF readings it would lead me somewhere. But maybe it’s randomish.

Then I wondered if I was getting high readings because the bench was made out of metal. I did an EMF reading for the seat of the bench which came out to 20/30. And for the middle arm rest. That is a huge jump. All the same area, all the same material.

When I looked close to the arm of the bench I could see a clear watery outline of energy but nothing distinct. Just that it was there and not other places. It also did not seem to attack me that I was aware of. Most, at least when I am inside, seem to attack me. A dark outline getting in my face to scare me or sending sparkles or lights to my body to connect to it….. who knows .

I also did an EMF reading for my best friends bed. Generally the bed was at 40, but when I moved towards the head of the bed… it jumped to 70.

So there is definitely something with being near the head of humans.

While I may recognize them as spirit/demon/alien I have not definitively ruled out technology. It’s just easier to explain what I am seeing and experiencing exactly as I see it.

While some of us may have a hitch hiker or a few, these beings/things cover the city. I also see them on non voice hears. So again what makes us different to experience loud voices, energetic rape and violations of the body and mind?

That is my latest update.

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Where is my Community?

So I occasionally listen to HigherSelf on YouTube to listen to what might be going on in the etherics and honestly……. Im a bit disappointed today with their current post “we are in a spiritual war and they are playing dirty” i hoenstly thougt this video was talking about the energies going on in the planet ect. But NOPE.

While i more recently have struggled with my personal preference mainly from being raped, and used by men, dumped by the love of my life who was a transman (which really changed me) and then since 2016 tortured and energetically raped by demons/voices and THEN called a child molester by them……. I guess i needed to just take a whole step back from it all. Counting on a partner to be my sanctuary was not panning out.

Now i clicked on this video to hear what was this persons opinion on whats going on but…. She ended up doing a 20 minute rant about how transgender is not a real thing and they are still a man or a woman and she has a medical license to back it up. She didnt really want to hear any other opinion and so i wasnt going to waste my time giving her one.

First she used sex and gender interchangeably. Sex is male or female (or sometimes intersex in the rare occasions), gender is presentation so anywhere on the spectrum of feminine or masculine which can include androgynous. She goes on to say that most of these transgenders where sexually molested (which is something i found to be true amoung many in the LGBT but when i did youth work/ and talking to people in the schizophrenic community i found it to be a truth for many young people in general which is fucking SAD). But she said that trans people flip flop and look like Blasphemeth. She goes on to say she “has gay friends” and such so she is not homophobic or transphobic. Yeah uhuh OKAY!

But she just put out a 30 min video misgendering trans people, comparing them to basphometh, and saying saying they are confused and have a mental illness.

She went on to say at the end of the video that we dont need anymore “soy boys” (which i never heard of), again sending hateful waves to men or boys who dont fit the sterotype of a “man” (gender).

This isnt the first time i have expierenced this in the “spiritual community”. This other woman who did “healing work” said gay and lesbians and trans people were a result of demonic Archon programming. Something to that extent and allowed a thread of people saying horrific things about trans people.

These sentiments are why there are approximately 2 trans women killed per day and lesbians getting punched in the face for not kissing in public because some dude asked them. For a gun man to be at the DC pride parade this year.

These sentiments get people killed essentially.

I had to unfriend so many people i respected at one point for posting homophobic or transphobic shit and allowing their page to be a breeding ground for violence. And i found that women are now the online perpetrators. I see them saying to trans women they will never be a real woman and allowing violent threats towards trans people on their page all the while gaining attention from men who probably hold their beliefs.

It was a woman who became jealous of my cousin who was walking down a street in Bushwick when her man looked at my cousin (who is a trans woman) and her friends in a liqour store. She was the one going off about how they were men and caused half the block to join in on beating up my cousin causing her jaw to be broken. It took a month or so of her mouth being wired shut and 2 surgeries and months of healing and she will never be the same.

Covert hatred is real. And it is being disguised as love and light and its not. Now i have my flaws i think rapists are pieces of shit im not in a place to forgive. Especially those that harm children. But some how people want to link the lgbt community to the harm of children when heteros have been marrying/impregnating children of “child barring age” since the begining of time. All of the LGBT I know are extremely adamant about the safety of children. And are actually the ones doing work around advocacy. TBH.

I was really disappointed in this video and whether she wants to admit it or not it is homophobic and transphobic. You could see the disgust in her face. I mean its pride month and all the Phobics are coming out the woodwork with their two cents.

While i might struggle with my orientation personally. I will always be an ally and advocate for the safety of the LGBT community any community really. Safety is number one and quality of life is important to me. Posting videos like this against the LGBT calling them blastphometh and mentally ill and will never be a woman is very dangerous. Honestly you could just be quiet. I did not click on that video to hear about trans people being degraded.

She also contradicts herself by saying being a woman isnt all about make up. But then is saying being a woman is only about having a reproductive system. So women that dont have a functioning reproductive system or a hysterectomy arent women? And that these “men will never be women”. I find that trans women get the brunt end of the stick more than tranmen and transmen often just stay on the sidelines. Also she is talking about how we all need to be in unity and we are being pinned against each other…… But she just did a rant about trans people calling them basphometh. So…. That is pretty divisive to me.

So in the “spiritual community” you have all these people who are against LGBT and who don’t want to have or listen to the hard conversations around race. And think that economics is JUST a mindset. And want you to shut up and give them you money for this message from Arch Angel Micheal for abundance healing.

There is sooooooo much healing in this world that needs to happen. So much. So much. I wouldn’t even know where to start TBH. In many ways we need to respect (with in reason) people path to healing. Holding space for our pain and truth to be spoken. To know others are suffering too.

Even in therapy my therapist didnt want to hear anything about my hallucinations further isolating me and making me feel like an etheric leper. It wasnt until i spoke to others in forum was i able to really start to heal (a little bit). Before i was just hearing all of this crazy stuff and being energetically raped and choked and abused. And seeing crazy things. And hearing someone say “me too” unlocked something in me. Not being silent helped me fight back. Having the courage to say these voices were calling me a child molestor and pedo just one day out of no where….. And hearing others say YES this is happening to me too…… Made me brave as scary as it was to admit it because i honestly was so scared i would be seen as one or something would happen to me for admitting that i heard this.

I found that the schizophrenic community tend to be softer than say the “spiritual community”. They are the ones truly suffering spiritually and they understand how triggering the world can be. The targeted individual community are a bright bunch…. But between the trolls and people being unbending to their beliefs (that it is government technology)….. Its difficult to express ones self. And the spiritual community tends to shun anyone “not of the light” pretty much mimicking religion and isolating people who really are looking for sanctuary.

I’m ok with being on my own with my beliefs on the fact that we really need to show respect to each other. But its not an easy road to feel so alone. Thats why i loved working in the food justice community. Everyone loves food. 😉 But at the same time i had to keep the fact i was queer out of the equation and as i said many where promoting violence against LGBT on their personal pages.

Either idk i have to wade through some triggering shit just to see if there are some answers to my suffering. But im ok with having an unpopular belief.

Targeted Individuals: Demon vs Alien (what i see) 😮

Soooooo………. Some days i am super confused as to what this expierence might actually be. Of course i lean towards my narrow understanding of the world and religion but im trying to keep a bit of an open mind. Being fooled so many times by thes being.

Now i have been observing the beings that i see over the course of maybe 2 years. I can only see them in part with my naked eyes most times. So i might see their dark/or misty white energy cluster hanging around the house most days. A few times i have woken up suddenly as saw them floating around in their full outline. This confirmed what i saw in photos.

One entity can make or project itself to look as big(ger) as a human or as small as a pin hole (can go into your eyes). I have notice that the smaller they are they can emanate light of sorts. Large projections tend to have deep black outlines not using light.

So i can see some stuff with my eyes. But not a lot and not for long enough to study. I took photos of them and studied them for a long time. Many of the entities (i am referring to them as entities for sake of argument) have a few different looks. It took a while to sort them out in photos because they can look all meshed together.

The “entity” actually said to many way too many times “my eyes are your eyes” meaning my eyes were the entities eyes (they like opposites to confuse people) and it had also said to me “i hope you never have eyes” my assumption is eyes to see them….. Which i now do, which they probably wanted so they can scare me, again working in opposites.

Now there are a few different types of eneties i have seen. One was a praying mantis. Another is a snake looking head with a circle around it with many other smaller skulls or snake heads around it. Another is a small troll looking one that kind of looks like a teddy bear with a droopy top lip (still havent figured out these ones), some look reptillian or snake like heads. A casper baby ghost looking one (the worse one tbh). A shapeshifter that shifts like a flip book. Long snake or parasite looking ones. Traditional alien looking ones. Funny enough they can “fly” or hover, looks almost like swimming or hurling themselves through space. But i have not seen any wings on any of them. Those are the major ones. You can also gonthrough my mefia gallery for some of my drawings.

Now at one point i was like WTF is this Mars Attack? You know when they only had heads running around. Anyway. WHAT I SEE ….. LOOKS very alien to be honest. The eyes are big. There isn’t a bunch of detail to them unless they use the “light magic” to create the illusion of something else (like a womans face) other wise their details are minimal. ALSO they are mostly just heads. I have rarely seen a full “body” of sorts. Now under this body many time i have seen what looks like a tripod “legs” or chicken feet or almost mantis legs.

A rabbi on youtube explains in a Kabbalah Series: Angels and Demons at the 20:00 mark he explains what the Khabalah says demons look like. To my surpise this is what i saw mostly saw if i didnt just see a head.

What also i saw was that they spew this flower looking tongue (or thing) to move or attach to people. Im not sure what to call it but i see them all over photos. Flower shapes with a line i cab follow back to an entity.

With my bare eyes if i look in the direction of a entity many times i will see flashes of light or tiny sparkles being spewed at me. Before i was viciously attacked i saw these and thought they were angels. “If you see sparkles it means your angels are around”. Actually this an entity moving closer to your field. I am not sure if they are actual energy attacks or smaller little copies of themselves. Its my belief it is the later.

Also if they are attached to me or if I put an EMF app reader next to a stagnant energy blob the reading goes up. This means they emanate EMF radiation, which means they use and solidified my assumption they use or are made of light.

So are the demons or aliens? Are aliens what we think demons are? Are demons pretending to be aliens to get us confused?

For the most part they i believe they are demons i mean they definitely ACT like demons ranging from mischievious and misguiding to straight up evil and vicious. They also have “toys” of sorts. Like masks and cover ups i have even seen them with sunglasses on. They werw saying i was “too bright” 😐 i honestly dont believe that shit since they are practically made of light.

The “alien look” may be a trap to misguide us. Not to say there arent aliens. Just saying what most are expierencing are probably demons.

Even the fact that there are “ufo” sighting where the balls of light drop down put of the sky or orb sightings. Again these being know how to use LIGHT. Honestly if aliens are trying to be covert all they gotta do is turn the head beams off. There is a sense of wanting to be seen (not in their actual form). Which is another trait of the demons. If they are not seen its like they don’t exist. The illusions…..they games…..the play. Im not even sure what is real in their world. Every thing seems to be make believe in one way or another. They are sadistic though.

The one(s) with me crave constant attention and even wake me up in the middle of the night. Last night they woke me up 3 times 😕! They love to copy other people. So they acted like my ex (false twin flame) for over a year. Using HIS voice and his image in my minds eye to convince me it was him telepathically communicating with me. If they can do this what is to say they are not doing that for all the angels and goddesses and aliens and even God! They want the glory. If they are not trying to scare the 💩 out of you they are trying to position themselves as an authority.

I really believe targeted individuals and schizophrenics are victims of demonic oppression. I am still keeping an open mind that it could be alien or government. I def don’t think this is government technology just because there seems to be an organic nature to it. From the way they move to the way they respond. They don’t want to be seen, they will turn around or hide in their dark every bubble. Its like I ALREADY SAW YOU! Its almost like what small animals or insects do when they encounter a human. That is a natrual response to run and hide. Not a “program”.

They also seem to have a hive mind. If one knows something all the others must know as well. And this can be near or far. Information is exchanged quickly. I have heard one of them explain my response to something they did to me to the others as if they did not understand. I have made my response minimal and more subconscious. But if i talk outloud in my mind or do something physical there is no explaining what my reaponse.l was.

If it is technology its def not human and its light based. At best maybe our technological advances such as all the EMF waves have allow the alien or demons to be more mobile….. Or something MORE over the last decade.

Just the quick response. The even subconscious response where THEY dont talk outloud to convey a message. The quick response to environmental visuals and sounds. It’s really impossible for this to be a human. Even a computer is pretty slow. The ability to make me feel like i should be smiling at something awful? Jerking my whole body out of my sleep.

I tried to lay this out as detailed and clearly as possible of my observations over the last two years or so.

I am leaning more towards demon as much as i do NOT WANT TO SAY I AM DEMON POSSESSED. I almost would rather it be alien to be honest. But i mean all the signs are pointing to good old fashion demon.

Uhg im really starting to hate this life. Why couldnt i just be boo’ed up, minding my own business like o king cute and making my coin and just enjoying life? NOoooooo i gotta be all demon possessed and missing four years of my life.

Consent in the Spirit/ Astral world?

Is there?!???!??

Is there?!?

Is this the new frontier for perverts?!

I have been SOOOO PSYCHICALLY AND SPIRITUALLY VIOLATED….. raped molested….. where is the fucking consent to be all up in my shit?

Is it ABSOLUTELY necessary to touch my vagina 24 hours a day?

It’s sick shit!

Is it to much to ask to fucking ask for fucking permission before you start interacting with someone?

There are PLENTY of weirdos out there that want to play and have astral sex and whatever other insane shit you can come up with.

Like if I say NO that should be the end of the fucking discussion. If we never spoke about work being done to MY BODY then that should be a conversation FIRST unless I know otherwise.

I trust nothing spiritual or astral or etheric now.

I don’t know if the astral world will be around for much longer. It’s being and been abused. It’s not suppose be a mask to rape unsuspecting victims.

But we will see it’s not my call.

OD Stupid 😴

So I took my 100mg of Seroquel along with 200mgs of Zzzquil so I could go to sleep and stay asleep. I have done this before. But this time I felt like I was dying.

WELP either one of a few things happened:

1. I was severely attacked

2. My medication interacted this time.

3. I hallucinate this experience.

4. Some strange combination of all.

The demons/voice don’t like when I take zzzquil or go to sleep so naturally thats what I want to do. So I end up taking zzzquil to stay asleep and and going to sleep to minimize my interaction with them since they hate me so much.

Im not addicted just interested in pissing them off and from what I experienced last night which felt like waves of death I think they are pissed off.

A female voice said ,”you just lost a friend” I had no idea what that meant because I personally didn’t consider any of them a friend of mine. My body then proceeded to go into waves of death, like my life force was being drained out of me. Then it stopped then it happened again a little less intense. So I decided to go to the emergency cause I thought I might be having a stroke. Or a heart attack because of these demons.

Thankfully I wasn’t.

So what was happening?

Why don’t they like zzzquil hmm?

So much they would attack me?

I wonder if over the counter sleep meds “lowers my vibrations” I like myself better on them and fully rested than irritated and easily annoyed because of these demons.

But the sensation these demons are currently giving me is like a nerves burning, waves of it. It’s not pleasant in the least. I think I know which entity is in charge of of these sensations. But it’s not always easy to pin point.

Either way……… this shit is wack.

You’re So Gay! 🙄

I X out my name, my “friend” here randomly called me gay as an insult like I had been lying to him about it.

I honestly have been having some issues with my sexual orientation as I try to reconcile my faith and having a FLEET of demons attack my ass.

So I think it’s natural to wonder was it because I’m queer (which is NOT GAY), was it because I had premarital sex? Didn’t keep the sabbath? Sex worked to pay rent that one time 15 years ago? Smoked weed? Shrooms?

I honestly thought God loved me regardless of my orientation. 😞 I honestly thought the whole condemning gays was more about stepping out on a marriage /adultery/lying. And I didn’t trust humans cause I felt like they focused of it a bit to much when there were are whole BUNCH of other things to focus on. I thought the sin was NOT being who you are (with in reason) the “higher self”. But you have to know yourself in order to be that. I never saw being queer about SEX but love and loving who I love and sex was just how we expressed that. But that’s just my small human mind. I just didn’t think it would cost me housing and jobs and friends and sanity.

But queer seems to stick out always.

Enough to get kicked out from my parents and be homeless, enough to be discriminated against at work and loose my job. Enough for the Demonic Entity voices to call me a pedophile lesbian bitch.

This suppose to be my friend who’s a guy . And then he goes on to say he likes lesbians. But I honestly identify as nothing now. I have no orientation because I’m sick to my stomach. I tried so many relationships they all failed miserably. Then to find out there are like Demonic aliens playing The SIMs human edition with my love life and fucking up my relationships doesn’t give me faith in the next. And then on top of it seeing pedo child molestation shit in visions is a HUGE 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢 turn off to LIFE so I’m fucking good on being stressed out by dick.

I tried my best to give love and I was fortune enough to at least feel that even if was short lived in queer relationship with my ex soul mate.

But I will not have my guy friend throw my orientation in my face like an insult. I’m tired of being condemned.

I’m not sure if I should continue to talk to him. I unfriended him and told him goodbye and why I was saying goodbye and that I forgave him. BUT I’m not sure if I should talk to him ever again.

My only concern right now is 1. Getting rid of these demons in a responsible way 2. Healing these wounds. NOT CREATING NEW ONES. 3 getting healthy again.

Relationships and all that other stuff is kind of not really a big deal a much as I would love to curl into a ball in the arms of a lover.

Exposing the Enemy (Occultism): Breaking Curses from Masonic in Your Life!

Exposing the Enemy (Occultism): Breaking Curses from Masonic in Your Life!
— Read on walkingintruth.blogspot.com/2005/07/breaking-curses-from-masonic-in-your.html

This talks about how they are pedos and they rape and choke people and the demons and IAM and invoking a lot of stuff I talked about in this blog as well as becoming religiously numb because of the torture.

Please read this article if you are suffering from spiritual warfare!!!

Natural vs Demonic 🌗

So I have my monthly moon cycle. Prior to being attacked it was a beautiful flow. Always came on time and healthy with not much pain. With being attacked (and I’m not saying for that do experience painful moon cycles) I have numbness, I feel like I literally beat up, I saw myself getting shot in the stomach by Geckos prior to my period, rumbling, all sorts of aches and pains. Not a fun moon cycle.

Then I have a friend who I am able to have telepathy with. But I am currently with in this curse. I wonder if I would still hear him with out the curse. What would be my natural state of being. The cleanest. What would be our cleanest state of communication when it came to telepathy.

Right now I assume everything is the devil. Lol cause that what it feels like. I have a demon here with me turning every experience into something vile and insane, so of course it is only natural to assume that.

But if that was cleansed?

So what is our innate and natural abilities and what are the illusions set forth as traps by Demonic entities to lure us in to make it seem as though we have “powers” that we may not actually have?

I might have one ability maybe not another and the mess with me or maybe it’s all a farce.

Trying to discern and develop as a being.

Earth really is a trap house!

Any time I pray I get attacked

Any time I pray I get attack with some new fresh hell…..

I will spare you details because it would be like spreading it but it’s it’s in in the same themes they always have sexual perversion.

I prayed for my sister cause she hasn’t been feeling well like before she had the stroke. And I got scared. And I don’t know if it’s really her health or these demons attacking her.

I snuck a photo of here and saw a long parasite wrapped around her stomach and something glowing on the eye she had surgery on.

She eats healthy ish, lots of salads and fruits …….. but it’s a lifestyle change she would need like a full detox and it’s drastic and I know she’s not going to do that or listen to me m. I just prayed and put in Gods hands and asked the one true God to let me know if there is anything I can do to assist my sister. Because the demons blamed me for my sister stroke. Said “you couldn’t even save your sister.”

So this morning the demons gave me a really bad dream involving my sister 😭😭😭😭😭😭😳😳😭😳😭😭😳😳😭😭😭😳😳😳😳😭😭😳😞 and I hate my life and kind of just waiting to die really.

Just waiting to die.

I know it’s not me or my subconscious mind or any of that shit. It’s a demon. Or many…. but I’m just waiting to die and I’m going to keep on being a tattle tale until that day comes.

So yack yack yickity yyack yack!

Fucking nasty assholes pieces of shit.

Seroquel Update

I’m on Seroquel 100mg once a day at night

Where I passed out the first night. It no longer helps me sleep.

I find that I am becoming more …….. complacent with talking back to the voices where before I was making a good effort not to talk back to them.

Complacent that’s how I feel on this drug.

My eyes are shifting and feeing like they are specifically being electrocuted after taking the medication at night.

I smoke and snack (but don’t like meals) more on this drug. My will is taken away and my ability to by satisfied is not there.

Dizzy

My hearing will become tin canny.

Hallucinations are all still there.