Morning Spiritual/Astral Rape

I woke up this morning being astrally raped. The way I know it’s not my subconscious mind is that these being take over my dream state and I made such a big fuss about the raping me in my waking and dream life that they have tried to move to raping me and making it seem as though I am master STI g in my dreams. REALLY!? I feel all of it, and since they are nasty fucks they wanna make it seem like it’s me. It’s not. Rape is rape whether you show a visual simulation of me masturbating in my dreams or not.

And they still do the pedo shit.

I heard one of them say something about they are doing this ethically and not lethal which could be them just repeating stuff from a target individual group, but there is nothing ethical about what they are doing. They want me to know it’s a rape dream they want to rape. Otherwise it would be pretty simple to have me live my life think it was all sex dreams which I never had in my life until now.

I fucking hate these entities. God said we suppose to forgive these entities are just sick. Please someone put them out of their misery.

I’m tired of talking about astral rape. I’m tired of getting raped. Them replaying traumas in my mind. Pedo 💩🤢🤢🤢🤢. Physical pain. Like over it. This is how I am suppose to start my day?

I just told my best friend that I really hate rapist. And that since my rape over the last 4 years I wake up to being raped by some entity every other morning if not through out the day. And it sucks.

There has been no progression in my case really. Nothing. Just a stand still.

East River NYC: Entity in the East River: How I see Entities

So I see entities a number of different ways. One way is in a dream state, the other is vision, which is very similar to recalling in the imagination, but forced in the mind. The next is if they are feeling BOLD it would be considered a hallucination or an apparition. So actually seeing an outline of these Entities just randomly in my living room or bedroom. As a side note they tend to stay in the same thing places. They don’t move a that much unless attached or seen.

Most often I see their watery outline. Or I see a smoke like line move through space. Or sparkles if I am looking it’s way randomly.

Most attribute sparkles to Angels and I have not found this to be the case. I have found this to be entities of whatever sort, connecting to or getting closer to you. That’s how they move. If you see a sparkle I think it’s an entity getting closer to you.

Now another way I see them is through what I call patterning. It’s difficult to explain because I’m still kinda understanding it. But against pattern be it in nature or in this city skyline I can see them as well.

The most recent occurrence would be a perfect example. So I take a cab home usually after taking care of my godson. The Uber goes up the FDR on the East Side of Manhattan. For a couple of weeks I have seen entities “patterned” against the LARGE skyline of Brooklyn but found it to be Queens later. I explain my experience HERE.

Basically I saw the entities face against the sky line and the a blue light dropped out of the sky. It was SUPER ODD! And even the voice/ entity that harassed me said “OH SHIT!” when I saw it. They are dramatic so I take that aspect with a grain of salt. But they looked similar to the entities that where harassing me. I calmly observed. Some nights I saw them in THE SAME AREA, which is where the Pepsi sign is in Queens. Some nights I didn’t but mostly I did.

Now I said since I give no fucks nowadays that I was going to go over there and see what’s going on energetically. And then you know what happened today? Lol they moved to Brooklyn. Lol so I saw the pattering against the night skyline in lower part of the East River.

Are they scared of me going over there? Why move? They act buck wild most days.

I’m not going to chase these demonic alien bobble spiders heads all over NYC but they can kindly get the fuck up out my city and my life.

If anyone does energy work or matrix work definitely check the East River or edges of NYC. HUGE entities over there.

Imma snitch fuck em. 🖕🏽

Update: It near Grand Ferry Park in Brooklyn.

We really are children in Christ

I am taking care of my Godson. And I have been blessed to be in this position. To watch him grow, to challenge myself, to love, to influence another human being positively (hopefully) in this world.

Today my Godson smacked me in my face because he didn’t get his way. We had a good day and he asked if he could give me a kiss on the cheek in bed, I said ok. Then he asked me to read a book, I said no because it was bed time and because he didn’t listen earlier. And stuck out my cheek for a kiss goodnight as he smacked it. This was the first time he has done something like this. But he does misbehave.

I stepped a way to the door and told him “Don’t you ever in you life smack me in the face again” I felt really disrespected especially since all I do is try to support and help him. I had to call his mom so she could reprimand him over the phone. He reluctantly said sorry. But I plan to speak to him more tomorrow about it at a level he can understand. That he hurt my feelings and he should not put hands on anyone else. (No one hits him in the house and I know the difference between play fighting and malicious aggression).

I know this is a part of growing up. Pushing the boundaries. But as I was watching the sermon from Transformation Church tonight. The message was in short about appreciating what God has got us through. And where we are now. And I thought about my struggles with my Godson. And how I could give him everything he needs and wants and he will ask for something else and smack me in the face when he does not get his way. A brat essentially.

I am a brat to God. I mean I rarely asked for much. But, good or bad, God got me through and made a way. Christianity is my roots. While Ifa is deep roots of understanding my ancestors. Christianity is what was instilled in me as a kid.

I think about how angry I am/was with God that he didn’t remove this demonic bobble head alien spider demon octopus 🐙 thing from my body and life. The pain, the 🤢, the rape. Why would God allow for something like this to exist and to harm me.

Last night I thanked God for allowing me to see this side of life and maintain some sanity even though I am clinically seen as insane with the label schizophrenic attached to me. I’ve met some interesting people. I saw that despite my previous sexual orientation my family really came through for me. And over time while this experience has not stopped there are some better moments now than there was 3/4 years ago. The intensity has gone down a bit but the pain is still there. Today was difficult to walk and I needed more caffeine than a human should have to reanimate my body and get through the day lol.

I got kicked out of Schizophrenic Group because I said something about God. I said that God isn’t a Happy Meal. Meaning that we don’t just wish and get what we want. That there is work that goes into it, spiritually or physically, emotionally, mentally, financially…. etc.

But I thought about how often (speaking from my own perspective, so this includes me) that we get upset with God and smack him in the face. And like a good parent, he stands there and wait till we are done with our shinnagings, or allows us to feel what not being in his presence really feels like.

It scares me because so many people commute suicide during these times, or do harm but that is our test and something bigger than my human brain can fully comprehend.

But there is light at the end of the tunnel or in the tunnel there is someone who is guiding the way.

I was just thinking about how we (like children) always want more from God, with the least amount of effort or remembering all God has got us through prior. And how we turn into brats when we don’t get our way. Or even hateful towards God.

I know I did.

Sermon here:

Unpopular Opinion: Fragmented Soul?

I have not expanded on this yet but I wanted to put this out there.

So many healers will say that our souls have been “fragmented” because of trauma of any sort. I meditated on this concept for a little bit and had a thought purely based on my perception.

Wonder if these supposed “soul fragments” and “light bodies” or “higher selves” are not really US. They are attached to us, but they are not OUR soul. That maybe all this fragmentation is that of an Entity that is attached to us and that is what the healer is seeing.

Entities play a very huge role in our lives whether we want to admit it or not. They can easily influence our beliefs and actions if we are unsuspecting.

Most of the entities I have observed are made of light or use light to move around. I honestly by default do not see them as good. Because the ones I have met lie about who and what they are exactly. Usually they will try to take a position of authority over you taking away some of your power. This can be as innocent as a spirit guide, angel, loved one that is watching over us to higher selves etc.

So wonder if what the healer is seeing and speaking to is these separate entities from our actual souls who then in turn influence our lives which ever way they want to. Wonder if it’s just another layer to the game I don’t particularly want to play?

All to often I get feedback from healers who give some sort of excuse for not being able to help me hundreds of dollars into the game. It’s frustrating. It’s either my fault or something completely out of my control. And i did not pay money to hear why you can’t help me. That’s why I hate when people charge for spiritual services. Like I get it, but honestly if that person was able to fix my situation I would MAKE SURE to tip them generously.

Either way, I just wonder if this is just another game to play for them. When the healer was speaking to the spiders that have been attacking me I did not hear any speaking or communication which is interesting since they are in fact attached to me and sucking my life force. I’m not even sure if me and the healer is seeing the same thing which again would be odd. Like they way I see the astral spiders I don’t know if it is the same way she does.

And why is that?

So all this higher self, light bodies, to me just seem like more entity astral play. Only it’s no fun for me. I’m a slave to trying to heal myself in some way. Spending money I shouldn’t with out much results.

Either way just some thoughts.

Religion/ Belief: It’s not fair!!!!

So, I have a very complicated view around religion. And I guess DETAILS of a “religious/spiritual” life.

I mean there are one so many different religions. Then on top of that Christianity alone has so many different sects. And it’s like one sect is like don’t eat shellfish and women wear skirts only and the other is like God loves everyone no matter what. And it’s REALLY REALLY CONFUSING!

Like beliefs and religion and spirituality it’s all super confusing. And then I have my beliefs and that is crossed with what I experience (which is being tormented by some demonic entity, acts like demons looks like an alien head on a spiders body 😳 yea FML). Like HOW DO YOU EVER RESOLVE ANY OF THAT?!

Is is demons that look like aliens, is it just disgruntled aliens? Is it occult black magic to make me lose it?

Like religion doesn’t tell you, YO you might encounter a demon that looks like a big headed alien or a fucked up teddy bear and it will try to trick you….. and so many new agey spiritual beliefs are like far out there that many times I just think it’s the crafting of people who have been dipped by these entities. But then that still doesn’t explain them and why they are here or playing with us.

Like seriously my whole belief system is honestly shattered into pieces.

This shaman lady told me that “my masculine side feels hopeless and like no one or nothing can help it” and that is why I am getting attacked and the masculine side is not protecting the feminine and that if “my masculine side BELIEVES that, nothing she does will work”, well that is nice to know $500+ later! Very convenient.

Even when taking these stupid medication, or spending my money on these shamans like all I have is to go on what i have seen play out in the past. But I still engage it because idk what else to do. So there is a part of me that hopes it works, while keeping my expectations low. And a part of me is like, if it’s medical schizophrenia, meds should work regardless if I think it’s some alien demon. And if it’s an spiritual thing, then who ever I go to for help should be able to just pluck these fuckers out whether I believe exactly what they believe or not. Because my EXPERIENCE is different then theirs. Like some distant healing shamans see these things are just colors or shapes, I see them as straight up crazy looking entities because they are all in my face in 3D. Like actually, not just on some “astral travel lucid dreaming tip” like all around me chillin my house like they pay rent.

And God and Jesus is no where to be found. Jesus’ name does not make them run for me. These assholes said they were Jesus when they electrocuted me mean and showed me a vision of a modern looking Latino guy. They think they are funny, I don’t.

These Entities broke my faith.

I’m being honest.

Like why are they able to do what they do to me? To anyone?

Why cant anyone who has “gifts” help me? Why can’t God show ME grace?

I figured no matter what I believe because of my immediate circumstance, that something ….. anything should work. I tried to cover all my bases.

Medication, holding on to faith in God as well as seeking assistance for people who supposedly know more about this stuff then I do.

Like I’m tired of getting raped by demons or whatever the fuck this thing is. And I’m tired of being shunned by all aspects of spiritual beliefs because my experience, which is all I have to go on, doesn’t match up with theirs. I’m tired of waiting on God. I’m tired of seeing these doctors that prescribe me a pill that does absolutely nothing. Like Benadryl does more for me than these antipsychotic meds.

And all these people push this situation back on me. Not that I am pushing it on them, but they always make me feel like it’s my fault or I’m not doing enough. And THAT makes me feel crazy. Just constantly doing and no results. I’m doing the best I can with what I got. Like people are experiencing this all over the world in various degrees mine just happens to suck more because I get raped and molested and these entities drain my energy to the point I pass out or never feel rested even when I sleep for two days.

So like what am I suppose to do? That is why people get paid…. right? They are the expert. If I sat there and tried to prescribe my own self meds then…. what do I look like?

And what’s worse is that this shaman said it’s “my masculine half” that’s going through this and my feminine half is rejecting him. And like this is all happening on a level I have no control over. So it doesn’t matter that I have kept my paths open. Or that there are other possibilities. There is nothing I can do about it.

And then religion just tells you to wait for Gods grace, or that you are a sinner and deserve this. And I’m like HUH? Like even “Gods favorite” was used as an example. Job right? Lost everything? So did he deserve it? Or like is a cancer patient suppose to sit there and just pray the cancer away? Or do you go to treatment?

Like it gets so funky and confusing.

And that is not even going into the hypocrisy of a Christians.

And if grace doesn’t show up in your life, then there is something wrong with you. Not the fact that socioeconomically the world SUCKS, or your body is just not strong enough to fight off whatever, or that accidents/ catastrophes just happen.

And that’s the same thing I am finding with these “healers”, if what they did doesn’t work, there is something wrong with YOU! Not the fact that what they did and took money for didn’t work.

I don’t know I’m close to just being agnostic at this point, cause honestly I don’t know shit. All I know is there is some big head alien spiders fucking with me and trying to ruin my life. That’s all I know for sure. And even that could be an illusion. Maybe they don’t look like aliens maybe they look like giant etheric PUSSIES floating around in the “astral”.

I’m tired of this.

Narcolepsy: Church

So was watching my church online like I do every Sunday (or Monday depending).

And all of a sudden the Entities knocked me out. Now the Entity woke me up at 3am and then at 12pm knocked me out mid sermon.

The Entities kept calling my pastor gay. Which I wouldn’t care if he was, but he’s not. And the Entities were trying to twist the word and Say Jesus worship is Satan worship. Which is another thing running around in the New Age/ Occult arena.

So it took me a while to figure out WHY these Entities were pushing me into Christianity in the beginning. In the beginning I believed in God above all things and Jesus as a teacher sent by God to teach us how to be better humans. However that is what the commandments are for. I did not believe that Jesus was ONLY PATH (new agey) and that he was God embodied to die for our sins, not so we can sin, but so we can be redeemed.

So I was an easy target for my ignorance.

The reason that these entities played God was so they could then disprove or then make it seem that there was no God or to make me lose faith in the feeling of abandonment as they torture me for the last 4 years.

It’s a simple bait and switch. My “spiritual journey” was at its essence trying to become closer to God and understand truth in this world of lies. And then my weird supernatural experience (caused by Entities /Demons) crossed with the crazy new age stuff I found online (which people think is spiritual) totally knocked me off my feet. And things got really confusing.

These demons are really out here trying to lure people further and further from God. To the point they are pretending to be God.

They will say they are the Voice of God or Jesus and then rape you energetically, torture you, take over your mind to the point you don’t know what is what, show you illusions so you keep running after something that essentially does not exist, because we want proof of something beyond us. Then make you feel as if God abandoned you and try to convince you there is no God.

And I’m like OK so the Demonic Entities that are TALKING TO ME, are trying to convince ME there is NO GOD. Lol how much sense does that make?

I mean the first fuck up was that they made was revealed themselves to me all. That was number one. And then THEY, these astral matrix-y demonic (acting) entities, are going to try to convince ME something doesn’t exist when in fact their mere existence was unfathomable in the first place?

It’s easy to get stuck in our immediate situation with these demonic entities. To think that is all there is. To constantly try to figure it out and blame it on new agey past life’s, karma, twin flames, not having our occult astral shields up, not doing enough witchy baths, government following you cause you went to a protest, not being of love and light…. some bs. Yea NO. And it’s easy to get into these concepts, when trying to figure out WHY AM I BEING ATTACK?!

I will be honest with you ANYONE can be attack. Sinner, the righteous, Good, bad and in between. What only truly furthers our attacks is IGNORANCE.

The lack of truth. Some of which we may never figure out and need to come to peace with that. We aren’t meant to know all the secrets of the universe lol because then that would make us God. And we are not God or Gods as much as we would like ourselves to be.

So be at peace with not knowing everything. Enough was revealed to us to know what these things are and that they attack who ever. Even Jesus in the desert for 40 days, and he is Holy!! That is how bold these demons are, they attacked the son of God, in hopes he would weaken.

So why not us?

Or a lot of us…… not all.

So know this. All of these theories. While they can help in the absence of faith to have something to cling to…… they can be VERY detrimental in the fact they can be skewed, twisted, ever evolving to get us to the point there is no God. The word of God is unmoving (well for the most part, minus slavery and stuff, BUT it says in the Bible that it must not be altered and those who did so at any point in time will face severe consequences).

You know what’s funny, is that I actually think a lot of the technologies that Target Individuals talk about exist in some fashion. I guess my point is that more likely they are NOT using it on you. Bob next door does not have DARPA weapons aimed at you and follow you everywhere you go.

But the devil knows how to get you worked up enough to think so. If you cant see through the lies then we are definitely doomed.

Man all I wanted to do is watch a sermon this morning. And I’m out here on my internet soap box.

Entities in the Children’s ER

So I’m with my Godson at the children’s ER because he might have the flu that has been going around.

He was sleeping and I was on my phone bullshitting and maybe an hour into the situation I felt something release from my booty (I have been feeling this weird booty energy release for a while now, pause, it’s not a fart, I have also felt this same release on my upper back/shoulder and it’s been on my right side. So a lot of pain and pressure on the left a lot of releasing on the right). So this happened and I forgot OH YEA IM DEMONICALLY OPPRESSED!

So I scanned the room to see what was up and there were the energy fields of entities on his bed and the empty baby bed in the room.

Once it saw that I saw it it shot into my right eye. But I could still see the energy mass sparkling and floating around at the foot of the bed.

Now while my godson was in the cab to the hospital he was complaining about a headache, like a really bad headache and he had a fever. And for me when the entities connect to my head i can normally get fevers and migraines. Not always together but most of the time. Like right now I have a migraine no fever. But often I do.

So I scanned his skull region to see if there was anything, and I surprisingly I did not see anything. This was prior to going inside the hospital.

So there is nothing attached to his body directly to his upper body. But there seems do be something attached to his lower legs.

Then there are other entities attached to the foot of the bed that were going wild that I saw them. My bed has entities all around them. If you think about it a bed is when we are the most vulnerable so it would make sense that that is their top favorite place. (Bathroom is probably second in my guess, cars 3rd)

So it’s saddens me SO DEEPLY that even innocent children are fair game for these Entities. But if you think about it that is how they indoctrinate us into their sick games. From a young age. We just don’t know it.

🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢

BIG DEEP BREATHS!

Trying not cry about how fucking gross this planet is. 🥺😭🤢🤮

Observations: Eyes Taken in the Astral

An observation that I have noticed is that many times I have had my “eyes taken”.

Often is feels like my eyes will go blurry and then a series of “visions” will come to mind.

For me this is something that the Entities/demons do. They do this especially to twist ideas and distract you or suggest you.

When this first started the Entities kept saying “my eyes are your eyes” and pretended to be someone and something other than the pathetic POS that they are. And then another one would scream “I hope she never has eyes!” They are absolutely insane and I can’t believe is my real life….. 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s much like when they create dreams. From what I saw in the “astral” if we want to call it that is that they place “black patches” attachments to the eyes and this causes you not to see the actual entities as well. However it also allows them to have control and through these “black energy patches”, for lack of a better word, they also feed visions to us/ me.

When you are working on your “third eye” and focusing on the center of your skull what you are actually doing is blinding yourself to submitting yourself to visions. This visions are created by Entities with etheric light energy. They ARE the light, they use the light to create an illusion. And by you not focusing on what is actually happening in front of your eyes you have submitted to an illusion. If you had a vision and then focused your eyes to what’s going on right in front of you you would see a COMPLETELY different world. It’s not all pretty. It is barren, and full of illusionist trying to get their rocks off.

They are liars. And they assault the mind, body and spirit.

I can’t tell you HOW many people both schiz and not, man or woman, have been sexually assaulted “spiritually” if we want to call it that. I would say Etherically.

Maybe most of them have not had theirs go on for as long as mine. But it has happened there is literally a METOO movement happening in the Ethers.

I know that my opinion will be an unpopular opinion but honestly you are not “activating your third eye” you are blurring your vision with your eyes closed and allowing entities to lie to you RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE!!!! In your eyes! Like they can be big or tiny tiny. And yes we have a pineal gland and maybe that has to do with light receptivity. But either way these Entities are full of 💩💩💩💩💩.

I have mentioned in this blog so many times that on MANY occasions I have looked past the illusion (or one of them). On one occasion I saw the image of a woman in my ” third eye” and something told me to look straight ahead and what I saw the woman then began a praying mantis. And soon as the praying mantis saw that I saw it, it jetted out of my field.

Why you scared?

How does the mantis know I am looking at it straight ahead?

Why are they lying to us?

So many questions!

But honestly I do t even want to write about this stuff anymore. But I feel the need to document it for anyone out there or for the next wave of people. Because the deception is REAL and we are looking like FUCKING IDIOTS!

What I am currently trying to do is strengthen my understanding and relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I know I am a sinner. And I can’t not get out of this hell matrix with out Jesus!

The New Age really got me! And I was lead there by the demons that hung around me, I would experience something “super natural” and google it and then some new age site had an explanation. But NO real solution other than “a bright white light around you” 🙄 So you say that the dark is attracted to my light, but then you tell me to rev up my light to repel them? OKie Dokie!! That makes sense! 🤪

Either way, these demons will lead you astray in what ever form! And you will end up in some occult bs with out even knowing. You were groomed since sin, by demons to end up where you are. Where I am sorry. And yet I still have to be accountable for my nativity.

So slowly they will give you these “super natural” experiences ……. grooming you. Making sure your belief is just right. That you are far enough from God to attack! And they will devour. And if your are lucky you will be saved. I have yet to be so lucky. And I am not sure why. But it is something I have to accept in the moment.

These demons what ALL of you. Touching your hands, genitals, I had one kiss me, 🤢 not to mention rape. Like I’m not making this shit up and it’s NOT my mind. I mean there is YouTube video after YouTube video of people saying they have had these experiences. And they DO NOT consider themselves schizophrenics.

Awakening is bullshit, Third eye bullshit, even the “astral” as normally explained …. bullshit, ascension to whatever dimension is bullshit. It is a lie, lie if people who have been lied to and spreading their lie and thinking they are a Guru because they had a DMT trip. Like this is soooo dangerous.

One dude on YouTube was talking about how he has sex in the astral! LOL are you that hard up bro? That you are fucking with astral spiders that are an illusion of some fantasy woman? Get your WHOLE life together! And he thinks he is a Guru of “astral travel”!

Astral travel is bullshit! You are just being given a waking dream by entities. Are being sucked into their ecosystem which is their being which comprised of smaller beings that all make up the worlds in which you think you are traveling in.

They make you feel by attaching to you. I once felt like I was being jerked around in a dream and as I woke up for like maybe 20 mins I still had 2 things attached to my back that were still buzzing. And I literally felt the suction of them releasing from my body.

I’m not going to say I know everything cause I don’t. But I did my research and I surveyed A LOT of people and this shit is BUUUUILLLLL💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩!

And we are gladly handing over our soul for apparent ” live and light” and our mission to save Earth! You wanna save earth? You want to “awaken” WAKE UP! Look right in front of you!!! Right in front of you! You are being lied to! But if you want to keep the illusion FINE!!

Shit is scary!! But you don’t want to save the Earth! You want to play fantasy game of “I’m an angel” or “I’m an alien” or ” I was Isis in a past life” simulation game by these matrix entities that is DEMONS! Old fashion ass DEMONS!

WAKE UP! For real this time!!!

Observations: A rumble in the “astral plane”

So this is another observation I wanted to document. This one has been happening for years, but I just never documented it as I wasn’t too sure.

I’m still not sure but I figured I would document it.

So, for years now (maybe 3 out of the 4 years I have been under attack), I have heard this space rumble noise in my field. At first I thought it was from the train (it’s not cause the train is so deep down in the subway you can’t even hear it outside), I thought it was my body because in the beginning it would make my body shiver or convulse. I mean my body is pretty sensitive now to sound, light, feelings etc. I dont think this a good thing but because the entities are attached. I think entity attachment makes your senses more sensitive so they can communicate with you. Like I was so sensitive I felt an earthquake in NYC that no one in my family felt and thought I was making shit up until the news said that there was. I mean even I thought maybe it was a strong “space rumble”, but it didn’t feel the same.

So I really tried to check myself on this aspect of this “space rumble noise”.

I have not noticed it at my friends house or other places I go. I have only noticed it in my families house.

I see entities energy and see them moving through space in what ever form but I have not noticed any voice or entity/energy movement in association with the “space rumble noise”.

I have eliminated other possible facts that would lead me to believe it’s just a house sound.

I tend to hear it the most in my room and in the bathroom, as if something (maybe a larger entity I can’t see or something beyond what I can see) is moving back and forth between these two spaces. I’ve never heard it in my parents room or even the living room. It seems to be something between my room and the bathroom (and maybe the kitchen a few times 🤷🏻‍♀️).

Again I’m not sure exactly what it is and I have no solid proof. My assumption is that it may be the entity that is projecting the smaller entity (worker bees) that the attach to me. As I said before in other posts, from what I have seen “astral” entities are like fractals. The can unfold/project themselves as many or as one. Down to the smallest aspect like a actual parasite (worm/snake) looking one. Otherwise the snake or worm would be used to say create the outline of their eyes (something I have seen).

With light they can look like anything to us. Or they can choose to hide in the shadows…. which would look like the blackest black to us in our minds eye. They have even used this blackest black to cover my eyes so I didn’t see them in full. But take it off to create dreams made out of whatever light they have left (my assumption that is why they are bothering me, but could be a new age lie).

So a whole entity is comprised of MANY larger, medium and small or even microscopic (which can go into your eyes to create visions) entities that can unfold itself. They are in constant communication (hive mind) and work together in some sort of self preserving ecosystem.

Again I have not been able to really pin point the rumble. I think asked my twin sister one time if she could hear it and she could, but my mom did not.

I took pictures of my sister while she was asleep and saw the same entities on my sister that I saw on me. I did not see the same on my mother. Which was interesting. My sister had a stroke, around the same time I was attacked (or became “schizophrenic”) but my sister hasn’t manifested any signs of schiz Thank God! That on top of multiple disabilities would fucking suck!

I believe the Entities caused my sisters stroke. But I can’t prove that. Other than their “foretelling the future” which i believe they create. I know they create pain and heart palpitations in my body. What is to say they wouldn’t hurt someone else who is less healthy.

I fucking hate them. Pieces of shit! Really.

I swear they better be glad I can’t touch them!

So this rumble makes me think there is another level to this bullshit that I can’t see right now. I honestly don’t care for this experience anymore I just want it gone but I just document here. It’s good for me to go back over time and see if there is any progression in my situation.

I try to maintain a balanced view of the situation an weed out anything that is not a reoccurring part of my experience.

I also hope to help anyone else who is experiencing this bullshit. I never asked for this and I have honestly tried to be the best human I could be. But apparently that doesn’t keep you from experiences like this.

But even that whole “they are attracted to your light” thing is probably a new age lie. Like I have spoken to christians and occultist and new agers….. hinduist….. conspiracy theorist and atheist alike who experience this bullshit. They just all have their own theory or belief. But the underlying commonality is that IT IS happening.

Anyway I’m over it!

Reality Meltdown? 🤷🏻‍♀️

So I am seeing the Entities energy WAY more clearly!

Like I can see how they surround my room. I can see how physical 3D space matters. So like there is a fan in my room and one like hanging over there. I see how they curve or attach to the divider screens in my room. I see how they are connecting around in my room.

So I am seeing them and in this space and it baffles me that others don’t see them, I’m trying to understand. I mean if you don’t know what to look for then I guess yea you just walk around in space not caring about it. But I mean I see them move all the time. And black or white sparkles (now, very few colors). I know they can create illusions with light. I know they wear some sort of cover up.

I’m just wondering how much longer do I have to wait on God and much further will I be abused by these Entities? Like am I going to have a COMPLETE reality melt down? Like just neck deep in the “hallucinations” I’m practically living in it now. They have merged into my world, but I have not into theirs. And be honest I’m really good on that shit. I want to be left the fuck alone. I’m not falling for any of this bullshit with them.

Like after last night being woken up and seeing that shit (previous post) and now just like seeing these misty entities all in my face and shit like I’m fucking over it.

I’m trying to keep my shit together.

Try to actually get my shit together and do something with my life other then watch these fucking rapist demons play in my head and with my body.

Like am I just going to be sitting in THEIR world one day?

Are they waiting for me to preserver to rock the shit out of my world……..AGAIN?

Like I am really done with this lame ass astral game. Seriously.

Like I don’t even know why they even put this etheric black patches over my eyes. Why? It has to be my physical eyes and not my one “third eye” because I saw them do it twice. So I don’t know if I just have good eye sight……or something with my brain allows me to see light differently or different light spectrums. But they are fucking covering/attaching to my eyes. And playing games with that shit.

i am OVER this bullshit.