Morning Spiritual/Astral Rape

I woke up this morning being astrally raped. The way I know it’s not my subconscious mind is that these being take over my dream state and I made such a big fuss about the raping me in my waking and dream life that they have tried to move to raping me and making it seem as though I am master STI g in my dreams. REALLY!? I feel all of it, and since they are nasty fucks they wanna make it seem like it’s me. It’s not. Rape is rape whether you show a visual simulation of me masturbating in my dreams or not.

And they still do the pedo shit.

I heard one of them say something about they are doing this ethically and not lethal which could be them just repeating stuff from a target individual group, but there is nothing ethical about what they are doing. They want me to know it’s a rape dream they want to rape. Otherwise it would be pretty simple to have me live my life think it was all sex dreams which I never had in my life until now.

I fucking hate these entities. God said we suppose to forgive these entities are just sick. Please someone put them out of their misery.

I’m tired of talking about astral rape. I’m tired of getting raped. Them replaying traumas in my mind. Pedo 💩🤢🤢🤢🤢. Physical pain. Like over it. This is how I am suppose to start my day?

I just told my best friend that I really hate rapist. And that since my rape over the last 4 years I wake up to being raped by some entity every other morning if not through out the day. And it sucks.

There has been no progression in my case really. Nothing. Just a stand still.

East River NYC: Entity in the East River: How I see Entities

So I see entities a number of different ways. One way is in a dream state, the other is vision, which is very similar to recalling in the imagination, but forced in the mind. The next is if they are feeling BOLD it would be considered a hallucination or an apparition. So actually seeing an outline of these Entities just randomly in my living room or bedroom. As a side note they tend to stay in the same thing places. They don’t move a that much unless attached or seen.

Most often I see their watery outline. Or I see a smoke like line move through space. Or sparkles if I am looking it’s way randomly.

Most attribute sparkles to Angels and I have not found this to be the case. I have found this to be entities of whatever sort, connecting to or getting closer to you. That’s how they move. If you see a sparkle I think it’s an entity getting closer to you.

Now another way I see them is through what I call patterning. It’s difficult to explain because I’m still kinda understanding it. But against pattern be it in nature or in this city skyline I can see them as well.

The most recent occurrence would be a perfect example. So I take a cab home usually after taking care of my godson. The Uber goes up the FDR on the East Side of Manhattan. For a couple of weeks I have seen entities “patterned” against the LARGE skyline of Brooklyn but found it to be Queens later. I explain my experience HERE.

Basically I saw the entities face against the sky line and the a blue light dropped out of the sky. It was SUPER ODD! And even the voice/ entity that harassed me said “OH SHIT!” when I saw it. They are dramatic so I take that aspect with a grain of salt. But they looked similar to the entities that where harassing me. I calmly observed. Some nights I saw them in THE SAME AREA, which is where the Pepsi sign is in Queens. Some nights I didn’t but mostly I did.

Now I said since I no fucks nowadays that I was going to go over there and see what’s going on energetically. And then you know what happened today? Lol they moved to Brooklyn. Lol so I saw the pattering against the night skyline in lower part of the East River.

Are they scared of me going over there? Why move? They act buck wild most days.

I’m not going to chase these demonic alien bobble spiders heads all over NYC but they can kindly get the fuck up out my city and my life.

If anyone does energy work or matrix work definitely check the East River or edges of NYC. HUGE entities over there.

Imma snitch fuck em. 🖕🏽

New Age Healing Trap

So over the last few months I have been to healers. And I was REALLY HOPING they could help me with my situation. I mean they can see the astral or matrix and beyond what I can see remotely.

See I see the astral right in front of me. I can see it physically in the 3D world on people. Not remotely or long distance. I see the astral all around me. Connected to people, places (building/parks) and thing (cars, things in home etc). So I don’t know how it works for someone who can remotely view.

However I need help. and while I want to wait on God, the nature/subject of my spiritual attacks and the pain, makes me feel like I have to try everything in my my means to make it stop.

I have an alien looking demon octopus spider thing that is “spiritually” or better “psychically” attacking new through the astral/matrix both mentally (non stop fucking talking) , emotionally (instilling false emotions) and physically (migraines, sparks of lights and shadows, back pain etc). Now this thing calls me a “child molester” all day. And will even describe the molestation of kids in my life in some way. After it describes it or says something it will then go on to molest/rape me! And I’m not a fucking child molester and it’s gross 🤢🤢🤢🤢 and no one wants to hear about no kids stuff. It’s so terrible.

One of my “love and light” new age light worker friends went so far as to say “maybe I was in a past life”, like fuck OUT OF HERE! So she fashions herself as Skemet or Isis reincarnated, but I’m a child molester? She (like many others) had them call her one too, just not as much as I have. Does she think SHE was a child molester? Then she said it must be a generational curse from my bloodline.

Imma need y’all new Agers to puck a story and stick to it.

I know that I think child molesters are the worse thing in the world. And my best friend has actually worked with me on having some compassion for them because many were molested too and they are probably suffering spiritually because of these mast bobble head alien demon fucks. And I think because it is a childhood fear and I want to protect children (I said this since I was a child), it’s easy to attack me saying I’m the very opposite of who I know myself to be. And I think because of this attack the need to spectate myself from someone like that it is easy to lack compassion for them because I am being attacked.

Think about it. Someone who is not gay, the alien demon calling them gay or homosexual, and then because they are being attacked they over compensate by having hatred towards gay people. Either taking it to the extent they actually hate or harm a gay person.

Granted child molesters are 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢. But they are sick. I’m not sure if they can be reformed but I can still have compassion for them as possible victims while still hating their actions.

I aim my hatred correctly. These demon alien things are fucked up and gross rapists!

With THAT BEING SAID!

I went to healers in desperation. I figured they know more than I about this dark side. Light workers kept calling me “of the dark” when I would beg for information on my situation. I could not understand why I was of the dark when most of my life has been to serve people of my community I gave over 15 years of service. Try to find the flow of God, to make my God and my parents proud of me since I was a fuck up in my teen years. And now I’m just a schizophrenic loser who sleeps all day because I can deal with the pain of entity attacks or listening to these rambling demon aliens idiots all day.

So you gave these healers my money. Hoping for healing or a reasonable reason this was happening. A magician told me that my spirit was a truth teller taking night classes in hell to get over fear. Oooooookay. The that my friend paid for said that I was in a room full that looked like a ball from the 29s dimly lit and a Chimera came in and said he was going to protect me (my sciatica felt ok for a day before coming back).

The latest that I paid for said I had a spider on my back and removed it. My sciatica help so much better and I felt lighter walking, however the migraines came back so my guess is that the spider just moved to the top of my head at that time.

The latest healer said that the “male part of my spirit” feels hopeless and that no one can save him and that anything she does will not work. 🤔🙄 Then she offered me to talk to her husband who does this work and that it will be “life changing”. Soon as I stopped talking to her after a week the sciatic came back.

Anything I do is to get rid of these nasty entities that are attacking my mind and body. My life.

I feel so alone now. That last healer was my final dig at trying to get help. To maybe someone understanding me. I really don’t have money to waste like that. If the healer can not permanently remove an entity then they are not healing. I’m tired of excuses. And I have done a lot of work to aid this process.

And I am suppose to wait on the grace of God while these demons rape me? It doesn’t make sense. I’m suppose to have a relationship with God when I do t feel like God is here? Isn’t that a little crazy? Like how? When there is prof he is not here with me? How many times must I repent? Account?

I want my mind and body back. Simple. I want these nasty demons removed and protection. That’s it. Seriously these demons are HEAVY. They have weight energetically. It’s not easy or fun.

Ever have a day where you are walking through your normal routine and it just feels hard to walk or like you walking through water or lag? That’s what most days feel like for me.

I know a lot of people are learning. But I don’t think I should be giving so much money for people who are learning about this shit. And they should have advanced people they trust to refer you to. Just over this bullshit. If I was a healer my main concern is protecting our people and giving knowledge as to what is happening to us. Donation passed. Seriously if any of these healers got rid of these nasty fuckers I would be more than generous. Guess I gotta really go at this alone, God is not here, Jesus isn’t here, these healers care about the coins, and I am over it.

Astral Spiders: And their web of lies.

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What I see mostly NOW is astral spiders.

Unlike before where I saw developed trolls and reptilian looking beings.

These astral spiders are also like an octopus 🐙. Like a big main head, then these legs that can do many things.

This is just a quick drawing how I have seen them. I have seen 3 max at one time one on my left one on my right and one that looked female and shot out my perception when I awoke to seeing them. The the one on my left proceeded to take a straw that came out of their mouth and spewed “black energy” into my eyes so I could not see them as clearly any more. I could still see them moving around just not clear.

This attachment to my eyes allows them to show me dreams, and visions. Usually sick gross visions.

They are a hive mind and will often repeat things I am doing or thinking or feeling to the others. they have come to understand my emotions pretty well even the silent ones. They will also lie about my emotions trying to manipulate them and make me think a certain way.

BUT I KNOW MYSELF VERY WELL!!!

Fuck em!

They seem to attach to the nervous system.

Brain, Gut, genitals seem to be the easiest. They don’t seem to attach to the heart very often but occasionally.

The healer I paid to help me with my situation, while I thought she healed my sciatica caused by the astral spiders she seemed to have maybe moved them. They either attach to my lower spine/butt area ( severe sciatica) or to my skull/brain (SEVERE MIGRAINES). When the are attached to my spine no migraine, when they are attached to my brain no sciatica. Coincidence? I think not.

There are other cartoony looking looney toons in the mix but the main players right now are these spiders.

My guess is that the work for reptilian (whatever hellish hierarchy of demonic aliens they are), or bottom feeders.

Either way they hurt like crazy. My body hurts so much for so long because of them I actually for what it feels like to be ok. Needless and pointless pain. And I am wasting money going to the doctors for them to say nothing is wrong with me. They will give me a pill anyway. So like the schizophrenic meds don’t work.

They gave me high blood pressure meds, but my guess is that that when these demons mesh with your body, with your cells, possessing your skin, flesh, organs your nervous system, to obtain whatever the fuck it is they are trying to obtain…… it naturally raises your blood pressure. And then even MORE if they are trying manipulate your emotions and mentality to get you worked up. They also rape, just like the reptilians but maybe not as much.

I call the one I have seen talking to me “Baby Ghost” 👻 because their large heads kind of looks like Casper. Lol yea I hate them though. I’ve spent so much money trying to get rid of them. I would give the healer all I had if she was able to get rid of these things, but I tested her for 4+ sessions and I did not see much result or anything that was able to be maintained past my interaction with her. So it’s kind of pointless. Just a money suck …… for me anyway.

The healer said she got attacked by astral spiders before. And she does not like spiders at all, and going into my session she had to overcome her fear. To be honest it was martyring herself in a way.

This guy I watch called Detox Dude on YouTube said essentially if your healer is getting attacked then you need a new healer. A healer should not be making you feel like they are being harmed by your presence.

I mean I can see not remotely but in the physical 3D world things attached to people and I can assess their symptoms to astral attachments. I could also come up with a story as to WHY. But I didn’t go to a healer for a story I go to them for removal and that is what I keep getting from them. Story time. Not removal.

Not sure what to do anymore.

I just document this experience in hopes others don’t feel alone. So I don’t feel alone too.

Religion/ Belief: It’s not fair!!!!

So, I have a very complicated view around religion. And I guess DETAILS of a “religious/spiritual” life.

I mean there are one so many different religions. Then on top of that Christianity alone has so many different sects. And it’s like one sect is like don’t eat shellfish and women wear skirts only and the other is like God loves everyone no matter what. And it’s REALLY REALLY CONFUSING!

Like beliefs and religion and spirituality it’s all super confusing. And then I have my beliefs and that is crossed with what I experience (which is being tormented by some demonic entity, acts like demons looks like an alien head on a spiders body 😳 yea FML). Like HOW DO YOU EVER RESOLVE ANY OF THAT?!

Is is demons that look like aliens, is it just disgruntled aliens? Is it occult black magic to make me lose it?

Like religion doesn’t tell you, YO you might encounter a demon that looks like a big headed alien or a fucked up teddy bear and it will try to trick you….. and so many new agey spiritual beliefs are like far out there that many times I just think it’s the crafting of people who have been dipped by these entities. But then that still doesn’t explain them and why they are here or playing with us.

Like seriously my whole belief system is honestly shattered into pieces.

This shaman lady told me that “my masculine side feels hopeless and like no one or nothing can help it” and that is why I am getting attacked and the masculine side is not protecting the feminine and that if “my masculine side BELIEVES that, nothing she does will work”, well that is nice to know $500+ later! Very convenient.

Even when taking these stupid medication, or spending my money on these shamans like all I have is to go on what i have seen play out in the past. But I still engage it because idk what else to do. So there is a part of me that hopes it works, while keeping my expectations low. And a part of me is like, if it’s medical schizophrenia, meds should work regardless if I think it’s some alien demon. And if it’s an spiritual thing, then who ever I go to for help should be able to just pluck these fuckers out whether I believe exactly what they believe or not. Because my EXPERIENCE is different then theirs. Like some distant healing shamans see these things are just colors or shapes, I see them as straight up crazy looking entities because they are all in my face in 3D. Like actually, not just on some “astral travel lucid dreaming tip” like all around me chillin my house like they pay rent.

And God and Jesus is no where to be found. Jesus’ name does not make them run for me. These assholes said they were Jesus when they electrocuted me mean and showed me a vision of a modern looking Latino guy. They think they are funny, I don’t.

These Entities broke my faith.

I’m being honest.

Like why are they able to do what they do to me? To anyone?

Why cant anyone who has “gifts” help me? Why can’t God show ME grace?

I figured no matter what I believe because of my immediate circumstance, that something ….. anything should work. I tried to cover all my bases.

Medication, holding on to faith in God as well as seeking assistance for people who supposedly know more about this stuff then I do.

Like I’m tired of getting raped by demons or whatever the fuck this thing is. And I’m tired of being shunned by all aspects of spiritual beliefs because my experience, which is all I have to go on, doesn’t match up with theirs. I’m tired of waiting on God. I’m tired of seeing these doctors that prescribe me a pill that does absolutely nothing. Like Benadryl does more for me than these antipsychotic meds.

And all these people push this situation back on me. Not that I am pushing it on them, but they always make me feel like it’s my fault or I’m not doing enough. And THAT makes me feel crazy. Just constantly doing and no results. I’m doing the best I can with what I got. Like people are experiencing this all over the world in various degrees mine just happens to suck more because I get raped and molested and these entities drain my energy to the point I pass out or never feel rested even when I sleep for two days.

So like what am I suppose to do? That is why people get paid…. right? They are the expert. If I sat there and tried to prescribe my own self meds then…. what do I look like?

And what’s worse is that this shaman said it’s “my masculine half” that’s going through this and my feminine half is rejecting him. And like this is all happening on a level I have no control over. So it doesn’t matter that I have kept my paths open. Or that there are other possibilities. There is nothing I can do about it.

And then religion just tells you to wait for Gods grace, or that you are a sinner and deserve this. And I’m like HUH? Like even “Gods favorite” was used as an example. Job right? Lost everything? So did he deserve it? Or like is a cancer patient suppose to sit there and just pray the cancer away? Or do you go to treatment?

Like it gets so funky and confusing.

And that is not even going into the hypocrisy of a Christians.

And if grace doesn’t show up in your life, then there is something wrong with you. Not the fact that socioeconomically the world SUCKS, or your body is just not strong enough to fight off whatever, or that accidents/ catastrophes just happen.

And that’s the same thing I am finding with these “healers”, if what they did doesn’t work, there is something wrong with YOU! Not the fact that what they did and took money for didn’t work.

I don’t know I’m close to just being agnostic at this point, cause honestly I don’t know shit. All I know is there is some big head alien spiders fucking with me and trying to ruin my life. That’s all I know for sure. And even that could be an illusion. Maybe they don’t look like aliens maybe they look like giant etheric PUSSIES floating around in the “astral”.

I’m tired of this.

Entities in the Children’s ER

So I’m with my Godson at the children’s ER because he might have the flu that has been going around.

He was sleeping and I was on my phone bullshitting and maybe an hour into the situation I felt something release from my booty (I have been feeling this weird booty energy release for a while now, pause, it’s not a fart, I have also felt this same release on my upper back/shoulder and it’s been on my right side. So a lot of pain and pressure on the left a lot of releasing on the right). So this happened and I forgot OH YEA IM DEMONICALLY OPPRESSED!

So I scanned the room to see what was up and there were the energy fields of entities on his bed and the empty baby bed in the room.

Once it saw that I saw it it shot into my right eye. But I could still see the energy mass sparkling and floating around at the foot of the bed.

Now while my godson was in the cab to the hospital he was complaining about a headache, like a really bad headache and he had a fever. And for me when the entities connect to my head i can normally get fevers and migraines. Not always together but most of the time. Like right now I have a migraine no fever. But often I do.

So I scanned his skull region to see if there was anything, and I surprisingly I did not see anything. This was prior to going inside the hospital.

So there is nothing attached to his body directly to his upper body. But there seems do be something attached to his lower legs.

Then there are other entities attached to the foot of the bed that were going wild that I saw them. My bed has entities all around them. If you think about it a bed is when we are the most vulnerable so it would make sense that that is their top favorite place. (Bathroom is probably second in my guess, cars 3rd)

So it’s saddens me SO DEEPLY that even innocent children are fair game for these Entities. But if you think about it that is how they indoctrinate us into their sick games. From a young age. We just don’t know it.

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BIG DEEP BREATHS!

Trying not cry about how fucking gross this planet is. 🥺😭🤢🤮

Observations: A rumble in the “astral plane”

So this is another observation I wanted to document. This one has been happening for years, but I just never documented it as I wasn’t too sure.

I’m still not sure but I figured I would document it.

So, for years now (maybe 3 out of the 4 years I have been under attack), I have heard this space rumble noise in my field. At first I thought it was from the train (it’s not cause the train is so deep down in the subway you can’t even hear it outside), I thought it was my body because in the beginning it would make my body shiver or convulse. I mean my body is pretty sensitive now to sound, light, feelings etc. I dont think this a good thing but because the entities are attached. I think entity attachment makes your senses more sensitive so they can communicate with you. Like I was so sensitive I felt an earthquake in NYC that no one in my family felt and thought I was making shit up until the news said that there was. I mean even I thought maybe it was a strong “space rumble”, but it didn’t feel the same.

So I really tried to check myself on this aspect of this “space rumble noise”.

I have not noticed it at my friends house or other places I go. I have only noticed it in my families house.

I see entities energy and see them moving through space in what ever form but I have not noticed any voice or entity/energy movement in association with the “space rumble noise”.

I have eliminated other possible facts that would lead me to believe it’s just a house sound.

I tend to hear it the most in my room and in the bathroom, as if something (maybe a larger entity I can’t see or something beyond what I can see) is moving back and forth between these two spaces. I’ve never heard it in my parents room or even the living room. It seems to be something between my room and the bathroom (and maybe the kitchen a few times 🤷🏻‍♀️).

Again I’m not sure exactly what it is and I have no solid proof. My assumption is that it may be the entity that is projecting the smaller entity (worker bees) that the attach to me. As I said before in other posts, from what I have seen “astral” entities are like fractals. The can unfold/project themselves as many or as one. Down to the smallest aspect like a actual parasite (worm/snake) looking one. Otherwise the snake or worm would be used to say create the outline of their eyes (something I have seen).

With light they can look like anything to us. Or they can choose to hide in the shadows…. which would look like the blackest black to us in our minds eye. They have even used this blackest black to cover my eyes so I didn’t see them in full. But take it off to create dreams made out of whatever light they have left (my assumption that is why they are bothering me, but could be a new age lie).

So a whole entity is comprised of MANY larger, medium and small or even microscopic (which can go into your eyes to create visions) entities that can unfold itself. They are in constant communication (hive mind) and work together in some sort of self preserving ecosystem.

Again I have not been able to really pin point the rumble. I think asked my twin sister one time if she could hear it and she could, but my mom did not.

I took pictures of my sister while she was asleep and saw the same entities on my sister that I saw on me. I did not see the same on my mother. Which was interesting. My sister had a stroke, around the same time I was attacked (or became “schizophrenic”) but my sister hasn’t manifested any signs of schiz Thank God! That on top of multiple disabilities would fucking suck!

I believe the Entities caused my sisters stroke. But I can’t prove that. Other than their “foretelling the future” which i believe they create. I know they create pain and heart palpitations in my body. What is to say they wouldn’t hurt someone else who is less healthy.

I fucking hate them. Pieces of shit! Really.

I swear they better be glad I can’t touch them!

So this rumble makes me think there is another level to this bullshit that I can’t see right now. I honestly don’t care for this experience anymore I just want it gone but I just document here. It’s good for me to go back over time and see if there is any progression in my situation.

I try to maintain a balanced view of the situation an weed out anything that is not a reoccurring part of my experience.

I also hope to help anyone else who is experiencing this bullshit. I never asked for this and I have honestly tried to be the best human I could be. But apparently that doesn’t keep you from experiences like this.

But even that whole “they are attracted to your light” thing is probably a new age lie. Like I have spoken to christians and occultist and new agers….. hinduist….. conspiracy theorist and atheist alike who experience this bullshit. They just all have their own theory or belief. But the underlying commonality is that IT IS happening.

Anyway I’m over it!

Observation: Quiet Voices (Migraines)

These are only my observation on my situations. They may or may not evolve. But I usually wait a while before calling it an observation. It needs to happen more than hand full of times. If it helps someone great! If not then your experience if different than mine. I have had people suggest so many different tactics to addressing/remedying this situation (that has worked for them) that has not panned out for me.

So one of my observations is that when the voices are quieter (meaning not an outside voice overlaying TVs etc) I tend to have a pain of sorts. Usually a migraine or maybe even sciatica, belly pains, etc. It is like the voices when I deem as entities are closer to me or merged with my body (be it physical or etheric) in some way.

I have also cross checked this in my photos. So I would have a migraine or sorts and then take a photo and I can definitely see one of the entities attached to my head. (It’s harder to see belly and other body parts, but not impossible). I might see an entity with a head in the middle and many smaller skull/heads in a circle around it. They kind of look like spiders with an alien head on it. And they use these straw or horn looking things to attach. I might even see one ON my forehead or above my head. Some time there are different entities involved but those seem to be the most common.

So these entities give me migraines and make my head hot. I have at times maybe didn’t realize that this “migraine” was coming on and found myself slowly becoming irritated and as soon as I was like migraine= entity attachment, in my mind, I felt a release of sorts. Like they would go away for a short moment and then come back.

It’s super odd, I know.

I have not heard any particular name for these alien spider looking things. I mean I can see where they might be seen as astral spiders or astral octopus (because of the head). But neither hits the description on the head. Like the reptilians I have seen were pretty straight forward. The praying mantis were pretty straight forward even with the masks they wore. The teddy bear looking trolls (that are some how associates with a lotus or flower they sit on), I haven’t heard of anything associated with them either. Although I had one friend who said she fainted at a parade and her friend was with her and a shaman took a Smokey teddy bear out of her back. And her friend saw it. She has no other information on it other than her friend saw the shaman pull it out of her back and was told not to worry. As a side note I never told her anything about what I saw.

A thought that just came to mind is maybe these entities bother me because I can see them. Idk, maybe I am a mirror of sorts. Like they can’t see themselves otherwise. When I first started seeing them their eyes were kind of loop sided and then when I made fun of them (my only defense in the constant rapes I endured by them), I saw that they actually fixed their eyes from floating all over the place.

Again as much I would like to believe this is ALL just my mind making this stuff up, I can’t see how logically my mind would make up something I’m not really into it believed in and then respond accordingly. Again I just realized the eye thing. So it’s not like I told my mind to fix the eyes. I would just kept making fun of them.

I mean I might be making some stuff up in my mind when I look at photos, I’m taking everything in and then filtering it out. I question myself and these Alien head spiders seem to be the most consistent thing. And they are apart of an ecosystem of other entities that come and go as they please.

I’m honestly over studying them and observing them. I just want them gone. I’m ready to move on with my life although I wonder if I will ever truly heal from a traumatic experience like this. Idk if I will ever be healthy again, if I will like my body again after it has failed me.

December Intensified

So tonight I was looking at a gift for my friend. For whatever reason the Entities made me sleepy. I didn’t fight it. I pick my battles, sleep is not one of them.

So I woke up to a voice saying “he got hit by a car”, I assumed this was my ex (soul mate not false twin flame) because before we broke up he got hit by a car and I took care of everything. That’s why I was so shocked that he wanted to see other people (be polyamorous) all of a sudden because I played that wifey roll HARD. Anyway so I was awakened by that comment and only assume that it was about my ex but I can’t say for sure.

Then I was looking into the darkness with my eyes closed and I could see these Entities floating and spinning around. And one like SHOT out of my direction like it didn’t want to be seen or wasn’t suppose to be there. And that one almost looked like it swam off. Then I saw another one close to me. I could see their features more ….. umm a bit more 3D as opposed to a flat image I normally see. And then one of them took their straw thing and blew some black hairball mass (sorry best I can describe it) into my eyes to cover up seeing them. I was maybe 10% out of my cool only cause I could see them REALLY clear and bright. Might of been about 3 of them for sure. Maybe more not sure.

This week has been intense. Just more sparkles, migraines again, more seeing the watery clear misty energy around me.

Like this shit is hella fishy and something is not adding up.

I mean they purposefully woke me up right? So why would they make it seem like I caught them doing something to me (which was probably making a pointless Dream)? But I mean if you know you are going to wake me up out of my sleep then I would assume that you would handle your business of covering your tracks if you don’t want to be seen.

Be honest I don’t care either way. But I’m not playing this bullshit game. I’m just logging it here for me.

So they put me to sleep, only to wake me up maybe an hour or so later, to act like they accidentally revealed themselves to me and do their little blow straw thing at me at my actual eyes or third eye to hide themselves?

Shit ain’t adding up!

AND I have seen many different types of Entities so far but all of these ones today seemed the same. So I wonder if they are just wearing costumes. Again, why would they completely reveal themselves to me? It’s just one lie after the other after the other why wouldn’t their appearance not be a lie too? One thing that seems to be consistent is that these Entities have a ring around them. This ring I almost feels like it may cloak half their body or up to their head and helps them move around. Idk I could be wrong. But that’s what it looked like.

I can’t believe I can’t find anyone I can really bounce this shit off of. I listen to a lot of different people who actually talks about this stuff. But again they only have part so far. Or I would have to pay money to have a convo with them about this. Or our theories don’t align at some point. Which is fine. But I mean idk.

Heeeeeelp!!! Lol

Healers can’t seem to find the voice

I’ve been to so many light workers and healers and they can clear attachments (which are non conscious entities) but they can’t seem to remove this voice. The Entity that put them there.

I don’t know why.

The house is plagued with non conscious entities. But this one Entity that won’t shut up and says and does gross things like rape me…… they can’t seem to see or remove.

Why?