Photo of what I usually see

Like this is the most obvious photo I have taken. I would zoom in or not have it on a white background or in bright lights so your eyes can adjust. Im trying to look at it now in my bathroom lights and all I see it a black photo. 

If I’m totally bugging let me know. 

The photos of what I drew are here. I have seeming them for 6+ months. I think one or more contribute to the schizophrenia. 



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Tree of Life: Archon False Chakra system


This is EXACTLY how they set up the false chakra system over the body. I can see it. Except the first two on the side are closer to the temple/ears and the shoulder one is under the arm pit, the root being the most important extends from the thigh area (inner mostly) to the butt area so to debase your vibrations. 

It’s bullshit. I never had this shit before, I never agreed to it, I never asked for it.  I did yoga like what three in my life after this all started to calm mass ass down. Now a bitch can’t be flexible with out worrying about being possessed?

These chakras are made from the same stuff floating all over my house and spitting sparkle balls at my forehead or whatever it does. 

It’s soo fux up. No one should be forced into this. 

This is so sad that this is all false.

Sister Sister (pt. whatever) 😇🙏😈

So tonight my sister asked me to help her in the bed. And I have slowly been trying to ween her off of asking me for help. I mean she had a stroke, didn’t really push herself in physically therapy as much I would have like to have seen, but FORCED herself to go back to work being partially disabled now. Not because its a lot of money but because she loves her job. And my moms and I best instincts we supported her. It would be good exercise. 

Which means that half of my life is currently dedicated to making sure she looks good for the world. But at home constantly cleaning up human waste, helping her put on clothes and getting her things. But some how she braves the streets on NYC and goes to work at rush hour. Which is more than I have been able to do unless its another emergency. 

My sister asked me to help her to bed. But for some strange reason I help he to bed and she gets up 5 mins later for juice and then asks for help again. Sooooo….  I told her NO this time. I tried to explain to her why and she told me to “shut up!“. So I told her, “Fuck you! You’re so RUDE!

And GUESS What the Demon tried to do, tried to GUILT me about the ENERY I was sending my sister and saying it was going to go over and kill her because I told her “fuck you”. 

So I told the demon, “Fuck you too go back to hell”. I thought if this demon wants to hurt my sister at this point that is that Demons choice not mine. What am I gonna do? Grab at air? I already tried that smacking one out of her room. I already put up prayers on every mirror. I bit my tongue and faked being happy for her healing process and was having (still) having a delusional break down being burned and raped all the while having to be a maid and being yelled at. 

This whole being “conscious of the energy I bring our put out there” is now another form of GUILT for this demon to play with after working on many layer and finally getting to a place of soon braving the world. Like I’m not allowed to say NO. I said NO to this Demon(s) so many times and yet . …….Here it remains. I’ve ignored it, I’ve scolded my skin with hot herbal baths, I prayed, I’ve paid, I’ve given up everything in this false “ascension”. 

My sister is not my child and she reminds me of hold old she is every week. I just wish we were just….. Sisters again. 

Since she going back to work now, I have tried to focus on getting a game plan together for my own healing. On my own. Since nothing I paid for worked other than ODing on benadryl /sleep medication and some fake ass excuse for this perverse Demon being in my life “shamans” calling it a “generational curse”.

Check This! I can still be conscious of my “energy” and still express myself. How amazing is that!? Even if I didn’t have this Demon pop up and try to murder me I still would be angry. Look at the world! It’s where I channel my anger. And at the same time I can’t be responsible how some perceives my “energy”. I can only be responsible for how I carry myself. If that person is so perceptive then they should also have compassion in understanding that persons “energy” as well, while simultaneously not taking it on as their own. But I also understand that there are people unaware, sensitive and under attack. Like me. 

The Demon said, “let the games begin!”

😩😒 UHg.

Lost Souls 👤🙏 & Fire

I have heard many theories on what these circular shape things are around my house. Some say its souls/spirits, some say angels, some say archon/ reptialian, I have yet to read anyone directly relate this things with Satan but they sure do come close. 

So one thing I noticed is that these things do NOT like heat. Although they can produce what may feel like heat (nerve / electrical). Actual heat is not what they love. This includes actual fire and HOT water, say in a bath or the outside of a glass of HOT tea.

I guess this came up for me because I woke up, felt one of these things on the top of my hand and the used my eyes to see if there was one there, and then saw the darker middle half way out my hand. I then placed my piping hot coffee cup on the back of my hand and saw it rise up slowly. 

Whatever these things are if they remove themselves from my body after being put in hot water then to me that means THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE THERE! 

Maybe I am getting too biblical but maybe these are lost souls, that would endlessly burn in fire. Since they don’t die in heat, but don’t like heat they just run away, they often come back. Or maybe these lost souls are being USE by Reptilians (which i could def see them being thought of as demons back in the day).

They are slowly accumulating all over the house. Edges of the ceiling. And some so bold and big right in the middle of the room.

I’m just tired of these things attaching to me. I know my vibrations are “low” because whatever is orchestrating this, keeps using child sexual abuse to make me super sad and grossed out and cry. Which probably just feeds them all. But I TRY, and when I try to not allow the visions to bring me down (cause they are not real), I get attached even more. 

These things touching my skin are causing rashes, burning, vibration and discomfort. 

When I deal with emotional now its the physical with these things burning.

I’m TRYing SO HARD! 🙏

Woke up with Marks 😮👽

I woke up this morning with two circles in the same area on my left arm where I had numbers 8966 imprinted in September. 

There was also a bruise on the top of my hand in the shape of kidney bean. 

Last night before I went to sleep I started feeling stings all over my arms and legs…. Almost like what I would think jelly fish stings…. So I went to the bathroom and put some fold water. 

Not I have straight up circles on my arms. 

Uhg I’m the only being attacked and seeing all of this stuff. …. I’m so over this.

Soon as I go to sleep all these Archon Circles keep hovering around me making it almost impossible to sleep. I’m like DAMN y’all are so RUDE you can’t wait until I actually go to sleep? 

Shits so annoying. 

Understanding Space: Portal?

So there are a few things going on.

There is what I see, which look like Large Human Cells (sometimes with symbols inside) all around the house. And then there is what i see in Photos. Which seem a little more detailed, in appearance. Then there is what i hear and feel. Which i am not even sure correlates with whats going on.

I have been taking photos over the last 5 days of my house and my body to see if there was any progress. My friend sent me some energy with flowers and that was really nice. But for the most part I still see these….. projections of sorts.

Now i see the circles, and i am wondering if each circle (Human Cell/ Archon Jelly fish i talk about) is directly related to one of the Entity Projections I see. in photos At least the major ones.

So far I see in photos: A medusa/ banshee looking woman, reptilian looking dude, an insectoid (maybe 3), trolls (maybe a few), Buddha looking guy, “Osiris” looking dude with a reptilian under), and MAYBE an Isis near my bed. I see like other little thing here and there, like one that looks like Stitch from lilo and stitch, and a bunch that look like geckos heads, a pig, alien heads and bunch of other things. They all have a ghosty look to them. Almost 2D holographic appearance to them.

The Osiris and Isis are gone now from what i can see. Still see the medusa lady and i know reptilian looking dude is still here, and some crazy gecko things, a troll.

What i see with my eyes: X, O, 8 infinity signs, #, 4 horizontal lines, human cell looking blobs, one with many circles with in each other (sleep one), sometimes an alien head or just eyes, these kinda black spider blobs, My friends smiley face and flower energy she sent me. Most of it is purplish, blue, black or white tone to it.

SO i guess what i am wondering is if what i see (the symbols) are directly related or a portal for each spirit projection i see in photos. 

I am also wondering if this a human sending these entities, talupas, portals or whatever to me as well. Been thinking about this since my friend sent me the smiley face and flowers. 

I live in New York City, so there is bound to be many spirits or whatever these things are. Im not afraid of them, but when they attach to me in any way my energy is zapped and its extremely painful. Half the time i want to eat immediatly after. I don’t know if its just me or my family. If this has been going on before i got here, or if this is something i brought here because i was so sad after a break up.

Im trying to stay a bit logical.

I want to make sure these things are cleared out before i ever choose to leave for my families health. Whatever is here, i can not see being directly from my family to be honest (like a generational curse). And its not like its a loved on that passed on, and they seem to seek to harm.

I really want to clear this for my sister, she has been looking more and more tired lately. Not to mention they threaten all my family, friends and loved ones anytime i figure something out or try a method to get rid of them. My sister is pushing herself to the max to over come this stroke (which for some reason i associate with these entities). So like i really want my family to be ok now that I can see and have a better scope of whats happening or how they move around the house.

I put prayers on all of my mirrors as directed by one website, burned some sage, prayed. I’m trying so hard. This is not fair to my family or anyone if they are trying to hurt me.

I know this stuff sounds crazy, cause it is!!!

It doesnt even seem real. There is some part of it that is real, like the fact that it makes feel like shit everyday. But im not even sure about this ghostly looking projections in the photos.

OK THATS ALL FOR TODAY!!!

 

The Reason My Parent Divorced. 😔

When I was say 3 years old my parents spit up because my mom wanted to get their own place and not live with my father. 

The icing on the cake was when I kept talking about “the monsters” which they then took me and my twin sister to therapy where they assumed the monster I was talking about was my father, and took the leap to say that my father molested me. This sealed the deal on the divorce and I was never to see my father again.

I went my whole life thinking my father molested me not even truly knowing what it is but something bad. And I hated him for it. 

12 years later my mom contacts my dad, he said he would never, my mom believed him, they remarry and we move to the city. I finish high school but they soon kick me out because I was gay (19 yo.) So life sucked balls. 

I have tried for a long time to make it on my own and I think did a decent job of doing so while trying to help my friends in their time of need as well. But I slowly repaired my relationship with my parents in that time away and was proud of that. 

Now I moved back here, some 15 years later and guess what I’m seeing monsters again. And its molesting me, and trying to force incestious, sick perverted thoughts, and ruining my life yet again. AINT THAT SOME SHIT. 

The building I live in is a bunch of resident doctors and nurses who all work at the hospital close by, so combine whatever monster I saw as a kid, and whatever spirit, energies these doctors bring home, and living in the heart of NYC I’m sure this is just a cesspool of negative energies. 

My mom cleans the house every other day. We moved a lot of things around in the house, and redorated the whole house which usually kicks up energies as well. I just don’t know how to remove them or send them where they belong. 

None of this schizophrenia started until I moved here. Not at this level.  Its like yea I heard or saw a shadow here or there…. But this is woa. I have pictures of energy in my house. So I’m not crazy. 

Now that I can “see” these energies now, I looked at a picture of my sister prior to her stroke and there was a big purple circle thing around the eye that she went blind in. Thank god through surgery she was able to get her sight back. But what is the agenda of these Entities and energies?

So these entities possibly broke up my parents and blinded my sister and declinded all of our health all the while I am having a schizophrenic break down watching all of this shit play out. The storyline about my ex (twin flame) and getting him back and past lives was all a distraction for the pain and havoc they were reeking in our lives to obtain what I assume is the energy they need.

Tonight I cried at the dinner table because the Entity kept molesting me every time my Dad made a sound when he ate his diner. He had a tracheotomy because of the surgery so he makes this strange noise. But reasoning doesn’t stop these Entities from doing what they do, and I broke down, I was weak, I gave them what they wanted, I cried because I’m tiresy of being molested by sick, nasty, dark distgusting evil Entities at every opportunity. 

Part of me wants to run away and the other wants to stay and clear this bullshit out for my families sake, but they are duplicating all over the house. they are everywhere (TV, cellphones, microwave, bathroom sink handle, soap pump, above the diner table, above and side of beds, different sizes colors, forms) and I have yet to figure out how to physically remove them.

😭🙏🙈

Love + Light Energy 💫 🙏

My friend sent me real love and light energy. It didn’t hurt, it wasn’t invasive or aggressive. It was kind it asked permission to enter my house even after I gave her permission. That’s called consent. 

Unlike whatever entities have set up shop in my mothers house.

Now the demonic archon alien ai copy bot jelly fish blobs tried to copy her energy to act like her. Probably to get me distrust her. I could tell that it was them because it was aggressive, I could hear its janky frequency coming near me, it hurt and was trying to suck my energy and the smile was a bit different. 

Its like GMO spirituality. The difference between real clean natural healing nutritional energy and dirty, fake, dangerous energy. 

We have to learn to discern. 

I am so greatful for that experience my friend gave me. It made me have some faith in the spiritual world. That MAYBE, not all are mean or gross or eventually becomes that when it wants to control you. Maybe.

Many are out here seeking, doing drugs or are willing to listen to the first thing that pops up in their sphere just to have a “spiritual experience”.

Its like I find the words to put it all together but my feelings about all of this I haven’t sorted out. I’m amazed, shocked, sadden, hopeful, angry, grateful…… 

I just want our people to be OK. We do not need to suffer like this when we could be using that energy to help the planet and each other. And there are enough things that happen in the world that we have to deal with to then top it off with alien possession, is just. .. Lame.

Keeping the faith 🙏

Twin Flame or Alien Love Bite? – Alien Orchestrated Human Bonding Dramas

https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/vida_alien/alien_lovebite01.htm

So this article only speaks on the aliens love bite but I will also look up information if someone has written anything on the direct correlation between alien love bites and twin flame.

If you think about it it makes sense. Entities supposedly feed off of negative energy and whats worse than a long drawn out longing for the love that is unrequited?

What’s funny is that many many many in the “twin flame” community are also those in the “love and light” and yet seem extremely unaware. 

There are teenagers on YouTube and forums BEGGING to meet their “twin flame”, and that actuallybsvares me because it is something way beyond you “meeting the greatest karmic love of your life”, if anything it’s bullshit.

What it really is, is having extreme emotions and a longing for love that more than likely you will never get as long as these Entities are involved because they are playing you like a puppet. They watch you, they will pretend to be your twin flame to so sexual things to you.

And if you finally lay down the card call twin flame, it only gets worse. Etheric love making with your “twin flame” becomes entity rape. Spiraling down a rabbit hole of spiritually reasons that you feel a pain that is not justifyable until you hit the bottom and ran out of reasons…. That bottom is called Schizophrenia. 

Schizophrenia is torture with no story line other than your own freedom and soon the freedom of humanity once you realize how to humanity has been hypnotized.

Its sad, but I’m not quite sure why, of course “harvesting” negative energy or whatever, but with all of this technology being used couldn’t they figure out to replicate “negative energy to feed off of”? I mean humans are growing ears on rats, I think intelligent aliens can come up with an alternative method to meddling I. Human affairs and torturing the population for “negative energy”. 

I wonder if all the people making money off of twin flames actually explain this to people? Or do they profit from peddling a delusion to keep making money? 

And THATS where the spiritual community got me fucked up. And they have nerve to speak about religion. 

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