Decolonizing Socio Political Spirituality

“The personal is political, the political is personal”

As i wade through the “spiritual” community i have tried to keep an open mind that other wont share the same views or experience as mine. That i was entering a vast arena with people from all backgrounds but our main common thread is spiritual growth.

And while i have been able to keep my cool in most discourse as they crop up, i have found myself feeling more and more isolated from the “spiritual community” due to socio political differences or ignorance.

One of the main and most recent happenings that has boggled my mind is this exaltation of Trump as a “whistle blower on the Illuminati” or elite pedos….. in the spiritual community, which i am still trying to figure out HOW. It is absolutely ridiculous. Anyone who supports Trump supports poor moral judgement and dare i say white supremacy. While many feel that it is freedom speech, this human has gone on to make fun of the Disabled, Women, Native Americans (calling warren pocohantas), and people of color openly at his rallies. I see him more as a bully than i have seen any other president in my life. But more so, it is his history and policies that scare me the most as he creeps into the “spiritual community” as some savior, which is clearly a tactic by conservatives.

Let us not forget that his father was associated with KKK in a riot that broke out in Jamaica Queens in 1927. Also in 1989 Trump took out an $85,000 Ad calling for the death penalty following the Central Park 5 case in which 5 young black and latino boys where forced into admitting a rape they never committed. But in April of 2016 Trump was also brought child sex allegations that fell on deaf ears and who later retracted her case because there were severe threats on her life. Now three years later there are “spiritual” and conspiracy blogs trying to paint Trump as a whistle blower on the elite pedophiles. I am really confused. To me if he is blowing any whistles it is only to save his own ass and to separate himself from Epsteine who he was close friends with.

However Trumps administrations handling of immigrants here in America is deplorable alone. Children in cages, loosing 1,500 children, Over 4,000 children reported being sexually assaulted in the ICE detention camps and the round up of ALL undocumented immigrants which apparently began Sunday and will create fear with in many communities. If the administration did not have the infrastructure to properly handle immigration in such “a hands on” manner, they should not have separated children from their families until there was structure and employees in place to handle immigration at this magnitude. This isn’t about being a democrat and republican to me. This is about what is right….. and how things have been handled has not aired on the side of right TO ME.

I just watched an ICE rally and all of the Trump supporters trolled the comments echoing Trumps statements and telling people to “Go Home” “If you don’t like it here leave” …….. Why if i don’t agree with a policy my only option is to leave my country of origin? Is that not what democracy is about? Trump knows exactly what he is doing! Trump has not empowered the American people but has debased them to their lowest selves and lowest common denominator ….. Hate and fear. The racists are prompted by the trigger words that Trump uses. It’s like a tick in their brains. They are like small children repeating what they hear. They have no real analysis on the issues, just racist rhetoric and trigger words spewed by Trump. It almost makes me want to cry to see what we have been reduced to because the president has set the standard of our country.

It actually breaks my heart to see racist belligerently yelling at immigrants and people of color and telling them to go back to where they came from. Because from a spiritual perspective these individuals are not acting as their best and highest selves. They have demons inside of them that hates …. And they are feeding them fully with in this administrative term.

Moving along from Trump cause honestly i could go all day. Another big issue that i have seen in the spiritual community is blatant Homophobia and Transphobia. I all too often had to swallow my pride reading some of the homophobia that is circulated on facebook. I am not going to battle every single homophobe, i don’t have that type of energy to waste however i will unfollow, not support, and move on with my life. I had a few “spiritual” friends who would post anti-lgbt misinformation. Like one video where they were connecting LGBT to pedos (which is what they have always done as a fear tactic) because one school wanted to teach LGBT history in it’s curriculum . LGBT people are not pedos, that is like saying all LGBT are rapists. Pedos are rapists of children, it is not a sexual orientation between two contenting adults. Thats one and two, many carry their conservative Christian beliefs around sex, gender and orientation and some how wrap it in New Age language further isolating those who do not identify as cis heterosexual people. It wasn’t until i watched this video on Higher Self (a spiritual youtube channel), did i have enough. That particular channels is suppose to be talking about aliens and spirits and energy updates and for whatever reason they allowed this 30 minute rants about how transgender isn’t a real thing and they are just confused people.

What people don’t understand is that they have the privilege of not having to think twice about post like these. It does not hurt them or their immediate communities. However these sentiments being spewed on whatever forum or platform is the same sentiments that allowed for 1 trans person killed per day in 2017. If you are spewing this type of hatred then you are a part of the problem and are co-conspirators in the death of innocent trans peoples lives. It is really that simple.

I am already exhausted.

I think the one major issue that no one really wants to touch, is race here in America. All too often any time a major racial charged conflict come to light in America, I hear the spiritual conspiracy theorist start talking about “false flags” and all this nonsense. No one wants to claim their ancestors deeds and no one wants to claim their privilege that they benefit from and that is one the major reckonings here in America. Any time someone starts talking about race some spiritual person comes in and starts talking about how “oh this is a false race war being created” or “people need to stop being victims” “slavery is over, I’m not a slave owner” “that is “reverse racism”” these are just SOME of the nonsense i hear and commentary used to silence black and brown people from analyzing in public forums and speaking out about the pain of their experience here in America.

Slavery and soon to be the policies around the prison industrial complex is a major demon that ALL of America has to face. People want to look to the future but don’t want to see all the ways in which our present is being shaped by our past. Much of the prison system is a form a modern day slavery, and we know for a fact the black and brown people are arrested and sentenced at a disproportionate rate. We have in NYC policies like the “Stop and Frisk” in which officers where told to racially profile in specific black and brown neighborhoods to meet daily quotas. This is just one example of the many ways in which black and brown people experience real racism and systemic racism here in America. This isn’t made up, a false flag, someone just trying to play victim. Communities of color face many forms of police brutality (which stems from the civil rights era when the police would use excessive force like water hoses and dogs) and you want to say “All lives matter”, but never show up when its an innocent black person dead at the hands of the cops. And when Black Lives Matter was created, it was created to say STOP KILLING US! But for some reason BML became a threat because their platform was so vast and gained support of celebrities and politicians alike. Now the racists or covert racists want to believe that the Democratic party is garnering hatred for cis white heterosexual males, instead of understanding it an an analysis of their history of violence here in America (world?).

The fact that most “spiritual” people don’t have to, or choose not to think about these things is a privilege. Their communities aren’t being devastated. Their people aren’t being harassed or murdered by hatred. And I think about this every day. The lives that were lost for merely existing. If your spirituality excludes actual history and analysis and includes hatred or blissful ignorance, count me the fuck out. And that is what privilege is. It is not your experience, it is not in your face everyday so you don’t have think about it everyday, you just benefit from the fact that these isms exist. Everything is catered to you. You don’t have to carve space out in a the “spiritual” community, or defend vulnerable/ marginalized communities that are suffering at the hands of racism, homophobia, xenophobia and ablism on a daily basis.

And what kills me is that our history has been sooooo white washed that Jesus and Nefertiti who are of African blood are apparently white now. Much of the spiritual community gets to pick and choose what they like from other ethnic groups while not really giving a fuck about that particular community. Spiritual appropriation is a real thing. And honestly I believe we need to Decolonize Spirituality.

What does Decolonizing Spirituality look like?

Glad you asked! An understanding and appreciation for indigenous people culture and healing practices with out using the Wellness Guru Model to profit off of it for white consumption.

Decolonize “Inspirational Meme Culture” which makes me want to vomit a little bit, understanding that putting some “inspirational quote” next to a half naked white woman in a traditional Native American head dress in some forest IS NOT SPIRITUAL. Not because she is half naked but because that quote and that image are two very separate things. The image is one of appropriation, and is disrespectful to indigenous culture.

If you want to act like you care about black and brown people supporting environmental factors that effect black and brown people…… i don’t know say something as simple as WATER. We can all agree that water is a basic human right, right?

Creating new healing modalities that address racism, sexism, homophobia, xenophobia and ableism with in the spiritual communities. Anti-racism work IS apart of healing, for all of us. Understanding the ways in which we perpetuate racism, sexism, homophobia, xenophobia and ableism and ways we can dismantle that, is in fact spiritual growth. The longer we allow it to fester, too afraid to touch it because we think love and light is enough, the bigger of a monster we will have to defeat, and the beast is pretty damn big already.

We need to embody our highest selves and fighting for the liberation and rights of all people is in fact a spiritual process. Caring for the safety regardless of sex, gender, race, orientation or creed of all people is the highest form of empathy. Unless we can do this, look outside of our own experience, then love nor light will help us and the evil ones will prevail in keeping us divided.

We are here to brake the chains of for ancestors and at the same time create a BETTER world for the future generations. If we simply think that love and light (thoughts and prayers) will save us and not deep analysis along with structural change we will never meet the healing that is waiting for us as a generation.

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New Age: Channeled Messages πŸ‘½

So before i go into this topic i wanted to make a note that last night i was sleeping and these demon assholes woke me up at 5am shouting and screaming in almost a helium voice. And then i wake up and i felt a humming vibration leave my body specifically my head and move to the left of me on my bed.

I could see the energy swirling in the air and a shadow on the surface of my bed. I saw it moving around back and forth like a tornado standing still……My sheets started moving like there was actual pressure on the sheets. While i was frighten at first cause i just woke up i as always exchange my FEAR for CURIOSITY. I watched it for a little while to make sure i was seeing what i was seeing. And then i just said “you guys are assholes……” (for waking me up at 5am) and went to the bathroom.

So they make it so hard to sleep at night for some reason. Also as a note my eyes are very tender today. The vibration feeling was at other spots of my body as well. And i figured this is how they make dreams feel so real sometimes. But maybe im wrong. Not sure totally the purpose of vibration energy. Anyways just making a note.

CHANNELED MESSAGES

So in the New Age community there are a lot of Channelers. Or people encouraging others to be “clairaudiant” or clairsentient ect. Which basically means you can sense or communicate with non sentient beings…. energy …. whatever.

There are some that listen and relay the message and there are people who allow the beings to speak through them.

Sigh. Yall!

Like first of all most of these people have no idea who or what they are talking to. Very few of us can see these beings fully. Only in part. Like you may only see the light magic illusion/vision they show you but not their true for walking the earth. Or you might see just the energy clouds of their being with your two eyes but not the actual form. The demon/aliens that I SEE…. LOVE to “play”. This can be in our waking life or dreams. They love to take on different personalities (real or made up). And they are able to do so THROUGH US. If they dont have a conduit to an audience, does it really matter? A bald headed casper the ghost looking alien was pretending to be telepathy with my ex in the begining. Even sounded like him too. But it wasnt my ex, it was and entity of sorts probably with a costume on. (YEA I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CRAZY!). But i have seen them use masks and like put coverings on. I honestly can’t even make this stuff up. Its not even what i want to bring into the world. Tbh.

Like y’all out here channeling and allowing just any ol’ entities to speak through you? They are PLAYING YOU! It is not some someones grandma or paladian alien or arch angel ect! Like get your shit together! You are renting out your body part time to a being you have no idea what it is or its true intention. Do you have sex with just anyone? And even if you did have sex with someone that is appealing (in one way or another) ….. What is to say they are not lying to you just to have sex with you?

That is what you are doing with these beings. Renting out your body to unknown beings. While these beings may enter my body …… I DO NOT CONSENT! So essentially they are rapists and trespassers. Who is to say they will not feel entitled to your body at some point? And just start taking you over and blacking you out when ever?

I mean i first thought it was a spirit or an angel (oooo pretty sparkles)…. Then telepathy with my ex….. Then reptillian and mantis aliens….. Then just old fashion demons….. Want to know why? Because no matter WHAT the situation was……… There was a LIE in there. They were lying about SOMETHING. And that takes time, observation and discernment to really see.

Like im not really trying to play with these beings. They hurt physically. Even when they try to give “pleasure” with soft touches or air lightly blowing or even forced orgasm….. It’s creepy AF.

One of the first times i encountered a “spirit” it pretended to be Zora Neal Hurston (who i adore) as my school project was on her life and legacy. And i wrote a piece about how she came to me in spirit during my studies. DO YOU KNOW Alice Walker wrote a short story “The Ghost of Zora Neal Hurston”. I found out because my professor asked if i had read anything by Alice Walker. I said No. And found out the Walker wrote a story similar to mine. So these demon alien assholes were out here trying to make it look like i was plagiarizing! Which could have got me licked out of school. ASSHOLES! It took me reviewing my life to see where they played me like this.

Im sorry but yall are getting played and spreading the SAME STUPID MESSAGE EVERY SINGLE TIME! EVERY TIME! from different channelers too! “The shift is happening” “ascension is on its way” “twin flames unite next month!” “New energies are on its way”. You all should be ASHAMED of yourselves for what you are doing to the public to get a buck or attention. Same messages since like 2011!

Yall are playing with/getting played by DEMONS. And misinformating the public at the same time which is opening more people to getting played and getting attacked and keeping them from God!. Thats an awakening right there!

Smh. So done with the shit!

Love and light! πŸ™πŸ’©

Awakened or Woke? πŸ‘€

Lol at this image tho. Like my skull felt like it was literally being cracked open like an egg by tgese demons.

Im not gonna lie. I drank the red kool aid. Like guzzled that bitch down like it was a chaser. I wanted answers and the New Age knew EXACTLY what to sell me.

Prepped with spiritual memes….. FB posts showing up on my timeline about the “1111 awakening” “are you seeing 1111?” Which is basically an initiation into their demon matrix to see how easily suggested you are. Angels and seeing pretty sparkles lights….. Orbs.

Awakening. I thought it would be like an awesome DMT trip. Maybe i would meet my “spirit guide” or a loved one….God…. Maybe the angels that i THOUGHT followed me all this time. I thought i would be in a different place some how. All the cool kids talk about astral projection. Who doesnt want to know what’s out there? Beyond.

But “the veils lifted” or maybe more so the wool was officially pullwd over my eyes…… the “shift happeded” i was “awakened” and i was not happy. At all.

See what i found was …. From my perspective is that from what i see this is just demon play. You are basically playing with little devils. And yea they maybe nice to you at first. Say they are an angel or a goddesss (mine did), but they lie and want to rape you and play with you and force you into suicide or misery. So that is the short version.

Ops so your awakening is fun…… Must be “the dark night of the soul”. Like yall got the juice for everything. Honestly dark night was being demonically attacked with nothing being able to stop it. They controlled my mind and body. They could insight false emotions ranging from a “happy/love” to “depression/suicide”. I knew it wasnt genuine. I could feel it in my body. These werent my genuine emotions. And it was sligjtly depressing….. But i knew the difference. “Dark night of the soul” “karmic lessons” are poor excuses for demonic torture really.

These demons place you in a matrix (for lack of a better word) of themselves which is inhabited by smaller little demons … And even smaller ones then that. So small there could multipul ones in your eyes. They are the vital structure and characters in our dreams/visions…… Even you as the onlooker.

So you are in this demon matrix….. Since you have no clue wtf is going on …… You can easily be dooped into thinking its an Angel or a nice being…. Alien maybe even who knows. But we only see or feel in part. Not the whole. Or mayne they only show you their light illusion version (can shape shift into anything) and not what they really look like.

When folks do their astral journeys and such they are really just having some really bright demons playing around in their head. I hate to burst the bubble. Its a dream. An illusion. The demons are the astral and made of aether (i think), something like that. They are made of light and work the aethers. Space. Lucifer was described as the “light barrier”. These beings/demons are made of light as well. And they are all attached to each other in a hive mind like matrix.

Its hell on earth.

So are people really awakened? Because honestly it feels like everyone is just telling a bunch of lullibys to some really scary shit. Like what they do with faries and vampires. Before vampires where like the scariest thing in the world….. Now we got movies where bitches is marrying one and having babies them. Like watered down shit.

I get it. Its scary. Its not fun….. To just accept a bleek reality that our world is over runned with demons who are using you and lying to you.

But its the reality. They are putting illusions over your eyes. And we are drinking the kool aid….. Its our own spiritual death really.

In the New Age community they are talking about awakening and acension ……. And 5D new earth…. 3rd eye astral…. and its always about getting some place other then where you are in the present like its some unobtainable video game. Find your TRUE “mission” when you awaken.

I was of service and dedicated my life to my community for 15 years and maybe even longer if you count as a child cleaning up the forests. And no this doesnt have to mean i was an”indigo child” , i cleaned it up cause it was gross and i wanted to play.

Like why isnt your mission some regular degular shit? Like why it gotta be “saving humanity”…… Buuuuuuuuut you are just basically sharing delusions and false information on youtube.😐

Unfortunately giving a fuck in this society seems like a super power. But its what we are suppose to do. I give a fuck. I give a fuck that my people that are being given false hopes and information to drive them into demonic play that will slowly lean them astray and further from God only confusing them more and possibly loosing all faith if not having some remixed version of the truth.

Are we going to be awakened or woke? Woke to the realities of both the 3D physical plane and the lies of the spiritual world?

Im not playing the game anymore.

New Age vs. New World Order

I definitely fell into the New Age community because at the time they seemed to have answers for many of the strange experiences i was beginning to have. Seeing sparkles and flashes of light, dreams, “spirit” communication, visions, seeing “angel numbers” all the time 1111 to just name a few. But…… As soon as my experience took a left turn into a schizophrenic nightmare i was called crazy, dark, not of the light, negative ect by people in FB groups. And honestly those are things that me nor most of the people who know me.

I found that this was how many dealt with people in the spiritual community when someone was having a “spiritual crisis” or an entity attack if not that the basic elemantary suggestion of a salt bath and white light was prescribed to remedy the situation.

As i read on many of the posts. I found a great deal of many religious beliefs melded into one. Calling on Jesus and goddesses …. Metaphysically opening of the “third eye”….. Beliefs that the aliens were here to “help us grow and ascend” to the “new earth” or 5D as well as occult stuff.

Is was all one big tangled ball of beliefs. And while i originally come from a mindset of respecting everyones belief (with in reason), i also had a difficult time accepting Christianity as one i WAS queer and two i lost faith in the church when i was a kid when our pastor raped a 14 year old and everyone still accepted him as the pastor. Not to mention wars.

But i have come to terms. I can belueve in Jesus and God and the word and not necessarily be “Christian”. Im ok with that as apart of my current path.

A few problems i have with the New Age is the appropriation of peoples culture and beliefs with out much respect to the actual people. They use dieties and rituals and practices with out any regard to the depth of understanding thst goes behind that. Each symbol, each diety, figure, practices, food, holiday ect.

With that…. Much of the New Agers talk about “all is one, one is all” or “we are all connected” or “the veils are being lifted” …. Promoting telepathy and communication with “the other side”. Most are ok with the lie. The other side of “the veil” is fucking scary! Do you know that. Its absolutely insane and scary. But they are apart of this world. They are everywhere and NO irs not your deceased grandma Sally. Its a demon playing GAMES.

Now all these demons are connected. They have telpathic communication networks of sorts. And so the demon or some call it “a familiar spirit” that has been hanging around you or your family will tell a psychics demons all you want to hear. So you keep playing and paying.

All is one….. The melding of religions and beliefs seems soooooo….. New World Order-ish to me. One world one government one monitary system one belief.

These demons are out here melding belief systems to keep you confused. Half these people do not know what they are playing with. They THINK they are playing with angels but if they revealed their true form you would probably be shocked. And thats the lie! You really think Arch Angel Micheal is speaking to a thousand basic ass bettys on youtube? Right!

They are playing up “the event” and people think the aliens are coming down or a new earth 5d paradise will magically appear. Dudes? Really? If everyone believes this shit just enough….. When that veil actually comes down they can play whatever they want. Aliens, new messiah, ect. They will have officially dooped everyone because everyone believes in everything and we all sitting here confused as shit.

Im done with the game and lies.

You know what a 3rd eye opening is? A demon sucking on your shit feeding you useless visions, dreams, and suggestions. Mind manipulation. And you fell for it. I did too……. Of course i wanna talk to my ancestor or an angel or whatever…… But that aint them!

Just cause you got the bright side of the New Age rainbow doesnt mean your shit aint dark. It means you are naive and gullible.

Keep playing!

3rd Eye Misconceptions (youtube)

So there are alot of misinformation being circulated on the internet and especially YouTube. I never really looked to “opening my 3rd eye” until it was already happening.

I always had an active imagination and dreams from a child to an adult. But never had VISIONS i could not control. Most of these visions involved my worse fears which is the harm of children or my ex.

My second vision was my ex’s best friend “remote viewing me” through what seemed like a crystal ball as she smoked weed. And when i had that vision i then passed out on my sofa.

After that i looked into 3rd eye stuff because i was trying to protect myself from her and my ex cause at that point i felt like i was being cursed.

The entity that then did this to me would blow on my forehead each night. Which is probably documented somewhere in this blog. The entity was/is using my ex as a mask to scare me and drive me crazy.

I thought if my third eye opened up lol like a child …. That i would be opened up to another world or something that looked like an Alex Grey painting….. Idk. Something different. Not uncontrollable disgusting visions.

To be honest it a real slippery slope into “occult” stuff. It starts off with horoscopes ….. Maybe dream interpretations…..crystals…. All thepretty stuff…. New Age stuff…… Angel numbers….. Then tarot…. Contacting your “spirit guides, ancestors, higher self ect”, Then rituals and magic. Then boom full blown nightmare. If you are one of the lucky ones that is not having an absolute nightmare with this shit GREAT. Try denouncing all that stuff and see what happens.

I can say things happened to me first and i looked for answers via the internet and the occult and new age were the only ones that had answers at the time. Comforting answers. Who doesnt want to think that their deceased grandma…. Or ancestors….. Or angels…. Is around them looking after them? But these are pacifiers of the actual truth.

The same little demons playing in your mind at night to create dreams are the same ones during the day giving you dreams…. Acting as ghosts….. Acting as your grandma…. A reptillian…… Crazy visions. They can shapeshift. I have seen it with my own “eyes” a few times. I saw a woman in a vision and stared harder at it and she then became a praying mantis demon. I dont know why but it happened a few times.

The same thing that tortures me others play with fine. Why is that?

This man say…. “A (kundalini) snake going up your spine is not holy” . i had manybpeople a gurus trying to explain my torment as a part of this process to enlightenment. ?????? I considered what they said but something wasnt quiet right. No amountvof effort or money made it stop.

In the bible the snake is seen as the devil. But in kundalini the snake is seen as “wisdom”. The snake in the bible tempted Eve to be as wise as God. So i guess their is some correlation there.

Ever since this “kundalini awakening” that i didnt ask for or attempt to induce….. I have zero control over my own imagination (among other things).

In many ways i ran through all these different concepts only to find they are cover ups for demonic play……. And YOU dont benifit from it ….. They demons then have a host that they can run a muck in and have fun. Acting as anything from telepathy with a loved one to God. …. Higher self. …. Ect ect.

All that pain you go through calling it “kundalini” is bullshit….. They are hurting you on purpose ….. The entities are melding their being with yours and since that is NOT suppose to happen it hurts or causes a reaction of sorts.

I personally thought that the pineal gland was our new covenant with God. Where God is suppose to communicate with us. But now ….. Idk. I have been toyed with so much by demons that i dont trust it anymore.

I must have completely blind faith at this point. I can not connect with God like i thought we did… But i believe. And if there are these filthy demons around i believe there is something out there equally if not greater GOOD….. And that is God.

Sun Lamp 🌞

I’m legit thinking about limiting my electronic time and getting a sun lamp until its warm enough to go outside. 

I’m not depressed other that the fact I have endure the pain of this situation. And I already take vitamin D. My mood is only because of this experience other wise I’m pretty happy go lucky. 

saw some affordable ones so I might just ask for one as an early Xmas gift.

My friend who has also experienced this and has confirmed some things for me told me to look into making a DIY Earthing Grounding mat. I was so use to farming barefoot at my old job when I had the chance or being on the beach. Now I guess the best I can do is fake sunlight and fake earthing until I am able to purge these nasty entities.

The prayers I have been doing seem to only make me be attacked harder.

I know we are suppose to be on Gods side but…… The prayer is for protection from these things and to forgive them. But it doesn’t seem to be working soon after I feel sucked dry as if I’m about to die. 

So idk. The Tai Chi by Eric Pilgrem seems decent. But they just come back.

I look forward to having my feet in the sand on a beautiful long island beach soon as I can. 

People Watching πŸ‘¬πŸ‘­πŸ‘« 1111 Curse

Part of my humanitarianism is having the strange lobe for humans.

I live in a large city so riding the train, or sitting in a park or looking out the window. I love observing people, looking at what they choose to wear, color combos, maybe they had a fresh hair cut, maybe I notice their ethnicity, maybe I can tell they are a torrist. Maybe I see two people gazing into each others eyes or holding hands and I get a glimpse of love and it makes me happy. 

Along with my people watching is my commitment to service/ helping because I know that this system is difficult to live in. And we want a safe world for everyone. 

This energy was turned sour by the Demonic Archon. Looking at a woman’s fashion, it turns into objectifying her and that felt really strange, new and gross for me. This love I had for people, strangers ….. Was hated. The Archon would tell me “keep your head down, don’t look at anyone” and if I did even by mistake or a simple task the Archon would make it gross, doing things to my “root chakra” and trying to convince me its my natural reaction. Uhm…. NO. 

Its almost like the reoccurring 1111, 222, 333, or symbols or whatever only its with peoples and body parts or a gross hyper sexual concepts.

That’s why I said I think 1111 or reoccurring numbers (angel numbers) is a curse….. Or the beginning of one. It’s like you are being tested how easily controlled you are. The sad part is when my friends are like “omg 1111 make a wish” on Facebook. I’m like “Aaaaaaah” and have to keep it to myself unless I see any signs showing of an attack. 

Although this Archon is here doing what it does (which is being gross), I try to jump over any of its thoughts, concepts and projected world views to just simply….. enjoy people…. In all their glory.

PS. The moon was beautiful tonight. 

Haunted House 😱🏒

So with being able to now see these demonic archon jelly blobs I see them around the house. 

First I notices 3-4 in the bathroom (one splits and then goes back), one large one in my dining room, and 3+ in my room (its dark so not easy to see). 

Today I noticed that there was one in the middle of my narrow New York City apartment kitchen. How I noticed is I was being a fat ass had some pizza that was too hot and then you know blew the heat off my mouth. But then I noticed a lot of steam. An abnormal amount so then took a step back and I used my eyes to to see and low and behold there was one right in my kitchen.

My only thing that has me questioning is placement of these things in my house. Like they are strategically placed at head level.  Even sitting down on the toilet. 

So what the fuck is really going on?!?

I mean I already knew I was being watched in a way, but now I’m not sure how or why or how to get rid of them. Or stop hearing them or seeing them. Cause most people don’t hear or see this shit. 

My guess is that my “schizophrenia” is maybe two or three in or aroubd my head.

That’s my guess. Since they can change shape and size more or less.

I really need help understanding this. I keep hitting a wall it seems on my own. 

You Are Welcome πŸ™

I was practicing a Chi breathing technique on YouTube that a friend sent to me.

I noticed some blocks and add ons but whatever I always notice.

Either way, it talked about creating chi and then bringing it back into the body.

I rememered a moment when this all first started happening and my chest extending out past my shoulders felt like I was opened up. That’s when I first started to feel like I was dying.

I didn’t feel much in my center now, just this tender heart. I figured the entity took all my chi, that’s why all I can do right now is sleep, eat cookies and cry about the world.

The guy talking in the video said that we are “the most powerful free energy devices on the planet”.

So I immediately told the Entity, “you are welcome….” And I meant it. I wasn’t being sarcastic as usual. It was a gift.

I figured that I gave (well it took) my energy to this Entity. I just don’t know how to reve my chi back up yet……

…… Wonder if instead of scaring the shit out of me, disrespecting me, violating, if other entity beings whatever where to be upfront? Maybe we could live peacefully. 

Entity would be like, “Yo I really need this chi, I will make it quick.”

They won’t and… Maybe can’t tell me who or what they are. Maybe I’m too peace loving and just feel like if we just put the truth out there it would easier for all of us and work something out. 

Who knows, maybe I would be like “sure homie, you can have some of this chi love!” And i would just go wipe some more up later.

I can give with out receiving. But I don’t know I just need a bit of honesty.

Who knows maybe chi doesn’t even exists. Maybe I am pulling this out of my ass. Maybe they don’t need all this brain electric goodness or this golden chi.

All I know is, there has to be a better way.

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