Energy Healing & Entity Removal Work

It’s so funny whether i pay or not. Pay a little or a lot. Amateur or seasoned professional. These healers have all gave me an excuse (usually throwing something i told them in my face) as to why their healing session did not get rid of this fucking disgusting voice/ entity like they said it would. No refunds either. Not even a thought or a kind gesture of any kind. I mean regaurdless of my story or belief system, if they have a service they should be able to just pluck that sucka out like the ticks that they are. Right? My whole blog is dedicated to how much i hate this situation and trying to keep whats left of my sanity in tact. And some fake ass healer had nerve to say I have stockholm syndrome and i am in love with the abusive entities. I’m glad everyone out here telling me what I AM including the entities and NOT doing what they need to be doing which leaving (entities) or removing (healers).

It is really disheartening.

So many people willing to call Christianity a con but New Age is a con job too. Maybe even worse as they offer themselves as the alternative to religion with so many paid services. I mean if i cant help someone i would just tell them and tell them why or my limitations ect so they know its not shade.

I know these people arent malicious. And maybe they drink their own kool-aid. But the placebo effect, if you will, is not working on me. I was in a life or death situation with these demons. And all i could really do is hunker down in my bed for a year or two and just take the beating and spiritual, energetic, astral, etheric, cosmic, whatever abuse. For reasons I really don’t know, because these demons lie all day. So idk what the truth is really. And if some “healer” is channeling any information from them they will only be cyphering lies.

This is so frustrating!

I need to talk to management! Shit is out of hand! 😔

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Targeted Individuals: EMF reading at Kids Playground

So a last week I was at the park (btw I live in NYC) where I take my godson to play and I was on the park benches and while I was just staring around the park I noticed on the metal bench I was on the was a clear white misty cloud form on the top back of the benches. I double checked my eyes looked to other parts of the park. But the top back was were it was the most predominant.

So yesterday I took my godson again to the park. I sat at a different park bench and decided to do an EMF reading because I was getting migraines that were making me almost nauseous.

So I remembered what I saw on the bench but I didn’t really see them at first. I do the EMF reading on myself which was at a 60 but then quickly went down to like a 40 something once I turned on my reader. So no wonder I was feeling nauseous.

Then I casually did a reading for the metal bench armrest it was 119. It wasn’t easy to get that reading because when you put it on the arm rest and you get like maybe a 90 at first but if you move it slightly one way towards where the numbers go up you find the “hot spot”. The reasons that they are not the easiest to find is because the beings or projections are flattish. The are usually not much thicker than cardboard. So the are facing one way or another on the axis point.

Then I did a reading for the top back part of the bench like I saw on the other bench last week. 214! This was by the way only isolated to one spot towards the end of the bench. This is touching people! My head was there just a moment ago.

I feel like if I followed a trail of EMF readings it would lead me somewhere. But maybe it’s randomish.

Then I wondered if I was getting high readings because the bench was made out of metal. I did an EMF reading for the seat of the bench which came out to 20/30. And for the middle arm rest. That is a huge jump. All the same area, all the same material.

When I looked close to the arm of the bench I could see a clear watery outline of energy but nothing distinct. Just that it was there and not other places. It also did not seem to attack me that I was aware of. Most, at least when I am inside, seem to attack me. A dark outline getting in my face to scare me or sending sparkles or lights to my body to connect to it….. who knows .

I also did an EMF reading for my best friends bed. Generally the bed was at 40, but when I moved towards the head of the bed… it jumped to 70.

So there is definitely something with being near the head of humans.

While I may recognize them as spirit/demon/alien I have not definitively ruled out technology. It’s just easier to explain what I am seeing and experiencing exactly as I see it.

While some of us may have a hitch hiker or a few, these beings/things cover the city. I also see them on non voice hears. So again what makes us different to experience loud voices, energetic rape and violations of the body and mind?

That is my latest update.

“Light Beings” and spirit realm

So im in a group where people share their photos of what they think are angels and fairies and light beings and all that cool positive stuff.

And i guess i joined this group because i want to have faith that there are good beings out there. As the ones i have observed in my own personal situation played like they were angels or good spirits and stuff and they were not. They were grooming me for the kill. I had to first believe in something other than this reality other wise they would not have a game.

So i keep looking at these people photos. Hoping to see something good. Something different.

For the most part i see the same beings i see in mine in abput 50% percent of them. The others i dont see anything really.

Like i will see this beautiful light in the photos that seem really innocent …… But if i dive further into their photo i will see the same strange trollish looking faces somewhere in the pic and then attaching to the human in some way.

The only difference is they are not experiencing full blown demonic schizophrenic reality melt down. They dont feel the pain of their lies.

I want to believe something is good out there in the “spirit/astral/dimensions realm”.

Idk if it is because im kind of stuck at this level or inthis rwalm that i can not see other ones. Or that its all a big lie. And any “good beings” are just bad ones lying to us in some way.

So often when i look at someone photo i look for two eyes, a flower looking thing, or a line or trail of sorts. Usually if i follow the line i will see the flower or a face. The flower from what i saw is how the entities connect to people usually undetected. I could be wrong. Sometimes i see a snake or parasite worm looking thing in the photo. Sometimes i will see something like the photo above which is a circle or multiple circles with head in the middle. Normally i dont see those connecting to people with the flower things. They are kind of like a stand alone. But i do see them around people.

I have also seen all these beings conglomerate i a way to make a larger being of sorts maybe one more human like. Each smaller being seems tonhave its own function. And they can glow….or be a white mist ….. Or clear watery outlines or a dark outline that moves really slow and similar to a flip book.

But these great angelic beings….. I have not seen. I have seen the same flashes of light or white smokey ghost balls come from these entities so i don’t automatically feel that light beings are just this floating innocent ball of light. I honestly have no idea WHAT they are. I mean they look alien sometimes, the look like hell trolls sometimes, could be a hologram idk. I just go one how they act which is they hurt physically and they lie. Two most consistent things i have come acrossed. So i can only assume they are bad.

I want to be disproved. I want to be wrong. I am looking for good. I really am.

Anyone with more info on beings that look like this i would love to hear your opinion.

Targeted Individuals: I’m So Special

Soooooo I don’t mean to be an asshole. And I hate to be that guy……but I hear a LOT of TIs saying they the 144k, tribe of Israel, elected, past life goddesses, twin flames, earth angels, alien star seeds, shamans, prophets like YA’LL really need to get your shit together.

Like I really WANT to believe these things but my heart and eyes are showing me something different.

Yes you are special …… but maybe not in the ways you think. You don’t need super powers to be special to God.

Maybe just maybe these demons are playing with you to make you feel like you are special in these supernatural ways because they want to twist your mind and belief to lead you astray from God. You think your super powers are coming from God but really it’s the network matrix of demons.

In psychology I believe that is called grandiose.

Maybe there is something in our lives that allowed these demons to infiltrate our lives. Trauma is also a cause as well. But I know these demons didn’t pop up until I started questioning shit. Like the way I felt. Or why I was reacting to certain things the way I was. I was resisting arrest. And since they couldn’t play at low level they turned all the way the fuck up. But I mean I’ve done some things that probably allowed them in my life in one way or another. Do I think it’s fair NO. But I have to accept it to some extent.

I honestly did not think all of this would lead me to this path. Like I really want(ed) to believe we have super powers and elected and God sees me past my flaws and mess ups and the good work I’ve have been privileged to do. BUT there is this feeling that these demons are 21st century PLAYING US for FOOLS!

I’m not one to condemn or to preach end times fire and brimstone. I am simply sharing my current truth. One I wish wasn’t my truth. But is.

I have to trust God will correct others path as needed. I pray it is gentle. And not the harsh reality I come to face with.

Stay humble! ❤️

New Age vs. New World Order

I definitely fell into the New Age community because at the time they seemed to have answers for many of the strange experiences i was beginning to have. Seeing sparkles and flashes of light, dreams, “spirit” communication, visions, seeing “angel numbers” all the time 1111 to just name a few. But…… As soon as my experience took a left turn into a schizophrenic nightmare i was called crazy, dark, not of the light, negative ect by people in FB groups. And honestly those are things that me nor most of the people who know me.

I found that this was how many dealt with people in the spiritual community when someone was having a “spiritual crisis” or an entity attack if not that the basic elemantary suggestion of a salt bath and white light was prescribed to remedy the situation.

As i read on many of the posts. I found a great deal of many religious beliefs melded into one. Calling on Jesus and goddesses …. Metaphysically opening of the “third eye”….. Beliefs that the aliens were here to “help us grow and ascend” to the “new earth” or 5D as well as occult stuff.

Is was all one big tangled ball of beliefs. And while i originally come from a mindset of respecting everyones belief (with in reason), i also had a difficult time accepting Christianity as one i WAS queer and two i lost faith in the church when i was a kid when our pastor raped a 14 year old and everyone still accepted him as the pastor. Not to mention wars.

But i have come to terms. I can belueve in Jesus and God and the word and not necessarily be “Christian”. Im ok with that as apart of my current path.

A few problems i have with the New Age is the appropriation of peoples culture and beliefs with out much respect to the actual people. They use dieties and rituals and practices with out any regard to the depth of understanding thst goes behind that. Each symbol, each diety, figure, practices, food, holiday ect.

With that…. Much of the New Agers talk about “all is one, one is all” or “we are all connected” or “the veils are being lifted” …. Promoting telepathy and communication with “the other side”. Most are ok with the lie. The other side of “the veil” is fucking scary! Do you know that. Its absolutely insane and scary. But they are apart of this world. They are everywhere and NO irs not your deceased grandma Sally. Its a demon playing GAMES.

Now all these demons are connected. They have telpathic communication networks of sorts. And so the demon or some call it “a familiar spirit” that has been hanging around you or your family will tell a psychics demons all you want to hear. So you keep playing and paying.

All is one….. The melding of religions and beliefs seems soooooo….. New World Order-ish to me. One world one government one monitary system one belief.

These demons are out here melding belief systems to keep you confused. Half these people do not know what they are playing with. They THINK they are playing with angels but if they revealed their true form you would probably be shocked. And thats the lie! You really think Arch Angel Micheal is speaking to a thousand basic ass bettys on youtube? Right!

They are playing up “the event” and people think the aliens are coming down or a new earth 5d paradise will magically appear. Dudes? Really? If everyone believes this shit just enough….. When that veil actually comes down they can play whatever they want. Aliens, new messiah, ect. They will have officially dooped everyone because everyone believes in everything and we all sitting here confused as shit.

Im done with the game and lies.

You know what a 3rd eye opening is? A demon sucking on your shit feeding you useless visions, dreams, and suggestions. Mind manipulation. And you fell for it. I did too……. Of course i wanna talk to my ancestor or an angel or whatever…… But that aint them!

Just cause you got the bright side of the New Age rainbow doesnt mean your shit aint dark. It means you are naive and gullible.

Keep playing!

Appropriations in Spirituality 🤔

Is there a way to learn about the ancient or current spiritual or medical practices with out appropriating the culture but also giving it the acknowledgement it deserves?

As someone who sought assistance from many practitioners I found some that were new age (a meld of beliefs and practices), and those that practiced native or Indian or other indigenous systems. While I believe that we are all here to learn from one another, I wondered if the same symbols and ancestry was capable of being fully understood by an outsider.

How I see symbols as an American is totally different than say someone in another country.

I have seen others who have been able to take say practicing yoga and really bring a mission to it in their own way. Because their mission was genuinely to heal people in their communities. They don’t over do the whole yoga look or push concepts that are far beyond our reach but meet you where you are at for that moment in your life. Just come as you are, participate and community for that moment.

So I always wonder as the pot starts to meld. And westerns bring practices from afar (or local) to their business model where are the indigenous people located in all of this? Where are their business models?

How can we ensure the people of those practices are not erased by practitioners? Learning these practices are a gift from those cultures. How do we uplift them? These practices were born out of pain and necessity. How can it be applicable in capitalism? And does it loose something when not practiced or sought by those it is indigenous to or with in the confines of capitalism?

Where is the balance? And is it even effective?

I’m half blind, only privy to certain aspect but not others. I see and hear things that are pretty common, but I don’t know where it fits in the grand scheme of things.

Spiritual Bypassing Revisited. 😲😲😲

So spiritual bypassing. 

We are basically saying that if you don’t get almost literally spiritually jumped and cosmically punched in the face that you don’t get the badge of honor of being “inept”. To………… What? 

Do y’all see how we are perpetuating abuse even through our spiritual communities. 

We allow these “spirits” entities to cause harm and then run around thinking its an honor….. And we are enlightened. 

GUYS FUCK THAT!

FUCK THAT TODAY AND TOMORROW AND FOREVER FUCK THAT!

Basically you are enabling cosmic spiritual bullying.

And we are suppose to grow from that?!

Think about how fucking backwards that is? 

Its perpetating abuse.

If someone is in an abusive relationship do you tell them to stay in the relationship and forgive them while they are being beat? 

A lot of these people going around talking about accept the dark and light…. And spiritual bypassing never been raped by some random ass entity and then being told to forgive them. Forgiveness is a process. And protecting ones self is the first step. Abuse stopping is the first step. 

And forgiveness is a choice. 

I’ve always been like this. Ever since school. School is forced… Information forced…. Most of its a lie to perpetuate ignorance. Most of its not useful and most what actually learn and find useful is on the job you are forces to engage in to survive. 

Let’s really rethink the spiritual concepts we spew out. All we are doing is excusing entitities, energies, demons, whatever to play a roll in our lives, and there shouldn’t be any. They made their choice. And they keep making their choice the more you allow them to “punish” or abuse us senselessly which only enables their bad behavior.

Its not a badge of honor….. It’s ignorance. 

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Lightened Photo

If I didn’t see this shape drop down in front of my eyes or mark my skin then I would say hey this prolly just a camera glitch.

This is the first time I caught on camera what I was drawing.

No one else is seeing it…  And its clear as day and making me feel crazy. And I thought I was a rational person. 


Running out of options

I’ve done the shaman, light worker, meditation, prayer thing….

I’ve the targeted individual, Mk ultra, gang stalking….. Matrix’s of insectoid thing….

Committing suicide for a twin flame thing….

Loosing everything like the “Book of Jobe” thing. 

Girl interrupted shave my head psyche ward crayon thing…. 

Clearing trapped energetic emotions for humanity thing….. Angel and demons thing. 

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I wanna do that thing where this all stops and I can enjoy this brief existence sans being raped every night by an reptilian insectoid posing as my ex twin flame. 

When will I get that this is done thing …. Finished thing? They go away thing? Never come back again thing? 

Tree of Life: Archon False Chakra system


This is EXACTLY how they set up the false chakra system over the body. I can see it. Except the first two on the side are closer to the temple/ears and the shoulder one is under the arm pit, the root being the most important extends from the thigh area (inner mostly) to the butt area so to debase your vibrations. 

It’s bullshit. I never had this shit before, I never agreed to it, I never asked for it.  I did yoga like what three in my life after this all started to calm mass ass down. Now a bitch can’t be flexible with out worrying about being possessed?

These chakras are made from the same stuff floating all over my house and spitting sparkle balls at my forehead or whatever it does. 

It’s soo fux up. No one should be forced into this. 

This is so sad that this is all false.