Aboriginal Entities

These are Aboriginal Entities deemed as Sky Gods. I was watching ancient aliens season 11 episode 7 and noticed there was a similarity between my drawings from 2017 to these Sky Gods draw on the caves in Australia. It’s mainly the eyes. Apparently the Aboriginal go into a dream time state which would be considered the Astral Plane.

There is emphasis on the head and not the body which I noticed too with these entities. I only saw the body once and assumed it was the same one and kind of Phillies in the details. But the eyes!!!

This is an alien dude I caught on camera. It’s the easiest to see.

Either way I though it was interesting. I don’t know why I would be seeing aboriginal entities. Or how it all relates to much. These entities are TERRIBLE to me. I wish it was a wonderful magical connection, but it’s not. Once I stopped playing it’s game it got vicious. Much of which I documented in this blog.

Comment your thoughts.

New Age Healing Trap

So over the last few months I have been to healers. And I was REALLY HOPING they could help me with my situation. I mean they can see the astral or matrix and beyond what I can see remotely.

See I see the astral right in front of me. I can see it physically in the 3D world on people. Not remotely or long distance. I see the astral all around me. Connected to people, places (building/parks) and thing (cars, things in home etc). So I don’t know how it works for someone who can remotely view.

However I need help. and while I want to wait on God, the nature/subject of my spiritual attacks and the pain, makes me feel like I have to try everything in my my means to make it stop.

I have an alien looking demon octopus spider thing that is “spiritually” or better “psychically” attacking new through the astral/matrix both mentally (non stop fucking talking) , emotionally (instilling false emotions) and physically (migraines, sparks of lights and shadows, back pain etc). Now this thing calls me a “child molester” all day. And will even describe the molestation of kids in my life in some way. After it describes it or says something it will then go on to molest/rape me! And I’m not a fucking child molester and it’s gross 🤢🤢🤢🤢 and no one wants to hear about no kids stuff. It’s so terrible.

One of my “love and light” new age light worker friends went so far as to say “maybe I was in a past life”, like fuck OUT OF HERE! So she fashions herself as Skemet or Isis reincarnated, but I’m a child molester? She (like many others) had them call her one too, just not as much as I have. Does she think SHE was a child molester? Then she said it must be a generational curse from my bloodline.

Imma need y’all new Agers to puck a story and stick to it.

I know that I think child molesters are the worse thing in the world. And my best friend has actually worked with me on having some compassion for them because many were molested too and they are probably suffering spiritually because of these mast bobble head alien demon fucks. And I think because it is a childhood fear and I want to protect children (I said this since I was a child), it’s easy to attack me saying I’m the very opposite of who I know myself to be. And I think because of this attack the need to spectate myself from someone like that it is easy to lack compassion for them because I am being attacked.

Think about it. Someone who is not gay, the alien demon calling them gay or homosexual, and then because they are being attacked they over compensate by having hatred towards gay people. Either taking it to the extent they actually hate or harm a gay person.

Granted child molesters are 🤢🤢🤢🤢🤢. But they are sick. I’m not sure if they can be reformed but I can still have compassion for them as possible victims while still hating their actions.

I aim my hatred correctly. These demon alien things are fucked up and gross rapists!

With THAT BEING SAID!

I went to healers in desperation. I figured they know more than I about this dark side. Light workers kept calling me “of the dark” when I would beg for information on my situation. I could not understand why I was of the dark when most of my life has been to serve people of my community I gave over 15 years of service. Try to find the flow of God, to make my God and my parents proud of me since I was a fuck up in my teen years. And now I’m just a schizophrenic loser who sleeps all day because I can deal with the pain of entity attacks or listening to these rambling demon aliens idiots all day.

So you gave these healers my money. Hoping for healing or a reasonable reason this was happening. A magician told me that my spirit was a truth teller taking night classes in hell to get over fear. Oooooookay. The that my friend paid for said that I was in a room full that looked like a ball from the 29s dimly lit and a Chimera came in and said he was going to protect me (my sciatica felt ok for a day before coming back).

The latest that I paid for said I had a spider on my back and removed it. My sciatica help so much better and I felt lighter walking, however the migraines came back so my guess is that the spider just moved to the top of my head at that time.

The latest healer said that the “male part of my spirit” feels hopeless and that no one can save him and that anything she does will not work. 🤔🙄 Then she offered me to talk to her husband who does this work and that it will be “life changing”. Soon as I stopped talking to her after a week the sciatic came back.

Anything I do is to get rid of these nasty entities that are attacking my mind and body. My life.

I feel so alone now. That last healer was my final dig at trying to get help. To maybe someone understanding me. I really don’t have money to waste like that. If the healer can not permanently remove an entity then they are not healing. I’m tired of excuses. And I have done a lot of work to aid this process.

And I am suppose to wait on the grace of God while these demons rape me? It doesn’t make sense. I’m suppose to have a relationship with God when I do t feel like God is here? Isn’t that a little crazy? Like how? When there is prof he is not here with me? How many times must I repent? Account?

I want my mind and body back. Simple. I want these nasty demons removed and protection. That’s it. Seriously these demons are HEAVY. They have weight energetically. It’s not easy or fun.

Ever have a day where you are walking through your normal routine and it just feels hard to walk or like you walking through water or lag? That’s what most days feel like for me.

I know a lot of people are learning. But I don’t think I should be giving so much money for people who are learning about this shit. And they should have advanced people they trust to refer you to. Just over this bullshit. If I was a healer my main concern is protecting our people and giving knowledge as to what is happening to us. Donation passed. Seriously if any of these healers got rid of these nasty fuckers I would be more than generous. Guess I gotta really go at this alone, God is not here, Jesus isn’t here, these healers care about the coins, and I am over it.

Astral Spiders: And their web of lies.

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What I see mostly NOW is astral spiders.

Unlike before where I saw developed trolls and reptilian looking beings.

These astral spiders are also like an octopus 🐙. Like a big main head, then these legs that can do many things.

This is just a quick drawing how I have seen them. I have seen 3 max at one time one on my left one on my right and one that looked female and shot out my perception when I awoke to seeing them. The the one on my left proceeded to take a straw that came out of their mouth and spewed “black energy” into my eyes so I could not see them as clearly any more. I could still see them moving around just not clear.

This attachment to my eyes allows them to show me dreams, and visions. Usually sick gross visions.

They are a hive mind and will often repeat things I am doing or thinking or feeling to the others. they have come to understand my emotions pretty well even the silent ones. They will also lie about my emotions trying to manipulate them and make me think a certain way.

BUT I KNOW MYSELF VERY WELL!!!

Fuck em!

They seem to attach to the nervous system.

Brain, Gut, genitals seem to be the easiest. They don’t seem to attach to the heart very often but occasionally.

The healer I paid to help me with my situation, while I thought she healed my sciatica caused by the astral spiders she seemed to have maybe moved them. They either attach to my lower spine/butt area ( severe sciatica) or to my skull/brain (SEVERE MIGRAINES). When the are attached to my spine no migraine, when they are attached to my brain no sciatica. Coincidence? I think not.

There are other cartoony looking looney toons in the mix but the main players right now are these spiders.

My guess is that the work for reptilian (whatever hellish hierarchy of demonic aliens they are), or bottom feeders.

Either way they hurt like crazy. My body hurts so much for so long because of them I actually for what it feels like to be ok. Needless and pointless pain. And I am wasting money going to the doctors for them to say nothing is wrong with me. They will give me a pill anyway. So like the schizophrenic meds don’t work.

They gave me high blood pressure meds, but my guess is that that when these demons mesh with your body, with your cells, possessing your skin, flesh, organs your nervous system, to obtain whatever the fuck it is they are trying to obtain…… it naturally raises your blood pressure. And then even MORE if they are trying manipulate your emotions and mentality to get you worked up. They also rape, just like the reptilians but maybe not as much.

I call the one I have seen talking to me “Baby Ghost” 👻 because their large heads kind of looks like Casper. Lol yea I hate them though. I’ve spent so much money trying to get rid of them. I would give the healer all I had if she was able to get rid of these things, but I tested her for 4+ sessions and I did not see much result or anything that was able to be maintained past my interaction with her. So it’s kind of pointless. Just a money suck …… for me anyway.

The healer said she got attacked by astral spiders before. And she does not like spiders at all, and going into my session she had to overcome her fear. To be honest it was martyring herself in a way.

This guy I watch called Detox Dude on YouTube said essentially if your healer is getting attacked then you need a new healer. A healer should not be making you feel like they are being harmed by your presence.

I mean I can see not remotely but in the physical 3D world things attached to people and I can assess their symptoms to astral attachments. I could also come up with a story as to WHY. But I didn’t go to a healer for a story I go to them for removal and that is what I keep getting from them. Story time. Not removal.

Not sure what to do anymore.

I just document this experience in hopes others don’t feel alone. So I don’t feel alone too.

Entities in the Children’s ER

So I’m with my Godson at the children’s ER because he might have the flu that has been going around.

He was sleeping and I was on my phone bullshitting and maybe an hour into the situation I felt something release from my booty (I have been feeling this weird booty energy release for a while now, pause, it’s not a fart, I have also felt this same release on my upper back/shoulder and it’s been on my right side. So a lot of pain and pressure on the left a lot of releasing on the right). So this happened and I forgot OH YEA IM DEMONICALLY OPPRESSED!

So I scanned the room to see what was up and there were the energy fields of entities on his bed and the empty baby bed in the room.

Once it saw that I saw it it shot into my right eye. But I could still see the energy mass sparkling and floating around at the foot of the bed.

Now while my godson was in the cab to the hospital he was complaining about a headache, like a really bad headache and he had a fever. And for me when the entities connect to my head i can normally get fevers and migraines. Not always together but most of the time. Like right now I have a migraine no fever. But often I do.

So I scanned his skull region to see if there was anything, and I surprisingly I did not see anything. This was prior to going inside the hospital.

So there is nothing attached to his body directly to his upper body. But there seems do be something attached to his lower legs.

Then there are other entities attached to the foot of the bed that were going wild that I saw them. My bed has entities all around them. If you think about it a bed is when we are the most vulnerable so it would make sense that that is their top favorite place. (Bathroom is probably second in my guess, cars 3rd)

So it’s saddens me SO DEEPLY that even innocent children are fair game for these Entities. But if you think about it that is how they indoctrinate us into their sick games. From a young age. We just don’t know it.

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BIG DEEP BREATHS!

Trying not cry about how fucking gross this planet is. 🥺😭🤢🤮

Observations: Eyes Taken in the Astral

An observation that I have noticed is that many times I have had my “eyes taken”.

Often is feels like my eyes will go blurry and then a series of “visions” will come to mind.

For me this is something that the Entities/demons do. They do this especially to twist ideas and distract you or suggest you.

When this first started the Entities kept saying “my eyes are your eyes” and pretended to be someone and something other than the pathetic POS that they are. And then another one would scream “I hope she never has eyes!” They are absolutely insane and I can’t believe is my real life….. 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s much like when they create dreams. From what I saw in the “astral” if we want to call it that is that they place “black patches” attachments to the eyes and this causes you not to see the actual entities as well. However it also allows them to have control and through these “black energy patches”, for lack of a better word, they also feed visions to us/ me.

When you are working on your “third eye” and focusing on the center of your skull what you are actually doing is blinding yourself to submitting yourself to visions. This visions are created by Entities with etheric light energy. They ARE the light, they use the light to create an illusion. And by you not focusing on what is actually happening in front of your eyes you have submitted to an illusion. If you had a vision and then focused your eyes to what’s going on right in front of you you would see a COMPLETELY different world. It’s not all pretty. It is barren, and full of illusionist trying to get their rocks off.

They are liars. And they assault the mind, body and spirit.

I can’t tell you HOW many people both schiz and not, man or woman, have been sexually assaulted “spiritually” if we want to call it that. I would say Etherically.

Maybe most of them have not had theirs go on for as long as mine. But it has happened there is literally a METOO movement happening in the Ethers.

I know that my opinion will be an unpopular opinion but honestly you are not “activating your third eye” you are blurring your vision with your eyes closed and allowing entities to lie to you RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE!!!! In your eyes! Like they can be big or tiny tiny. And yes we have a pineal gland and maybe that has to do with light receptivity. But either way these Entities are full of 💩💩💩💩💩.

I have mentioned in this blog so many times that on MANY occasions I have looked past the illusion (or one of them). On one occasion I saw the image of a woman in my ” third eye” and something told me to look straight ahead and what I saw the woman then began a praying mantis. And soon as the praying mantis saw that I saw it, it jetted out of my field.

Why you scared?

How does the mantis know I am looking at it straight ahead?

Why are they lying to us?

So many questions!

But honestly I do t even want to write about this stuff anymore. But I feel the need to document it for anyone out there or for the next wave of people. Because the deception is REAL and we are looking like FUCKING IDIOTS!

What I am currently trying to do is strengthen my understanding and relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I know I am a sinner. And I can’t not get out of this hell matrix with out Jesus!

The New Age really got me! And I was lead there by the demons that hung around me, I would experience something “super natural” and google it and then some new age site had an explanation. But NO real solution other than “a bright white light around you” 🙄 So you say that the dark is attracted to my light, but then you tell me to rev up my light to repel them? OKie Dokie!! That makes sense! 🤪

Either way, these demons will lead you astray in what ever form! And you will end up in some occult bs with out even knowing. You were groomed since sin, by demons to end up where you are. Where I am sorry. And yet I still have to be accountable for my nativity.

So slowly they will give you these “super natural” experiences ……. grooming you. Making sure your belief is just right. That you are far enough from God to attack! And they will devour. And if your are lucky you will be saved. I have yet to be so lucky. And I am not sure why. But it is something I have to accept in the moment.

These demons what ALL of you. Touching your hands, genitals, I had one kiss me, 🤢 not to mention rape. Like I’m not making this shit up and it’s NOT my mind. I mean there is YouTube video after YouTube video of people saying they have had these experiences. And they DO NOT consider themselves schizophrenics.

Awakening is bullshit, Third eye bullshit, even the “astral” as normally explained …. bullshit, ascension to whatever dimension is bullshit. It is a lie, lie if people who have been lied to and spreading their lie and thinking they are a Guru because they had a DMT trip. Like this is soooo dangerous.

One dude on YouTube was talking about how he has sex in the astral! LOL are you that hard up bro? That you are fucking with astral spiders that are an illusion of some fantasy woman? Get your WHOLE life together! And he thinks he is a Guru of “astral travel”!

Astral travel is bullshit! You are just being given a waking dream by entities. Are being sucked into their ecosystem which is their being which comprised of smaller beings that all make up the worlds in which you think you are traveling in.

They make you feel by attaching to you. I once felt like I was being jerked around in a dream and as I woke up for like maybe 20 mins I still had 2 things attached to my back that were still buzzing. And I literally felt the suction of them releasing from my body.

I’m not going to say I know everything cause I don’t. But I did my research and I surveyed A LOT of people and this shit is BUUUUILLLLL💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩!

And we are gladly handing over our soul for apparent ” live and light” and our mission to save Earth! You wanna save earth? You want to “awaken” WAKE UP! Look right in front of you!!! Right in front of you! You are being lied to! But if you want to keep the illusion FINE!!

Shit is scary!! But you don’t want to save the Earth! You want to play fantasy game of “I’m an angel” or “I’m an alien” or ” I was Isis in a past life” simulation game by these matrix entities that is DEMONS! Old fashion ass DEMONS!

WAKE UP! For real this time!!!

Observation: Quiet Voices (Migraines)

These are only my observation on my situations. They may or may not evolve. But I usually wait a while before calling it an observation. It needs to happen more than hand full of times. If it helps someone great! If not then your experience if different than mine. I have had people suggest so many different tactics to addressing/remedying this situation (that has worked for them) that has not panned out for me.

So one of my observations is that when the voices are quieter (meaning not an outside voice overlaying TVs etc) I tend to have a pain of sorts. Usually a migraine or maybe even sciatica, belly pains, etc. It is like the voices when I deem as entities are closer to me or merged with my body (be it physical or etheric) in some way.

I have also cross checked this in my photos. So I would have a migraine or sorts and then take a photo and I can definitely see one of the entities attached to my head. (It’s harder to see belly and other body parts, but not impossible). I might see an entity with a head in the middle and many smaller skull/heads in a circle around it. They kind of look like spiders with an alien head on it. And they use these straw or horn looking things to attach. I might even see one ON my forehead or above my head. Some time there are different entities involved but those seem to be the most common.

So these entities give me migraines and make my head hot. I have at times maybe didn’t realize that this “migraine” was coming on and found myself slowly becoming irritated and as soon as I was like migraine= entity attachment, in my mind, I felt a release of sorts. Like they would go away for a short moment and then come back.

It’s super odd, I know.

I have not heard any particular name for these alien spider looking things. I mean I can see where they might be seen as astral spiders or astral octopus (because of the head). But neither hits the description on the head. Like the reptilians I have seen were pretty straight forward. The praying mantis were pretty straight forward even with the masks they wore. The teddy bear looking trolls (that are some how associates with a lotus or flower they sit on), I haven’t heard of anything associated with them either. Although I had one friend who said she fainted at a parade and her friend was with her and a shaman took a Smokey teddy bear out of her back. And her friend saw it. She has no other information on it other than her friend saw the shaman pull it out of her back and was told not to worry. As a side note I never told her anything about what I saw.

A thought that just came to mind is maybe these entities bother me because I can see them. Idk, maybe I am a mirror of sorts. Like they can’t see themselves otherwise. When I first started seeing them their eyes were kind of loop sided and then when I made fun of them (my only defense in the constant rapes I endured by them), I saw that they actually fixed their eyes from floating all over the place.

Again as much I would like to believe this is ALL just my mind making this stuff up, I can’t see how logically my mind would make up something I’m not really into it believed in and then respond accordingly. Again I just realized the eye thing. So it’s not like I told my mind to fix the eyes. I would just kept making fun of them.

I mean I might be making some stuff up in my mind when I look at photos, I’m taking everything in and then filtering it out. I question myself and these Alien head spiders seem to be the most consistent thing. And they are apart of an ecosystem of other entities that come and go as they please.

I’m honestly over studying them and observing them. I just want them gone. I’m ready to move on with my life although I wonder if I will ever truly heal from a traumatic experience like this. Idk if I will ever be healthy again, if I will like my body again after it has failed me.

Work it out! 🏋🏻‍♀️

I’m at this place …… it’s like being at a crossroad and not knowing where to go.

I want to go to the gym and be healthier. I want to get back on my health journey game BUT honestly schizophrenia/ entity oppression physically HURTS. I don’t think many talk about this aspect. I think most just talk about hearing stuff, or seeing stuff even feeling. But from my survey many struggle with migraines because of this, others different forms of fibromyalgia. Migraines being one of my biggest issues, and currently sciatica on top of it.

I a had a healing session, and she said that I had something on my back. NOW I went to her about these nasty voices, but instead after the session my leg was like 75% better some days 90%. I mean it was BAD before I didn’t even want to move. Now I did not expect these results at all. Which again makes me question everything. Like how was she able to remove something off of me and then I felt better physically.

She explained that what she noticed is that “empaths”, tend to feel “energy” or entities more physically. Something along those lines.

Either way I really want to get back to riding my bike all over the city, and dance class, and creating the body I want to live in.

I have the means to eat the way I want to and detoxify which I plan to do in the new year. But this experience got me sooo tired. Another thing that people don’t talk about with schizophrenia/ entity oppression is the fatigue. Meds just make it worse to be honest but with or without meds I am extreme tired and or fatigued for no reason. The healer said I was completely depleted. And I never told her about my energy levels.

I am weary of healers cause you never know who is real or fake and what they are actually working with. But again I have to try at least.

My next step is really trying to get back to my health journey. And get the fuck out of this “spiritual” one.

I am working hard to heal. To be better. I don’t want to just stay on SSDI and be schizo for the rest of my life. Like this shit is not fun. Although I am constantly working on my joy to combat this experience.

So part of my issue/ fear is that this experience being oppressed by entities makes it really difficult to be as active as I want to be. I mean I was pretty much catatonic for 1-2 years of this 4 year experience. I gained a lot of weight from not being active, poor diet and medication. Some meds I feel made me sooooo hungry. Like I could not stop eating and then add depression eating into the mix. I was trying to find pleasure in food since I was having a non pleasurable and scary experience. And where I would personally would have made healthier options I didn’t have money or much of a choice in the food options available to me.

So I have to figure out how to get back to me. Eating meat is not for me. My body doesn’t respond well to a meat based diet. I honestly thought that maybe my brain glitches out because I wasn’t eating meat. Like maybe I wasn’t getting fats or proteins my brain needed. But alas I have been eating meat for 4 years and that has not made a difference in my experience. I’m not even militant about not eating meat as I try to respect peoples culture. So if I am invited to someone’s house I will not be rude about the food they prepare. However in my own practices I will not prepare meat.

So diet I’m cool with. But this pain and fatigue is a LOT. I’m not sure how to handle it. And it comes and goes now so there is no really knowing when or what will trigger it.

I use to walk the length of Manhattan with ease just browsing the city and finding cool things. But now I can only make it a few blocks which is more than before.

This healing process is slow and just when I think the coast is clear something else pops up. So “hallucinating” on top of physical pain (which may be directly related to the pain) and general fatigue from the experience is a lot!

But I’m trying my best. I really am.

I guess I say this because some people on Instagram and FB think working out is good for mental health. And I’m not saying it’s now. But you really have to be in a mental/physical space to actually engage that. You have to have certain principles. Motivation.

My motivation is healing and joy. And that looks like strengthen my bonds and my faith and what makes me me.

I can’t say I can honestly engage a gym or any form of working out with out wondering if I’m legit going to die. Like my migraines be so raw I feel/ think I’m going to have a brain aneurysm. Or a stroke. Or something else fucked up. So I’ve been trying to take it easy and just be on the easy side of life. Cause life already hurts.

But it’s definitely a goal of mine. I’m trying to get there. And this isn’t about being fat or anything. But being happy. I was happy fat once, living with my ex and just in pure love bliss. But now I am on my own. And I like working on my body and understanding it and listening to it. So health comes in many forms.

Also people don’t really talk about what it’s like to lose weight and still feel big. Like the fat girl never went away for me. I was always trying to shrink myself. Be courteous as if my fat was an inconvenience to everyone else around me. That never went away when I lost weight. There is also the culture shock of people hitting on you more. Again part of the shrinking of self and not wanting to be seen. At least for me. Still tugged on my shirt to make sure it didn’t show my belly. Lot of habits and mind sets to unlearn while losing weight. It’s not an easy process. And just because I want to be on a weight loss journey does not mean I am not pro fat. I am also pro mind your own fucking business and stop commenting on people’s bodies like you actually care cause you don’t. Fatphobia has definitely come to the forefront especially with the whole Lizzo thing and it’s like we need to talk about it but I see all these “athletic” people jumping in on the conversation saying fat is unhealthy and people need to lose weight. And all kinds of fatphobic shit…. and it’s like really tired. Especially since they are commenting on other people bodies and don’t realize they are just repeating taking points that they heard which and mostly untrue and covered in the false sense of concern, which just comes off as problematic and body shaming.

We can talk about physical health. Just like we talk about mental health. 1. Not everyone has the same situation or ability so just saying diet and exercise is not a valid talking point. 2. If people want to educate others ON health matters just as nutrition or exercise then that’s cool. (Again but one size does not fit all). Also factor in mental health issue and or medications. Factor in economics/income and food accessibility. There are so many factors. 3. Take a look at yourself and realize you are a bully and not a health guru. These assholes on the internet are just spewing a distaste/hate for fat bodies again there is no real concern to health but aesthetics. It was really about health they would honestly be targeting everyone, as health matters affect everyone (of all shapes, sizes and creeds). You can be thin and eating crap and totally unhealthy. So again this aesthetics and not actual health.

Either way my ranting is over for the night.

Merry Christmas and shit!!!! ❤️🤦🏻‍♀️

Energy Healing & Entity Removal Work

It’s so funny whether i pay or not. Pay a little or a lot. Amateur or seasoned professional. These healers have all gave me an excuse (usually throwing something i told them in my face) as to why their healing session did not get rid of this fucking disgusting voice/ entity like they said it would. No refunds either. Not even a thought or a kind gesture of any kind. I mean regaurdless of my story or belief system, if they have a service they should be able to just pluck that sucka out like the ticks that they are. Right? My whole blog is dedicated to how much i hate this situation and trying to keep whats left of my sanity in tact. And some fake ass healer had nerve to say I have stockholm syndrome and i am in love with the abusive entities. I’m glad everyone out here telling me what I AM including the entities and NOT doing what they need to be doing which leaving (entities) or removing (healers).

It is really disheartening.

So many people willing to call Christianity a con but New Age is a con job too. Maybe even worse as they offer themselves as the alternative to religion with so many paid services. I mean if i cant help someone i would just tell them and tell them why or my limitations ect so they know its not shade.

I know these people arent malicious. And maybe they drink their own kool-aid. But the placebo effect, if you will, is not working on me. I was in a life or death situation with these demons. And all i could really do is hunker down in my bed for a year or two and just take the beating and spiritual, energetic, astral, etheric, cosmic, whatever abuse. For reasons I really don’t know, because these demons lie all day. So idk what the truth is really. And if some “healer” is channeling any information from them they will only be cyphering lies.

This is so frustrating!

I need to talk to management! Shit is out of hand! 😔

Targeted Individuals: EMF reading at Kids Playground

So a last week I was at the park (btw I live in NYC) where I take my godson to play and I was on the park benches and while I was just staring around the park I noticed on the metal bench I was on the was a clear white misty cloud form on the top back of the benches. I double checked my eyes looked to other parts of the park. But the top back was were it was the most predominant.

So yesterday I took my godson again to the park. I sat at a different park bench and decided to do an EMF reading because I was getting migraines that were making me almost nauseous.

So I remembered what I saw on the bench but I didn’t really see them at first. I do the EMF reading on myself which was at a 60 but then quickly went down to like a 40 something once I turned on my reader. So no wonder I was feeling nauseous.

Then I casually did a reading for the metal bench armrest it was 119. It wasn’t easy to get that reading because when you put it on the arm rest and you get like maybe a 90 at first but if you move it slightly one way towards where the numbers go up you find the “hot spot”. The reasons that they are not the easiest to find is because the beings or projections are flattish. The are usually not much thicker than cardboard. So the are facing one way or another on the axis point.

Then I did a reading for the top back part of the bench like I saw on the other bench last week. 214! This was by the way only isolated to one spot towards the end of the bench. This is touching people! My head was there just a moment ago.

I feel like if I followed a trail of EMF readings it would lead me somewhere. But maybe it’s randomish.

Then I wondered if I was getting high readings because the bench was made out of metal. I did an EMF reading for the seat of the bench which came out to 20/30. And for the middle arm rest. That is a huge jump. All the same area, all the same material.

When I looked close to the arm of the bench I could see a clear watery outline of energy but nothing distinct. Just that it was there and not other places. It also did not seem to attack me that I was aware of. Most, at least when I am inside, seem to attack me. A dark outline getting in my face to scare me or sending sparkles or lights to my body to connect to it….. who knows .

I also did an EMF reading for my best friends bed. Generally the bed was at 40, but when I moved towards the head of the bed… it jumped to 70.

So there is definitely something with being near the head of humans.

While I may recognize them as spirit/demon/alien I have not definitively ruled out technology. It’s just easier to explain what I am seeing and experiencing exactly as I see it.

While some of us may have a hitch hiker or a few, these beings/things cover the city. I also see them on non voice hears. So again what makes us different to experience loud voices, energetic rape and violations of the body and mind?

That is my latest update.

“Light Beings” and spirit realm

So im in a group where people share their photos of what they think are angels and fairies and light beings and all that cool positive stuff.

And i guess i joined this group because i want to have faith that there are good beings out there. As the ones i have observed in my own personal situation played like they were angels or good spirits and stuff and they were not. They were grooming me for the kill. I had to first believe in something other than this reality other wise they would not have a game.

So i keep looking at these people photos. Hoping to see something good. Something different.

For the most part i see the same beings i see in mine in abput 50% percent of them. The others i dont see anything really.

Like i will see this beautiful light in the photos that seem really innocent …… But if i dive further into their photo i will see the same strange trollish looking faces somewhere in the pic and then attaching to the human in some way.

The only difference is they are not experiencing full blown demonic schizophrenic reality melt down. They dont feel the pain of their lies.

I want to believe something is good out there in the “spirit/astral/dimensions realm”.

Idk if it is because im kind of stuck at this level or inthis rwalm that i can not see other ones. Or that its all a big lie. And any “good beings” are just bad ones lying to us in some way.

So often when i look at someone photo i look for two eyes, a flower looking thing, or a line or trail of sorts. Usually if i follow the line i will see the flower or a face. The flower from what i saw is how the entities connect to people usually undetected. I could be wrong. Sometimes i see a snake or parasite worm looking thing in the photo. Sometimes i will see something like the photo above which is a circle or multiple circles with head in the middle. Normally i dont see those connecting to people with the flower things. They are kind of like a stand alone. But i do see them around people.

I have also seen all these beings conglomerate i a way to make a larger being of sorts maybe one more human like. Each smaller being seems tonhave its own function. And they can glow….or be a white mist ….. Or clear watery outlines or a dark outline that moves really slow and similar to a flip book.

But these great angelic beings….. I have not seen. I have seen the same flashes of light or white smokey ghost balls come from these entities so i don’t automatically feel that light beings are just this floating innocent ball of light. I honestly have no idea WHAT they are. I mean they look alien sometimes, the look like hell trolls sometimes, could be a hologram idk. I just go one how they act which is they hurt physically and they lie. Two most consistent things i have come acrossed. So i can only assume they are bad.

I want to be disproved. I want to be wrong. I am looking for good. I really am.

Anyone with more info on beings that look like this i would love to hear your opinion.