When will the tears end? 😭

I was casually looking through my instagram. I was looking for a current photo where I had a ninja look going on. Then I looked at this photo and realized I had some of the same markings in my photos now that I had when I was a child.

Its like this flower portal thing. And I just cried because I don’t know why it’s here or why my life is being ruined because of it.

I was a child!

It had nothing to do with some past mistake I made that this demonic archon voice was trying to force me into suicide over.

This is so fucked up!

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Monster Logos ❤


Not all but many of the “energy”, entities, aliens, archons whatever you want to call them have a … Logo of sorts. I would assume, since they seem to be a hivr mind ad they attach to a humans individuality they long for that same separation. Thus a representation …. A logo of themselves of sorts.

Either way….. Each being…. Yes is individual in a way or for the moment…. And they CAN tether to you to sustain it self itself in whatever form that truly is. 

Just as they tether they can disconnect…. But who wants to find a new victim to learn? 

No I have seen “energy” or Entities that DID NOT connect to me physically and did not force itself to stay in my field or my home. 

I have to keep reminding myself there is a good spiritual world. And just because I have been forced to see this side that doesn’t make me a bad person for trying to understand and not leaving it to prayer alone. The Entities often try to guilt me…. Saying I’m a bad christian or something like that…. Because I donyt leave this to prayer alone. Again, Me, God, Meds. 

One of my friends told me about a story where she was in s parade in Chile and she fainted and then a shaman help her friend carry her to a place and then the shaman blew smoke on her back and pulled out like a teddy bear smoke logo. This teddy bear was a teather from an entity attempting to attach or hide in her. But was removed. 

Just like I had logos #, 👽, X, ❤  of all kinda stuff on arms and body. I can see but I can not remove them.

If I look directly where I know there is an “energy field” portal, alien demon whatever…. It will spew something at me…. It will sparkle maybe black maybe white and then I will see a smaller “portal” near me or a logo on my skin or my third eye. 

When I take photos of my face…. It legit looks like a child scribbled on my forehead. Especially the 3rd. I don’t know how long they last, or if they wash off in a shower… Or what. 

But sorry we want our people to be spiritually OK they need to know this shit good or bad.if you are walking around with a naked lady in your arua masterbating then that’s fucked up. That’s what I saw in this one guys field…. And he knew what I was talking about. I never a full figure before. 

I have no interest in playing with these entities…. Or anyone else for that matter when it comes to this. I seek to be free of the bullshit that is not me. Like this is basic shit. 

EARTHQUAKE in NYC 🌐

CERN is out here opening up the hell gates in NYC. SATAN come get ya cousins! I got at least 30 of them in my house. 

🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🌐🙏

So there was an earthquake here in NYC. I felt a rumble….  But I am always feeling strange things but this felt different.

I asked my parents did they feel that? They said no so I just thought it was another demonic entity tremor when they go in an and out my body. Thought I was buggin.

Then i realized that the entities got real quiet around 4pm-ish my time. It was almost felt like when I have had “energy work” or light work done. They felt far away quiet…. Not as painful. Busy…. They felt busy. Same thing happened around the solar eclipse. 

I joked and said to the demons they were prolly watching the film being made down the street since they wanna direct shit (my life). And then an hour or two later we had a random earthquake here in NYC. 

So im not crazy!!! Haha!

Fuck these demons. They were prolly getting news of the earthquake. Not a big deal oh well. 

Numb 👤 Etheric Overlays

So …. I have noticed for a while now a numb sensation. 

At first I thought it was because I wasn’t moving as much. But YOU KNOW ME overly aware all the time.

So I noticed my hands going numb (especially around the phone). And when I looked there were one of those circles there. Noticed my thighs for months now. 

I noticed my feet/ ankle going numb. And then I felt that energy move up my leg that’s what prompted me to write about it.

Ive seen foreign energy move under my skin and then leave a mark. Either a pictogram (or emoji like) or an X. 

It’s so gross seeing your skin move. Its not like an aliens gonna pop out…. Its like a wave. Its more meshed WITH the skin than under it. 

That’s how the burn me, and talk to me, and poke, vibrate …. Rape. “Punch”…… Is by merging with the human cell or the space in between cells and causing an illusionary sensation.

Hands, arms, feet, thighs. And then my core and head is a whole other thing with etheric animals and beings coming and going as they please. Just …. Uhg. And my 3rd eye is pretty much a big gaping hole at this point. 

And they won’t stop, won’t shut up, won’t leave, won’t provide any “contracts”.

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The Demonic Archon Alien tried to say its prepping my body for the Isis etheric overlay. 😩😞😒

Suck an etheric dick. 

I said NO! 

Astral Rape 🌌👾

I forgive my mom. She doesn’t know or understand. No one does. No one gets it it’s not their fault. 

My mom was watching a movie that happened to have a long loud sex scene in it and I held my breath anticipating the Archon Demon to do something to me. It waited until I started breathing again to then touch me again.

And I started to cry, cause I hate being touched. I have been raped and molested all day for two years. I dont even know know what a loving touch feels like anymore. 

Anytime I think about love, I’m molested. Anytime I’m happy, I’m molested or hurt. Anytime I think about my family lovingly I’m molested. Anytime I look at a new person I am having a conversation with, I’m molested…. TV show molested. Or just for fun Raped.

Then to realize the only “sexual” encounter I’m having is being raped an invisible demonic archon reptilian thing all day on some pedo incest rape bullshit. 

And its so sad. That’s all I know right now. That’s all that is on repeat in my head …. To take my life away.

I need love so bad….. I love myself and its not enough…. I love everyone and its not enough. I fight its not enough.

Im so tired of my vagina. I’m tired of thinking about it, having my attention drawn to it by these archon’s, I’m tired of it being burned or raped or molested.

So tired! I tried to ignore it.

And these dude out here….. Just make it worse…. When they sexualize everything. They don’t give a fuck about me…. Just fucking. And if I was elevated… Maybe cool. But now I need love. I don’t know how else to put it. 

I can only take so much of this before I break down.

New Spirit Energy Whatever. 👀

I seen eyes before around the house. Alien eyes, one single eye. But there’s a new eye with lashes that’s has been following me around the house. 

I looked up at the edge of the ceiling and then all of a sudden it was in my face. I’m like damn I can’t even look at the ceiling?!? 

I told the pretty 3rd eye with lashes (and a bunch of dots above it) No thank you. I didn’t feel super threatened by it, but I mean they are in my home when I asked them to leave…. So ….. It moved to the side.

The voice said “don’t you want a 3rd eye?”. I said, “I already have one.” (I guess I think… Maybe… Who knows). 

All I know is I want all these things out of my body…. I don’t care if they are little ghost in the shape bunny rabbits, Jesus, 3rd eye lashes ….. After what happen … No Bueno. And anything of a good nature would understand that and leave me alone.

I’m seriously not out hear looking for this stuff. I get bothered and then I’m looking for ways to be left alone by these entity spirits whatever they are. 

Why won’t they leave!!!!!!!? Uhg! 

Watch “Clear your Energy Body from Implants and Negative Entities” on YouTube

This was actually super good! And I’m a hard ass when it come to this stuff. But I did feel differences. 

The Entity is still here and attached. I ended up putting white gold light in my heart chakra and saw all this black burst out. 

I might have to do this a few times. But when does it stop? When can I effortlessly be myself again? When will I won’t have to worry about constantly shutting down absurd and gross thoughts?

This was good though! 

The Reason My Parent Divorced. 😔

When I was say 3 years old my parents spit up because my mom wanted to get their own place and not live with my father. 

The icing on the cake was when I kept talking about “the monsters” which they then took me and my twin sister to therapy where they assumed the monster I was talking about was my father, and took the leap to say that my father molested me. This sealed the deal on the divorce and I was never to see my father again.

I went my whole life thinking my father molested me not even truly knowing what it is but something bad. And I hated him for it. 

12 years later my mom contacts my dad, he said he would never, my mom believed him, they remarry and we move to the city. I finish high school but they soon kick me out because I was gay (19 yo.) So life sucked balls. 

I have tried for a long time to make it on my own and I think did a decent job of doing so while trying to help my friends in their time of need as well. But I slowly repaired my relationship with my parents in that time away and was proud of that. 

Now I moved back here, some 15 years later and guess what I’m seeing monsters again. And its molesting me, and trying to force incestious, sick perverted thoughts, and ruining my life yet again. AINT THAT SOME SHIT. 

The building I live in is a bunch of resident doctors and nurses who all work at the hospital close by, so combine whatever monster I saw as a kid, and whatever spirit, energies these doctors bring home, and living in the heart of NYC I’m sure this is just a cesspool of negative energies. 

My mom cleans the house every other day. We moved a lot of things around in the house, and redorated the whole house which usually kicks up energies as well. I just don’t know how to remove them or send them where they belong. 

None of this schizophrenia started until I moved here. Not at this level.  Its like yea I heard or saw a shadow here or there…. But this is woa. I have pictures of energy in my house. So I’m not crazy. 

Now that I can “see” these energies now, I looked at a picture of my sister prior to her stroke and there was a big purple circle thing around the eye that she went blind in. Thank god through surgery she was able to get her sight back. But what is the agenda of these Entities and energies?

So these entities possibly broke up my parents and blinded my sister and declinded all of our health all the while I am having a schizophrenic break down watching all of this shit play out. The storyline about my ex (twin flame) and getting him back and past lives was all a distraction for the pain and havoc they were reeking in our lives to obtain what I assume is the energy they need.

Tonight I cried at the dinner table because the Entity kept molesting me every time my Dad made a sound when he ate his diner. He had a tracheotomy because of the surgery so he makes this strange noise. But reasoning doesn’t stop these Entities from doing what they do, and I broke down, I was weak, I gave them what they wanted, I cried because I’m tiresy of being molested by sick, nasty, dark distgusting evil Entities at every opportunity. 

Part of me wants to run away and the other wants to stay and clear this bullshit out for my families sake, but they are duplicating all over the house. they are everywhere (TV, cellphones, microwave, bathroom sink handle, soap pump, above the diner table, above and side of beds, different sizes colors, forms) and I have yet to figure out how to physically remove them.

😭🙏🙈

Twin Flame or Alien Love Bite? – Alien Orchestrated Human Bonding Dramas

https://www.bibliotecapleyades.net/vida_alien/alien_lovebite01.htm

So this article only speaks on the aliens love bite but I will also look up information if someone has written anything on the direct correlation between alien love bites and twin flame.

If you think about it it makes sense. Entities supposedly feed off of negative energy and whats worse than a long drawn out longing for the love that is unrequited?

What’s funny is that many many many in the “twin flame” community are also those in the “love and light” and yet seem extremely unaware. 

There are teenagers on YouTube and forums BEGGING to meet their “twin flame”, and that actuallybsvares me because it is something way beyond you “meeting the greatest karmic love of your life”, if anything it’s bullshit.

What it really is, is having extreme emotions and a longing for love that more than likely you will never get as long as these Entities are involved because they are playing you like a puppet. They watch you, they will pretend to be your twin flame to so sexual things to you.

And if you finally lay down the card call twin flame, it only gets worse. Etheric love making with your “twin flame” becomes entity rape. Spiraling down a rabbit hole of spiritually reasons that you feel a pain that is not justifyable until you hit the bottom and ran out of reasons…. That bottom is called Schizophrenia. 

Schizophrenia is torture with no story line other than your own freedom and soon the freedom of humanity once you realize how to humanity has been hypnotized.

Its sad, but I’m not quite sure why, of course “harvesting” negative energy or whatever, but with all of this technology being used couldn’t they figure out to replicate “negative energy to feed off of”? I mean humans are growing ears on rats, I think intelligent aliens can come up with an alternative method to meddling I. Human affairs and torturing the population for “negative energy”. 

I wonder if all the people making money off of twin flames actually explain this to people? Or do they profit from peddling a delusion to keep making money? 

And THATS where the spiritual community got me fucked up. And they have nerve to speak about religion. 

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