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Home girl is getting PLAYED. Why do I have to get raped and tortured when there is perfectly willing people out there?!

That’s what they do with twin flames too to keep you apart. amd you end up going into seperation feeling either heart break or “this amazing connection”. You think its your twin flame but its not its a fucking demon ghost playing your ass out of a relationship that you have the opprotunity in this body to have NOW! She was about to get married! And this demon ghost comes in and ruins that for her and she’s all OK cool. 
Fuck this!

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Princess. ๐Ÿ‘ธ

So I was scrolling through Facebook and Bored Panda had the cutest clip about this Dad who Makes Transforming Dresses

I’m into fashion believe it or not. I use to sew crazy performance outfits for my friends who were in the Vogue Ballroom scene. So this dress had what would be called an “effect” ….  Just that little extra bit of wow or drama. 

Either way I’m watching this clip in aww my mouth dropped from the creativity. And I knew any girl or femme would love to have something like that its like you turn into an instant princess. 

BUT OF COURSE THE ENTITY COMES IN and starts saying I’m watching child porn. And I’m like HUH? 

And so I just started crying…. Because I realized I may never think the way I use to ever again. Just…. normal. I have this curse…. This entity……. This inserted thought constantly talking about child abuse in a gross manner. It doesn’t matter what the topic is…. It could furniture….. Or tree. This entity will find a way to pedo that topic to torment my life. And I’m over it. 

I’m sorry I just started crying…. And I write when I cry. I’m tired of being molested and burned and constantly having to think about this topic. I’ve really tried to ignore it…. But then I bust out crying and I can’t help it it upsets me and I know they love it….. its there juice. 

Maybe I should have been heartless…. I wish I had a different fear….. A different thing that upsets me so much…. Idk…. Maybe Protecting the Rainforest or something…..

Just sucks looking at something innocently and then having it turned into something disgusting as soon as you smile. 

Whatever. ๐Ÿ˜ญ

Petty Post: Bashee

So I legit have this Banshee looking ghost thing following me its in some of my photos and on my skin. Its in the photo of my arm in the background and in the drawing in a previous post.

Anyway so i decided to google Banshee just to see if they really look like that.

And then when I googled the first thing that popped up was Banshee Pub.

I jokingly said to myself i should go there.

Then I took a look inside and realize was the first time of 3 of the last times I would see my ex (twin flame). I cried for the first time in front of him there. We split the bill on a few drinks. I went home, he walked away. I never felt understood or like i could understand with him. LOL I needed my best friend to constantly decipher messages so i didnt get worked up about “wtf does that even mean?”

But whatever.

I have a the ghost of a banshee moving around on my body and fucking up my life. And Bashee Pub just happened to be one of the places I died.

UPDATE: So the Banshee showed up on my upper arm again. And I was in the bathroom and had my arm on the sink when I noticed it. And so I said, “Hi, thanks for ruining my life.” And the Banshee legit changed faces looking down like “my bad”. 

So if children scribbles drawings of banshees are welting up on my arm and showing fake remorse for ruining my life, I need Jesus and the best medicine I can get my hands on cause this shit is CRAY! 

Sun Lamp ๐ŸŒž

I’m legit thinking about limiting my electronic time and getting a sun lamp until its warm enough to go outside. 

I’m not depressed other that the fact I have endure the pain of this situation. And I already take vitamin D. My mood is only because of this experience other wise I’m pretty happy go lucky. 

saw some affordable ones so I might just ask for one as an early Xmas gift.

My friend who has also experienced this and has confirmed some things for me told me to look into making a DIY Earthing Grounding mat. I was so use to farming barefoot at my old job when I had the chance or being on the beach. Now I guess the best I can do is fake sunlight and fake earthing until I am able to purge these nasty entities.

The prayers I have been doing seem to only make me be attacked harder.

I know we are suppose to be on Gods side but…… The prayer is for protection from these things and to forgive them. But it doesn’t seem to be working soon after I feel sucked dry as if I’m about to die. 

So idk. The Tai Chi by Eric Pilgrem seems decent. But they just come back.

I look forward to having my feet in the sand on a beautiful long island beach soon as I can. 

BIG Problem: It’s like in my Body Now

I have been ignoring it for a while. Something has to happen a few times before I validate it.

SO NOW the new thing is whatever these things are when they attack ME there is like an impression of them in my body. This was mostly in photos. but now they are seeming more apparent on my skin. So like actual marks that then fade.

So like just now, my right arm felt tight, like high blood pressure I guess… but my blood pressure had gone down the doctors said I’mย doing good. So I went to the bathroom and looked at my arm and my skin was moving. NOT like in the movies… but it was like moving side to side. Itย wasn’t like there was a bug or anythingย just moving. Then I just stared at it and it turned red and the impression of one of the things I see in photos appeared (the medusa banshee looking one) and then I just kept looking and it stopped and went away.

The time before that I saw my skin move on my forearm and then Iย quickly squashed my arm and then it turned into an X and then like like 2 others X’s showed up on my arm going down to my wrist.

I always felt them vibrating my root chakra area…. or like the energy in my head giving me a headache … but this is totally different.

I’m really at a loss now. I’m not sure if what I am doing is correct. I pray… I’mย in the group healing… I’m over here doing ti chi. I am trying to be of service to others as best I can considering my own situation. But like I feel nothing I am doing is making it better.

I don’t know if the meds will officially knock them out or something I am willing to give it a try. I’m trying to go the holistic approach and the approach that feels right to me, but nothing seems to be working. If I do get SOME headway … I get attacked even harder.

like there at least 25 Archon Portal things in my house spewing shit at me if I even look in that direction. And its fucked up. I’m the only one in the house that feels or sees this. It’s insane. My friends can see them in photos so I’m not bugging out completely.

I just want to do whats right and will work in the long run.

Sister Sister (pt. whatever) ๐Ÿ˜‡๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ˜ˆ

So tonight my sister asked me to help her in the bed. And I have slowly been trying to ween her off of asking me for help. I mean she had a stroke, didn’t really push herself in physically therapy as much I would have like to have seen, but FORCED herself to go back to work being partially disabled now. Not because its a lot of money but because she loves her job. And my moms and I best instincts we supported her. It would be good exercise. 

Which means that half of my life is currently dedicated to making sure she looks good for the world. But at home constantly cleaning up human waste, helping her put on clothes and getting her things. But some how she braves the streets on NYC and goes to work at rush hour. Which is more than I have been able to do unless its another emergency. 

My sister asked me to help her to bed. But for some strange reason I help he to bed and she gets up 5 mins later for juice and then asks for help again. Sooooo….  I told her NO this time. I tried to explain to her why and she told me to “shut up!“. So I told her, “Fuck you! You’re so RUDE!

And GUESS What the Demon tried to do, tried to GUILT me about the ENERY I was sending my sister and saying it was going to go over and kill her because I told her “fuck you”. 

So I told the demon, “Fuck you too go back to hell”. I thought if this demon wants to hurt my sister at this point that is that Demons choice not mine. What am I gonna do? Grab at air? I already tried that smacking one out of her room. I already put up prayers on every mirror. I bit my tongue and faked being happy for her healing process and was having (still) having a delusional break down being burned and raped all the while having to be a maid and being yelled at. 

This whole being “conscious of the energy I bring our put out there” is now another form of GUILT for this demon to play with after working on many layer and finally getting to a place of soon braving the world. Like I’m not allowed to say NO. I said NO to this Demon(s) so many times and yet . …….Here it remains. I’ve ignored it, I’ve scolded my skin with hot herbal baths, I prayed, I’ve paid, I’ve given up everything in this false “ascension”. 

My sister is not my child and she reminds me of hold old she is every week. I just wish we were just….. Sisters again. 

Since she going back to work now, I have tried to focus on getting a game plan together for my own healing. On my own. Since nothing I paid for worked other than ODing on benadryl /sleep medication and some fake ass excuse for this perverse Demon being in my life “shamans” calling it a “generational curse”.

Check This! I can still be conscious of my “energy” and still express myself. How amazing is that!? Even if I didn’t have this Demon pop up and try to murder me I still would be angry. Look at the world! It’s where I channel my anger. And at the same time I can’t be responsible how some perceives my “energy”. I can only be responsible for how I carry myself. If that person is so perceptive then they should also have compassion in understanding that persons “energy” as well, while simultaneously not taking it on as their own. But I also understand that there are people unaware, sensitive and under attack. Like me. 

The Demon said, “let the games begin!”

๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜’ UHg.

Lost Souls ๐Ÿ‘ค๐Ÿ™ & Fire

I have heard many theories on what these circular shape things are around my house. Some say its souls/spirits, some say angels, some say archon/ reptialian, I have yet to read anyone directly relate this things with Satan but they sure do come close. 

So one thing I noticed is that these things do NOT like heat. Although they can produce what may feel like heat (nerve / electrical). Actual heat is not what they love. This includes actual fire and HOT water, say in a bath or the outside of a glass of HOT tea.

I guess this came up for me because I woke up, felt one of these things on the top of my hand and the used my eyes to see if there was one there, and then saw the darker middle half way out my hand. I then placed my piping hot coffee cup on the back of my hand and saw it rise up slowly. 

Whatever these things are if they remove themselves from my body after being put in hot water then to me that means THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE THERE! 

Maybe I am getting too biblical but maybe these are lost souls, that would endlessly burn in fire. Since they don’t die in heat, but don’t like heat they just run away, they often come back. Or maybe these lost souls are being USE by Reptilians (which i could def see them being thought of as demons back in the day).

They are slowly accumulating all over the house. Edges of the ceiling. And some so bold and big right in the middle of the room.

I’m just tired of these things attaching to me. I know my vibrations are “low” because whatever is orchestrating this, keeps using child sexual abuse to make me super sad and grossed out and cry. Which probably just feeds them all. But I TRY, and when I try to not allow the visions to bring me down (cause they are not real), I get attached even more. 

These things touching my skin are causing rashes, burning, vibration and discomfort. 

When I deal with emotional now its the physical with these things burning.

I’m TRYing SO HARD! ๐Ÿ™

“Astral Sex | How to Achieve Out of Body Sex (Safely)” ? ๐Ÿ™…๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ‘ฝ

First Fuck this guy!

When I first heard of astral ANYTHING….. I read that one should be cautious of having sex there for they may attach to you and reek havok in your life. So that instantly turned me off since I wouldn’t know what I was doing.

Over the last two years I have an attachment that I have no idea how I got that was trying to seem like it was my Ex (“twin falme”) having “astral sex” naming my ex’s name, then Osiris and then Gregory. As soon as I said no it became daily rape. Constant rape…. To this day. Rape.

This dude is literally opening up a portal and allowing anything to come and go as they please for his own personally gratification.

Because communication is “telepathic” and can seem as mind control, the Entity has tried to convince me that I want it. Or begging for it, especially as I am waking up from sleep.

I’ve said in a previous post (Alien Love Bite) that I believe that many Astral Entities cause the drama of a “Twin Flame” love story so it can isolate you and keep you for its own means. Many people in the “separation phase” tend to stay celibate waiting for their lover to return, but all the while communicating with them “telepathically” during that time. Since you are too afraid (false implanted thought), to contact them you rarely have the chance to confirm this telepathy with them. I’m sure most are ashamed of having this astral sex with their supposed “twin flame” and won’t talk about it or admit it. Everything is sacred and a secret….. RIGHT! Except I’m being fuckint raped. That’s why they keep you from your lover! So they can use you in ways a narcissist hasn’t even dreamed of. 

Fuck this guy! Opening up portals and letting shit in that van harm people. All so he can get laid by some astral avatar looking chick?

Get your whole fucking life together! All of it! 

I have to sit here and be raped all day while there is completely willing idiots looking for this shit. It’s so fucked up! 

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