Best Friend Dating 👩‍❤️‍👩

So in my last post Dating vs Lonely I talked about how my friend found a boo piece less than a week ago. What I don’t think I mentioned is that the voices said maybe a week or two before hand “we gotta find her (my friend) a man to get her (me) out of here“. They said this multiple times prior to her meeting this guy who seems really sweet.

I dismissed it like most of their claims like I’m gonna die and every is gonna die (my family).

I take care of my Godson while my friend goes to NA meetings once a week because I want to support her. And while the voices still try pedo shit while I am with my godson I have trained myself to not to respond to it and get upset or agitated like I use to and just ignore it for the most part. It still hurts my soul. But I love my godson and my best friend. I also during the day I get a few hours of peace and quiet when they are not home unlike I do at my partners house and it gets me out of the house once a week and at least I’m exercising myself to be in the world.

For whatever reason they don’t want me to be here. But they don’t want me to be anywhere really. In the beginning at my parents house the voices started with the incest shit with my father and showing me images of him raping me and making me feel awkward around my dad all of a sudden. Then they were trying to get me to run away. I considered it many times because I wanted it to stop. I was going to kill myself a the beach in Long Island and I, for whatever reason maybe panic, I could not find the right train even though I was on the right track.

Either way it’s the same thing with my old job as well calling me a child molester and telling me to quit my job (which I did) and forcing me to leave and have nothing. Just tossing me around aimlessly at their whim.

So now I gained some footing. My friends house is a safe space for me (for the most part) and now the demons want to get me out of here too. And the way they plan on doing that I guess is by occupying her with a man. But at the same time making it seem like I am jealous (a running dialogue). Which I’m not. Now because she is seeing someone they are saying oh she is prettier than you, you are ugly that’s why you don’t have a man. And all that stuff. And I mean she is she is gorgeous always has been. But NOW they are saying that. It’s weird.

I guess what makes it awkward is knowing the voices foretold yet another situation. Just like the foretold my ex having a son two years prior to the actual birth to make me feel like shit. And I’m not even mad I just wanted to stop hearing about him and being tormented by the image or voice of him coming off the TV.

So idk if these demons actually foretell the future or create it. It seems easier for them to create it since they can influence people decisions to some extent mostly if it’s with in their parameters.

Part of me wants to just whimper and leave. The other part wants to stand my ground. But I’m just going to be me and go with the flow. And if I see less of my friend because she has a man oh well we’ve all done it to each other.

Just feel some type of way cause the foretold it was going to happen. Like I don’t have control over my life. Even though I am working on the inward, now it’s manifesting outwardly (more than just seeing them). So meh.

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Targeted Individuals: Mirror Exercise 😮

This is a excerpt from my previous post. I thought it could use its own post.

“Like even just now i stared at myself in the mirror and for the first time i could see the entities attached to me. Maybe not their full outline. But i can see that there is a dark energy there. I looked above my head (pain) and my shoulders (pain in my neck). And there are def energy there black purple lines that look like a star or an X. And when i looked at it …. It moved. They hate being seen. That is probably why the voice didnt want me to look in the mirror for so long. Like every time i looked it would say i was ugly or i looked like a man or my eyes are your eyes so i just didnt want to look at myself. Now i am ugly in a whole nother way.

If you want to see all you have to do is look above your head or shoulders and move from side to side and you may see a dark energy or a misty clear energy moving with you.”

If you dont suffer from energy atracks, dont look. That is my disclaimer.

New Age: Channeled Messages 👽

So before i go into this topic i wanted to make a note that last night i was sleeping and these demon assholes woke me up at 5am shouting and screaming in almost a helium voice. And then i wake up and i felt a humming vibration leave my body specifically my head and move to the left of me on my bed.

I could see the energy swirling in the air and a shadow on the surface of my bed. I saw it moving around back and forth like a tornado standing still……My sheets started moving like there was actual pressure on the sheets. While i was frighten at first cause i just woke up i as always exchange my FEAR for CURIOSITY. I watched it for a little while to make sure i was seeing what i was seeing. And then i just said “you guys are assholes……” (for waking me up at 5am) and went to the bathroom.

So they make it so hard to sleep at night for some reason. Also as a note my eyes are very tender today. The vibration feeling was at other spots of my body as well. And i figured this is how they make dreams feel so real sometimes. But maybe im wrong. Not sure totally the purpose of vibration energy. Anyways just making a note.

CHANNELED MESSAGES

So in the New Age community there are a lot of Channelers. Or people encouraging others to be “clairaudiant” or clairsentient ect. Which basically means you can sense or communicate with non sentient beings…. energy …. whatever.

There are some that listen and relay the message and there are people who allow the beings to speak through them.

Sigh. Yall!

Like first of all most of these people have no idea who or what they are talking to. Very few of us can see these beings fully. Only in part. Like you may only see the light magic illusion/vision they show you but not their true for walking the earth. Or you might see just the energy clouds of their being with your two eyes but not the actual form. The demon/aliens that I SEE…. LOVE to “play”. This can be in our waking life or dreams. They love to take on different personalities (real or made up). And they are able to do so THROUGH US. If they dont have a conduit to an audience, does it really matter? A bald headed casper the ghost looking alien was pretending to be telepathy with my ex in the begining. Even sounded like him too. But it wasnt my ex, it was and entity of sorts probably with a costume on. (YEA I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CRAZY!). But i have seen them use masks and like put coverings on. I honestly can’t even make this stuff up. Its not even what i want to bring into the world. Tbh.

Like y’all out here channeling and allowing just any ol’ entities to speak through you? They are PLAYING YOU! It is not some someones grandma or paladian alien or arch angel ect! Like get your shit together! You are renting out your body part time to a being you have no idea what it is or its true intention. Do you have sex with just anyone? And even if you did have sex with someone that is appealing (in one way or another) ….. What is to say they are not lying to you just to have sex with you?

That is what you are doing with these beings. Renting out your body to unknown beings. While these beings may enter my body …… I DO NOT CONSENT! So essentially they are rapists and trespassers. Who is to say they will not feel entitled to your body at some point? And just start taking you over and blacking you out when ever?

I mean i first thought it was a spirit or an angel (oooo pretty sparkles)…. Then telepathy with my ex….. Then reptillian and mantis aliens….. Then just old fashion demons….. Want to know why? Because no matter WHAT the situation was……… There was a LIE in there. They were lying about SOMETHING. And that takes time, observation and discernment to really see.

Like im not really trying to play with these beings. They hurt physically. Even when they try to give “pleasure” with soft touches or air lightly blowing or even forced orgasm….. It’s creepy AF.

One of the first times i encountered a “spirit” it pretended to be Zora Neal Hurston (who i adore) as my school project was on her life and legacy. And i wrote a piece about how she came to me in spirit during my studies. DO YOU KNOW Alice Walker wrote a short story “The Ghost of Zora Neal Hurston”. I found out because my professor asked if i had read anything by Alice Walker. I said No. And found out the Walker wrote a story similar to mine. So these demon alien assholes were out here trying to make it look like i was plagiarizing! Which could have got me licked out of school. ASSHOLES! It took me reviewing my life to see where they played me like this.

Im sorry but yall are getting played and spreading the SAME STUPID MESSAGE EVERY SINGLE TIME! EVERY TIME! from different channelers too! “The shift is happening” “ascension is on its way” “twin flames unite next month!” “New energies are on its way”. You all should be ASHAMED of yourselves for what you are doing to the public to get a buck or attention. Same messages since like 2011!

Yall are playing with/getting played by DEMONS. And misinformating the public at the same time which is opening more people to getting played and getting attacked and keeping them from God!. Thats an awakening right there!

Smh. So done with the shit!

Love and light! 🙏💩

Targeted Individuals: I’m So Special

Soooooo I don’t mean to be an asshole. And I hate to be that guy……but I hear a LOT of TIs saying they the 144k, tribe of Israel, elected, past life goddesses, twin flames, earth angels, alien star seeds, shamans, prophets like YA’LL really need to get your shit together.

Like I really WANT to believe these things but my heart and eyes are showing me something different.

Yes you are special …… but maybe not in the ways you think. You don’t need super powers to be special to God.

Maybe just maybe these demons are playing with you to make you feel like you are special in these supernatural ways because they want to twist your mind and belief to lead you astray from God. You think your super powers are coming from God but really it’s the network matrix of demons.

In psychology I believe that is called grandiose.

Maybe there is something in our lives that allowed these demons to infiltrate our lives. Trauma is also a cause as well. But I know these demons didn’t pop up until I started questioning shit. Like the way I felt. Or why I was reacting to certain things the way I was. I was resisting arrest. And since they couldn’t play at low level they turned all the way the fuck up. But I mean I’ve done some things that probably allowed them in my life in one way or another. Do I think it’s fair NO. But I have to accept it to some extent.

I honestly did not think all of this would lead me to this path. Like I really want(ed) to believe we have super powers and elected and God sees me past my flaws and mess ups and the good work I’ve have been privileged to do. BUT there is this feeling that these demons are 21st century PLAYING US for FOOLS!

I’m not one to condemn or to preach end times fire and brimstone. I am simply sharing my current truth. One I wish wasn’t my truth. But is.

I have to trust God will correct others path as needed. I pray it is gentle. And not the harsh reality I come to face with.

Stay humble! ❤️

Evil Light Beings emit EMF radiation 😱

So on Saturday i was at my besties house sleeping and the voices/entities kept waking me up every hour so that got really annoying. The last time i woke up i saw a glowing bright red being (which i am familiar with see photo) sitting on the right side of my pillow. And when it saw that i saw him he then covered himself in a black energy blob and said “im hot! Im hot!”.

This isnt the first time i saw the beings glowing before. It seems that the smaller they are the brighter they glow and when they make themselves larger (like a projection) they become duller dark ghostlike outlines. When they are larger they seem to move slower.

Now often New Agers will call these beings “dark beings” and “not of the light”. But they are very much made of light i believe. They hide however in the dark and do “dark” (bad) things like torturing people or lying. The bible described Lucifer a being of light casted down to earth from heaven. I dont believe this is a coincidence.

So we know they are at least made of light. Are they derivatives of Lucifer or the orginal fallen angels? Like little pieces that broke off from the original but yet still carrying out the same evil program?

But they have to be made of something. Its not magical. Its like a shaman who gave someone herbs to drink to feel better and the person think its magic. But really there is a science behind herbs and how they effect the body. Eons of studying herbs to know what works for which part of the body. Some of the things they can do as light beings is burn you, electrocute you, make you vibrate, pin pricks, jolt. Just to name a few.

What sparked my inquiry was that these beings emit EMF radiation anywhere from 30 to 100+ on a good day. I wondered what emits EMF….. And just a simple google it is different wavelengths.

Now there are two pieces to this puzzle. The actual light being and the black energy blob they hide behind (i believe it can be clearish as well but im just talking through this).

In the Wiki link on Electromagnetic Radiation it goes through the basics of the different waves lengths which include It includes radio waves, microwaves, infrared, (visible) light, ultraviolet, X-rays, and gamma rays. Now only visible light is suppose to seen by the naked eye. For whatever reason i can see these things and i dont know why.

Now my guess is that these beings are on the infrared wavelength (lol because it was red) or they can jump different wavelengths. They other reason i assumed it was infrared is because of the EMF reading between 30 and 100+ ut. This image can be found under the “Electromagnetic Spectrum” tab in the link.

Now i might be being simplistic about my associations with my findings. But under the “Thermal and electromagnetic radiation as a form of heat” in the same link there is a link to something called a “black body“. Inam only assuming that the black energy blob that they hide in cpuld possible be a black body which is described as “A black body or blackbody is an idealized physical body that absorbs all incident electromagnetic radiation, regardless of frequency or angle of incidence. (It does not only absorb radiation, but can also emit radiation. ”

When i put the EMF reader (found in the app store) near this black energy blob the reader goes nuts it shoots up too 90+ but going all over the place. So it absorbing and emitting kinda of makes sense with the reading jumping all over the place.

Now that i may have identified what these beings are made of its about testing things to protect myself and or find ways to disolve them. Im not SUPER smart but im trying at least to make sense and if it doesnt I will definitely update this post.

Studying the make up of these beings are important to our protection especially those that are truly suffering. I guess since i am not some magic healer i am looking to science to explain what i am experiencing.

These evil light beings emitting EMF radiation it would make sense why people feel sick or ill or bad feelings when they connect to us. It would also make sense why “demons” or evil beings can cause diseases on the body when they are attached because theybare emitting EMF which over long periods of time which can effect organ function and cell structure.

I think many New Agers talk about this stuff like we are in pre school. And of course Religious people talk about it as if demons are magical and not possibly scientific.

What makes a “good” light being differ from a “bad” light being other than not energetically raping a human? Do good ones hide in those black energy blobs too? Or do they more enjoy the fresh air of nature and the sun? What is the exact purpose of all of this? I cant settle on the answer that they want to “harvest your negative emotions” ….. Like whaaat? I mean it makes sense in the program that they run in terms of using fear and negative emotions to get a reaction….. But in the grand scheme what exactly do they need from ME that causes them to literally stalk me where ever i go? There has to be more i feel.

Thats all I got for today i hope to progress to understanding what would dissolve the black body/black energy blob or warding off these light energy beings from connecting with me and impossing on my free will.

A Truth: Reconciliation ⏰

So I have seen 100s of different “entities” during this 3 year long attack. Mantis, aliens, golems, reptilians, troll, teddy bears, parasites, dragons, regular demons, geckos, “acturians”, vampire, ghosts, Shadow “people”, lotus’, sunflowers and daisies, butterflies, infinity symbols, Isis and Osiris statue, cats, mermaids, like half woman half man human esq faces, and countless other ones I can not describe. MOST that I see seem to be just heads. Head cut off by a circle. They were almost drawings and could be anything or anyone.

Now I HAVE heard my ex’s voice actually still do unfortunately. I’ve heard my mother’s and fathers. I’ve heard pretty much all of my coworkers when I was really loosing my mind. And that is why I thought it was originally telepathy.

I also hear 2 male voices and a female voice that I do not know who they are but they the main harassers. (“Gang stalkers”)

And I guess that’s where I came to a am epiphany. I saw 100s of astrals all over my NYC apartment. On the TV, on the enclosing my room creating a matrix, on my dresser in the hallway…… like woa, but my assumption is that they are all derivatives fragments of the same whole and can conglomerate at anytime and …………. say………. go back to what ever layer of hell it came from? Maybe?

I will hear the same voice coming off the TV in the living room or in my sisters room depending. Both have a little purple energy blob (actually more than one) hanging around it. That’s why ambient TV kills me because the Entity can manipulate sound as long as sound is happening. If not they they resort to white noise in the ears.

ANY WAYS, besides all of the different costumes (out of the 100s of Entities I have seen I still don’t know who has been speaking to me), and ALL the different “personalities” they try to pull off (such as my friends, family, coworkers, ex’s, lololol GOD lol) one thing has remained the same is their ACTUAL personality. One I’m not familiar with. So I’m going to assume at least one is new, but if I assume too much that just create more story and story gives them more play time.

Generally speaking these entities fit the profile of a “reptilian” sexually perverted, controlling, mean, manipulative, liars, mind control, dark negative thoughts all that corny shit. Most will just call them demons.

Be it targeted individuals, attacked “awakened” (whatever the fuck that means now a days), schizophrenics, or possessed, the voices are all generally the same. Vile, sexually depraved, twisted “consciousness”. They repeat the same shit over and over and over and over 🙄 and over and over again. Looping the same gross ass thought and trying to convince YOU that’s YOU lol when it’s THEM! Even when you know!

So the fact that these Entities are generally the same either saying the same thing or with the same agenda speaks volumes. But of course each person has their own individual life so of course each fragment of this energy will be tailored to them more less.

But there are too many commonalities. And I’m starting to get really over this…… and I’m pretty sure others are as well.

I don’t need proof with all these photos (although I have it). I don’t need to listen to them because all they have done is caused pain and looped it, lead me astray in my true “spiritual” journey and distracted me from my joy.

I know it’s not easy that’s why they use mind control tactics in our sleep. But for those that are struggling in this fucked up false ass matrix……….

👾👾👾 GAME OVER!!! 👾👾👾

Copy Cat 🙀🙏 Smiley Face ☺

Above is a photo from a young girl in my schizophrenia group. We originally started speaking about her hallucinations in the group and she seemed so scared I told her to maybe draw them. To kinda face the fears, showing them she is not afraid. 

At first she was like no, but then some weeks later she started drawing them. And I was really proud of her for facing her fears.

She exolained this one is very different than what she normally sees. And I saw the same one again today as well. 

Some weeks ago my friend “sent me energy” and it looked like smiley face and flowers. I wrote about it in the blog. Her energy was very polite. When she brought her energy back to herself I knew. BUT the demonic energy here tried to copy the look of her energy signature and tried to seem like it was her. But know when it is not. There is always a slight difference from hers. Hers is brighter, faster, and moves. This demons is slow and dull and the smile is different. 

Now this girl drawing a version of the demonic version of this energy that I saw today and its making me upset. 1. Because I pray that its not this demon trying to fuck with her or me. 2. I feel like I should not be around ANYONE like I can’t care about anyone, help anyone with out some bullshit.

They asked me to be a moderator in the schiz group. Cause I give a shit about people and I want people to be OK….. But then things like this just makes me feel like shit.

Dry Fasting!

Learn something new everyday! A guy in my group suggested “Dry Fasting” and said “No food and no liquids. To make an analogy – wet woods make poor fire, but dry woods make strong fire. This will be internal purifying fire in your body and cells.”

This Blog goes into detail:

“It’s as simple as the wet-dry distinction. Wet fasting: Drink water, but take no food.Dry fasting: a total abstinence from both food and water for a defined time.

There is one more level of dry fasting called Absolute Dry Fasting. Some suggest to reach the deepest level and realize the full benefits of dry fasting, it’s better not to let any water come in contact with the body through the skin or mucous membranes. You heard that right: no showers, no swimming, no brushing teeth while dry fasting.”

http://www.beautifulonraw.com/dry-fasting-phenomenon-from-deprive-to-thrive.html

 

Before I was attacked I would natrually fast on weekends because I was tired and too lazy to cook. But also I wasnt doing the same amount of work i was doing durning the week on the farm. I think its “intermitting fasting”. I believed it help me shed a lot of pounds.

I also fasted for two weeks on water alone, while i was in the middle of my delusions hoping God would help me and my family if I sacrificed consuming the comforts fixed by my mother. I was shocked that i had so much energy. I relized later that any sense of “lack of energy”, passing out, headaches was the Entity attacking me. I didnt NEED as much to survive like I was taught. But cookie dough makes the tears go away.

I will be incorperating this into my spiritual detox plan.

Lightened Photo

If I didn’t see this shape drop down in front of my eyes or mark my skin then I would say hey this prolly just a camera glitch.

This is the first time I caught on camera what I was drawing.

No one else is seeing it…  And its clear as day and making me feel crazy. And I thought I was a rational person. 


Kundalini: Reversals 👆

This is from a Kundalini teacher ChrisM in a group I am in. I like his style. He doesn’t get all distracted with showmanship…. Razzle dazzle. And is usually straight to the point. Which I appreciate…. Cause I’m still “reclaiming my time” after all this demon shit. 

Either way here is the beautiful dialogue:

Chris M: If you are working with me or the information that comes through me I will advise you not to partake of information sources such as channelers. Or mediums or sorcerers and reiki practitioners. All these are subject to extreme distortion due to entity corruption. – chrism (to the group)

Me: I really didn’t want to part take but I wanted to understand what is/was happening to me. And I agree that many have a limited understand of what they are playing with or distorded views.  Still have yet to figure out how to rid my body of these perversions. Big sigh.

ChrisM: do the reversals continuously.

Me: Sorry where are the reversals? I read the (kundalini) safeties and some other stuff.

Chris M:

The Crucible of Reversal

You may have in some way opened yourself and your energetic proximities to the access of other consciousness or entities. In some way through a belief system or a practice, you have allowed certain safeguards to be eliminated from your personal space. Just as people can allow another person into their body so can a person allow these safeguards to be removed.

So you may wish to do a review of what practices you have been involved with that may have allowed this to occur. It can be a teacher who has not disconnected or a healing modality that encourages entity contact. Some of the Reiki formats have these characteristics where a person is encouraged to open to the “Universal Healing Masters” who can turn out to be entities just waiting for that opening. A session with a medium or a desire to channel can have these results. It can be a session with a psychic who is still connected to you or some forms of psychic intervention or healing.

So reach back into your experience past or present and see if you can locate a modality or person or school or teaching that helped you to “open” to the spirits of the multiverse. Ask your spouse to do the same as these can be shared events as well. See what comes up.

If nothing does then this can be an opportunity for you to experience the expression of a “Crucible of Reversal”. In essence you become a crucible of change for any entity that comes into your being. This takes effort on your part and will involve some uncomfortable experiences at first. As you begin to solidify your strength and mature your ethical standards as to include what and how you choose to feel and think and see. The entities that come to you will become transformed by their contact with you. In other words you turn the tables on them and you become the trap for them. As they come they get burned in the crucible of your body, awareness and consciousness. They are transformed by the strength of your intention and the total commitment to the ethical standards that you choose to exude.

This takes a supreme commitment on your part and may be the only reason you are even reading my words. You take the negative and force it by its contact with you to become positive. You change it. I have had to do this and it is effective. It takes commitment and practice, and a willingness to become a walking, talking, fountain of joy. Eager to change the aspects of expression for all who come into your sphere of influence. This includes your body and its environs.

For instance. Sometimes I would have entities of a dark or hurtful nature come to me and command me into the action of killing a person. An older person or a child or whomever. I wouldn’t do it. But upon awakening from this experience I would know that “This day I am to help an older person or a child or whomever”. In this way every hurtful intention or idea or plan or experience or feeling of illness was rewarded with a positive, intention based, balancing of that idea or experience or issue. In the physical real time.

Follow through is the most important action in this scenario. To take it from the astral to the physical makes the interfering entity part of a physically based plan of goodness and helpfulness and love. Many of the dark ones will not enjoy this and they leave. The good ones don’t invade you anyway so there is a balance and an increase of the vibrational expression that you give off. This in turn strengthens your field, which in turn makes it harder for entities to attach and so forth.

Add Kundalini to the crucible after you have stabilized it as a continuous and a solid expression of your life, twenty four seven, with action based experiences of reversals and you become very gifted and very strong. So this in and of itself may be the beginning of a school of activity for you. It’s not easy at first but becomes second nature with practice and follow through. – blessings –