So one thing that has become more and more difficult other than sustaining meaningful and deep relationships is reading. I have never been a grammar Nazi or a book worm but I like reading a good book or article.
Since this shit has happened it has become harder and harder to read anything as simple as a a Facebook post. I have to reread things because “the voice” / entity spirit thing “suggests” other words or concepts to fit into his “storyline” or just to make me feel like shit (either not being able to now read or switching up the words to degrade me).
It’s already difficult scrolling through my Facebook but its my only source of human connection right now. So when words and images, debates are then “used against me” its just one more check on the list of things that make me tired.
This first began when the voice/entity pretended to be my mom and told me to read the Bible, I tried and it started reading ahead of me making fun of me calling me a slow reader. It did other things as I read the bible but that’s not the point.
Something very similar happened when watching movies, listening to music or conversations. But because this thing can read ahead of me it can change words around.
Point is that it is cutting me off…. Reading… Imagination_creativity, people, true emotions, safety, health, vitality, lively hood….. And I’m tired.
Reading and imagination is how many people relax unwind express themselves.
As I right this he says that he “suggests” words or ideas here or there…. To show he has control…
I never cared about control.