I needed him today…..

🎵: Khruangbin – Dearest Alfred

I am feeling boxed in some ways. I don’t want to disappoint anyone. Or trauma dump…… but I am ok with silence as well.

I wanted to call my bf so bad and just verbal vomit about how I want to unalive myself and how much closer to that edge I feel. To close….. it’s scary. My previous attempts were compulsive and immature…………… This is not.

Made a decision to not contact him. He’s in class and I’m not trying to fuck up his day… ya know.

My therapist is so surface level….. and I just can’t….

How ….. where do you start? That some ugly ass dumb ass fucking bobbled headed astral alien space demon is forcing you to see child sexual abuse or incest or rapes me or pimps me…… and I’m at the fuc……king EDGE.

That when I open my eyes I see black hair like energy waves on the side of my eyes and I know they are black energy patches on my eyes in which I am shown these images. I see their outlines hovering above my bed…. Following me around the house like they pay rent. Talks to me as if we really sharing a body.

Maybe if the structure of my torture didn’t make sense….. but it does…. I’m not sure if I was suppose see that or not while waking up. Or maybe I was to just make me feel and sound that much more crazy. because the illusions/dreams/visions are different then what they ACTUALLY look like.

I’m struggling and I feel stupid. I feel privileged and oppressed. Grateful and ungrateful. Pissed and calm.

And I just wanted to be held.

My bf and I are very similar but we had a ROUGH 2021….. and I guess I didn’t want him to be my sole source of happiness and escapism.

Generally I am fine on my own….. with bouts of loneliness that gives me enough courage to brave dating a man every once in a while. And usually I am often underwhelmed if not terrified …… if not enraged. So I know how to be alone for long periods of time and often just want to just have human interaction that doesn’t result in trauma.

Maybe it’s unavoidable……

And the lure of ceasing to exist becomes more inviting.

As much as I deemed myself a warrior. Trying to create change…. Equality …. Liberation….. and I mean there is “normal” life struggles….. this schizophrenic reality meltdown is NOT IT! And I lost. I am losing. And all I got in left really in me is this smoke in my lungs. I can’t even move like I use to. And the demon aliens make fun of me because I can’t even though they are the ones that put pain in my body and energetic weight on me. So even this “HeALtH JoURneY” seems like a pipe dream carrot on a stick kinda shit.

I am still upset that I have not encountered one single nice entity as of yet. And if they do “act nice” it’s only to quickly change on me a day later when they want to start playing around in my head. Not helpful, informative, nice, truthful, nothing.

God nothing….. Jesus…. Nothing…. Holy Spirit….. nothing….. Angels…. Nothing…“ancestors”… nothing.

Just need to be held right now.

MicroChip and Ai Tech

So……… they are not wrong. At all. Period.

However there are some…… truth about our current state of human being that we need to understand. And yes a lot of that is and will take emotional intelligence.

As much as I love art and culture and tech…… I am not personally feeling this new tech movement. It seems premature and I don’t trust anyone behind it. And that’s sad, because we would think tech is suppose to help us. And yet…… here we are.

A few points:

We are already augmented in our realities. Most understand this as an existential crisis. My reality and your reality is not the same, even if we are in the same room witnessing the same thing. Colors can be different, people hear different things (schizophrenic here 🙋🏻‍♀️), emotions, ect.

Our earth suits are extremely vulnerable. Which is part of Elons issue, our bio computers “ArE nOT FaSt EnoUgH”. And so by PHYSICAL augmenting it they seek to do what? 🤷🏻‍♀️

However we are already spiritually augmented. And many can call this by so many names…. Some called them Archons, or “Demi Urge”, science will call it “subconscious” lol, I like to personally keep it basic as fuck and I’m calling it SIN. These SINs or demons or archons or WHATEVER you want to freaking call them are a stain on humanity. A stain on my energy field …… literally.

I have been under……. A pointless energetic attack for over 6 years …. non stop ….. nightmare. I have almost forgotten what it feels like to be ok, think ok, feel physically…ok.

And these SINs have called themselves God (which they are not), twin flame, Osiris, entities, my grandpa, I mean it can go on…..

It is not.

What most people see or have deemed an “Archon” is actually just the entities attachment to the humans field. They can look a number of ways I have only seen about two or three different kind. You can actually see them in your field in the sun. Or is sunlight hit your electromagnetic field in a particular way…. You might be able to photograph what some call and “archon” but really is just the attachment. Which can be a smaller entity that’s apart of a larger entity.

Yea I’m not gonna into much more depth because I will loose the point. But point is these entities are fucking ASSHOLES. They are working OVERTIME like the rent needs to get paid to “suggest” people to think, say, do and make fuck up shit. Suggestion is just basically mind control. And ultimately we have to pay the price on earth and in heaven for this. ….. well at least some of us.

So this “Subconscious, Demi Urge Demonic Archon SIN” is always in the background, saying or suggesting shit and the great part of them is that it’s a win win situation. You do something fucked up they win they torture you, you don’t they still torture you … or lie to you and pretend (lie) to be a “Pliedian channeling a message to humanity” the same damn message. Lol

Wanna know who I am channeling? Lol ME!

So we are already augmented AND these entities SIN are……. Kinda sorta like Ai for a lack of a better word. Like screaming for and hour or saying the same shit over and over or the same theme all day no sleep ….. like I personally don’t see how it could be…. At least our sense of natural or organic.

And when I tell you they are nasty, they are NASTY! Insane psychotic energies. I mean 😳….. I don’t even feel like repeating some the shit they do and say right now. It’s in this blog … but it’s too early for that right now.

So we got A LOT on our hands right now. Between fucking up the earth and society 😞 and then now we got these assholes behind the veil playing games for god knows how long….. virtual reality is gonna do what?

Linking our brains to a computer will do what? I can think a million amazing things…. But like the person in the video suggested… capitalism …. Much like these nasty Demonic Archon SINs…. Twist anything that is of pure thought and pure intent. Pervert it. To the point of something unrecognizable. It distorts one’s connection with God.

And people out here playing games….. they really think it’s fun and games out here and it’s not.

Too many people are probably waking up to this bullshit. It’s not many, but enough or at least with crust in their eyes.

And so this chipping brains will be the next level to put us back to sleep, live in another reality where “we can do whatever we want”, accept you will need to use crypto to live in their once again painfully capitalist society. 😔

And they will prolly use Ai Robots that have a fraction of a human brain and enslave them with no ethical remorse. And it’s just another iteration of the same shit…. Posed as something amazing. Which it all could have been but won’t be.

I holding on to my hat ever sliver of hope for the future…… and for those that are after us and those after them

And this is not about “fear mongering” or being in an apocalyptic mindset…… but we can’t even handle our shit here and now.

And all I can do is pray to God. I’m just a droplet in this vast ocean. All I can do is speak my truth from my perspective.

But y’all we got some serious SERIOUS issues cropping up.

All I can say is do the difficult work of working on yourself and keeping faith. It’s not about vIbEz or vibrations or crystals or any of that…. I mean yes but like no? In the bigger scheme. Whatever that’s another journal for another day. So

I’m not even sure I made sense here. But whatever.

A Year in Energy Review.

Currently listening to: BADBADNOTGOOD – Goodbye Blue

So…. If the universe doesn’t have anymore pranks up it’s sleeve, I’m suppose to move out of NYC. Tho my eyes were set on Detroit or Tulsa where my church is….

But as my bf mom said “you will be right we’re you are suppose to be”. I will be far outside of NYC. But I will have 4 walls and the ability to cook for myself.

I went to go visit the space to do measurements. The last maybe 4 days have been uhm…. Well the “veil” seems thinner than usual. And this time instead of flat 2D bad drawings, the Smokey clear and with this a hint of pink seemed almost 3D. There was depth coming off of what I was seeing. The bathtub was filled with this “energy”. I’m not sure why they love the bathroom soooo much. Bathrooms and bedrooms. Rarely see them in the kitchens. 🤷🏻‍♀️

So yea the last few days were litty lit up with entities. And all I could do is just try to keep my cool. That’s all I can do. Nothing much else works.

I am thankful for the opportunity to have a space of my own instead of being in the corner of my parents living room. The tv is ALWAYS on and my family is loud on a regular day. I will still be going over to help my mom out but I’ve noticed she’s been getting stubborn lately. I’m so confused. She seemed upset if I did nothing because often I was pretty much paralyzed by astral etheric demonic attacks by whatever you want to call them. But when I asked her and try to get motivated to get the house together she has snapped at me a few times. And it’s confusing. I’ve never known my mom to be like this. ☹️😞 But hopefully some off days from my family will air things out. My family has been generally very supportive. But when it came to specifics like turning the tv down or certain topics or not picking it has been a struggle to find peace when I need it most.

So with in these last few months I have letting go of the idea that these entities that torture me are any ….. particular species of anything. Essentially they are shapeshifters made of light (dimmed or not). So what they present doesn’t matter.

It’s like meeting a new person who is attractive or someone who is super nice and really they are a POS. It’s having to navigate personality types more than presentation. Presenting as an alien grey or reptilian is JUST ANOTHER STORY LINE!!! It’s playing make believe. To what extent they are willing to do this determines what level of a POS they are. Some just do it for a scare, and some (entities) want to torture people like myself relentlessly for years with out rhyme or reason other than our earthly ignorance.

It’s kind of like that saying “it’s not what you say, it’s what you”. My actions don’t match my mouth. Lol I cuss for fun, it’s poetic to me. So that turns a lot of old heads off. But I will treat you with love, decency and respect sans any transgression.

And so these Entities could present as God himself and torture some poor soul until it cussed Gods name and sold its soul to Satan just for relief….. but point is…. It’s not “God”…. And I’m not even sure if “Satan” even wants your soul as much as to rob you of your finite amount of time on this god forsaken planet.

So I dropped this whole reptilian story. These entities are using to fuck around. It took some time. But it doesn’t matter.

Another aspect I had to maybe accept as much as I would like to drop it. Is that I am being used. Used on a daily basis. Not just tortured but used by these entities.

Not other user but sold? …. Pimped?….. trafficked? I’m not sure how to explain it.

I generally know the “energetic signature” or the entities torture me on a daily basis. Which is a sad realization. Also generally their topics, tactics, feelings, words use are the same all the time. To the point I really wondered if it’s AI cause I couldn’t understand how anyone or anything be such a monster and keep up this level of torture unless they truly enjoyed it. It’s pretty sick.

So every month or so…. A new entity will enter the scene. Normally I can tell they are different by small details. “Personality” would be the first. How fast or slow they are would the next, how colorful, how they respond to things, how it communicates. Verbal, vision, both or telepathy (which is less of a vocal voice). Some are silent.

So them connecting to me can make me super sad/depressed or scared or manic or angry or a list of emotions. They often focus on the negative ones for some reason. 🤷🏻‍♀️ I’m not even sure why anymore.

So the new customer entity that comes through will use my body or dreams. Sometimes I will randomly pass out.

To go into graphic details of my experience, I had one “entity” connect to my body and “relieve” itself as I was waking up. 😳 I know it’s my therapist job to make sure I don’t actually commit suicide. But anyone who doesn’t understand why I would want to and think this shit is cool is kinda idk man…. Maybe needs more help than I do.

I would really like to my vula vu pushay left alone.

I’m not sure if these entities are connected to people I know or they are just random ones off the street. Maybe both. I have definitely seen one connected to some random guy on the street try to connect to me and it hurts. Either by design or choice I’m unsure.

These “female” entity that connected with me over the last couple of days. Was RANDOM! I mean just a lot of random images…. A little insane in the sense her characters would smile at the most random things. She said she was pregnant and need to get this over with. And the main pimping entity said not to talk to her. Which was strange to me.

The POS entity said that the reason I got my place was because they were pimping and torturing me. Twisted stuff. And so it is daily if not moment to moment work to not fall for this stuff. Because telling them to stop doesn’t mean anything.

They shunned me for not thanking God for my new spot. And I mean … granted I want to thank God and I also want it to come from me naturally. I’m an artist. I swell with emotion and creativity and movement. And I’m scared honestly something is going to go terribly wrong again. I still on guard. I have no reason to let my guard down. I’m still pimped and tortured in the astral.

IDK, maybe this pimping thing is just another play as well. It is so random that and they normally don’t want me to know what’s going on. It’s never a huge play either. They will stick around 1-3 days at least visibly.

So I thank God and everyone in my life for the support. But maybe I’m tooo honest and too forward….. and probably get me in trouble. But real talk, how am I good enough for God’s grace to get a place to live? But not good enough to not be raped and pimped by demonic aliens? 💁🏻‍♀️ Which is all I really all I asked for, other than my sister to be restored fully after her stroke.

My sister called herself the “good twin”. And I asked her what does that make me?….. *silence* 😳 Maybe I really am that terrible of a soul and deserve this.

I will never get it….. and no one cares to explain the truth. So……. 🤷🏻‍♀️

🦋

What I See: Astral Human Trafficking

So…… recently I heard a voice say “you shouldn’t be selling that here” in my blog post. This triggered me back to a moment a couple of years ago when I KNOW this entity had set up shop in my parents house and was basically pimping me in the astral.

While there has been constant Energetic rape and molestation. It could be sex, It could be idk selling my “loosh”, or giving access to play around in my dreams, maybe to even be acknowledged, maybe they can better see the world though my eyes. I can’t say what, but there is a economy in the “astral”, and some how my body is a shop and one of these asshole demonic alien thinks they are the owner. The gatekeeper.

I’m so tired of this.

I decided to take a shot in the dark and google if anyone is talking about it. A few people on a Reddit forum talk of Astral Human Trafficking and rape. The one thing I can’t stand is that it will be the same Christians who believe is a heavenly father and demons and New Agers talking to arch Angel Michael and Astral “travelers” that will be so quick to tell you, you have a mental illness or crazy or it’s an “aspect of you”, you allowed this to happen, you signed a contract. Like HUH? All say the same thing. 🤔 almost like their entity influence doesn’t want them to accept that HENOUS things are being done in and with the astral. Anyone that doesn’t fit into their DMT starbucks yoga ideology is automatically “low vibes” and “dark”. Yea bitch I’m low vibes I’m being raped some astral alien head spider thing and electrocuted by reptilians.

I had this one guy from a forum, when I was looking for help stalk me in the astral and come to me AT Least twice and with out my permission. He knew that I could see and wanted me to check him. It was kinda scary and fucked up. I told him I am dealing with a LOT and do not need one more energy to sort out.

One guy in a forum had the NERVE to ask me if I like being raped in the astral. 😳😬😑

In some of the mental health groups I am in talk about the astral rape and there is always at least one person who says “omg me too, I was embarrassed, I didn’t know other go through that.”

The experience is NOT sunshine and rainbows. Negative dark stuff happens all the time. I honestly do not believe it has anything to do with “sin” or being a good or “bad” person. I mean these racists out here living their best life.

That’s pretty itttt

Morning Edit: I’m tired of the amount of pressure on my skull. I almost forget that I am living under extreme pressure and when these assholes actually let me breathe for a moment I remember what it felt like. It feels like I’m not able to breathe with my whole body. Like them trying to occupy even the smallest of space chokes me out of this body.

I’m tired of negotiating Rape and molestation. As if I should be GRATEFUL For molestation and not full on rape. As if my genitals constantly buzzing and vibrating is something to be thankful for….. electrocutions anywhere.

But no one is going to save me. No one can save me. I mean all these new agers claimed they could save me. And lied and didn’t Nd took my money and when I told them it didn’t work they tried that “well it’s an aspect of self” “it’s your vibes” it’s this or that. Just say you didn’t perform and call it a day.

I’m TIRED!!! And angry….. furious….. filled with rage. I temper it with humor, food and generosity.

I do not and WILL NOT trust ANY beings. Random ones or this alien grey one that has been on my fucking shit for 6 years and seems not to want to go away.

I also do not trust most humans to NOT be taken over by these manipulative beings. Arguing is like their FAVORITE pass time….. so they will cause conflict however they can. And most people are stupid and unaware of their emotions and will let themselves get played just to fuck with me or our relationship.

So fuck them, fuck everyone (ancestors, spirit guide, what ever aliens watching) who ever watched me get raped for years till this day. Didn’t say nothing didn’t do nothing. FUCK YOU! Fuck all my friends, family and loved ones who are dumb and let themselves get played into stupid dumb petty ass arguments about the most TRIVIAL shit.

What I See: Astral : Teddy Bear 🧸

So…. I woke up in a fucked in mood today. I had this really weird dream that I will go into later but….. I guess I lost it today. Like I couldn’t hold it in anymore and everything is in retrograde so idk. I was so super emo and totally trauma dumped on my BF. And idk he is nice about it but feels powerless and I guess idk I have to learn how to talk about it with out scaring him or being emotionally intense.

Ok so. One Entity that I have seen that I have not heard many talk about are these Teddy Bear looking entities. It’s the best way I can describe it. It’s the puffy mouth area. I had a friend who said a shaman pulled one out of her when she passed out in Brazil during a festival. And I also had a friend confirm that he could see them, but that might have been more of a quantum entanglement.

But there is like ZERO information on these types of entities online which is peculiar.

The first time I saw the Teddy Bear looking one was when I was looking at myself on my phone and was going to take video and I saw the Teddy Bear entity on a flower or a lotus. The stem or stalk looking part acting as a worm almost, it could move. When it saw that I saw him or her it quickly tried to smear my aura back with its hands so I could not see it. Unlike the grey looking alien heads spiders that blow these black webs goo in both my eyes if they notice I see them.

So…………… like……. WTF?

Yall I really can’t make this shit up. Like I DO have an active imagination but this is NOT it. At all!

So I had not seen Teddy Bear entity in a while. The night before while trying to go to sleep I saw rainbow orbs. Like two orbs floating around that just cycled through a rainbow. I was like Woa that’s different. But paid it no mind. I mostly see single color sparkles or orbs flashing lights. But never one of a rainbow.

So next day I’m trying to go to sleep and I was getting the regular harassment as I feel a sleep. Then I had a really strange sex dream. Or like sex was about to happen or something but it didn’t. It wasn’t deviant actually it seemed very mundane. But multiple “people” were involved. So it freaked me out and just started my day off wrong.

When I woke up I saw those rainbow orbs again. Only this time they were more clear and the eyes of one of those Teddy Bear entities pulling away from my eyes. I was like YO WTF? And a voice I’m not sure if it was the smart Alec alien grey or the Teddy Bear entities said something along the lines of “well what about the music you listen to?” Insinuating that because I might listen to Cardi B or Meg or any music that contains sexual lyrics that that give Rainbow Ted over here the right to fuck around in my dreams. Like HUH? How does that makes sense?

These entities will say they do these things to you because of this or because of that or whatever but honestly it doesn’t matter what you do they are going to fuck with you. And really it’s like psychotic. It reminds me of like 🤮🤮🤮 rapist who say she wanted it even tho she was drunk. Or when I guy gets violent because he was rejected. It’s giving me that vibe. Like ANY excuse. ANY!

I know this shot sounds crazy because it is. But if you never have come in close contact with these entities consider yourself BLESSED. They are literally crazy.

At this point I’m just like what the fuck are you getting out of this? And why can’t you do it in a way where you leave me the fuck alone? like if you are looshing my aura juices or emf or whatever like do it in my sleep like a normal fucking entity and don’t get caught and shit the fuck up.

Like these entities legit MAKE dreams. Make them. All of it. Visions, memories, false memories, all that. Most of the ones I have seen do it by connecting to my eyes with their eyes. I guess it would be some form of hypnosis or light illusion. Something.

All I know is it fucked up my day.

If anyone knows more info I this type of entity please let me know.

Am I Angry? Yes. 🦋

Click the image to watch the full TikTok

So as I said a few posts back I have seeing a RIDICULOUS amount of butterflies in my realm and algorithm . Especially since I’m not going to see real ones right now.

While I am all for humanity as disappointing humanity has been over the eons, I want to believe that humanity is adaptable. After my so called schizophrenic “awakening”, after seeing what influences us….. in the background….. it’s bigger than watching the news or media… although these demonic alien inorganic beings LOVE entertainment and trends. More than entertainment I like understanding trends from a cultural perspective because often they implicate historic and symbolic references. It’s also the soul of humanity. But instead of it coming out of us often it coming TO us. Telling us how to be, when to be and who to be.

Anyways I have no sympathy for these demonics. I know everyone is having fun in the astral realms or only one layer of it but honesty whatever dimension these being are accessing us from needs closed and or destroyed I am sorry if that sounds extreme but I don’t know. I know people don’t care about anyone else usually but people are really out here hurting. Dying. Killing. Doing crazy shit cause the influence of these beings.

You tried love and light and what did that do? Absolutely NOTHING! If anything it just gave these assholes another platform to lie to the masses through humans. Channeling this or that bs message, same one for over a decade.

Atomic Butterfly 🦋 because I’m TIRED of these beings.

It’s DONE!!! I didn’t come here to play witches and warlocks with y’all hoes.

Bitch ass pieces of shit.

Earth EMF and The Veil

https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMdWPkDa8/

Is the “veil” that everyone talks about being “lifted” just the electromagnetic field that separates dimensions?

My spiritual awakening/ but more so attacked I would say started officially in 2016. Things were getting weird in 2011/2012 like noticing strange weather patterns or certain natural occurrence were not sitting right with me.

When I was younger and in summer camp one day my friend and I were at a lake. He was having a bad break up and I told him that we are powerful…. and we have to to realize that power (sometimes I be saying things idk like I don’t even know). Like I knew these things but I didn’t experience them. Feel me?

Either way so we are sitting at the lake and he is crying. I tell him we are powerful. And if we wanted to we could make it rain. I told him to let out all of that emotion to feel it… and we both screamed into the lake. Maybe 30 seconds later the first crack of thunder shook us both and then it started to rain. And we smiled at went for cover. It was a soft rain nothing horrible. He felt so much better after that. I didn’t even know what I was doing but I did it. It made sense in that moment.

Unfortunately we were scheduled to hike up the mountain. BRUH I only had flip flops so I was out here hiking up a mountain with basically no shoes because my flip flops broke. 😬😬 in the rain…. fun times.

Point is we are connected to nature…. that is the way it’s suppose to be. Can you image how many forest fires could be put out if we respected our indigenous brothers and sisters? (And don’t get me started). I mean shit if they are controlling the weather now… with cloud seeding and harrp then they could as well. 🤷🏻‍♀️ No?

We are deeply connected in ways we don’t understand. To understand would take culture and time to slow down and observe this connection to feel it.

The earths electro magnetic field is no different. The earth has one… we have one… and I firmly believe that other dimensions or astral plane or beings IN THE astral plane have an EMF as well.

And yes to some degree good or bad (minus inserted), beings in those realms or dimensions are apart of our earths ecosystem as well.

I feel privileged to have been able to felt nature in such a deep way…….and have had conversations with nature in my life. To see the conversation between nature and itself.

But when I was spiritual or metaphysically attacked in 2016 (to this day)….. that all went away. My natural abilities (empathy, telepathy, foresight, intuition, connection with nature) all went away. Or was outshined or manipulated by my attackers. None of my “gifts” or abilities were confusing …. or loud. It was more like a feeling, a realization, a knowing. It did not hurt physically or conflict with any other belief in my life.

The beings/entities that attack me are all about confusion, pain (mentally, physically or emotionally). They want to cause trauma any way they can and that is what makes them demonic. There are enough mishaps in the world to learn from … to grow from… to feel. And this …. what I would call inorganic trauma… this false spiritual awakening is not one of them. People are mixing up natural spiritual growth with being fucked with.

In 2016 I heard something say 2D and 3D is collapsing together. 🤷🏻‍♀️ can’t say if it’s true or not. Something definitely happened with the dimensions. I mentions in my most recent Mantis post about a teddy bear looking entity riding a lotus flower (yes I know it’s weird) and I have seen it a few times but this was the most active. It was in my auric field and when it saw that I saw it, it quickly moved out of it and SMEARED my aura back so I could not see it. 😳 yea I know. Now the fact that all these beings/entities DO NOT want to be seen by either turning their heads OR running out of me as soon as I see them means they are NOT suppose to be there. They are intruding and imposing.

There was no enlightenment to this process many would call “the dark night of the soul”. I am the same person. At best… I’m more conscious of how I spend my energy because I have less to give, I sleep randomly through out the day and I know that something beyond our current full understanding exists. And the first two are just responses to this trauma.

With the earths pole shifting and electromagnetic field changing, this could be why many who are sensitive are feeling crazy. Sounding crazy. We know something is wrong and off and we are trying to figure it out. And there is already so much wrong with the world no? And people focus on different aspects and that’s fine. We need that….we need that with out dismissing people who are feeling other aspects deeply. We all have aspects to work through.

People get all hung up about earth being a simulation or matrix…. in its most basic understanding when I hear that…. I think system….. structure. Like everything… there is a system in order to function and process. The root word Sim means to assimilate. So we are birthed here and we need to assimilate into this system. Which at basic level is nature. There is nothing wrong with Earth itself. What people are having an issue with is white supremacy and capitalism. Lol “🧢 italism” lol I just made that up lol whatever. Anyways people need to know the difference.

You really think earth was supposed to be a prison planet? In my heart, earth is lush and beautiful. And it could (have been) paradise. And there are people with wealth and knowledge that knows how to take advantage of earths system and make it a living hell for people sacrificing peoples bodies and energy to capitalism and god knows what else.

Can you imagine just chillin up in the higher ethers, source, heaven where ever and deciding hey babe let’s go to earth eat some good food and love each other. Or maybe you have an invention to bring to earth. Or a book. Or maybe you want to see the sunset everyday for the rest of your life. Something tangible. Like leaving a record here of memories and legacy and invention.

And then you get here and you gotta deal with racism and police and sexism and poverty and classism and the earth (not dying) but changing because corps don’t want to switch to green energy? To deal with the trauma? I’m not saying it’s suppose to be perfect but damn. And now we got spiritual attacks happening at Middle Ages rates. Lol like WUT?!

The system has been hacked. The system itself (Earth 🌍) isn’t wrong. God/nature is not wrong. But the system has been hacked severely. The system was hacked and now we are being hacked by aliens or entities or whatever you want to call them for our light or consciousness. Idk.

So I guess my theory is that around 2016 when the earths electromagnetic field started go haywire, that effected our EMF as well. I can’t say for sure. Maybe it made our EMF or aura more gooey? Easily penetrable? That is why there have been so many “awakenings”, spontaneous astral projections and attacks since. In 2016, I could not talk to anyone about this and I was seen as “dark” like I did something to deserve this. But now I can throw a rock on TikTok and you will find some one talking about this shit or some aspect of it.

I think sometimes it can be an ego trap but nonetheless it happens. Unfortunately there are a lot of fake videos out there of ghosts, UFOs or even political things like that. People do it for views and it’s sucks because they don’t realize that they are gaslighting the collective. Or maybe they do. We are trying to find truth and people are inundating the easiest form of communication (internet) with fake shit just has us all over the place. Lying is “demonic”.

Look we are still in the middle of a pandemic, climate crisis is here already, the economy is in a bubble, the kids are scared AF, and we just threw actual none etheric UFOs and aliens into the mix. And then every conspiracy theory around any of those 😳 bruh! Shit ain’t right.

We are being thrusted into cognitive dissonance because it’s too much. And if you think you have it all figured out, I promise you there is a lie/illusion that will make it all crumble.

Even my theory that climate change/pole shifts/Earths EMF changing affecting people spiritual journey or “lifting the veil” or collapsing dimensions is just a theory. And observation. What ever this is both spiritually and in nature, does not feel natural.

There are humans and entities willing to destroy and dissect every aspect of our existence just to know and or manipulate and benefit from.

I wrote enough and went on a tangent so… yea. But you get the jist.

East River NYC: Entity in the East River: How I see Entities

So I see entities a number of different ways. One way is in a dream state, the other is vision, which is very similar to recalling in the imagination, but forced in the mind. The next is if they are feeling BOLD it would be considered a hallucination or an apparition. So actually seeing an outline of these Entities just randomly in my living room or bedroom. As a side note they tend to stay in the same thing places. They don’t move a that much unless attached or seen.

Most often I see their watery outline. Or I see a smoke like line move through space. Or sparkles if I am looking it’s way randomly.

Most attribute sparkles to Angels and I have not found this to be the case. I have found this to be entities of whatever sort, connecting to or getting closer to you. That’s how they move. If you see a sparkle I think it’s an entity getting closer to you.

Now another way I see them is through what I call patterning. It’s difficult to explain because I’m still kinda understanding it. But against pattern be it in nature or in this city skyline I can see them as well.

The most recent occurrence would be a perfect example. So I take a cab home usually after taking care of my godson. The Uber goes up the FDR on the East Side of Manhattan. For a couple of weeks I have seen entities “patterned” against the LARGE skyline of Brooklyn but found it to be Queens later. I explain my experience HERE.

Basically I saw the entities face against the sky line and the a blue light dropped out of the sky. It was SUPER ODD! And even the voice/ entity that harassed me said “OH SHIT!” when I saw it. They are dramatic so I take that aspect with a grain of salt. But they looked similar to the entities that where harassing me. I calmly observed. Some nights I saw them in THE SAME AREA, which is where the Pepsi sign is in Queens. Some nights I didn’t but mostly I did.

Now I said since I give no fucks nowadays that I was going to go over there and see what’s going on energetically. And then you know what happened today? Lol they moved to Brooklyn. Lol so I saw the pattering against the night skyline in lower part of the East River.

Are they scared of me going over there? Why move? They act buck wild most days.

I’m not going to chase these demonic alien bobble spiders heads all over NYC but they can kindly get the fuck up out my city and my life.

If anyone does energy work or matrix work definitely check the East River or edges of NYC. HUGE entities over there.

Imma snitch fuck em. 🖕🏽

Update: It near Grand Ferry Park in Brooklyn.

Targeted Individuals: EMF reading at Kids Playground

So a last week I was at the park (btw I live in NYC) where I take my godson to play and I was on the park benches and while I was just staring around the park I noticed on the metal bench I was on the was a clear white misty cloud form on the top back of the benches. I double checked my eyes looked to other parts of the park. But the top back was were it was the most predominant.

So yesterday I took my godson again to the park. I sat at a different park bench and decided to do an EMF reading because I was getting migraines that were making me almost nauseous.

So I remembered what I saw on the bench but I didn’t really see them at first. I do the EMF reading on myself which was at a 60 but then quickly went down to like a 40 something once I turned on my reader. So no wonder I was feeling nauseous.

Then I casually did a reading for the metal bench armrest it was 119. It wasn’t easy to get that reading because when you put it on the arm rest and you get like maybe a 90 at first but if you move it slightly one way towards where the numbers go up you find the “hot spot”. The reasons that they are not the easiest to find is because the beings or projections are flattish. The are usually not much thicker than cardboard. So the are facing one way or another on the axis point.

Then I did a reading for the top back part of the bench like I saw on the other bench last week. 214! This was by the way only isolated to one spot towards the end of the bench. This is touching people! My head was there just a moment ago.

I feel like if I followed a trail of EMF readings it would lead me somewhere. But maybe it’s randomish.

Then I wondered if I was getting high readings because the bench was made out of metal. I did an EMF reading for the seat of the bench which came out to 20/30. And for the middle arm rest. That is a huge jump. All the same area, all the same material.

When I looked close to the arm of the bench I could see a clear watery outline of energy but nothing distinct. Just that it was there and not other places. It also did not seem to attack me that I was aware of. Most, at least when I am inside, seem to attack me. A dark outline getting in my face to scare me or sending sparkles or lights to my body to connect to it….. who knows .

I also did an EMF reading for my best friends bed. Generally the bed was at 40, but when I moved towards the head of the bed… it jumped to 70.

So there is definitely something with being near the head of humans.

While I may recognize them as spirit/demon/alien I have not definitively ruled out technology. It’s just easier to explain what I am seeing and experiencing exactly as I see it.

While some of us may have a hitch hiker or a few, these beings/things cover the city. I also see them on non voice hears. So again what makes us different to experience loud voices, energetic rape and violations of the body and mind?

That is my latest update.

Evil Light Beings emit EMF radiation 😱

So on Saturday i was at my besties house sleeping and the voices/entities kept waking me up every hour so that got really annoying. The last time i woke up i saw a glowing bright red being (which i am familiar with see photo) sitting on the right side of my pillow. And when it saw that i saw him he then covered himself in a black energy blob and said “im hot! Im hot!”.

This isnt the first time i saw the beings glowing before. It seems that the smaller they are the brighter they glow and when they make themselves larger (like a projection) they become duller dark ghostlike outlines. When they are larger they seem to move slower.

Now often New Agers will call these beings “dark beings” and “not of the light”. But they are very much made of light i believe. They hide however in the dark and do “dark” (bad) things like torturing people or lying. The bible described Lucifer a being of light casted down to earth from heaven. I dont believe this is a coincidence.

So we know they are at least made of light. Are they derivatives of Lucifer or the orginal fallen angels? Like little pieces that broke off from the original but yet still carrying out the same evil program?

But they have to be made of something. Its not magical. Its like a shaman who gave someone herbs to drink to feel better and the person think its magic. But really there is a science behind herbs and how they effect the body. Eons of studying herbs to know what works for which part of the body. Some of the things they can do as light beings is burn you, electrocute you, make you vibrate, pin pricks, jolt. Just to name a few.

What sparked my inquiry was that these beings emit EMF radiation anywhere from 30 to 100+ on a good day. I wondered what emits EMF….. And just a simple google it is different wavelengths.

Now there are two pieces to this puzzle. The actual light being and the black energy blob they hide behind (i believe it can be clearish as well but im just talking through this).

In the Wiki link on Electromagnetic Radiation it goes through the basics of the different waves lengths which include It includes radio waves, microwaves, infrared, (visible) light, ultraviolet, X-rays, and gamma rays. Now only visible light is suppose to seen by the naked eye. For whatever reason i can see these things and i dont know why.

Now my guess is that these beings are on the infrared wavelength (lol because it was red) or they can jump different wavelengths. They other reason i assumed it was infrared is because of the EMF reading between 30 and 100+ ut. This image can be found under the “Electromagnetic Spectrum” tab in the link.

Now i might be being simplistic about my associations with my findings. But under the “Thermal and electromagnetic radiation as a form of heat” in the same link there is a link to something called a “black body“. Inam only assuming that the black energy blob that they hide in cpuld possible be a black body which is described as “A black body or blackbody is an idealized physical body that absorbs all incident electromagnetic radiation, regardless of frequency or angle of incidence. (It does not only absorb radiation, but can also emit radiation. ”

When i put the EMF reader (found in the app store) near this black energy blob the reader goes nuts it shoots up too 90+ but going all over the place. So it absorbing and emitting kinda of makes sense with the reading jumping all over the place.

Now that i may have identified what these beings are made of its about testing things to protect myself and or find ways to disolve them. Im not SUPER smart but im trying at least to make sense and if it doesnt I will definitely update this post.

Studying the make up of these beings are important to our protection especially those that are truly suffering. I guess since i am not some magic healer i am looking to science to explain what i am experiencing.

These evil light beings emitting EMF radiation it would make sense why people feel sick or ill or bad feelings when they connect to us. It would also make sense why “demons” or evil beings can cause diseases on the body when they are attached because theybare emitting EMF which over long periods of time which can effect organ function and cell structure.

I think many New Agers talk about this stuff like we are in pre school. And of course Religious people talk about it as if demons are magical and not possibly scientific.

What makes a “good” light being differ from a “bad” light being other than not energetically raping a human? Do good ones hide in those black energy blobs too? Or do they more enjoy the fresh air of nature and the sun? What is the exact purpose of all of this? I cant settle on the answer that they want to “harvest your negative emotions” ….. Like whaaat? I mean it makes sense in the program that they run in terms of using fear and negative emotions to get a reaction….. But in the grand scheme what exactly do they need from ME that causes them to literally stalk me where ever i go? There has to be more i feel.

Thats all I got for today i hope to progress to understanding what would dissolve the black body/black energy blob or warding off these light energy beings from connecting with me and impossing on my free will.