Energetic Bodies

So I took a photo of my body in a dim lit room like I do to see other things.

And I saw that my energetic (I think it is mine or it could be another being) had 3 holes in it. It looked almost a cavern. I saw a pair of eyes in one of the holes.

Then I remember in January a gang of 30 or more Geckos all shot me in my stomach and then my eating habits changed. I wrote about in my blog.

Then maybe 3 months later a male face came to me and removed a band of maybe 5 astral parasites but left one that I could still feel and later saw.

My assumption was that the astral parasites were covering or closing the holes that was caused by the attack in January.

Why they were taken away or I was attacked in the first place I am unsure.

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Sleepy Time Tea 🐸🍡

Another pattern I noticed and which makes me believe these particular Entities/ Demons NEED human consciousness to say communicate talk, make cognitive sense (relativity), compute reality …….. is because I noticed that they ALWAYS keep one person awake at night (at least). Out of the 4 people in my family none of us are sleeping at the same time it is rare. If my mom falls asleep in the living room the normally jolt me out of my sleep. Or if I go to sleep then my sister wakes up for the bathroom and calls me to assist her.

So if they didn’t need full functioning human consciousness then we all could be asleep at the same time.

While are conscious that does not mean cognitive. A lot of the cognitive behavior or persona that the Entity portrays is the shadow side or internet persona of my ex (false twin flame). It is mimicked and a bit crafted but not authentic.

So it is aware (conscious) of itself as exist but not as an individual. Only a task………….. what ever that is. What I assume is to curse my life.

Matrix: Astral: Second Life

If you ever built something in the game called second life (I haven’t played in years) but the astral almost seems to have the same concept 2D and 3D like 3D modeling.

There is also something that would happen in the game called “griefing”. Where some nerd would drop a box or item somewhere which would release all of these images or items “lagging” or slowing everyone down or essentially “crashing” the game for everyone.

That’s almost like what I feel like is happening to me and others. An astral grief. Only it’s real and it hurts and I don’t get to crash and teleport somewhere else I’m just sitting in it …….. in pain.

The grief is energetic. And the more it disrupts my energy field the hard it is for me to walk or live. To think or be.

But each grief is and ACTUAL thing it’s not invisible, maybe to the naked eye……. but it can be a dot a bunch of, it can be a projection of an Entity, it can be images outline, so many different things but it’s a thing (vehicle) with a purpose (curse or bless) in my case curse the shit out of me or GRIEF.

Kinda glad I geeked out on that game for a while and learned how to build and not just shop. Helped me understand how these Entities move around and do what they do. How the they build themselves up.

Ori vs Akasha 🌟

According to Wiki “Ori (Yoruba), or known as OrΓ­ in Latin America, is an Orisha and metaphysical concept.

Ori, literally meaning “head,” refers to one’s spiritual intuition and destiny. It is the reflective spark of human consciousness embedded into the human essence, and therefore is often personified as an Orisha in its own right. It is believed that human beings are able to heal themselves both spiritually and physically by working with the Orishas to achieve a balanced character, or iwa-pele. When one has a balanced character, one obtains an alignment with one’s Ori or divine self. It is also believed that Ori be worshiped like Orisha. When things are not going right, Ori should be consulted. And to make things right Ori should be appeased. This is because whatever one becomes or whatever happens in one’s life is as destined by Ori.”

This came across my screen tonight after a friend mentioned this about his artwork. “Ori” reminded me of “Akasha Aether” which I just learned about Friday.

Essentially “head” energy.

Akasha Aether seems to be even more allusive than Ori in definition maybe because it’s so individualized and personalized.

In the YouTube video on The Secret of Ether’s at time 12:00 Doug Gabriel goes on to say the Akasha although a eastern concept is basically “Christ Consciousness”. Essentially, your consciousness is elevated with in Christ. Christ is both worshipped and consulted and so essentially Christ could be considered an Ori (maybe πŸ˜³πŸ˜±πŸ€”πŸ˜•) maybe I am pushing it?

The comparison is not meant to be disrespectful, but actually respectful of how beautifully different our cultures are and how shockingly similarly some concept eventually meet along the road.

I know what Christianity did to Yoruba and how Europeans used the gospel to excuse their unforgivable acts on a people, but at the heart I can not at that is the bases of Christianity. If anything based on my little bit of knowledge Christianity is about Freedom! Liberation!

Unfortunately it is Hooomans that give it a bad name. And these demons are doings a pretty good job at distorting it conceptually as well with religious delusions and distortions.

So we have a ways to go before we reach Christ consciousness as a whole collectively. That meaning mastery of ones self, that meaning one with God and law which means respect for ALL. That means everything!

As someone outside of Christianity or Ifa (Yoruba) or other “spiritual” belief systems that what ever would have been considered an Ori, an outside force or energy, that because I have no original origins or beliefs this possibly upset the “Ori”.

I’m for shizzle not a Satan worshiper. I thought Spirit/ancestors where to be respected. Angels much appreciated. God and Christ loved and praised.

Someone told me I have a “negative guide” but I’m unsure where I would have gotten that from. Is it because I have no fixed origin “bitsa” (a word the entity wrote in a few of my photos) that I confuse the Akasha energy or Ori which makes this process way more painful than it should?

If that is the case, wouldn’t my love for culture and knowledge be a check mark? Or the fact I try to see where concepts meet. Honestly never in my adult life did I bridge so many gaps together SO FAST and STILL not have the answers I am looking for. How? WHY?!?!!!!! Who are you?!

Just pondering life and why it is the way it is. These aren’t facts just the inner thoughts of some random woman on the internet. 😚

Flashing Lights 🌟

You know how people always say “look with in……” , “look inside yourself”.

HOW? Hmmmm?

How would one jump outside themselves and look at themselves unless it was imagination?

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So only concrete way I was able to know I’m a freakin light bulb is that at certain times the Entities would either 1. Attack if I look directly at them 2. Put on sunglasses 😎 (yes apparently they have Oakley’s in the astral realm) 3. Turn around.

When I looked at one (looked like a evil teddy bear) it ran away and smeared this goo around me I assumed that it was in my aura.

So the only way I could figure I am light or have light or LIGHT is involved in some way is how the Entities reacted a handful of times.

This has also happened when I would genuinely cry, which is a lot. Does crying clear the goo or film that they put around me?

Today I was sleeping and I woke up and I saw a Casper looking ghost πŸ‘» Entity (I think it’s a costume just like the sunglasses) and when I open my eyes the ghost immediately put on sunglasses. And a few other Entities got angry and was trying to scare me but my nerve are SHOT + no fear= no πŸ’©πŸ’© to give. πŸ€·πŸ½β€β™€οΈ

Someone told me not to trust any Entities that don’t show their eyes. Especially if “my light” has to be dimmed to accommodate.

SO bla bla bla we are light made of light something to that extent, now what? I’m not sure why so many hang around me if they are afraid of light or what they keep covering me with or why they then cover my body in 🌺 flowers, that I keep trying to have removed but they just put everything back up ……….. but I’m OVER IT!

And again no one will help me figure this out. Occultist will say “do the research, do the work!” So steer from being asked any direct questions and “LightWorkers” will say “look with in ……” and I’m over here surrounded by like at least 100+ major entity, 5 giants outside and wondering WTF is going on cause I don’t have time!! Something other than white light imagination and salt baths!

I need to learn how to protect myself or deal with this in a concrete way because I’m literally in a war zone right now. NYC is covered in them, and apparently I can’t walk down the street with out being attacked.

My assumption is the only reason I can see these networks or matrix MADE UP of Entities is because I’m connected to it by an Entity attached to me, so I just need to figure out how not to be anymore.

I’m just tired of this life right now. I’m bored, alone, bored, brooooooke!, and in poor health. So dude!😭

Pain is a Hypnotic state 😢

Anything to an extreme, for manipulation can be a hypnotic state where the individual is easily controlled.

So pain. I guess for some this is a DUH, but for my nieve ass I don’t think like that. To control. I am more interested in collaboration.

So when the Demonic Entities want to control me they UP THE PAIN FACTOR this will usually be in my head. My body and skin will become tight and warm as if we’re inflamed.

I will be so focused on the pain, that I become “second in line” to my own mind. The pain increases and I stare off into space and I hear one of the Entities suggesting some insanely absurd gross thought and at that moment I do not question it until I snap out of it because I’m focused on ……………….. THE PAIN.

This makes them feel powerful even though they are cowards and scum of the universe.

Once you are in this hypnotic state of pain focus deeply on the pain you become easily “suggestable”. That’s why you need to be careful what you allow people to treat during sex and certain points in your life. Being easily suggested is a step before brain washed.

So you are crying or sobbing miserable with pain and the Entity comes in and starts planting seeds and thoughts “you’re ugly when you cry” will turn into “you’re ugly”. These will be triggers to layer the pain and keep you sooo deep far down in the quick sand of pain and misery it will be difficult to see a way out unless you observe their bullshit and your own bullshit as well.

So …….. I see how they used pain against me literally pulling wool over my eyes and into a hypnotic state so I will believe their negative.

No positive or negative in this situation only ignorance.

These demons can kick rocks!

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Tonight: Black Lights Dots in my Skull πŸ’€

A square of black dots maybe 100 went into my skull.

I’m not sure what it is or why it hurt like all etheric things that keep going into my fucking skull but…… so yea…..

Then the demonic entity yells “do you know how blessed you are?” As it hurts me more. It’s makes me hate the word blessed and every one is going around talking about how blessed they feel and blessings it’s a trendy word and I’m triggered AF cause this demon has made “god bless” a curse some how.

I don’t know what’s going on anymore.

Below is a drawing of ONE of many of my attackers. My guess reptilian, I believe the others are Archons or their children and are easier to put in or around people.

Either way fuck this shit!

I can’t make this shit up. And if I did it definitely wouldn’t be through ruining my life.

Twin Falls ⭐️

So my sister had the stroke in march 2016. She worked diligently to get back to walking and wanted to get back to work. A year later she was walking not at 100% maybe 60% but was getting there quickly. She is also shorter so it’s a little more difficult but she was pushing through.

A year later she had a terrible fall and mistepped. Her face was bruised which still hasn’t totally recovered (over a year later mostly under the eye bruises) scrapes and her walking was set back significantly although it didn’t stop her.

I mean between the stroke the eye surgery for going blind in one eye and the fall all in one year she had been through too much.

Today she asked me what’s up cause I was staring into space. I asked her if she really wants to know. She said if it’s not scary. Lol .

I told her that I’m tired of these demons. Then out of no where she tells me “you know when I had that fall I felt something push me”

I said “ohπŸ‘πŸΌ hellπŸ‘πŸΌ no πŸ‘πŸΌimma need πŸ‘πŸΌthese demons πŸ‘πŸΌto πŸ‘πŸΌleave πŸ‘πŸΌmy πŸ‘πŸΌvirginπŸ‘πŸΌ Snow πŸ‘πŸΌWhiteπŸ‘πŸΌ do goodπŸ‘πŸΌ god πŸ‘πŸΌfearing πŸ‘πŸΌsister alone πŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌI’m not above using these HANDS.πŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌ”

My cousin also told me about waking up one day and feeling drugged and then felt pushed and the chipped her tooth on the toilet.

You know those jolts you get in your sleep? Or the tugs?

What le fuck is going on?

I have a fantasy of burning these demons energy between two hot irons or the hottest steam cleaner I can find. But I will keep my hands to myself πŸ™ŒπŸΌ until I know I will be effective.

The Entities have burning me a lot more lately. Like electrical burns.

They are getting brighter….

I’m not sure what’s happening. I just wish they would go back to their dimension and leave my people alone.

I wonder if someone sent this to me too I’m tired of obsessing about it hoping truth will disintegrate it.

Black Magic Healing πŸŒ‘

So I’m not sure what’s happening to if it’s black magic or inter dimensional or both.

I call it black magic because there is mind control involved and very dark torture. I mean they also acted as one of my artist friends and said they going to show me that “Dark Arts”.

But at this point I do not see a difference between dark and light other than intention by the practitioner which if the vehicle(s) (spirits) which carries out is conscious can say …….. mess it up. Not deliver the outcome as planned? For better or worse and at what price? And that’s just too much stress for me. I can only trust myself and take responsibility for myself. Personally.

However, there is much fear around black magic for fear of how God will view me. There is much fear around hurting someone else (well not these Entities).

But I think there may be healing in studying they ways in which I was manipulated and hurt and tortured. Maybe there is a way to stop it. But honestly I’m not interested in practicing and I can’t practice in my mother’s home.

I’m not sure. Love only gets you so far and love has to be authentic. I am enraged. Anger can be an act of love. Not where you hurt someone but in protection. How do we protect with out harming?

I doubt the INTERNET will have anything valid on black magic to this degree. I mean if I see one more YouTube video or article on Facebook about “are you seeing 1111?” , “10 signs you are a star seed indigo child” I swear I’m gonna loose it. It’s not helping anyone ….. everyone is loosing their shit …… and I need fucking answers and receipts and remedies.

We will see how it goes. I’m one for pushing my boundaries if it feels right. I’m just tired of seeing part of this and not the whole and not being able to protect myself or the people I love.

The Beings Made Bets on my Faith

I got tired of calling them Entities.

Either way the demon entity beings make bets on my life all day….. down to what I eat.

Even recently it took me some time to realize there was a demon in my kitchen trying to control what I eat cause they were making bets and when one of them looses they become really aggressive.

So I think I didn’t listen to one and then every time there after every time I went into the kitchen I started coughing and getting nauseous out grossed out by food or I wanted to pass out one time when I was trying to help do the dishes for my mom and I had to stop. This is all one or two days after. Then I realized how dirty and disgusting they are and how they play.

They would make me feel ill or wrap me in etheric parasites JUST to win a bet! And I’m over here crawling around my housing wondering WTF! This has happened so many times when I didn’t realize. Once told me not to eat my moms food and I did anyway and I was the only one who started projectile vomiting. So fuck these Entities.

So what do they get when they win a bet? Get to feast on my energy first? Points? Hell money?

Early on when this first started 2016 these demons said my mom hired my ex to turn me more Christian. “Meet my maker”. I guess energetically. Idk….. I was loosing my shit at the time. So yea you can see why.

I recently realized it was a bet between the beings to mock my faith. They have no faith so they don’t care.

Forcing me to be “more Christian” was about controlling ME and over me. It took me to see this because I kept trying to reconcile this and understand why the same demons who tortured me into suicide were also condemning me and trying to make me more Christian but then keep me from going to church or enjoying church or reading the Bible. It is insane …….. like they are.

My faith remains either way but I don’t like the way this feels. I take my time with growing in my faith.

But essentially this is their story at this point not mine. They choose to reveal themselves….. they choose to do what they do me.

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