Observation: False Fear (and other emotions) caused by entities. πŸ‘½πŸ‘»πŸ’©

So while I am all about feeling your feels. I also want to touch on false emotions caused by demonic entity oppression.

The easiest instance that I can explain is that entities have watched and observed us collectively or individually enough to mimic our emotions. The good news is that they don’t do it very well.

Often I think the easiest emotions are anxiety or depression. Now this does NOT mean that someone can not suffer from anxiety or depression. I mean we all have moments that worry us or sadden us. That is natural what is not natural is when we do not feel connected to them. Often the entities will pretend to be self talk in order to excuse the emotion that they place with in us. Again this can be anger, anxiety, depression, fear, jealousy, sexual attraction and even LOVE.

J worked through a lot of the anxiety and depression. I know who I am and was able to discern quickly that something wasn’t right even though I didn’t have language or examples to connect to. So when I felt anxiety I breathed through it because often it was a more physical emotion, like a beating in my chest accompanied by racing thoughts. Mimicked depression is more subtle. I think despite my situation I have done a lot of work to keep a balance with in the situation. I allowed myself to soothe myself as I experienced this unimaginable experience. I blogged, made art, watched my favorite movies, stayed away from triggers until I was ready to face them.

I did what I needed to do to stay in my sweet spot of calm while this horrific experience unfolded around me. I was fortunate. But I know others are not. Many face homelessness, living with unsupportive people, the stress of daily life, work …. kids etc. so I know it’s not easy to really sit back and observe the situation if you don’t even have the time to do that due to life.

I think the easiest example I can explain this (which I have mention in this blog) is that at times the Entities will reveal themselves to me either in space (floating) or in my mind (eyes). The times that they have done this they would say my name or word suddenly and jolt/electrocuted my body or my chest to make it seem like I was scared of them when I saw them. I’m honestly not scared. I might be naturally startled, but scared and in the extreme feeling they try to create nope. Like they are literally acting like deranged psycho kids trying to scare me. And this is mostly due because I won’t give them the emotions or the play like I use to so now they are going on divergent levels of physical pain.

So that is an example of False Fear. I have been seeing the Entities for a couple of years now so I’m not scared of them. If anything I was curious because I thought I could figure out how to make them go away. But that was a fruitless endeavor for me. All I can do is discern and see them and document and share the information I have observed.

I don’t think people understand how every cell in my body screams when they are connected to me or around me. Like it almost literally feels like trying to squish multiple spirits in a body like a suit case that is overflowing. My cells and muscles make a crunching, snapping or release sound sone times when I stretch because there are smaller entities are attached.

It’s like being hooked up to an EKG or something, like the larger entity has all the multiple smaller entities attached to different parts of your body to give you the full on matrix virtual feeling but they are a miss. And their attachment hurts, essentially in the head.

So when you are say worried that a loved one hasn’t called you, (which is natural), the entities will take it a step further and exasperated the worry and the feeling and start saying things to like, “they are mad at you”, “something happened to them” and if they are attached to your eyes show you images/visions of your loved one harmed.

I’m not sure WHY THEY DO THIS! But they are relentless! I mean I honestly don’t understand why this entities haven’t gone away. I mean they are literally beating a dead horse.

And it sucks because I have to be SUPER MINDFUL of my emotions. Like if it’s an overwhelming feeling, for example they will give an emotion like I am in love with them which is FAAAAAAAAAAR from any time of truth, I will recognize it as what it is and let it roll by, what until it’s over, and KNOW that that feeling is false. But sometimes ones like depression or self loathing can be more difficult to shake. Like a week or so ago I literally felt the false emotion of depression/sadness and it took upmost The Who day to shake it and it didn’t go away until I mentioned it to a healer friend. Like I felt the release and it left my body, and my body just relaxed in a way I can’t fully explain to you.

So, be aware of your feelings, if you actually connect with it or if what the trigger might have been, ground yourself in reality and speak the positive in your mind (because worrying won’t change the situation and you won’t know what to do until you know), pray, and don’t give these demonic entities anything!

Observations: Eyes Taken in the Astral

An observation that I have noticed is that many times I have had my “eyes taken”.

Often is feels like my eyes will go blurry and then a series of “visions” will come to mind.

For me this is something that the Entities/demons do. They do this especially to twist ideas and distract you or suggest you.

When this first started the Entities kept saying “my eyes are your eyes” and pretended to be someone and something other than the pathetic POS that they are. And then another one would scream “I hope she never has eyes!” They are absolutely insane and I can’t believe is my real life….. πŸ€·πŸ»β€β™€οΈ

It’s much like when they create dreams. From what I saw in the “astral” if we want to call it that is that they place “black patches” attachments to the eyes and this causes you not to see the actual entities as well. However it also allows them to have control and through these “black energy patches”, for lack of a better word, they also feed visions to us/ me.

When you are working on your “third eye” and focusing on the center of your skull what you are actually doing is blinding yourself to submitting yourself to visions. This visions are created by Entities with etheric light energy. They ARE the light, they use the light to create an illusion. And by you not focusing on what is actually happening in front of your eyes you have submitted to an illusion. If you had a vision and then focused your eyes to what’s going on right in front of you you would see a COMPLETELY different world. It’s not all pretty. It is barren, and full of illusionist trying to get their rocks off.

They are liars. And they assault the mind, body and spirit.

I can’t tell you HOW many people both schiz and not, man or woman, have been sexually assaulted “spiritually” if we want to call it that. I would say Etherically.

Maybe most of them have not had theirs go on for as long as mine. But it has happened there is literally a METOO movement happening in the Ethers.

I know that my opinion will be an unpopular opinion but honestly you are not “activating your third eye” you are blurring your vision with your eyes closed and allowing entities to lie to you RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE!!!! In your eyes! Like they can be big or tiny tiny. And yes we have a pineal gland and maybe that has to do with light receptivity. But either way these Entities are full of πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©.

I have mentioned in this blog so many times that on MANY occasions I have looked past the illusion (or one of them). On one occasion I saw the image of a woman in my ” third eye” and something told me to look straight ahead and what I saw the woman then began a praying mantis. And soon as the praying mantis saw that I saw it, it jetted out of my field.

Why you scared?

How does the mantis know I am looking at it straight ahead?

Why are they lying to us?

So many questions!

But honestly I do t even want to write about this stuff anymore. But I feel the need to document it for anyone out there or for the next wave of people. Because the deception is REAL and we are looking like FUCKING IDIOTS!

What I am currently trying to do is strengthen my understanding and relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I know I am a sinner. And I can’t not get out of this hell matrix with out Jesus!

The New Age really got me! And I was lead there by the demons that hung around me, I would experience something “super natural” and google it and then some new age site had an explanation. But NO real solution other than “a bright white light around you” πŸ™„ So you say that the dark is attracted to my light, but then you tell me to rev up my light to repel them? OKie Dokie!! That makes sense! πŸ€ͺ

Either way, these demons will lead you astray in what ever form! And you will end up in some occult bs with out even knowing. You were groomed since sin, by demons to end up where you are. Where I am sorry. And yet I still have to be accountable for my nativity.

So slowly they will give you these “super natural” experiences ……. grooming you. Making sure your belief is just right. That you are far enough from God to attack! And they will devour. And if your are lucky you will be saved. I have yet to be so lucky. And I am not sure why. But it is something I have to accept in the moment.

These demons what ALL of you. Touching your hands, genitals, I had one kiss me, 🀒 not to mention rape. Like I’m not making this shit up and it’s NOT my mind. I mean there is YouTube video after YouTube video of people saying they have had these experiences. And they DO NOT consider themselves schizophrenics.

Awakening is bullshit, Third eye bullshit, even the “astral” as normally explained …. bullshit, ascension to whatever dimension is bullshit. It is a lie, lie if people who have been lied to and spreading their lie and thinking they are a Guru because they had a DMT trip. Like this is soooo dangerous.

One dude on YouTube was talking about how he has sex in the astral! LOL are you that hard up bro? That you are fucking with astral spiders that are an illusion of some fantasy woman? Get your WHOLE life together! And he thinks he is a Guru of “astral travel”!

Astral travel is bullshit! You are just being given a waking dream by entities. Are being sucked into their ecosystem which is their being which comprised of smaller beings that all make up the worlds in which you think you are traveling in.

They make you feel by attaching to you. I once felt like I was being jerked around in a dream and as I woke up for like maybe 20 mins I still had 2 things attached to my back that were still buzzing. And I literally felt the suction of them releasing from my body.

I’m not going to say I know everything cause I don’t. But I did my research and I surveyed A LOT of people and this shit is BUUUUILLLLLπŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©πŸ’©!

And we are gladly handing over our soul for apparent ” live and light” and our mission to save Earth! You wanna save earth? You want to “awaken” WAKE UP! Look right in front of you!!! Right in front of you! You are being lied to! But if you want to keep the illusion FINE!!

Shit is scary!! But you don’t want to save the Earth! You want to play fantasy game of “I’m an angel” or “I’m an alien” or ” I was Isis in a past life” simulation game by these matrix entities that is DEMONS! Old fashion ass DEMONS!

WAKE UP! For real this time!!!

I want my body back!

I want my body, mind, soul, spirit back NOW!

I am waiting to see if i can get some cash flow so i can start eating better and organic again. I dont care what any omnivore says….. My body can not process meat the way others can. May on occasion or festivities….. But an every day basis of my diet. Nope. I gained soooooooo much weight.

When i went raw i lost 20lb in a month but thats too much in a month. And i dont want flab. Its difficult to cook in my parents house cause my mom is always in the kitchen and the refrigerator is always full with left overs.

I am slightly afraid that my vegetarian/vegan lifestyle had something to do with what seemed like my spontaneous awakening. But i have to do what i know is right for my body.

I’ve mapped my mental landscape and the games the demonic aliens play. But i want to get rid of them desperately.

At night in my dreams they take control of my spirit/consciousness and drive it through dreams. I cant say exactly how but its like they wear my spirit and drive it while im asleep creating an illusion dreamscape to play in. Which is 100 times better than their sad reality of floating around in space waiting to fuck with someone believe me.

I miss running….. Sweating…. Biking…. I had lost 130+lb over a couple of years and was about 40lb away from my goal weight when i got attacked by the demon aliens. And i slowly became inactive becauce the weight of them hurt to simply walk to breathe. I felt like i was being choked, like my brain was in a vice. So i stopped all activity. Then tgey forced me to quit my job by the sick images they were showing me and saying to me. Then i became depressed and pretty much only ate cheese sandwhiches and cookies all day for like a year. It was a sad look. All my vital came back ok. My blood pressure was a bit high but nothing my doctors seem to take as seriously as i was.

Even being unhealthy i still see hear and feel them. My body is no longer in an alkaline state (i was lighly following Dr. Sebi Akaline guidelines but not strictly). Prior i was 7+ph.

I almost want to cut off all my hair again. Idk. My hsir is just sitti g on my head in a bun all day. Wasting shampoo AND tons of conditioner on it.

Im like wasti g to go into warrior mode ….. Just been waiting and waiting. So tired of waiting. Waiting for money, answers, healing, something!

The soul and the spirit i believe is different i believe. I believe the soul is the observer the spirit is the driver. What animates us. The electricity that runs through our body. Unfortunately this can be hacked. I dont think our soul can be hacked maybe im wrong. The soul is pure. But the body is a bio computer. It is a reciever of information. And it is being hacked and viruses and back doors and Trojans and identify theft is being carried out by these demon aliens. I mean they sounded just like my ex (identy theft). They knew what song he was goung to send me 2 weeks before he sent it (back door).

But i havent fleshed this out too much. But i dont know why they do what they do but its wrong and bad andcevil and there will soon be a reckoning for them and who ever is working with them.

Matrix: Astral: Second Life

If you ever built something in the game called second life (I haven’t played in years) but the astral almost seems to have the same concept 2D and 3D like 3D modeling.

There is also something that would happen in the game called “griefing”. Where some nerd would drop a box or item somewhere which would release all of these images or items “lagging” or slowing everyone down or essentially “crashing” the game for everyone.

That’s almost like what I feel like is happening to me and others. An astral grief. Only it’s real and it hurts and I don’t get to crash and teleport somewhere else I’m just sitting in it …….. in pain.

The grief is energetic. And the more it disrupts my energy field the hard it is for me to walk or live. To think or be.

But each grief is and ACTUAL thing it’s not invisible, maybe to the naked eye……. but it can be a dot a bunch of, it can be a projection of an Entity, it can be images outline, so many different things but it’s a thing (vehicle) with a purpose (curse or bless) in my case curse the shit out of me or GRIEF.

Kinda glad I geeked out on that game for a while and learned how to build and not just shop. Helped me understand how these Entities move around and do what they do. How the they build themselves up.

Insectoid Mantis or Demon 😱

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Above is a quick description of Mantis Insectoids and then a long but GOOD lecture on Angels but mostly Demons. Really worth the watch.

One thing he said about demons is that the hey have “bird like feet” and I was noticing this WAY before I knew this was a trait of demons unless they were literally part bird. But many of them had a tripod like or bird feet like leg.

So that’s one aspect. Demon or what was seen as demon CHECK βœ”οΈ.

Now not all demons are …….. idk maybe like the beast monster with horns and breathing fire and eats children to replenish itself and steps on villages while smiting Gods name. For like decades on end no mercy.

SOME just like to hang around and fuck up all your romantic relationships so you end up alone. OR, side track you in life wit a couple of bad decisions. Maybe there are a few and each have there thing.

Again the voices/mantis CAN be funny sometimes but it’s usually and only at my expense. They can mimic other voices and sounds. They have many outfits and masks (even alien grey ones). Can take on any personality, although the ones I have encountered feel masculine in “nature” even if the voice is female. So they know how to party.

The one that was stalking me I guess was sweet with dreams at first but soon as it got together with other friends it really took advantage of my body and did not care if it was hurting me. So that is no guardian, friend or anything. And think that’s how many people innocently get wrapped up. Even if your not seeking anything.

So because their intentions are not pure and good they are demons even if their goofy or cute or funny. Doesn’t matter TRICKS OF THE DEVIL Satan knows we like cute goofy things like kittens……. DAMN YOU SATAN! Anyway don’t fall for it in the astral/spirit/etheric/dimensions beeeeecause they are liars and assholes and that’s pretty much it.

Mantids chill with Reptilians (if that’s what they even are). They work in a hive mind. But I’m honestly waiting for the next veil to drop. Now I can see this shit with my eye and by taking a simple photo at the right moment and you are telling my the the government or NASA can’t see this shit?

I really expect more from all parties at this point. Healer and shaman, religious leaders, government, Angels whatever else would be involved……. whistleblowers I guess….

So since Mantis’ have all the toys and masks, and dress up (even cars) they can easily be be many of the demons we think we know. And with a little light or black magic MEANING using light or shadow they can may show us a totally different image.

I once saw a random image/vision of a woman who face and when I stared are more deeply into my mind the black nothingness and then saw the face become the Mantis!!!! So these beings are master illusionists.

So a Mantis is DEFINITELY one of the main ones. No matter what your religion is that has nothing to do with the rape and terrible things they do.

So if I find a way BELIEVE I’m letting everyone know!

Dark Light? ✨

How do you trust the “light” when the “darkness” is false light. It looks like light. Can act like “light” deities …. ancestors or loved ones?

This entity said to another entity “yea we lit her (me) up like a Christmas tree” mean lit me up with a bunch of Entities and demons and curses beings black magic.

So how do you trust the “light”?

How do you know?

Does it even exist?

Is there even good spirits or spiritual world?

Why are these beings doing this? It seems pointless to me?

10 years of stalking to then try to convince me to commit suicide in the last 3 years? For what?

Idk. Darkness has light….. quiet a bit of it too. Rationing it out for more light or whatever the agenda is. Idk. But they have light. Like a dull lighting. And it sucks that two worlds can not get along …… but it would only make sense….. look at our world but then knowing HOW they influence our world negatively and now are just becoming more noticed …….

BIG SIGH….. just doesn’t make sense.

“I’m leaving!” πŸ™„

“I’m leaving!”

“I’m never coming back!”

“I never want to see you again!”

“Go home!”

“There’s no room for you here!”

Ect, ect, ect……..

So this Demon Entity is always yelling about its going to leave me ….. “just wait for happy birthday!”. Always saying it will leave around my birthday. Or some holiday.

So I’m have a sense of false hope, so those dreams will be crushed. Maybe there is an a sliver of hope that it will leave around these holidays, or when it says it will, or when I went to healers. But it’s all a really terrible play with really really bad acting and a shitty /insane story line.

But I’m pretty set on wanting these demon to leave never being able to contact anyone in anyway ever again. All of them! Disgusting!

I’m trying to keep hope, faith….. those things that things will get better. But I don’t know if I am just tricking myself into a lie.

Must I become an addict to see the Jesus play? Worship Satan to have a good life? This shit sucks balls! Hairy balls, stinky balls, lop sided balls……. just sucks!

I’m stuck here just listening to things I DONT EVEN WANT TO REPEAT!!!! That’s how bad it is! It’s not just a worry or a “negative thought” like some chicks shirt is ugly……. this is like the most vile things I couldn’t even image and don’t want to!!!!

I have to find language to describe it with out repeating the exact vile thought word for word. There is no “just let the thoughts roll by” with this it makes me physically ill, it hurts it’s gross. And even if I try to stay strong for a long period of time I eventually break down cause I can’t hold all that disgusting thoughts in! I scream out for God! To take it away…….. and here it remains. It gets to live….. it gets to play…. dirty….. it rapes me ….. it violates me it tries to scare me it beats on my chest it loops the same thoughts over and over it shows me shit I don’t want repeat. It puppets my face and tries to make me micro express (energetic smile) happiness at the most vile events in the world…. it’s sick. GOD WHY IS IT ALIVE WHY IS IT HERE GOD!!!!!? WHY DOES IT EVEN EXIST?!!!!!!???

Kill it!!!!

Please God kill it!!!!

New Spirit Energy Whatever. πŸ‘€

I seen eyes before around the house. Alien eyes, one single eye. But there’s a new eye with lashes that’s has been following me around the house. 

I looked up at the edge of the ceiling and then all of a sudden it was in my face. I’m like damn I can’t even look at the ceiling?!? 

I told the pretty 3rd eye with lashes (and a bunch of dots above it) No thank you. I didn’t feel super threatened by it, but I mean they are in my home when I asked them to leave…. So ….. It moved to the side.

The voice said “don’t you want a 3rd eye?”. I said, “I already have one.” (I guess I think… Maybe… Who knows). 

All I know is I want all these things out of my body…. I don’t care if they are little ghost in the shape bunny rabbits, Jesus, 3rd eye lashes ….. After what happen … No Bueno. And anything of a good nature would understand that and leave me alone.

I’m seriously not out hear looking for this stuff. I get bothered and then I’m looking for ways to be left alone by these entity spirits whatever they are. 

Why won’t they leave!!!!!!!? Uhg! 

Lost Souls πŸ‘€πŸ™ & Fire

I have heard many theories on what these circular shape things are around my house. Some say its souls/spirits, some say angels, some say archon/ reptialian, I have yet to read anyone directly relate this things with Satan but they sure do come close. 

So one thing I noticed is that these things do NOT like heat. Although they can produce what may feel like heat (nerve / electrical). Actual heat is not what they love. This includes actual fire and HOT water, say in a bath or the outside of a glass of HOT tea.

I guess this came up for me because I woke up, felt one of these things on the top of my hand and the used my eyes to see if there was one there, and then saw the darker middle half way out my hand. I then placed my piping hot coffee cup on the back of my hand and saw it rise up slowly. 

Whatever these things are if they remove themselves from my body after being put in hot water then to me that means THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE THERE! 

Maybe I am getting too biblical but maybe these are lost souls, that would endlessly burn in fire. Since they don’t die in heat, but don’t like heat they just run away, they often come back. Or maybe these lost souls are being USE by Reptilians (which i could def see them being thought of as demons back in the day).

They are slowly accumulating all over the house. Edges of the ceiling. And some so bold and big right in the middle of the room.

I’m just tired of these things attaching to me. I know my vibrations are “low” because whatever is orchestrating this, keeps using child sexual abuse to make me super sad and grossed out and cry. Which probably just feeds them all. But I TRY, and when I try to not allow the visions to bring me down (cause they are not real), I get attached even more. 

These things touching my skin are causing rashes, burning, vibration and discomfort. 

When I deal with emotional now its the physical with these things burning.

I’m TRYing SO HARD! πŸ™

My House Looks like Smoke 😱

There is so much spiritual bullshit happening in my house! 

There is a mist that has been building and settling into everything, sofa, electronics, dressers. Its insane. I have never seen a mist this much? Some of the mist actually have those Archon circles in them. Embedding itself half way into furniture. 

So there is the clear jelly fish archon circles and now a mist. 

Sigh! WTF!