Targeted Individuals: EMF reading at Kids Playground

So a last week I was at the park (btw I live in NYC) where I take my godson to play and I was on the park benches and while I was just staring around the park I noticed on the metal bench I was on the was a clear white misty cloud form on the top back of the benches. I double checked my eyes looked to other parts of the park. But the top back was were it was the most predominant.

So yesterday I took my godson again to the park. I sat at a different park bench and decided to do an EMF reading because I was getting migraines that were making me almost nauseous.

So I remembered what I saw on the bench but I didn’t really see them at first. I do the EMF reading on myself which was at a 60 but then quickly went down to like a 40 something once I turned on my reader. So no wonder I was feeling nauseous.

Then I casually did a reading for the metal bench armrest it was 119. It wasn’t easy to get that reading because when you put it on the arm rest and you get like maybe a 90 at first but if you move it slightly one way towards where the numbers go up you find the “hot spot”. The reasons that they are not the easiest to find is because the beings or projections are flattish. The are usually not much thicker than cardboard. So the are facing one way or another on the axis point.

Then I did a reading for the top back part of the bench like I saw on the other bench last week. 214! This was by the way only isolated to one spot towards the end of the bench. This is touching people! My head was there just a moment ago.

I feel like if I followed a trail of EMF readings it would lead me somewhere. But maybe it’s randomish.

Then I wondered if I was getting high readings because the bench was made out of metal. I did an EMF reading for the seat of the bench which came out to 20/30. And for the middle arm rest. That is a huge jump. All the same area, all the same material.

When I looked close to the arm of the bench I could see a clear watery outline of energy but nothing distinct. Just that it was there and not other places. It also did not seem to attack me that I was aware of. Most, at least when I am inside, seem to attack me. A dark outline getting in my face to scare me or sending sparkles or lights to my body to connect to it….. who knows .

I also did an EMF reading for my best friends bed. Generally the bed was at 40, but when I moved towards the head of the bed… it jumped to 70.

So there is definitely something with being near the head of humans.

While I may recognize them as spirit/demon/alien I have not definitively ruled out technology. It’s just easier to explain what I am seeing and experiencing exactly as I see it.

While some of us may have a hitch hiker or a few, these beings/things cover the city. I also see them on non voice hears. So again what makes us different to experience loud voices, energetic rape and violations of the body and mind?

That is my latest update.

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“Light Beings” and spirit realm

So im in a group where people share their photos of what they think are angels and fairies and light beings and all that cool positive stuff.

And i guess i joined this group because i want to have faith that there are good beings out there. As the ones i have observed in my own personal situation played like they were angels or good spirits and stuff and they were not. They were grooming me for the kill. I had to first believe in something other than this reality other wise they would not have a game.

So i keep looking at these people photos. Hoping to see something good. Something different.

For the most part i see the same beings i see in mine in abput 50% percent of them. The others i dont see anything really.

Like i will see this beautiful light in the photos that seem really innocent …… But if i dive further into their photo i will see the same strange trollish looking faces somewhere in the pic and then attaching to the human in some way.

The only difference is they are not experiencing full blown demonic schizophrenic reality melt down. They dont feel the pain of their lies.

I want to believe something is good out there in the “spirit/astral/dimensions realm”.

Idk if it is because im kind of stuck at this level or inthis rwalm that i can not see other ones. Or that its all a big lie. And any “good beings” are just bad ones lying to us in some way.

So often when i look at someone photo i look for two eyes, a flower looking thing, or a line or trail of sorts. Usually if i follow the line i will see the flower or a face. The flower from what i saw is how the entities connect to people usually undetected. I could be wrong. Sometimes i see a snake or parasite worm looking thing in the photo. Sometimes i will see something like the photo above which is a circle or multiple circles with head in the middle. Normally i dont see those connecting to people with the flower things. They are kind of like a stand alone. But i do see them around people.

I have also seen all these beings conglomerate i a way to make a larger being of sorts maybe one more human like. Each smaller being seems tonhave its own function. And they can glow….or be a white mist ….. Or clear watery outlines or a dark outline that moves really slow and similar to a flip book.

But these great angelic beings….. I have not seen. I have seen the same flashes of light or white smokey ghost balls come from these entities so i don’t automatically feel that light beings are just this floating innocent ball of light. I honestly have no idea WHAT they are. I mean they look alien sometimes, the look like hell trolls sometimes, could be a hologram idk. I just go one how they act which is they hurt physically and they lie. Two most consistent things i have come acrossed. So i can only assume they are bad.

I want to be disproved. I want to be wrong. I am looking for good. I really am.

Anyone with more info on beings that look like this i would love to hear your opinion.

Anonymous: Hackers

Just a quick thought. If targeted individuals are harrassed through technology……. Why can’t anonymous hackers help with figuring this out? I mean they can shut down sites and stuff. There has to be a way to figure out the signals.

Also why cant they shut down pedo sites either? That should be an easy one.

Like everyone wants to use their image like they are some matrix hackers but who is actually doing the work?

Just a thought.

Demons Touch 👿

Feels like every cell is being slowly suffocated or electrocuted. But mostly suffocated is the best way i can describe it. It is slow. So i don’t notice it at first until i just feel awful and i find it hard to breathe and things hurt and then i remember oh thats these demons piled up on my head.

I try to stretch which keeps the tension they cause in my body at bay…… But i cant stretch my skull.

Just feeling awful right now. This feelslike a sliw kill. I want to have hope.

Not Sure What To Do Anymore 😕

Like I’ve done studied these demons and how they work the various communties and belief systems around the expierence, interactions and or torture.

And like im done! Like really really done!

I’m good on the school of esoterics. I’m done. Unless God is gonna give me the answer to burning these cockroaches ….. I’m done!

Like I’ve done the WORK! I’ve tried everything. Ive really worked on myself. Trying to figure where these triggers (agitated by the demons) where stemming from. Also known as Jungian (Carl Jung) Shadow Work. Like I’ve analyzes myself back and forth until I feel like a narcissist at this point. Like over analyze looking for answers and some times….. it is what it is really. Like it’s simply a dislike or a childhood truama…..not some past life karmic shit that i don’t even really know about and can never truly resolve.

I mean its pretty basic. And I’m done over analyzing myself …… Like i need to go out and live life and find some new shit to traumatize me and over analyze. Im joking. Seriously.

But i need to live life. I’ve been on pause for 3.5 years and studied and waited and tried to heal the best I KNOW HOW. And while I know I need to put all my trust in the Lord, like i feel like i gotta do my part too….ya know.

Like i didn’t leave my house for a year and some change cause the demons voice(s) where so loud it was painful i mean LOUD. And it was difficult to walk down the street. But i pushed myself were i could. i really did.

Now its way more physical than before because i am able to ignore the demons bullshit more and not get caught in a delusion. But now i feel punished for not playing their games. Like i will get electrocuted or my body will vibrate all day or i have mirgaines and see a huge black spot in front of my vision…. Dizzy, feeling sick, faint or sleepy. Everyday. Some days the pain is so bad all i can do is sleep it off.

And i want to get healthier and walk more which will help me stop smoking as much. And drink my green juice and detox and all that hippy stuff. But i feel like death most days. And as i said i often sleep the pain away.

Yo i use to walk everywhere! And bike! I would bike from bushwick to the Bronx. I would walk from Inwood to Midtown. Upper East to Chinatown. Just pumping the city. And now i feel like i have an energetic ton on my shoulders choking me. And i had all my physicals and apparently everything is ok.

After studying these demons honestly they are around most people one way or another. But why i gotta get the full production? Visual, dreams, visions, voices, tactile. Like they really hurt. Why do they hurt me and not other people?

Like i was on my phone today and i felt a numbing strange pain in my hand and i examined my hand and low and behold i could see a dark energy line coming out of my hand. I couldnt see the whole thing like if it was an actual “being” just the dark thick line that moved with my hand. And stared at it for a few and whatever it was removed it.

Assholes.

So imagine that and my whole body. My brain! They do this to my organs. I can’t look at my organs. But I can bring awareness there ….. But that usually doesn’t help. They don’t like to be looked at or seen cause they are cowards.

Either way …….. Im lost in this sea of fuckery. I just want to get back on track and stop these attacks.

Evil Light Beings emit EMF radiation 😱

So on Saturday i was at my besties house sleeping and the voices/entities kept waking me up every hour so that got really annoying. The last time i woke up i saw a glowing bright red being (which i am familiar with see photo) sitting on the right side of my pillow. And when it saw that i saw him he then covered himself in a black energy blob and said “im hot! Im hot!”.

This isnt the first time i saw the beings glowing before. It seems that the smaller they are the brighter they glow and when they make themselves larger (like a projection) they become duller dark ghostlike outlines. When they are larger they seem to move slower.

Now often New Agers will call these beings “dark beings” and “not of the light”. But they are very much made of light i believe. They hide however in the dark and do “dark” (bad) things like torturing people or lying. The bible described Lucifer a being of light casted down to earth from heaven. I dont believe this is a coincidence.

So we know they are at least made of light. Are they derivatives of Lucifer or the orginal fallen angels? Like little pieces that broke off from the original but yet still carrying out the same evil program?

But they have to be made of something. Its not magical. Its like a shaman who gave someone herbs to drink to feel better and the person think its magic. But really there is a science behind herbs and how they effect the body. Eons of studying herbs to know what works for which part of the body. Some of the things they can do as light beings is burn you, electrocute you, make you vibrate, pin pricks, jolt. Just to name a few.

What sparked my inquiry was that these beings emit EMF radiation anywhere from 30 to 100+ on a good day. I wondered what emits EMF….. And just a simple google it is different wavelengths.

Now there are two pieces to this puzzle. The actual light being and the black energy blob they hide behind (i believe it can be clearish as well but im just talking through this).

In the Wiki link on Electromagnetic Radiation it goes through the basics of the different waves lengths which include It includes radio waves, microwaves, infrared, (visible) light, ultraviolet, X-rays, and gamma rays. Now only visible light is suppose to seen by the naked eye. For whatever reason i can see these things and i dont know why.

Now my guess is that these beings are on the infrared wavelength (lol because it was red) or they can jump different wavelengths. They other reason i assumed it was infrared is because of the EMF reading between 30 and 100+ ut. This image can be found under the “Electromagnetic Spectrum” tab in the link.

Now i might be being simplistic about my associations with my findings. But under the “Thermal and electromagnetic radiation as a form of heat” in the same link there is a link to something called a “black body“. Inam only assuming that the black energy blob that they hide in cpuld possible be a black body which is described as “A black body or blackbody is an idealized physical body that absorbs all incident electromagnetic radiation, regardless of frequency or angle of incidence. (It does not only absorb radiation, but can also emit radiation. ”

When i put the EMF reader (found in the app store) near this black energy blob the reader goes nuts it shoots up too 90+ but going all over the place. So it absorbing and emitting kinda of makes sense with the reading jumping all over the place.

Now that i may have identified what these beings are made of its about testing things to protect myself and or find ways to disolve them. Im not SUPER smart but im trying at least to make sense and if it doesnt I will definitely update this post.

Studying the make up of these beings are important to our protection especially those that are truly suffering. I guess since i am not some magic healer i am looking to science to explain what i am experiencing.

These evil light beings emitting EMF radiation it would make sense why people feel sick or ill or bad feelings when they connect to us. It would also make sense why “demons” or evil beings can cause diseases on the body when they are attached because theybare emitting EMF which over long periods of time which can effect organ function and cell structure.

I think many New Agers talk about this stuff like we are in pre school. And of course Religious people talk about it as if demons are magical and not possibly scientific.

What makes a “good” light being differ from a “bad” light being other than not energetically raping a human? Do good ones hide in those black energy blobs too? Or do they more enjoy the fresh air of nature and the sun? What is the exact purpose of all of this? I cant settle on the answer that they want to “harvest your negative emotions” ….. Like whaaat? I mean it makes sense in the program that they run in terms of using fear and negative emotions to get a reaction….. But in the grand scheme what exactly do they need from ME that causes them to literally stalk me where ever i go? There has to be more i feel.

Thats all I got for today i hope to progress to understanding what would dissolve the black body/black energy blob or warding off these light energy beings from connecting with me and impossing on my free will.

To be honest with you (i wish)

To be completely honest …… I wish i was sold the lie. These demons didnt even try to lie very well. After the Osiris/Isis twin flame telepathy bullshit didnt pan out (posing as telepathy with my ex) they went straight for mediocre lies and then torture.

I mean beleive me. I WISH this mofo was my higher self, spirit guide, ancestor, benevolent alien sent to help humanity. ……….. I wish it was telepathy with my ex so i could tell him how much he made me feel insecure and didnt fight for us …… That these demons were using his voice to say i love you and i fell for it.

I wish this was some positive kundalini experience where “my chakras are activated” and my Soul Star is lit up and my health is intacted…… I wish i was the chosen one …… 144k sent to help humanity and these were the trials and tribulations that God put me here for…… I wish this was “the veil being lifted” as opposed to imposed. I wish this was “shedding old belief systems for the the collective”. In fact I GOT some new ones i would like to impose. I wish this was my ascension and NOT descension. I wish is was schizophrenia….. And the medication worked. I wish i was a warrior that wasnt tired.

There were so many options. But the torture remained. It hurts….. Its difficult to breathe sometimes. …. I feel this painful demons attached to my head or chest and or vagina sometimes my butt/spine. Waves of electrocution. I wish it was cosmic attunement.

I see them in my house. I see them attached to loved ones. People on the street…… In some peoples photos.

I wish i didnt see them. I wish I didnt stare at them long enough to recognize them now …. Because im useless. I cant help anyone. Telling someone they got a demon on their head aint gonna do shit but plant the seeds of paranoia for these demons to play with or for my friends to stop fuckin with me. All i can do is give testimony to those that are suffering and struggling.

I wish this was enlightenment…… All i did was awaken to a nightmare.

Am I A Targeted Individual?

So ………..

I havent written much because most of my experience is just the same topics over and over being looped by Entity demon.

I have been exploring the targeted individual community more after having explored the schizophrenic community and prior to that the spiritual community. Many stories and experiences overlap in some fashion or another.

The targeted individual community tend to be a bit more abrasive, very angry and a bit paranoid. And i mean i dont blame them or deminish the experience. But its just a general tone i picked up. And honestly feel like that is the point of the targeting. To keep people aggitated until the snap. And end up dong something to the perpetrators that they believe are doing this yo them. There seems to be two camps where one believes its technology and secret government surveillance. The other believe its more spiritual demonic warfare or aliens. Many believe its a mix of both some how.

Im not too sure what it is. Its not right whatever it is. And there has to be a way to properly deal with this. Find truth.

Some people are electrocuting themselves to get rid of the energy….. Some use organite and copper cages and all kinds of stuff to find relief. So are simply leaving it in the hands of God.

I mean shamanism and spirutual services didnt help me, meds didnt help if not made it worse. It wasnt about just eatting right. Meditation only help me to observe the voices and not be one with them. And i prayed both with conviction and in jest. But my prayers have not been completely fufilled and i dont think ive ever prayed for anything.

What is important is that we do come together and learn more about our shared experiences.

We have to remsin level headed about it.

I mean today the migraine the voices were giving me was out of this world. My migraine meds didnt even work. So all i could do is breathe through it until i fell asleep to deal with the pain and let my family know i wasnt feelung good. Wasnt a good day.

I have so.e other thoughts to share in a few.

OD Stupid 😴

So I took my 100mg of Seroquel along with 200mgs of Zzzquil so I could go to sleep and stay asleep. I have done this before. But this time I felt like I was dying.

WELP either one of a few things happened:

1. I was severely attacked

2. My medication interacted this time.

3. I hallucinate this experience.

4. Some strange combination of all.

The demons/voice don’t like when I take zzzquil or go to sleep so naturally thats what I want to do. So I end up taking zzzquil to stay asleep and and going to sleep to minimize my interaction with them since they hate me so much.

Im not addicted just interested in pissing them off and from what I experienced last night which felt like waves of death I think they are pissed off.

A female voice said ,”you just lost a friend” I had no idea what that meant because I personally didn’t consider any of them a friend of mine. My body then proceeded to go into waves of death, like my life force was being drained out of me. Then it stopped then it happened again a little less intense. So I decided to go to the emergency cause I thought I might be having a stroke. Or a heart attack because of these demons.

Thankfully I wasn’t.

So what was happening?

Why don’t they like zzzquil hmm?

So much they would attack me?

I wonder if over the counter sleep meds “lowers my vibrations” I like myself better on them and fully rested than irritated and easily annoyed because of these demons.

But the sensation these demons are currently giving me is like a nerves burning, waves of it. It’s not pleasant in the least. I think I know which entity is in charge of of these sensations. But it’s not always easy to pin point.

Either way……… this shit is wack.

Energetic Bodies

So I took a photo of my body in a dim lit room like I do to see other things.

And I saw that my energetic (I think it is mine or it could be another being) had 3 holes in it. It looked almost a cavern. I saw a pair of eyes in one of the holes.

Then I remember in January a gang of 30 or more Geckos all shot me in my stomach and then my eating habits changed. I wrote about in my blog.

Then maybe 3 months later a male face came to me and removed a band of maybe 5 astral parasites but left one that I could still feel and later saw.

My assumption was that the astral parasites were covering or closing the holes that was caused by the attack in January.

Why they were taken away or I was attacked in the first place I am unsure.