Sooooooo….. I was waking up this morning … Slowly but waking up. I did my Benadryl/Zquil cocktail the day before so I could get a solid 6+ hours of sleep.
So I was in and out of sleep. But generally was OK. So I woke up, and the Entity once again showed me an image of child abuse. There was no reasoning. It wasn’t punishing, it wasn’t related to my dreams, just child abuse for the sake of child abuse …. Because its funny to this Entity.
Not the way I wanted to wake up.
So basically this Entities super power is being a pedophile?!?
That was originally how it got me to almost kill myself twice. But I guess it wanted to just flash another vision of child abuse for old times sake.
I’m really getting sick of this shit, and having to “be strong”. There is nothing strong about enduring this.
While I have finally figured out this was a tactic used by this debased souless Entity demon thing. That doesn’t make any easier, in a way I pretend and act as though it doesn’t bother me in hopes that staying strong and not shedding a tear this thing will go away. But…. I don’t know if it ever will.
Just trying to find peace.