What I don’t get….

So like I have this psychopath reptilian archon Entities alien demon talking to me ALL DAY and like I can’t have like ONE angel or goddess or really cool alien talk to me?

Why GOD?

All this one does is scream and hyper sexualize every mundane minute and detail of my life till I want to vomit.

Where are the good beings at? Or is that a joke too?

Loosing faith…..

I will always believe in God.

But all this schizophrenic life this spiritual stuff ……… everyone seems to have a different answer why but no solid solution that has work.

Pills don’t work, salt baths and white light of protection doesn’t work, binaural beats don’t work, meditation don’t work, nothing has gotten rid of the voices other than realizing they weren’t the people they were pretending to be.

That kept them in check not got rid of them.

But I’m loosing faith here.

Idle minds

If idle minds are the devils play ground……. how does meditation fit into all of this?

I know when I’m trying to go to sleep I hear the demon aliens more.

I’m so over them, and they are dumb. They say the dumbest shit all day. Any way.

Talk that Talk

My days are spent waiting for my friends to talk to me to distract me from the voices and boredom.

I recently started fixing up my resume just to do something. Just in case I do want to start working. Even though I don’t feel I’m there yet mentally or physically I’m still striving to be.

Being social is part of that. So I am grateful for my friend who I can communicate with.

I’m not sure if I should go back to school or get a job. I know I can’t be too stressed out. I still have voices that pounce on any weakness. But I will have to at least try. At least with a job I would be making money and not loosing it.

Ah well that’s my update still hearing these nasty voices just trying not let them get to me cause I know who I am.

To See or Not To See

Conscious creates our environment. Once we become conscious of an idea or form we are no longer unconscious.

Immediately after becoming conscious the subject that we were unconscious of alters.

A relationship forms regardless of the nature of the object and subject. The object and subject become Meridians that now are connected by the Phenomena or Science of Quantum Entanglement.

Most of this activity occurs in a metaphysical nature or state in the subconscious which the Modern day authority of psychology believes to be 30,000-100,000 times the size of the conscious.

In representation we can compare the conscious as our body and the subconscious as or Soul or Spirit

In the Quantum Physics Double Slit Light Wave experiment the light wave or laser changes motion when and or as observed by a conscious thought complex.

Therefore if we are being observed without knowing or being conscious of the observer nonetheless our subconscious knows and is conscious with the ability in time to translate the observer to our conscious via the meridians and the Quantum Entanglement that now exists between the observer and the observer or the object and the subject.

This dual nature or natural duality is a relationship that takes turns in the Law of Opposites.

The observer becomes the observed and the observed becomes the observer. It’s a matter of consciousness knowing the subject and object and identifying the cycle of time each one represents in the relationship.

“When you stare into the abyss the abyss also stares into you.” ~ Nietzsche

Updates: Some headway

So even though the voices are STILL HERE.

And my bottom line is them being gone for good because of what they have done to me.

I have become better at ignoring them and they are a bit quieter than they have been. I don’t entertain every thought they throw my way and I am getting better at ignoring these demons and that lessens their power over me.

It’s a process. It’s been a process going on 3 years now since 2016 when they said BOOO out of no where.

Really all I can attribute it to is time and self empowerment. A lot of the spiritual stuff didn’t really work with this demon. This demon would just make a game out of it and I would end up wasting money. Least from my point of view.

It too time, faith in God and self empowerment to really get even this point where I feel I can even move through the world again.