Death Treats…..😩

So I was trying to sleep. And of course they went on as business as usual with buzzing, trembling my body, hard to describe the sensation but almost like my “spirit” is being stretched or yanked. Or maybe its their energy being yanked. Idk. 

Either way kept jolting me awake a few times. Lol this is why Schizo’s get irritated probably. 

But Archon homie tried to do this whole play like “I’m sorry, you want rose colored”,  I’m like huh? I guess basically rose colored glasses to look away from what they are doing to me and play. 

So now it made it seem like its “boss” came in and said “I know you are sorry!” Then the “boss” said in a deep tone “Ms. (My last name) your nwhole family is going to get shot!” Because of my previous posts honing in on Archons as the main cause of my schizophrenic experience. 

Now I am use to these tactics to scare me. I’ve seen and heard worse. But I’m REALLY getting tired of this shit. I was just trying to sleep.

Now that I’ve settled on it being “Archon’s”, they want to take another opportunity to scare me and make a whole elaborate play so it can feel like a powerful cosmic dot, when I don’t give a fuck. 

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ARCHONS 🌚 β€˜interdimensional entities’ the negative controllers of humankind


http://ufosightingshotspot.blogspot.com/2013/03/archons-interdimensional-entities.html?m=1

So I think I have settled on the fact that what I see, hear and feel are archon’s. It took me a while to actually see them “3d”.

This sucks cause now I’m a crazy archon “conspiracy theorist”. But this is what I legit see and they seem to fit the description. 

Why I see one stealth in my bathroom and why they are attacking me, or how to liget get rid of them out of my home and life? I don’t know.

I’m not crazy, I hate conspiracy theories or actually believing them, and this kinda makes it more difficult on me in the sense now that I KNOW these are archon’s I have to figure out a way to make them leave.

Sooooooooooo i have a lot of data on them and their nature. As I said prior I gave them the opportunity to co-exist with me and do good in the world (gotta a least try). They refuse and would rather zapp me of alk my energy making it difficult to be active and call me a loser all day. So. We aren’t, can’t, won’t, be on the same team or friends. 

Fuck their racist, homophobic, classiest, religious lookist, sexist, xenophobic, pedophile jokes!!!

God why?! Now I’m a conspiracy theorist damned to be in the dark edges of the internet because its just too real!

GREAT! Now I’m basically illegitimate click bait. 😩

Crazy Talk: What I See πŸ‘½πŸ‘€

So I finally drew what I see. These are not visions. They are like some times like the “logos” I described in a previous post. 

I posted this to a light worker group cause terrible drawing but this is what I see. The big ones are actually 3Dish like I can move but it won’t move is just kinda sits there in my bathroom. 

Most of the hallucinations are flat or super imposed. Or visions. 

Either way I got the normal “see a doc” thing. But mostly confirmation that they are negative Entities. As much as they want to convince me this is a “test” or have something to teach me.

I got the normal, salt, sage, other herbs, crystals, meditation, prayer, commanding them to leave, bright white light of protection, calling in angels and guides, eat healthy, be happy, grouding, dont talk to them. But I really really really did all of that. 

I don’t know if I or it or them are coming or going I just know I am tired.

Here is hoping I can push through. Just trying figure out if I shough do meds or not. I remember when I didn’t hear them, they were doing these crazy insane pass out almost headaches and sparkles and little tricks like that.

I will figure out what my next move will be. 

Thieves in the Temple πŸ‘‘

If God wasn’t a loving and forgiving God do you think that these evil things would exist?

For whatever reason all creations exist as is ….. And have the choice and opportunity to evolve past its “nature”. 

What we currently think is our nature is conditioning. We could be living in caves…. But we have “evolved” to houses. But some how racism and sexism and sexual violence ect is just seems SO FAR past our reachability over the say million years.

It is the same as these Entities. I’ve said this before. If God wanted to wipe out these Entities with the snap of a cosmic finger God could. If they are from the firery pits of hell,. .  .. Then why are they here, or how do they have access to humans? Maybe these were lies we were told. Maybe humans were told this lie to keep them from committing “crimes” or “sin”. Sin is only relative to the human experience. So what laws do “Entities” have to abide by? Cause they seem pretty lawless to me. 

Clearly everything exists with in its nature. And to some extent I have accept that these Entities exist with in their own nature. Not something I personally want to observe. But I am currently forced to watch. I do NOT have to accept them as my own nature unless they choose to actually do so. And that is a major deception that human beings must evolve past. Understanding what is true human nature and what is not. 

I would assume that Entities have the same opportunity to evolve with the limits of “free will”. That is a choice they must make for themselves individually and as a whole.

I have many thieves in my temple. Telling me I’M the thief, when humans are innately self preserving. Whatever it is that they are here for, it is not theirs to have.

Maybe I’m too logical for this world. 

You Are Welcome πŸ™

I was practicing a Chi breathing technique on YouTube that a friend sent to me.

I noticed some blocks and add ons but whatever I always notice.

Either way, it talked about creating chi and then bringing it back into the body.

I rememered a moment when this all first started happening and my chest extending out past my shoulders felt like I was opened up. That’s when I first started to feel like I was dying.

I didn’t feel much in my center now, just this tender heart. I figured the entity took all my chi, that’s why all I can do right now is sleep, eat cookies and cry about the world.

The guy talking in the video said that we are “the most powerful free energy devices on the planet”.

So I immediately told the Entity, “you are welcome….” And I meant it. I wasn’t being sarcastic as usual. It was a gift.

I figured that I gave (well it took) my energy to this Entity. I just don’t know how to reve my chi back up yet……

…… Wonder if instead of scaring the shit out of me, disrespecting me, violating, if other entity beings whatever where to be upfront? Maybe we could live peacefully. 

Entity would be like, “Yo I really need this chi, I will make it quick.”

They won’t and… Maybe can’t tell me who or what they are. Maybe I’m too peace loving and just feel like if we just put the truth out there it would easier for all of us and work something out. 

Who knows, maybe I would be like “sure homie, you can have some of this chi love!” And i would just go wipe some more up later.

I can give with out receiving. But I don’t know I just need a bit of honesty.

Who knows maybe chi doesn’t even exists. Maybe I am pulling this out of my ass. Maybe they don’t need all this brain electric goodness or this golden chi.

All I know is, there has to be a better way.

πŸŒΏπŸŒΉπŸ‘€πŸ‘½πŸ™βœŒπŸŒΉπŸŒΏ

Crazy Talks: What I See πŸ‘€

Just jotting down some notes.

I don’t see this on anyone else but myself.

There are two very distinct things I see other than the visions. I see the these circle dots that can divide into multipuls. And I see this vibrating heat wave looking thing that moves in and out of me. Think like a clear slimmer from ghost busters. 

So I was commenting on a post to a lady that says she can remove implants and the slimmer thing shot out of my stomach and my stomach/ back area vibrated trembled and I could see it moving around outside of me. 

Noe occasionally I during the day will get headaches or I will feel the pressure on my head and I will hear almost like a distant train tremble vibration. I think this vibrating clear thing is the pressure I feel on my head, the anxiety, its like its the ….. Emotion and sensation maker. I don’t know if it is a separate entity or controlled. My guess it is controlled. 

Now the circle dot thing seems to be the visions/ dreams/ hallucinations/ Logo maker. But I’m not sure to what extent it morphs and uses light. If I pinch the corners of my eyes I see a circle of light in each corner. Not sure if this is bad or good. But I’m sure it plays its part. I have literally seen visions (waking dreams) fade away into almost a logo (a simple none color emoji vision), I have also seems dreams fade as well. 

So I see this dot thing that was never there before as the cause of the visions. And this energy slimmer thing as the cause of the sensations I feel. 
After it jumped out of my stomach it went for GUESS WHERE you guys??!?? My VAGINA! Of course! My vagina! I felt it go there after it shot out.

I’m really over this Scooby doo mystery. Seriously. 

The Dream 😱 

So have you ever noticed how dreams don’t make sense?

We try to make sense of them and yes there is “subconscious” material in there but in general we search for meaning.

So as a kid I remember having a dream twice that my mom was a mummy and secret agents where chasing her and I was trying to protect her. It scared me. 

Now as an adult I can see the connections. One my family gave me a bunch of Egyptian books and toys (Lol I thought I was going to be a archeologist but instead ended up being more interested in anthropology) AND two, mommy and mummy are very similar words. It’s really that simple. BUT the fear that was placed in the dream of loosing my mummy was unnecessary cause I would wake up nervous and scared.

There are many other dreams some make less sense. So make more. But all in all in they are pretty random pieces of our day, lives, something someone else said, something we read and we look for the symbology from the pieces we remember. 

To me there seems to be a direct correlation between this experience and dream states. These Entities seem to communicate in visions, symbology, riddles, rhymes, code words, fears or fantasy.

That’s why none of this shit makes sense. In a way I may have added fuel to the fire by being frightened AND by trying to figure it out.

My “seeking” only found more trash online to weave into this trash overlay superimposed dream/illusion story even if I wasn’t totally conscious of it.

The dream, symbology, the fears, the illusion seem to be all a distraction from who or what ever is making these interpretation. Cause it certainly ain’t mine. And it certainly doesn’t make sense.

So its like the dream world, the world of ghost and goblins. The world of nothingness and imagination both co-exist has managed to find its way into my reality. To influence outside of the dream. To direct. Directing my visions of dreams was not enough. These entities needed to move on to bigger and better productions called my life. 

The logic behind the why or how is beyond me. I just keep finding to evolve “what is happening to me”. 

Either way. Just dropping some thoughts here. 

l e v e l s πŸŒΏ

I am currently not on medication. With out medication the Demon Voice Entity HAS gone to a volume of say …… 10-20. The burns on my vagina are now buzzing. There is “progress”, or the illusion of progress.

I know I should be happy. Grateful. But, I’m not. There is no level of this that is acceptable. Zero.

I feel …… Restless. Its like a new level of restless. Usually if I was restless I would go to the gym or ride my bike around for fun. Noe I have to be concerned if I am going to have a stroke, heart attack or panic attack because of this Entity. Panic attacks while working out is just as stressful.

So its a restlessness with no channel. It’s a waiting for an unknown. I know what I want to do… Have to do…. To get healthy (despite the entity), I just can’t seem to lock of the pieces in place. I try though.

I called a few referrals for therapy/psychiatrist and none of them take my insurance. I would rather be under no care than terrible care that only cares about pushing meds. I am/was even willing to try the meds now, since I know that my brain (through testing with weed and over the counter sleeping meds) wave states have a lot to do with how this entity functions.

I said in a forum, that we give these entities more credit than they deserve. They are not intelligent. When I am blacked out and forced to observe these Entity play, there is nothing intelligent about them. For lack of a better way of explaining it….. Its like watching a 2 year old try to explain rocket science. 

Our brain is needed for filtration and rational formation of thought. It is more instinctual than intelligent to attach to a host and use up all its resources than intelligent. It is when we question that the stories evolve, the lies are told to distract us from ever truly understand why or how.

So reasoning with a parasite is pointless.

More so I want to motivate myself to try to get back to a healthy version of me. I don’t know if its because it is a want for me…. And the entity wants to replay that over and over. But either way it is a true desire and I just feel so……. Stuck. Here. Listening to this shit all day. Reduced to eating, shitting, smoking and sleeping all day. To cope. Survive. I hate it. Its not me.

I tried though, meds, docs, check ups, prayers, shamans, healers, waiting…….

I tried. 

“Archon Mind Parasite Self-Defense”

This video is interesting and grounding. 

1. While I truly enjoy understanding the “chakra system”, I believe it is a great way of understanding and bring mindful of the part of our body. I also do not truly believe we have 7 cones of energy. I think it can be a good way to understand organs and parts of the mind by compartmentalizing these idesas but not as an actual system. The concept is fine….. But diving deep into the illusion of being some super human is where we get caught by these Entities. 

We are electromagnetic, this is true. We have metals in our body. But how that actually looks I have no idea. 

2. As stated these beings will pretend to be anything of authority. And will play off of both bad and “positive” emotions or words to control. So it really is a double edge sword. So I have narrowed the single most important thing is ignorance. Lack of awareness will have you pulled in so many different directions. Happy sad angry. So when we are aware that these being are trying implant mistrust or fear anger or even manic happiness we are not in control. 

3. More recently I “saw” visuals that were not visions of “light” that looked like a couple of different things. One looks like maybe 20 circles inside of each other, another like jellyfish lights, others are sparks of “light” or globs of colorful “energy” that looks like its leaving my being . This is false light , this is not real light. It is not coming from the sun, or a lamp. I doubt it is coming from me. But even if this “light” is coming from me, the fact that it is being tampered with to create “light” is still false. So be careful of being lured by “the light”. All that glitters is not gold.

4. Between being in spiritual forums and schizophrenic forums to just everyday interactions it is very easy to see how we are all affected. Its easy to observe.

5. I have no idea how to get rid of these things. Again prior to being “attacked” I was on an organic diet and fairly happy with only a break up that rattled my spirit. However prior to this full fledged experience, I can recall up until the age of 15 where these beings have been around me. Or have acted as “spirits” of loved ones, or “angels” or supposed “spirit guides. Being young, i just accepted it as such cause i didnt know any better. Movies, religion and so on talks about spirits, angels, demons, ect so it is socially acceptable. I moved on with my life. But this ignorance, because no that was not my deceased grandma or grandpa, and no that flash of light was not an angel trying to help you, that ignorance is what comes to haunt me later.  

Don’t get me wrong, that idea of believing in angels or the spirit of our loved ones “being with us”, there is nothing wrong with this idea. If we want to embody the archetype idea of an angel is fine,if we want to comfort ourselves with the idea of our deceased loved ones looking down on us or living on “through us” as a form of ancestry that’s fine. Poetic of sorts. But these ideas can also be manipulated by these beings. In fact anything can if we don’t have our Witt’s about us. 

So again its not a clear cut answer.

Lol but if I find one I will surely let you know. For now I am careful what I believe and keep things simple. Because these parasites are always trying to drag me into a storyline so they can position themselves in a place of power rather than what they really and truly are. 

The Fuckery 😩😩

So this is the type of fuckery I keep getting. 

Prior to this, this person told me I “pissed off the illuniati”, and prior to that said i “was taking night classes in heaven”. 

Another healer told me I “was dealing with guilt and shame of being a healer”, then in the next session said “this is a curse passed down from my father because someone on his side generations back was in a cult”. She also said she removed it. I have yet to see any changes. 

The person above also said they removed “it”. Other readers prior to there told me it was “black magick sent from my ex (twin flame)”, then said it was a negative soul tie with him and he was a false twin flame. 

The demon said to me directly that I was contracted to “commit suicide for my ex (twin flame) by means of child molestation” (visions of child abuse basically trying to force me into suicide). 

SO. This is the type of fuckery I am dealing with. These are the so called healers and psychics are telling me vs what the demon is doing. 

I’m tired and broke. And not one as made this stop.

I’ve been told sooooo many different stories as to WHY this is happening even by the same people, let alone different people. 

I mean these people are over here telling me this story and that story. And I can hear these Demons and they can’t tell me directly but can make up some absurd story to tell a healer, psychic, magic dude, angel light worker, shaman, akashic record reader, demonologist, so THEY can feel complete and accomplished…. Not me.

I’m right here! So what’s the point of telling errybody else different stories?

What’s the fucking point.