East River NYC: Entity in the East River: How I see Entities

So I see entities a number of different ways. One way is in a dream state, the other is vision, which is very similar to recalling in the imagination, but forced in the mind. The next is if they are feeling BOLD it would be considered a hallucination or an apparition. So actually seeing an outline of these Entities just randomly in my living room or bedroom. As a side note they tend to stay in the same thing places. They don’t move a that much unless attached or seen.

Most often I see their watery outline. Or I see a smoke like line move through space. Or sparkles if I am looking it’s way randomly.

Most attribute sparkles to Angels and I have not found this to be the case. I have found this to be entities of whatever sort, connecting to or getting closer to you. That’s how they move. If you see a sparkle I think it’s an entity getting closer to you.

Now another way I see them is through what I call patterning. It’s difficult to explain because I’m still kinda understanding it. But against pattern be it in nature or in this city skyline I can see them as well.

The most recent occurrence would be a perfect example. So I take a cab home usually after taking care of my godson. The Uber goes up the FDR on the East Side of Manhattan. For a couple of weeks I have seen entities “patterned” against the LARGE skyline of Brooklyn but found it to be Queens later. I explain my experience HERE.

Basically I saw the entities face against the sky line and the a blue light dropped out of the sky. It was SUPER ODD! And even the voice/ entity that harassed me said “OH SHIT!” when I saw it. They are dramatic so I take that aspect with a grain of salt. But they looked similar to the entities that where harassing me. I calmly observed. Some nights I saw them in THE SAME AREA, which is where the Pepsi sign is in Queens. Some nights I didn’t but mostly I did.

Now I said since I give no fucks nowadays that I was going to go over there and see what’s going on energetically. And then you know what happened today? Lol they moved to Brooklyn. Lol so I saw the pattering against the night skyline in lower part of the East River.

Are they scared of me going over there? Why move? They act buck wild most days.

I’m not going to chase these demonic alien bobble spiders heads all over NYC but they can kindly get the fuck up out my city and my life.

If anyone does energy work or matrix work definitely check the East River or edges of NYC. HUGE entities over there.

Imma snitch fuck em. 🖕🏽

Update: It near Grand Ferry Park in Brooklyn.

Smothering the Fire 🔥

Dampening of natural god given gifts for inorganic supernatural spiritual phenomenon.

You always had gifts. It is not realized during a “spiritual awakening” it is exchanged for a supernatural experience. And look at the word supernatural. It MEANS it’s not natural it does not occur with in the natural order of things.

I reread an old blog entry where I said I felt like my “spiritual gifts” where taken away. I felt like I descended not ascended. Like it’s difficult to do art when I literally have some Demonic Alien Entity thing on my shoulder that won’t shut the fuck up. It has been difficult to connect with people because of isolation and if I do it’s difficult to do solely from the depths of my heart because I’m constantly distracted because Demonic Alien thing won’t shut the fuck up.

I’ve always been a Logic Intuitive. So I can genuinely say my Intuition is based off of logic, reason, algorithms from information I have gathered over the years. And not a need to control the future but to improve the way I or others make decision based on previous information and hopefully truthful information.

An example would be, my old roommate was thinking about buying a car to “build his credit” 🙄. I was simply talking about how awesome my friends hybrid car was because we drove maybe 4 states away on just $30 of gas. I have no idea if that is normal or not. Anyways as he moved towards buying a car I actually told him I think it’s a bad idea. Cars depreciate and it just seemed like a lot of money. To spend on in the city only to drive on the weekends. He didn’t listen and bought an extremely expensive car. Now we lived in front of a bus stop so he had to park his new car a couple of blocks away. The cars mirror got knocked off by someone. We were fighting and I almost felt like he thought it was me. He also would drive drunk and scraped up the whole side of the car and I begged him to stop driving intoxicated. So he didn’t even have the car for a year, fucked it all types of ways up and I think started defaulting on payments which did the opposite of what he wanted. It wasn’t the best decision financially or for his lifestyle. But Logically and intuitively I told him, not the best decision.

I mean that’s an OKAY example. Maybe not the best but it came to mind.

I mean I also use to read tarot cards. And even my intuition was about storytelling. While these instances were maybe more pulled out of the air than say Logical Intuition, they really weren’t because there was an inquire (question) and a tool and it was my job to just interpret the tool.

I have had many tarot readers not read my cards right. But in the moment for the inquirer it’s comforting.

Now more than ever I NEED real answers and solutions as to why I have this entity attached and how to get rid of it. Not just some 5 card spread about my (fake ass) twin flame lame love story.

A natural gift is talent. It’s ability to take emotional cues, it’s innovation, the ability to sooth or inspire others. I think so many of the Occult, New Ager and even some Christians want super powers. Like they want to be the Last AirBender or a Power Ranger. (Don’t get me wrong I want them too, but what are you collaborating with? And do you REALLY have the discernment to KNOW for sure the difference?)

Idk. I personally found a lot of these supernatural feelings, visions, voices, prophecies, experiences have been Demonic Entities. Not a “spiritual awakening” or ascension or gifts. Idk again I am only limited to my perspective of pure constant spiritual torture.

What is my spiritual “gift” seeing demons? Lol like …………. can I return it?

And seeing these demons have kept me from my friends, career, being healthy, my natural gifts, things I enjoy. Possibly the ability to take care of my family or build my own. LIFE! It’s taken over my life……

Maybe it’s just an assumption but I wouldn’t think a “gift” is not suppose to upheave your whole life and leave you in the wilderness to figure shit out yourself. Cut off the possibility of advancing in life because demonic aliens want to be fucking sadistic pedo rapist.

Yea and it started with, “aww I saw a sparkle that means an angel is with me” NOPE! Mine were positive, love and light too at first and that script got FLIPPED! So I don’t trust any of them, even though I can see them.

They want to tell the future, but I think they create the future with suggestions. To be honest. Even as someone who is tortured I can see how they harm or kill someone.

I mean they want to run every thought aspect of my life. Be it smoking, eating, pooping, sleeping, waking up, being false positive or negative thought. A false positive (to me in these situations are fake positivity only to lead up to a negative which is devastating). So an example would be the Demonic Alien voices say something like “you look pretty today……” this would only be to further humiliate me later when I go to the bathroom and look in the mirror they will say “oh never mind you’re ugly”. Now I have no problem looking at my flaws and maybe correcting them in a balanced way. If my eyebrows are looking a little bushy pluck them. But these Demonic Entities are black and white. Good only to be evil. Either or. They need to make you feel special so they can devastate you. There is no balance with them.

This is not a spiritual gift.

Ascension Symptoms: Flu (New Age lies lol)

So I’m am under the weather. BUT honestly I have been not feeling well this whole time since my attack began in 2016. I’m starting to forget how it feels to feel ….. ok.

I remember one of the New Age lies that was circling around the internet (Facebook) was “ascension flu“. That because you are physically ill you are “shifting energies” some go as far to think they are martyrs for the collective.

This I believe is dangerous misinformation.

“Energy” are Entities. It’s just coded. Energies or Entities are made up of light and are conscious to various degrees. Even “negative energies/entities” are still made up of light. As much as we want to call them dark or because we saw shadow figures….. they all use light!

I have yet to encounter a “good energy/entity” because at the heart of it there is a lie. Be it their actual name, appearance or information they are sharing with an individual.

This is what is dangerous. Even in the most innocent circumstances.

Because these “energy/entities” lie. We are giving them full access to our bodies and minds and calling it “ascension symptoms”. They do not deserve such privilege. And instead of battling them we are playing with them as they deteriorate our spiritual energy and essentially our body which will manifest as “ascension symptom flu” or even worse.

Since I can personally see what most would call energy, but are in fact entities, conscious beings with a face and everything, I can see that most of us are swimming in them. They are everywhere. One little trick I learned from the Targeted Individual community was EMF readers on the phone. So electromagnetic field readers. Most Targeted Individuals who are getting attacked hard physically by what I would say is Entities, but most believe is government satellites to some varying degree, also give off strong EMF readings. Some in the 200s. And that’s usually insane amounts of pain. The body is not suppose to endure more than 50 regularly and even then that’s high.

So since I can see them I would take my EMF reader and test it. And behold usually the spot where I could see them the reading was high. 200+. I was at a park watching my godson and I saw a string of water space “energy/entities” attached to the park bench. So I pulled out my reader and the reading was off the charts. But when I went to an area I didn’t see them or another par of the bench it was not.

So the the point is that these “energies” which are essentially entities (conscious beings), that are made of light, emit their own electromagnetic field (which is not usually that big, but still). That energy/entity effects our body and whatever that entity feels like playing for the day effects our mind. And I stronger feel like their presence in our body breaks down the immune system making us more susceptible to earthly diseases.

These are not toys to be played with.

While I would love to say rebuking them in the name of Jesus has worked for me. I can only say that recognizing the BS has been more helpful. And God gave me the strength and discernment to do so.

Now I am not trying to come down on people for believing whatever. I mean I thought a “Spirit” was my grandpa when I was younger. And who doesn’t want to feel connected to their family members who passed. And I even wondered about aliens and all that stuff. If God made me he could make aliens too no? Most of us wanted or naturally had supernatural experiences. And wanted answers. But it is time to wake up!

These entities are NOT your friend! And if they are acting like it you are paying a price you have no idea about.

By even allow these entities to play, God, Angels, Demons, Starseed Aliens, higher self, twin flame (higher self), relatives that have passed on, gods or goddesses, past life, ANY OF THAT! If we give them the room to play with our Consciousness they will eventually play with our bodies and ultimately our lives, deviating us from our relationship with God , our purpose, and soul of who we are.

You are not here to play these games!!!

I woke up one day recently and I felt this dull brown, quiet and very SAD energy. And I thought I would shake it off at some point but it wasn’t going anywhere and I wasn’t connecting with it as mine for some reason. I was blessed enough to have a great holiday and got to see the people I love and was content. So I actually messaged my friend who is a healer and asked if she had done any work on me, and before she answered back I felt the “energy” leave my body. I told her ops never mind! And she said no she had not done anything.

Now one do you know how much work these entities are doing to just ruin my day? To hold that feeling of sadness for that long to convince me I should be sad is INSANITY. Which is another point.

Y’all playing with shit you can not see. These Entities that you deem as formless energies from the moon cycle or planets aligning, NO BOO BOO, these are whole ecosystems of the “astral” or ethers that they work in. It is in our world operating on its on and with us. And yes you can manipulate or work with this ecosystem which would be called black magic or white magic (light workers).

I am not with it. FUCK ASTRAL WORLD!

Again by playing with these entities we are giving them full access to US.

Ask yourself a question: why do they want to interact with us so badly? So bad they will lie based on your belief system to gain authority.

Y’all really think they are trying to help the planetary evolution? Look at the state of the world! I would strongly disagree. And if you let these entities drive you around and not snap the fuck out of this none sense we ARE DOOMED! You are not ascending anywhere, you are playing games with God know what kind of entity that is harming your body.

That is the real awakening!

Stop playing games with these fucking assholes!

Observations: Eyes Taken in the Astral

An observation that I have noticed is that many times I have had my “eyes taken”.

Often is feels like my eyes will go blurry and then a series of “visions” will come to mind.

For me this is something that the Entities/demons do. They do this especially to twist ideas and distract you or suggest you.

When this first started the Entities kept saying “my eyes are your eyes” and pretended to be someone and something other than the pathetic POS that they are. And then another one would scream “I hope she never has eyes!” They are absolutely insane and I can’t believe is my real life….. 🤷🏻‍♀️

It’s much like when they create dreams. From what I saw in the “astral” if we want to call it that is that they place “black patches” attachments to the eyes and this causes you not to see the actual entities as well. However it also allows them to have control and through these “black energy patches”, for lack of a better word, they also feed visions to us/ me.

When you are working on your “third eye” and focusing on the center of your skull what you are actually doing is blinding yourself to submitting yourself to visions. This visions are created by Entities with etheric light energy. They ARE the light, they use the light to create an illusion. And by you not focusing on what is actually happening in front of your eyes you have submitted to an illusion. If you had a vision and then focused your eyes to what’s going on right in front of you you would see a COMPLETELY different world. It’s not all pretty. It is barren, and full of illusionist trying to get their rocks off.

They are liars. And they assault the mind, body and spirit.

I can’t tell you HOW many people both schiz and not, man or woman, have been sexually assaulted “spiritually” if we want to call it that. I would say Etherically.

Maybe most of them have not had theirs go on for as long as mine. But it has happened there is literally a METOO movement happening in the Ethers.

I know that my opinion will be an unpopular opinion but honestly you are not “activating your third eye” you are blurring your vision with your eyes closed and allowing entities to lie to you RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE!!!! In your eyes! Like they can be big or tiny tiny. And yes we have a pineal gland and maybe that has to do with light receptivity. But either way these Entities are full of 💩💩💩💩💩.

I have mentioned in this blog so many times that on MANY occasions I have looked past the illusion (or one of them). On one occasion I saw the image of a woman in my ” third eye” and something told me to look straight ahead and what I saw the woman then began a praying mantis. And soon as the praying mantis saw that I saw it, it jetted out of my field.

Why you scared?

How does the mantis know I am looking at it straight ahead?

Why are they lying to us?

So many questions!

But honestly I do t even want to write about this stuff anymore. But I feel the need to document it for anyone out there or for the next wave of people. Because the deception is REAL and we are looking like FUCKING IDIOTS!

What I am currently trying to do is strengthen my understanding and relationship with God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. I know I am a sinner. And I can’t not get out of this hell matrix with out Jesus!

The New Age really got me! And I was lead there by the demons that hung around me, I would experience something “super natural” and google it and then some new age site had an explanation. But NO real solution other than “a bright white light around you” 🙄 So you say that the dark is attracted to my light, but then you tell me to rev up my light to repel them? OKie Dokie!! That makes sense! 🤪

Either way, these demons will lead you astray in what ever form! And you will end up in some occult bs with out even knowing. You were groomed since sin, by demons to end up where you are. Where I am sorry. And yet I still have to be accountable for my nativity.

So slowly they will give you these “super natural” experiences ……. grooming you. Making sure your belief is just right. That you are far enough from God to attack! And they will devour. And if your are lucky you will be saved. I have yet to be so lucky. And I am not sure why. But it is something I have to accept in the moment.

These demons what ALL of you. Touching your hands, genitals, I had one kiss me, 🤢 not to mention rape. Like I’m not making this shit up and it’s NOT my mind. I mean there is YouTube video after YouTube video of people saying they have had these experiences. And they DO NOT consider themselves schizophrenics.

Awakening is bullshit, Third eye bullshit, even the “astral” as normally explained …. bullshit, ascension to whatever dimension is bullshit. It is a lie, lie if people who have been lied to and spreading their lie and thinking they are a Guru because they had a DMT trip. Like this is soooo dangerous.

One dude on YouTube was talking about how he has sex in the astral! LOL are you that hard up bro? That you are fucking with astral spiders that are an illusion of some fantasy woman? Get your WHOLE life together! And he thinks he is a Guru of “astral travel”!

Astral travel is bullshit! You are just being given a waking dream by entities. Are being sucked into their ecosystem which is their being which comprised of smaller beings that all make up the worlds in which you think you are traveling in.

They make you feel by attaching to you. I once felt like I was being jerked around in a dream and as I woke up for like maybe 20 mins I still had 2 things attached to my back that were still buzzing. And I literally felt the suction of them releasing from my body.

I’m not going to say I know everything cause I don’t. But I did my research and I surveyed A LOT of people and this shit is BUUUUILLLLL💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩💩!

And we are gladly handing over our soul for apparent ” live and light” and our mission to save Earth! You wanna save earth? You want to “awaken” WAKE UP! Look right in front of you!!! Right in front of you! You are being lied to! But if you want to keep the illusion FINE!!

Shit is scary!! But you don’t want to save the Earth! You want to play fantasy game of “I’m an angel” or “I’m an alien” or ” I was Isis in a past life” simulation game by these matrix entities that is DEMONS! Old fashion ass DEMONS!

WAKE UP! For real this time!!!

Reality Meltdown? 🤷🏻‍♀️

So I am seeing the Entities energy WAY more clearly!

Like I can see how they surround my room. I can see how physical 3D space matters. So like there is a fan in my room and one like hanging over there. I see how they curve or attach to the divider screens in my room. I see how they are connecting around in my room.

So I am seeing them and in this space and it baffles me that others don’t see them, I’m trying to understand. I mean if you don’t know what to look for then I guess yea you just walk around in space not caring about it. But I mean I see them move all the time. And black or white sparkles (now, very few colors). I know they can create illusions with light. I know they wear some sort of cover up.

I’m just wondering how much longer do I have to wait on God and much further will I be abused by these Entities? Like am I going to have a COMPLETE reality melt down? Like just neck deep in the “hallucinations” I’m practically living in it now. They have merged into my world, but I have not into theirs. And be honest I’m really good on that shit. I want to be left the fuck alone. I’m not falling for any of this bullshit with them.

Like after last night being woken up and seeing that shit (previous post) and now just like seeing these misty entities all in my face and shit like I’m fucking over it.

I’m trying to keep my shit together.

Try to actually get my shit together and do something with my life other then watch these fucking rapist demons play in my head and with my body.

Like am I just going to be sitting in THEIR world one day?

Are they waiting for me to preserver to rock the shit out of my world……..AGAIN?

Like I am really done with this lame ass astral game. Seriously.

Like I don’t even know why they even put this etheric black patches over my eyes. Why? It has to be my physical eyes and not my one “third eye” because I saw them do it twice. So I don’t know if I just have good eye sight……or something with my brain allows me to see light differently or different light spectrums. But they are fucking covering/attaching to my eyes. And playing games with that shit.

i am OVER this bullshit.

“The Second Coming of the New Age” by Steven Bancarz

Part 1

Part 2

 

While “Mindfulness Meditation” did help me when I could not stop the voices from speaking a mile a minute. I went from a peaceful mind to full on demonic attack in 2016. Being an “observer” in mind when this happened was positive in the sense that I did not attach to the actual voices. I know what is me and what is not me. I am the one writing to you, occasionally the voices may make a suggestion here or there while I am engaged in my writing to make it seem like they have control, or as they just said “have nothing better to do”. lol yea…..

So Mindfulness Meditation helped (me) in the crisis, and differentiating myself from these Entities that want/ed to pretend to be me or anyone else.

However the New Age really slipped into my life through the internet, facebook.

I mean the first was seeing sparkles through my twenties and some website said it was Angels. and I was like aight cool. Then it was the reoccurring numbers (1111, 777). Then it was a couple of kookie articles about light workers and how we are star seeds and indigos, Then another article popping up on my facebook about twin flame and 1111. Again i read these articles with no particular belief in my heart (other than God), but these seem to have played out. Then the twin flame thing supposedly happened. AND THEN MY WHOLE LIFE TURNED TO SHIT (which is well documented in this blog).

What is interesting is that I actually studied and was deep in Ifa/ Yoruba (Nigeria) religion and its relation to Santeria and Voodoo in the Caribbean for much longer than I did any of this New Age stuff. I studied it in trying to understand my cultural history as a Black (mixed) person in America. And where I come from. But for some reason that never played out. I had 5 year relationship that meant the world to me, and yet my supposed “twin flame” was the 6 month relationship that did not have the same significance in my life other than making me feel insecure.

So why with very little influence or depth in my life was the New Age able to penetrate so deep?

Our culture (American) is definitely moving towards a New Age culture. Steve called it the “Starbucks Yoga” movement. And I will not sit here and say i did not idolize false Idols. I had a little alter to Oshun in my room for YEARS. Other than the sparkles and maybe one bad dream, I NEVER was attacked like this. (I can’t even get into how aliens and reptilians slipped into the whole hot mess!)

But I will say this Ifa, is IFA…… Ifa…. is not mixing and bastardizing the name of Jesus for its own occult practices and lure. To confuse those that are ignorant. To mold Jesus (and any other deity) to fit their agenda. Which I would say is worse because that is just straight blasphemy. I mean light workers… are just …… white witches? No? Be it light or dark magic it is still the same occult coin no? You are still working with the same energy just with different intentions. But these energies which are actual entities and deceitful beings. At one point or another.

Anyway. These videos are pretty good at breaking down some things. (Doesn’t touch on twin flame, or targeted individuals) but, New Age is hella complicated ….. and has you chasing “ascension”….. and deep in my heart i feel like its really not suppose to be this complicated. There is a clarity when you let go the New Age.

Steve mentions that most of us are looking for a relationship with God. And we get lead astray. The relationship is simple. It’s a relationship with God, through Jesus by way or the Holy Spirit. Do you know how sinful and dirty we must be to have to be twice removed from God? His own creation? The ones that chilled in the Garden of Eden with God? The God that only the Holist of Holy men were reserved to have a relationship with and yet God still found a way through his mercy and grace that we may still know him in SOME WAY.

That alone.

Now, i mean my life is nothing but reptilians and big headed aliens torturing me. BUT still to think about that is amazing. I mean even through my studies I was protected. I mean i would really like to stop being molested by these entities, and told the most vile stuff in the universe. But as I said before in another post they are the contrast. I might not have the Holy Spirit, but i know what is doesn’t feel like.

And again, just like all things… even Christianity pose false understandings of Christianity.

I really wish it wasn’t this complicated but it is. Because the enemy (reptilian, alien, demon WHATEVER) is out here trying to get us anyway it can.

It’s sad really.

Either way enjoy.

Why can I see them?

I often wonder why I can see these Entities and others can’t. I mean my friends can see them in EMF photos I take so I’m not TOTALLY crazy.

But I have not showed anyone super close to me the photos for fear of what they will think of me or that it will open them up to these beings. I honestly don’t want anyone to go through this. But if you are already walking on the weird side of life then cool let’s compare notes.

The first time I noticed them I was on the toilet and the voices were just yakity yacking away and I let out a big sign and I saw a clear circle in front of me ripple through air and tiny sparkles. I then focused my eyes on the space in front of me and noticed the circle in front of me. I breathed on it again ….. ripple in space. It’s almost like seeing heat waves off of the hot concrete. Clear but a bit distorted. That was the first time I saw them and how they are set up all around my house. I mean it’s everywhere almost.

From there I saw the dark energy blobs that are basically just another form of the clear circles. They can be either dark, white or clear. Then I started seeing their eyes and they tried to scary me chasing me around the house but I faced them head on. I smacked on with a bible for being near my sister. But I still didn’t see them completely only know that something is there. It wasn’t until I took EMF photos with the “long exp” camera app on iPhone did I actually see more of what they look like and then things started to make sense. Like how they line only my bedroom with smaller Entities. How they are pretty much all over the house. How they stand near the TV and why I would think their voices were coming off the tv. Still not sure how it fully works but seeing them near the TV makes sense I just assume they are connected to me at the same time.

Then I started to see them glow with their full outline seen by my bare eyes. Often when I would see them directly they will turn away. I’m not sure why. They had sunglasses on at some point. So there is something with me looking directly at them that they don’t like.

So what is it about ME that allows me to see them and no one else. Like I have pretty good vision 20/30 I believe. I’ve also slowed down A LOT (I’m usually a really fast paced person) so just slowing down and actually noticing what is in “empty” space could be another reason. They also choose to show themselves to me when they wanted to scare me. And I think it’s funny now. Uhm …. I mean is my pineal gland like super activated? I was trying to turn this thing off…. eating a regular American diet (which I’m more of a vegetarian), I listen to the kardashians all day because of my sister so that’s mind numbing. I just don’t know how. Is there a chemical in my brain that’s allowing me to see them?

What is it? Again this plateau is really frustrating….. I can feel them but can’t touch them. Her them but can’t figure out which one of the many Entities is the one constantly talking to me. I can see them but barely prove it. I mean unless your on the crazy boat like I am your mind won’t wrap around actually seeing this Entities in photos.

Part of me want to try ayahuasca again the first time all I did was poop a lot…. no experience really happened.

It’s like wanting to shake something off that’s stuck to you…. I hate the way my body feels with them. It feels heavy and in pain (severe migraines), or I feel like waves of creepy crawls on my butt, or on my vagina. It’s just sooo weird. What is happening to me? I got all these beings attached to me like a magnet and I have to carry them around. And I just want my body back.

Soon as I get my money flow this fall, I’m doing every possible detox you can think of! Gut detox,parasite,liver and then kidneys, then the gut again and then maybe a heavy metal detox and try to practice raw vegan one month of every season. Even though I got attacked when I was glowing up on my vegan diet I’m going back ……. and if they attack me like they did before then that will just be another data point for me.

I just wish I had someone I could actually talk about this stuff with to better understand. I feel like I have a super power that’s pointless. It’s like ok cool I can see them but I can’t peel them off of me….. so what’s the point?

Will the truth ever be revealed?

Who am I? What Am I?

I spent all morning racking my brain around, WHAT and WHO exactly am I in this “menagerie” of Entities and beings floating around me and my house.

These beings are starting to cover my own face to the point in a EMF photo you can barely see my actual face. (Again if you want to see you can just ask but those particular photos were scary so I won’t post them till I understand them better).

I feel like if you aren’t careful any being will come in and tell you who and what you are, just feeding yet ANOTHER matrix of lies to crawl out of. I don’t mind observing possibilities of truth, but I’m not taking anything for absolute truth just yet.

So you’ve seen it…… the memes that say we “are the light, be the light.”, that we “need to look INSIDE ourselves for the truth” all these riddles when we could just say hey this is what’s up. Either way…… how exactly am I suppose to look at myself physically or with in?

This part is kind of confusing me. I’ve worked on my mental A LOT and my emotional and while I might be 100% compared to where I was 3 years ago I did THE WORK while getting my ass rapped and beat my Entities.

I guess because I was/am assaulted by Entities there is a part of me that wants to just jump out of my body and handle them properly.

But also this all came from realizing how the have high jacked my imagination/ 3rd eye vision and my dreams. I’m my dreams I realized that it wasn’t mean driving or creating the dreams it was them. One of the Entities even was so bold to draw a simple drawing of who he was driving my dream, he was also trying to write but was having difficulty. I was only the observer. But how? Why? Very few of my dreams make sense now. They are mundane or just …. fast pace…. overall weird…. and I dream ALLL THE TIME. So it’s more like a place for them to play or live and act out and less likely my own consciousness. They are looney that is the best way I can describe it.

So as the observer and I can control this body 95% I say that because they can jolt my body and make it shiver, burn, be in pain etc and on rare occasions moved a limb, a toe or a pinkie. They can make me feel but they can not make me move with out a strong suggestion that I agree to. Say going to smoke a cigarette.

But how do I find that light with in? Truly? Not some illusion set up by the Entities.

Why in a photo I can see them but I can’t see myself (spiritually)? Am I locked in this body? Which is fine why is that these other beings can come and go as they please? And hurt my body?

I have so many question? And I again just don’t know where to go for answers. Or if those answers will suffice.

Part of healing to for me is deconstructing how and why we suffer. Critique it, trying to make it better for the next person. I take what I learned in 3D about healing and apply it spiritual. I have the option to wait on Gods grace (and the assumption) do nothing about my situation or I can be an active part in my healing and try to break this shit down not just for me but for others that feel like they are loosing it because of this odd experience.

I doubt any one reads this crap but lol if you have any good books or articles or methods to understand this better let me know.

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Energy Healing & Entity Removal Work

It’s so funny whether i pay or not. Pay a little or a lot. Amateur or seasoned professional. These healers have all gave me an excuse (usually throwing something i told them in my face) as to why their healing session did not get rid of this fucking disgusting voice/ entity like they said it would. No refunds either. Not even a thought or a kind gesture of any kind. I mean regaurdless of my story or belief system, if they have a service they should be able to just pluck that sucka out like the ticks that they are. Right? My whole blog is dedicated to how much i hate this situation and trying to keep whats left of my sanity in tact. And some fake ass healer had nerve to say I have stockholm syndrome and i am in love with the abusive entities. I’m glad everyone out here telling me what I AM including the entities and NOT doing what they need to be doing which leaving (entities) or removing (healers).

It is really disheartening.

So many people willing to call Christianity a con but New Age is a con job too. Maybe even worse as they offer themselves as the alternative to religion with so many paid services. I mean if i cant help someone i would just tell them and tell them why or my limitations ect so they know its not shade.

I know these people arent malicious. And maybe they drink their own kool-aid. But the placebo effect, if you will, is not working on me. I was in a life or death situation with these demons. And all i could really do is hunker down in my bed for a year or two and just take the beating and spiritual, energetic, astral, etheric, cosmic, whatever abuse. For reasons I really don’t know, because these demons lie all day. So idk what the truth is really. And if some “healer” is channeling any information from them they will only be cyphering lies.

This is so frustrating!

I need to talk to management! Shit is out of hand! 😔

Communities I Keep an Eye On 👀

Spiritual Community: This mainly includes: twin flames, 144,000, light workers, kundalini, spiritual awakening, ascension, channeled messages, The Event, 5D, entities attachments and attacks, energy, healing, empaths, occultist/ esoteric. Meditiation, Many different spiritual/religious belief systems in one place. Incubus, spirit husbans, reptilian,archons, matrix, star seeds, ancient cultures,

Alien Encounter Community: understanding acturian, paladian, grey, reptillian, mantis beings. Channeled messages. Earth bound conscious abductions. Star seeds, 5d earth, the event,

Targeted Individuls Community: gang stalking, street theater, mk ultra, v2k, project paper clip, nano technology, chem trails, electronic harrassment and torture, Morgenellas, CERN, EMF radiation, ELF waves, government patents.

Schizophrenic Community: paranoia, delusional states of being (even if you are right), anti-psychotic medications, symptoms mimick that of targeted individuals and spiritually opressed people (or vice versa), being seen as crazy, healing, theraphy, cognative behavioural therapy, transpersonal therapy, carl jung’s shadow work, hearing voices as a large scope of people rather than just schizophrenics (who twnd to have a negative experience). Sub vocal speech article,

Christian Community: Are they voice hearers? Hearing the voice of God? Is it God? The Event? Is the same as the rapture? Armageddon? Understanding demons/spirits through a Christian/ religious lens. Book of Enoch. Keeping/strengening my faith in God through all of this, the 144,000, Jesus, history. Story of Job, of Paul, of, Saul and Jesus all having been taunted by demons and the devil in the bible.

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Most people i have met are stead fast on their path and stick to their path. Thats fine. I found that there are MANY similarities between the the belief systems. And thats just in the 3rd Dimensional world explination.

Could it be that all the alien encounters, hundreds of praised gods and goddesses were just spirits or major demons trying take Gods glory because they simple could? I mean the Entity here with me has NO problem saying they are God and rape me in the next moment. Sick right? That is enough to make anyone to loose faith. Its a win win situation for them. Either they make someone loose faith in the One True God OR they Get some one to believe they ARE God or an authority of sorts.

But that is besides the point. These are the main communities i have studies and i have reached a plateau in my research. I can see them, hear them, feel their gross energy. Ive drawn what i have seen. They conflict with some of my research. And i havent found anyone i can use as a sound board to really confirm much of what i see. But definitely confirmed what we hear and feel. Visions and and hallucinations are a bit different. A vision is in your minds eye. A hallucination is standing in your living room you can walk around it. But they are not 3d theybare more flat 2d line drawings i can walk around.

Anyway the plateau is frustrating. Cause i want to move beyound this or i want it to be over.

Its my anthropological mind that got me here. Im always too curious. Why…. How? Whats the story? I could not accept this as a broken brain. I was hearing words and phrases i never even heard before. I had to google them.

I have heard people who have been cured of their affliction similar to mine to mine through medication, but also though shamic healing, also through prayerand the grace of God, some meditation, so im just wonder IF i will ever find my healing.

I mean being all over the map has both a blessing and a curse. In one way as i research and went to healers who gave me information that conflicted with something in the storyline the demons were creating. First it was telepathy as twin flames with my ex as were supposedly fractions of Isis and Osiris souls. 😔 spare me. Then when i rejected that they went on to say i was being raped and called a child molestor because i was “paying for my father” which was my dad was accused of molesting me which he didnt (i wrote about it many times in this blog you can search it). Then they weree trying to convince me they were God by blacki g me out like 3 or 4 times. Then when i started seeing them and they looked like alien or reptilian or demon trolls heads floating around…. Things got UBER confusing but that didnt stop their torure one bit.

So jumping around helped me understand most of it was bullshit. BUT the path to actual healing looks future away. Or confusing. Amd no salt baths and picturing a bright white light around me did not work.

I was recently told i am one of the 144k and a light worker and i have no idea what that even means. To me i was wouldn’t have have the innate power to blast these things away? Just saying. I just feel like 4 years of my short life has been wasted all to a demon. This is not why i was born. To be raped by demons all day everyday.

Im still pushing through tho. I still wish i had a mentor that could help me ubderstand this stuff. If im going to stuck with them might as welm make them my lab rat expiriments. Since thats what they are doing to me. Fuck em.