Blavk Magick ๐Ÿ”š

I am going to try to be mindful of my thoughts about my ex and other people the Entity tries to pin against me. 

I can’t say I will be super positive but at least neutral or none responsive.

I wonder if the entity wants me to constantly have a negative thought about my ex twin flame as to constantly send him black magic and bad vibes and there is no way to reconcile it with him.

Like with my mom or sister I can get over and hug it out. I don’t have that same luxury with my ex and every memory is twisted into some other meaning.

Generally I forgive him. I’m not really holding any grudges other than having to relive our relationship every second of everyday. I actually don’t blame him for cutting me off. Shit was crazy….  And I didn’t know how crazy shit was actually getting.

So. ๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ™

Thoughts and consumption. I got my work cut out.

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Home girl is getting PLAYED. Why do I have to get raped and tortured when there is perfectly willing people out there?!

That’s what they do with twin flames too to keep you apart. amd you end up going into seperation feeling either heart break or “this amazing connection”. You think its your twin flame but its not its a fucking demon ghost playing your ass out of a relationship that you have the opprotunity in this body to have NOW! She was about to get married! And this demon ghost comes in and ruins that for her and she’s all OK cool. 
Fuck this!

Copy Cat ๐Ÿ™€๐Ÿ™ Smiley Face โ˜บ

Above is a photo from a young girl in my schizophrenia group. We originally started speaking about her hallucinations in the group and she seemed so scared I told her to maybe draw them. To kinda face the fears, showing them she is not afraid. 

At first she was like no, but then some weeks later she started drawing them. And I was really proud of her for facing her fears.

She exolained this one is very different than what she normally sees. And I saw the same one again today as well. 

Some weeks ago my friend “sent me energy” and it looked like smiley face and flowers. I wrote about it in the blog. Her energy was very polite. When she brought her energy back to herself I knew. BUT the demonic energy here tried to copy the look of her energy signature and tried to seem like it was her. But know when it is not. There is always a slight difference from hers. Hers is brighter, faster, and moves. This demons is slow and dull and the smile is different. 

Now this girl drawing a version of the demonic version of this energy that I saw today and its making me upset. 1. Because I pray that its not this demon trying to fuck with her or me. 2. I feel like I should not be around ANYONE like I can’t care about anyone, help anyone with out some bullshit.

They asked me to be a moderator in the schiz group. Cause I give a shit about people and I want people to be OK….. But then things like this just makes me feel like shit.

Spiritual Bypassing Revisited. ๐Ÿ˜ฒ๐Ÿ˜ฒ๐Ÿ˜ฒ

So spiritual bypassing. 

We are basically saying that if you don’t get almost literally spiritually jumped and cosmically punched in the face that you don’t get the badge of honor of being “inept”. To………… What? 

Do y’all see how we are perpetuating abuse even through our spiritual communities. 

We allow these “spirits” entities to cause harm and then run around thinking its an honor….. And we are enlightened. 

GUYS FUCK THAT!

FUCK THAT TODAY AND TOMORROW AND FOREVER FUCK THAT!

Basically you are enabling cosmic spiritual bullying.

And we are suppose to grow from that?!

Think about how fucking backwards that is? 

Its perpetating abuse.

If someone is in an abusive relationship do you tell them to stay in the relationship and forgive them while they are being beat? 

A lot of these people going around talking about accept the dark and light…. And spiritual bypassing never been raped by some random ass entity and then being told to forgive them. Forgiveness is a process. And protecting ones self is the first step. Abuse stopping is the first step. 

And forgiveness is a choice. 

I’ve always been like this. Ever since school. School is forced… Information forced…. Most of its a lie to perpetuate ignorance. Most of its not useful and most what actually learn and find useful is on the job you are forces to engage in to survive. 

Let’s really rethink the spiritual concepts we spew out. All we are doing is excusing entitities, energies, demons, whatever to play a roll in our lives, and there shouldn’t be any. They made their choice. And they keep making their choice the more you allow them to “punish” or abuse us senselessly which only enables their bad behavior.

Its not a badge of honor….. It’s ignorance. 

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Lightened Photo

If I didn’t see this shape drop down in front of my eyes or mark my skin then I would say hey this prolly just a camera glitch.

This is the first time I caught on camera what I was drawing.

No one else is seeing it…  And its clear as day and making me feel crazy. And I thought I was a rational person. 


Photo of what I usually see

Like this is the most obvious photo I have taken. I would zoom in or not have it on a white background or in bright lights so your eyes can adjust. Im trying to look at it now in my bathroom lights and all I see it a black photo. 

If I’m totally bugging let me know. 

The photos of what I drew are here. I have seeming them for 6+ months. I think one or more contribute to the schizophrenia. 



Feeling Anxious ๐Ÿ˜ญ

I feel really anxious today like I want to do something other than lay around the house and practice not talking to demons and regaining my strength. 

I made a whole excel file on detoxing which you will be surprised how insane it is. Very detailed from information from Hulda Clark and Dr. Sebis and this other guy. Its kept me busy …. Like waiting to jump rope…. But not there yet.

I’m bored and in pain and more bored… Headaches out of this world…. Tired of talking to demons. No one really wants to talk to me… Like my sister just zones out. I use to call myself “jiggly puff” from Pokemon cause it was a Pokemon that would sing but the song put people to sleep and then it would get offended and scribble on people’s faces. I just don’t scribble on peoples faces. 

Bla I’m bored, kinda over talking about schizophrenia and suicide…. Archon’s and demons… racism and pedophiles.

Like has been reduced to debating pedophiles, sexual assault and racism with an archon demon while it waits for me to die from cancer or suicide.

I just wanna live life. Like its not like I have that much of it. Shit. I’m just use to working hard and seeing some results…. And I’m not seeing the results. Like yea I’m out of the delusion…  But it doesn’t stop the demon from debating my relationship with my ex. 

Ive thought more about my ex’s (twin flame) life than I was able to think of my own. I mean this demon made me think about his current life, past life, etheric life, future life, non existing life….. Shit cat life…. Twisting 6 months of relationship into a 2.5 year sprawl of fuckery. Like everything thing this man said was twisted in 10 different ways to fit this demons agenda. 

And I don’t know why.

My ex doesn’t give a fuck about me! Like sure he MAY be like “aww sucks!” And move on with his life…. But he doesn’t give a fuck and I am forced to think about him… Pedophiles, incest and racism…. Him AS a pedophile… I was forced to watch in visions from this demon. 

So no one on earth can defeat this demon? 

This demon is that powerful? 

No one?!

Twin Flame Trigger ๐Ÿ”ฅ๐Ÿ”ฅ

everyone wants to be a twin flame expert because it equals money now.

this one guy is out here saying twin flames are the same as the indigenous concept of “two-spirit”. and it’s pissing me off. ย One cause people just can’t seem to stop exploiting indigenous culture for gain and two-spirit is NOT a twin flame.

if you wanna say two spirits are actually living inside of you then SURE let’s say that … shit, i got like at least 3 fucking with me inside.

like, stick to yall new agey twin flame shit and talking about going into union for a decade.

two-spiritย is a third gender recognizing that we hold both “male” and “female” traits and not conforming to gender roles based on sex. Itย has nothing to do with twin flame. Stop dragging indigenousย info into yall bullshit to make it seem all sacred.

tired of these hoes.

I unfollowed a lot of twin flame stuff I don’t watch the updates, now still everyone wants to give their “twin flame union update” every month in spiritual groups so they can catch people they can coach for cash money.

the guy who is saying twin flame and two-spirit is the same thing is the one who told me I’mย NOT a twin flame. charged me $250 to tell me shit and some shit Iย could have gotten off of youtube. And when I told him it didn’t work he said it was my fault and I wasn’t trying enough. The only thing of value I got out of it was him telling me I wasn’t a “twin flame” which is fine cause it was just a demonic archon thing raping me anyway. The entityย fell for it and started acting differently butย that didn’t stopย this demon ….ย just confused him.

ugh I’mย kinda getting sick of it all.

I know I’mย being placed in these places for a reason… but people are really pumping a lot of bullshit to get paid. When we got more work to do other than worrying about when you gonna get to fuck your ex/ twin flame.

you know a little girl hung herself because she was bullied in school. where the FUCK does she get an idea to HANG herself. she was like 5. Fuck these demons and fuck everyone making money off of people telling them lies.

 

On Sadness

In every moment of sadness, another layer of outdated cellular memories leaves your energy field.

As each layer is released through spontaneous expressions of doubt, despair, and disappointment, the world is equally cleansed and released from the spell of unconsciousness.

This may help you understand how there is nothing to fear when sadness is present. If anything, knowing the energetic purpose behind such a misunderstood emotion reminds you to slow down and relax your body, so you may see how an experience of sadness has absolutely nothing to do with the circumstances and outcomes that bring it to the surface.

Sadness is your highest transformation being recognised in progress.

No matter how lonely it may seem or how devastating it can feel, sadness acts as the unsuspecting sign that a new reality has dawned within you. As this is accepted, the consuming nature of sadness transforms into the peaceful resolve of self-realisation

This helps to dispel any myth about the location of awakening that many believe exists somewhere beyond the grip of sadness. Instead, Awakening is the natural recognition of your essential nature that unfolds with ease, once the healing power of sadness has been survived.

This may also help you see how in itsโ€™ purest form, sadness is not the absence of happiness.

Sadness is actually the clean-up crew of the Universe.

One breakdown at a time, it sweeps every distraction out of your energy field, so the happiness that is always here can be revealed.

SOURCE:

Matt Kahn – http://www.truedivinenature.com

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In Universal Service โ–ฒ Keeper of The Diamond Light Codes

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I use to think like this. Its just now. I’m not sad….. I’m torture …. Tormented. I was OK with how I handled my emotions until I was attacked. Tricked. 

Now I don’t know what I am anymore. I’m angry. 

I’m angry I have no idea what’s going on with my body or how to fix it. 

I would fix my problems…… other people’s problems….. Plan of action – execute…. Hope for the best ….. And do decent. 

But this I don’t know what to do anymore. So I’m angry, frustrated from trying to do my best which will never seem like enough and then sad cause its almost like it doesnt matter.

No good deed goes unpunished“.

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