Buzz Head 🐝🐝


 (Original photo done by an artist in my schiz group.)

So I was sleeping and my head kept buzzing. Like a seizure, but then I had to literally peel myself out of a lucid dream.

I kept seeing the image above as I woke up and was still in it. And once I moved physically it stopped. Seizures don’t stop once you move out of the area. It was sleep paralysis on my brain. It’s the same buzzing on my vag.

Seriously what’s the point? And what is different now than it was say two or three years ago?

Why are we generally seeing the same thing? 

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Its real out here in these spiritual streets y’all. They out here playing everyone for a fool. My friend is over here swearing Arch Angel Michael wanted him to join his ranks, mean while demon #blablabla was acting like my dead grandpa, my ex, God….  And I was like yo that gotta be Satan then. 

Like I don’t know God like THAT, Jesus is not my home boy but he is hella cool for trying to wake the people up. But I know this shit right here happening right now and to many people that bullshit ain’t God. NAH.

Either screw this ghost pictionary, astral demonic peekaboo bullshit. 

I’m seeing shit (the clear mist and one large dot) at the head of my families beds and I am PISSED NOW! Like its one thing if they are attacking me. But not my family not my sister who has been through so much and has struggled with health since birth.

We have a SERIOUS problem now.

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I was suggested to take magnesium to help sleep with this schizophrenia. The person suggested that many people who drink a lot end up being magnesium deficient which he believes in can lead to schiz. (That’s a big jump, but I respect the leap). So I thought well alcohol turns into sugar anyway. So I looked up the relation between that. So the magnesium is something I can do and possibly have a doctor prescribe so I don’t have to come out of pocket.

As stated in my blog, I feel like schiz deals many levels of “consciousness”, not the fantasy one like actual levels of awareness like being asleep dreaming lower brain waves or to being on full alertness. Either way sleep is healing. It took an abnormal amount of sleep and rest to heal schiz so far.

Another man in the forum said that when he “started eating healthier that he felt like the voices got worse!” The same happened to me. When my diet was better I also felt attacked the fiercest. So why when we know we are being healthy, getting good sleep, active, in touch with our emotions would we feel like the VOICES are WORSE or we are being attacked?

Why would we be prevented from being our bests selves?

I’m a nerd so I will definitely track results. 🙌

“Archon Mind Parasite Self-Defense”

This video is interesting and grounding. 

1. While I truly enjoy understanding the “chakra system”, I believe it is a great way of understanding and bring mindful of the part of our body. I also do not truly believe we have 7 cones of energy. I think it can be a good way to understand organs and parts of the mind by compartmentalizing these idesas but not as an actual system. The concept is fine….. But diving deep into the illusion of being some super human is where we get caught by these Entities. 

We are electromagnetic, this is true. We have metals in our body. But how that actually looks I have no idea. 

2. As stated these beings will pretend to be anything of authority. And will play off of both bad and “positive” emotions or words to control. So it really is a double edge sword. So I have narrowed the single most important thing is ignorance. Lack of awareness will have you pulled in so many different directions. Happy sad angry. So when we are aware that these being are trying implant mistrust or fear anger or even manic happiness we are not in control. 

3. More recently I “saw” visuals that were not visions of “light” that looked like a couple of different things. One looks like maybe 20 circles inside of each other, another like jellyfish lights, others are sparks of “light” or globs of colorful “energy” that looks like its leaving my being . This is false light , this is not real light. It is not coming from the sun, or a lamp. I doubt it is coming from me. But even if this “light” is coming from me, the fact that it is being tampered with to create “light” is still false. So be careful of being lured by “the light”. All that glitters is not gold.

4. Between being in spiritual forums and schizophrenic forums to just everyday interactions it is very easy to see how we are all affected. Its easy to observe.

5. I have no idea how to get rid of these things. Again prior to being “attacked” I was on an organic diet and fairly happy with only a break up that rattled my spirit. However prior to this full fledged experience, I can recall up until the age of 15 where these beings have been around me. Or have acted as “spirits” of loved ones, or “angels” or supposed “spirit guides. Being young, i just accepted it as such cause i didnt know any better. Movies, religion and so on talks about spirits, angels, demons, ect so it is socially acceptable. I moved on with my life. But this ignorance, because no that was not my deceased grandma or grandpa, and no that flash of light was not an angel trying to help you, that ignorance is what comes to haunt me later.  

Don’t get me wrong, that idea of believing in angels or the spirit of our loved ones “being with us”, there is nothing wrong with this idea. If we want to embody the archetype idea of an angel is fine,if we want to comfort ourselves with the idea of our deceased loved ones looking down on us or living on “through us” as a form of ancestry that’s fine. Poetic of sorts. But these ideas can also be manipulated by these beings. In fact anything can if we don’t have our Witt’s about us. 

So again its not a clear cut answer.

Lol but if I find one I will surely let you know. For now I am careful what I believe and keep things simple. Because these parasites are always trying to drag me into a storyline so they can position themselves in a place of power rather than what they really and truly are. 

Sleep Possession

As I go to sleep now…. Forced or just an attempt….. Something different happens…. And more frequent. 

Its like sleep possession or pre-sleep possession. Because I am in a very relaxed state… Or anytime I find myself just about to go to sleep, it as if the radio is tuned to a loud station of someone talking for maybe 3 seconds, or almost like another “spirit” demon entity thing comes in hells loud.

This happened every so often before but not as often now.

I call this sleep possession, it’s because 

1. usually feels like its been zapped (hearing or feeling it) feels like a crown opening for maybe a brief moment with a lasting after affect or pressure on some area of my head 

2. Its literally like blacking out. Topics that don’t make sense make sense or I have no choice in accepting. I am vulnerable. Think of how you are convince a dream is real. No think of that same feeling with only voices and no visual dream. My personal dreams rarely have full on voices like this.

3. The topics range from cognative to making absolutely NO sense what so ever. At times I wonder if it is my brain or cognative understanding that allows for demons/ entities to feel so human and intelligent. When MY brain is at is lowest fiction state (before going to sleep) is makes less and less sense…. Much like a dream. But we are OK with dreams not making much sense. That’s why we TRY to make sense of them….. When they happen.

4. In this particular state relaxed, low brain wave function the topics vary. Sometimes I will be like ONE prodiminite word that will be loud and clear as my brain is zapped. Say “yin yang” in a females voice. Now if my life wasn’t complete shit show I would hold on to “yin yang” dearly as some mysitical sign. But because this an indicator to the randomness I just have to cope. For now. These black out moments are aften about dominating a brain. Almostly like careless children dangerously playing make believe in your head. The danger being you might belive it….. But mostly that it physically hurts. They also chooses topics that I don’t like, my fears or insulting topics, by the delivery is often not very cognitive.

I am often trying to go to sleep now cause I just don’t wanna come with the yakity yak allllll day…. The constant debating, defending, belittling, treats on my life and disgusting topics. So this time right before sleep becomes an opportunity to attack…. And also almost practice mind control. Will I believe the non-sense that go on about before I sleep? 

No, because I don’t give a fuck.