OK. So I have a Hypothesis:
I was attack viciously each time I began to make strides in my health journey. Usually I lost about a 100lb but I also was super active. During these times I would start my health journey around when I was unemployed (less money for food and transportation) so I would end up walking or biking everywhere and had more time to think about this.
Now this last attack had me floored unable to move from the physical, emotional and mental pain. So in some ways I gave up….. But that’s OK. However now I have two or three huge Archon’s (about the size of my head) comfortably “feeding off of me” one at a time.
So there is something linked to my “health” and them.
If something feels threatened what does it do? It attacks!
It was a perfect storm….. Too perfect! My health was a threat and so it waited for the perfect opportunity to to attack and exploit any emotional or physical pain I may have had/have.
Does being phsycially active drain them of opprotunity to steal your energy because in a sense you are using your own towards your wellness?
My only concern if for people who are not well and how this plays out for people who are unable to be active, then what?
I am sure many of you ARE in fact active but yet were still attacked. So I can’t conclude to anything just yet.
I can’t explain to you HOW aggressive this attack was. Like literally being in the pit of hell 24/7. Since it has mellowed out. The voice of the Archon does not me feel like my brain is about to explode, but I have also refused (protested in my body) to do much other than sit an observe these Archons for a year now making it extremely comfortable with in this cute chubby body.
Its like constantly being thrown off course each time worse than before each time you make major strides.
Meditation was good for learning to observe and discern what was me and what is NOT me.
Yoga, messages, stretching, were all good in learning how to literally release energy in places you never paid attention to.
Prayer, faith in God gave me hope that some day I, we all will be free.
And Bruja, “white magic”, kitchen witchery, ancestory taught me the herbs, foods and intention of love that will heal/ clean the body and personal space.
I just can’t seem to get all my gears going again cause these Archon’s are off the hook with attacking me anytime I make any strides. That’s why I just choose to sit here like a monk and not do anything.
As much I want a reflection of love in my life, in a way I feel …… Diseased, dirty …. Even though I know we all have one. I guess that is real love, recognizing each other disease (archon) and vunerablity and healing that for each other in stead of exploiting the pain. That is a true power that very few can wield.
I just don’t know why I can’t seem to do that myself. Alone. To banish these demons from every cell in my body.
There has to be an answer, a way, a key, a perminate solution.