YouTube Testimony: How New Age Destroyed My Life

Jesus and Horus Born on December 25th

I see a lot of people trying to draw ANY similarity between Jesus and other Deities. I saw this Gif Meme that was drawing the same birthdays as December 25th for Jesus, Osiris, Horus, Buddha. Which doesn’t even make sense.

Osiris is said to be August 24, Buddha between April and May,

The only references as being born to a “virgin mother” on December 25 is Horus Dionysus but again I feel like this is a stretch.

Like the first story I heard of Isis was that she found Osiris phallus and used it to produce Horus. Now more and more information is being written to paint her as the original Mother Mary. Which is kind of annoying. But ok.

I honestly feel like this is almost like Santeria/ Catholicism and how Ifa/ Yoruba religion was merged and hidden behind Christianity to preserve the knowledge and practice is their Gods. For instance The Virgin Mary (Christianity) is associated with Yemya (Yoruba) in Santería because Yemya is the Mother if All.

So why is Isis so important in America?

So for me all these associations are very similar to this act of merging their “pagan” Gods or culture with Christianity to preserve there culture in some way. While I can understand this act. Especially under the violent use of Christianity as a tool and or reason to enter into countries and colonize them.

I find it to be REALLY problematic in the most recent efforts of the New Age to appear woke.

I wonder if New Agers realize they are tools of the New World Order?

Meh that’s another post.

The most recent efforts of the New Age is to merge all deities with Jesus or “Christ Consciousness” is problematic because they are just ripping parts of religions they find cool or pretty or similar and remixing it for their benefit/profit. Basically colonizing religion/belief systems.

Shit is really getting on my nerves.

The other problem with this merge that is happening is that you erase the truth of that particular religion, belief system. Those Gods, and information is then lost. Whatever history, dates, information, ideas and concepts from ancient times are again lost when you do this gaslighty merge of belief systems. I’m a preservationists even though I am a pseudo Christian.

I grew up understanding that we did not know the exact birth of Jesus but we celebrated in this time because that is around the time the Star of Bethlehem would be have been in the sky. But it could have been done to preserve pagan feast days/solstices. I read that Jesus could have been born in January as well. That is known as the “Old Christmas Day”.

Either way.

All these merges and misinformation is disrespectful to other belief systems and dangerous spiritually in this instance.

Anti-semitism and Conspiracy Theory

While i am wading through “spiritual information” or opinions and “conspiracy theories” i have found language like “The Jews” used and honestly its turning me off.

While i don’t agree with the mass genocide that is happening in Palistine, I am not at the same time going to discriminate against a whole people as if that represents everyone. In fact most of the jewish people i know are against what is happening in Palestine. But when i read/ watch information on say the Cabal or Hollywood ect people seem to kind of reduce these groups of people down to their race or heritage as if that is the whole people. And i must stand firm in my beliefs to respect all people as i run into this information or sentiments.

Wrapping this information (be it true or not) is dangerous as it is easy to brainwash people into feeling a particular way about a whole group of people and practice anti-semitism under the guise of conspiracy theory.

And these are white men doing this i noticed the most. And there is a tone about it that i don’t like. I am just trying to stay on top of the bullshit, and their is a lot of bullshit out there masked as information.

Not sure if others have felt this way about the conspiracy theory community. But im sensative and want to make sure my intentions are pure.

The New Age is simple works of the New World Cabal

Seven details from around the marker 20:00 to 40:00 how the New Age movent is actually infiltrated by the cabal that everyone thinks theybare fighting against. Its just another mass hoarding of people to control mass consciousness and ultimately beliefs and choices.

I figured this out when i came to the New Age movement when i was trying to find community and answers as to WHY i was being spiritually attacked. I was told to take a salt bath and picture white light. I was told i was “of the dark” and “lower vibrations” when i said this wmdidnt work. I first saw that many didnt want to talk about politics that effected many marginalized ccommunities because many didnt want their real belief systems which they had not unpacked to be out in the open. And an unwillingness to critique appropriation with in the New Age. But as of late seeing the New Age community infiltrated with white nationalist tones and the audacity to pin Trump as a whistle blower and not the pedo racist troll that he is did i really have my last straw with the New Age community.

Many might now have their eyes open as to how they are being brainwashed, but that shit doeant work on me. I try to maintain a balanced view as much as possible while wading through social politics and spiritual concepts. But I as i have stated before in my blog im starting to feel real lonely as i see the ways in which mass consciousness is being manipulated. It is both a logical and intuitive look at our culture. At times it atarts as an intutive feeling and then a logical computing of many occurances, but again i often feel alone in my sentiments. It was refreshing to have seven echoe some of what i have been feeling about the New Age but did not have the language or knowlege to really speak about it from an informed place.

Maybe that is why i am a targeted individual, the demonic voices said “pick something anything!” Because i was looking at this experience of being spiritually attacked from many cultural perspective, but i didnt lock into one mode of belief system and they needed that in order to find the ways in which they would torture me. First they tortured me through the New Age Twin Flame then is was Christian Hell matrix on earth. So they switched it up real quick.

I will keep observing the bullshit and trying to bring light to it.

Watch the clip its only 20 minutes.

So I am just out here with my faith, my experience, a bit of resentment and no where to go.

Just out here seeking actual truth.

Is the concept of “Divine Feminine” just a part of new age “Respectability Politics”?

Honestly everyone has this very Puritain Christian idea of what the Divine Feminine is …… that we sit her and purge (receive and suffer) for the divine male counterpart. I feel like this feeds into the idea that woman must suffer in order to be loved & respected by their male counterpart as ultimately God.

Many of the goddesses and archetypes that don’t fit into the “Divine Feminine” story being pushed are often women who went against the grain, had more than one lover, the idea of the “harlot” as if the “harlot” is not divine or respectable.

Again another way in which New Age is mimicking much of the remixed Christian views with a Guru model.

Decolonizing Socio Political Spirituality

“The personal is political, the political is personal”

As i wade through the “spiritual” community i have tried to keep an open mind that other wont share the same views or experience as mine. That i was entering a vast arena with people from all backgrounds but our main common thread is spiritual growth.

And while i have been able to keep my cool in most discourse as they crop up, i have found myself feeling more and more isolated from the “spiritual community” due to socio political differences or ignorance.

One of the main and most recent happenings that has boggled my mind is this exaltation of Trump as a “whistle blower on the Illuminati” or elite pedos….. in the spiritual community, which i am still trying to figure out HOW. It is absolutely ridiculous. Anyone who supports Trump supports poor moral judgement and dare i say white supremacy. While many feel that it is freedom speech, this human has gone on to make fun of the Disabled, Women, Native Americans (calling warren pocohantas), and people of color openly at his rallies. I see him more as a bully than i have seen any other president in my life. But more so, it is his history and policies that scare me the most as he creeps into the “spiritual community” as some savior, which is clearly a tactic by conservatives.

Let us not forget that his father was associated with KKK in a riot that broke out in Jamaica Queens in 1927. Also in 1989 Trump took out an $85,000 Ad calling for the death penalty following the Central Park 5 case in which 5 young black and latino boys where forced into admitting a rape they never committed. But in April of 2016 Trump was also brought child sex allegations that fell on deaf ears and who later retracted her case because there were severe threats on her life. Now three years later there are “spiritual” and conspiracy blogs trying to paint Trump as a whistle blower on the elite pedophiles. I am really confused. To me if he is blowing any whistles it is only to save his own ass and to separate himself from Epsteine who he was close friends with.

However Trumps administrations handling of immigrants here in America is deplorable alone. Children in cages, loosing 1,500 children, Over 4,000 children reported being sexually assaulted in the ICE detention camps and the round up of ALL undocumented immigrants which apparently began Sunday and will create fear with in many communities. If the administration did not have the infrastructure to properly handle immigration in such “a hands on” manner, they should not have separated children from their families until there was structure and employees in place to handle immigration at this magnitude. This isn’t about being a democrat and republican to me. This is about what is right….. and how things have been handled has not aired on the side of right TO ME.

I just watched an ICE rally and all of the Trump supporters trolled the comments echoing Trumps statements and telling people to “Go Home” “If you don’t like it here leave” …….. Why if i don’t agree with a policy my only option is to leave my country of origin? Is that not what democracy is about? Trump knows exactly what he is doing! Trump has not empowered the American people but has debased them to their lowest selves and lowest common denominator ….. Hate and fear. The racists are prompted by the trigger words that Trump uses. It’s like a tick in their brains. They are like small children repeating what they hear. They have no real analysis on the issues, just racist rhetoric and trigger words spewed by Trump. It almost makes me want to cry to see what we have been reduced to because the president has set the standard of our country.

It actually breaks my heart to see racist belligerently yelling at immigrants and people of color and telling them to go back to where they came from. Because from a spiritual perspective these individuals are not acting as their best and highest selves. They have demons inside of them that hates …. And they are feeding them fully with in this administrative term.

Moving along from Trump cause honestly i could go all day. Another big issue that i have seen in the spiritual community is blatant Homophobia and Transphobia. I all too often had to swallow my pride reading some of the homophobia that is circulated on facebook. I am not going to battle every single homophobe, i don’t have that type of energy to waste however i will unfollow, not support, and move on with my life. I had a few “spiritual” friends who would post anti-lgbt misinformation. Like one video where they were connecting LGBT to pedos (which is what they have always done as a fear tactic) because one school wanted to teach LGBT history in it’s curriculum . LGBT people are not pedos, that is like saying all LGBT are rapists. Pedos are rapists of children, it is not a sexual orientation between two contenting adults. Thats one and two, many carry their conservative Christian beliefs around sex, gender and orientation and some how wrap it in New Age language further isolating those who do not identify as cis heterosexual people. It wasn’t until i watched this video on Higher Self (a spiritual youtube channel), did i have enough. That particular channels is suppose to be talking about aliens and spirits and energy updates and for whatever reason they allowed this 30 minute rants about how transgender isn’t a real thing and they are just confused people.

What people don’t understand is that they have the privilege of not having to think twice about post like these. It does not hurt them or their immediate communities. However these sentiments being spewed on whatever forum or platform is the same sentiments that allowed for 1 trans person killed per day in 2017. If you are spewing this type of hatred then you are a part of the problem and are co-conspirators in the death of innocent trans peoples lives. It is really that simple.

I am already exhausted.

I think the one major issue that no one really wants to touch, is race here in America. All too often any time a major racial charged conflict come to light in America, I hear the spiritual conspiracy theorist start talking about “false flags” and all this nonsense. No one wants to claim their ancestors deeds and no one wants to claim their privilege that they benefit from and that is one the major reckonings here in America. Any time someone starts talking about race some spiritual person comes in and starts talking about how “oh this is a false race war being created” or “people need to stop being victims” “slavery is over, I’m not a slave owner” “that is “reverse racism”” these are just SOME of the nonsense i hear and commentary used to silence black and brown people from analyzing in public forums and speaking out about the pain of their experience here in America.

Slavery and soon to be the policies around the prison industrial complex is a major demon that ALL of America has to face. People want to look to the future but don’t want to see all the ways in which our present is being shaped by our past. Much of the prison system is a form a modern day slavery, and we know for a fact the black and brown people are arrested and sentenced at a disproportionate rate. We have in NYC policies like the “Stop and Frisk” in which officers where told to racially profile in specific black and brown neighborhoods to meet daily quotas. This is just one example of the many ways in which black and brown people experience real racism and systemic racism here in America. This isn’t made up, a false flag, someone just trying to play victim. Communities of color face many forms of police brutality (which stems from the civil rights era when the police would use excessive force like water hoses and dogs) and you want to say “All lives matter”, but never show up when its an innocent black person dead at the hands of the cops. And when Black Lives Matter was created, it was created to say STOP KILLING US! But for some reason BML became a threat because their platform was so vast and gained support of celebrities and politicians alike. Now the racists or covert racists want to believe that the Democratic party is garnering hatred for cis white heterosexual males, instead of understanding it an an analysis of their history of violence here in America (world?).

The fact that most “spiritual” people don’t have to, or choose not to think about these things is a privilege. Their communities aren’t being devastated. Their people aren’t being harassed or murdered by hatred. And I think about this every day. The lives that were lost for merely existing. If your spirituality excludes actual history and analysis and includes hatred or blissful ignorance, count me the fuck out. And that is what privilege is. It is not your experience, it is not in your face everyday so you don’t have think about it everyday, you just benefit from the fact that these isms exist. Everything is catered to you. You don’t have to carve space out in a the “spiritual” community, or defend vulnerable/ marginalized communities that are suffering at the hands of racism, homophobia, xenophobia and ablism on a daily basis.

And what kills me is that our history has been sooooo white washed that Jesus and Nefertiti who are of African blood are apparently white now. Much of the spiritual community gets to pick and choose what they like from other ethnic groups while not really giving a fuck about that particular community. Spiritual appropriation is a real thing. And honestly I believe we need to Decolonize Spirituality.

What does Decolonizing Spirituality look like?

Glad you asked! An understanding and appreciation for indigenous people culture and healing practices with out using the Wellness Guru Model to profit off of it for white consumption.

Decolonize “Inspirational Meme Culture” which makes me want to vomit a little bit, understanding that putting some “inspirational quote” next to a half naked white woman in a traditional Native American head dress in some forest IS NOT SPIRITUAL. Not because she is half naked but because that quote and that image are two very separate things. The image is one of appropriation, and is disrespectful to indigenous culture.

If you want to act like you care about black and brown people supporting environmental factors that effect black and brown people…… i don’t know say something as simple as WATER. We can all agree that water is a basic human right, right?

Creating new healing modalities that address racism, sexism, homophobia, xenophobia and ableism with in the spiritual communities. Anti-racism work IS apart of healing, for all of us. Understanding the ways in which we perpetuate racism, sexism, homophobia, xenophobia and ableism and ways we can dismantle that, is in fact spiritual growth. The longer we allow it to fester, too afraid to touch it because we think love and light is enough, the bigger of a monster we will have to defeat, and the beast is pretty damn big already.

We need to embody our highest selves and fighting for the liberation and rights of all people is in fact a spiritual process. Caring for the safety regardless of sex, gender, race, orientation or creed of all people is the highest form of empathy. Unless we can do this, look outside of our own experience, then love nor light will help us and the evil ones will prevail in keeping us divided.

We are here to brake the chains of for ancestors and at the same time create a BETTER world for the future generations. If we simply think that love and light (thoughts and prayers) will save us and not deep analysis along with structural change we will never meet the healing that is waiting for us as a generation.

New Age: Channeled Messages 👽

So before i go into this topic i wanted to make a note that last night i was sleeping and these demon assholes woke me up at 5am shouting and screaming in almost a helium voice. And then i wake up and i felt a humming vibration leave my body specifically my head and move to the left of me on my bed.

I could see the energy swirling in the air and a shadow on the surface of my bed. I saw it moving around back and forth like a tornado standing still……My sheets started moving like there was actual pressure on the sheets. While i was frighten at first cause i just woke up i as always exchange my FEAR for CURIOSITY. I watched it for a little while to make sure i was seeing what i was seeing. And then i just said “you guys are assholes……” (for waking me up at 5am) and went to the bathroom.

So they make it so hard to sleep at night for some reason. Also as a note my eyes are very tender today. The vibration feeling was at other spots of my body as well. And i figured this is how they make dreams feel so real sometimes. But maybe im wrong. Not sure totally the purpose of vibration energy. Anyways just making a note.

CHANNELED MESSAGES

So in the New Age community there are a lot of Channelers. Or people encouraging others to be “clairaudiant” or clairsentient ect. Which basically means you can sense or communicate with non sentient beings…. energy …. whatever.

There are some that listen and relay the message and there are people who allow the beings to speak through them.

Sigh. Yall!

Like first of all most of these people have no idea who or what they are talking to. Very few of us can see these beings fully. Only in part. Like you may only see the light magic illusion/vision they show you but not their true for walking the earth. Or you might see just the energy clouds of their being with your two eyes but not the actual form. The demon/aliens that I SEE…. LOVE to “play”. This can be in our waking life or dreams. They love to take on different personalities (real or made up). And they are able to do so THROUGH US. If they dont have a conduit to an audience, does it really matter? A bald headed casper the ghost looking alien was pretending to be telepathy with my ex in the begining. Even sounded like him too. But it wasnt my ex, it was and entity of sorts probably with a costume on. (YEA I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CRAZY!). But i have seen them use masks and like put coverings on. I honestly can’t even make this stuff up. Its not even what i want to bring into the world. Tbh.

Like y’all out here channeling and allowing just any ol’ entities to speak through you? They are PLAYING YOU! It is not some someones grandma or paladian alien or arch angel ect! Like get your shit together! You are renting out your body part time to a being you have no idea what it is or its true intention. Do you have sex with just anyone? And even if you did have sex with someone that is appealing (in one way or another) ….. What is to say they are not lying to you just to have sex with you?

That is what you are doing with these beings. Renting out your body to unknown beings. While these beings may enter my body …… I DO NOT CONSENT! So essentially they are rapists and trespassers. Who is to say they will not feel entitled to your body at some point? And just start taking you over and blacking you out when ever?

I mean i first thought it was a spirit or an angel (oooo pretty sparkles)…. Then telepathy with my ex….. Then reptillian and mantis aliens….. Then just old fashion demons….. Want to know why? Because no matter WHAT the situation was……… There was a LIE in there. They were lying about SOMETHING. And that takes time, observation and discernment to really see.

Like im not really trying to play with these beings. They hurt physically. Even when they try to give “pleasure” with soft touches or air lightly blowing or even forced orgasm….. It’s creepy AF.

One of the first times i encountered a “spirit” it pretended to be Zora Neal Hurston (who i adore) as my school project was on her life and legacy. And i wrote a piece about how she came to me in spirit during my studies. DO YOU KNOW Alice Walker wrote a short story “The Ghost of Zora Neal Hurston”. I found out because my professor asked if i had read anything by Alice Walker. I said No. And found out the Walker wrote a story similar to mine. So these demon alien assholes were out here trying to make it look like i was plagiarizing! Which could have got me licked out of school. ASSHOLES! It took me reviewing my life to see where they played me like this.

Im sorry but yall are getting played and spreading the SAME STUPID MESSAGE EVERY SINGLE TIME! EVERY TIME! from different channelers too! “The shift is happening” “ascension is on its way” “twin flames unite next month!” “New energies are on its way”. You all should be ASHAMED of yourselves for what you are doing to the public to get a buck or attention. Same messages since like 2011!

Yall are playing with/getting played by DEMONS. And misinformating the public at the same time which is opening more people to getting played and getting attacked and keeping them from God!. Thats an awakening right there!

Smh. So done with the shit!

Love and light! 🙏💩

Sister Outsider 👽

I was raised Christian …… While i still hold some beliefs and belief in God and Jesus….. i dont feel like i fit in with Christians though. Be honest a large part of it is my love for the LGBT community and my distaste for the pedos that get away with hurting children by the thousands with in religion.

And while i looked to spirituality as way to grow my personal relationship with God and grapple with some difficult questions i have about the world …… The New Age slipped in to all media formats under the guise of spirituality and i thought there would be answers there, but it is nothing but lies and delusions and people trying to grow thrir spiritual business as well (?!?!?). While i can understand the mode or intent in healing, i can not agree with the actual information being disseminated most of the time.

I tried to fit in with the schiz community and its all good at least people are a bit more open but also super wounded and trying to heal. But many believe its a “broken brain”….. Struggling to find the right pill to make it go away. And i gave up on the pills. And the medications are known to cause other diseases and take 10 years off your life.

But the Targeted Individuals are an angry bunch and i have a hard time trying have a coversation with them about anything outside of goverment technology. They are pretty set in their beliefs.

I’m mean i use to be super active in the LGBT community and even though the queer indentity will always be apart of me ……. Im just not as involved in the LGBT community as i was. But i love and reapect my friends and the struggle. But i just dont feel like i fit in there anymore either.

I just dont know where i fit in or any one set of beliefs i feel strongly about anymore. I dont feel like i can belong any place but i can respect most walks of life.

I got close friends here and there. They believe their own things too. But i guess i feel super alone in my belief systems right now.

I guess its my anthropology background that makes me want to listen to others beliefs and personal stories while respecting their experience and not forcing my own views on them. Just a culture of sharing. Sometimes i feel like there are a lot of beliefs forced on me and wading through the already thick waters is getting tiresome and i am almost over having and opinion at all…… But at the same time enraged that the saftey of my people are at risk everyday. In someway shape or form.

Sigh. Womp.