Taregted Individuals: NLP: Nueral Linguistic Programming

I wonder if this is how the voices create out comes in my life. I mean most of it is outter manifestations of THEIR words and not mine. I mean they call me a child molester all day and im not one. But the way they have foretold the future a bunch of times im still wondering if they foretell or create it. But how?

When this first started. The voices started calling me “honey tree” i searched the internet trying firgure out what it could mean. The symbolism around it. I found an actual honey tree which was thorny. And a bunch of daycares called honey tree. And something about Jesus. I wrote a blog post on my Tumblr about it. And the voices sounded like my co-workers were hacking my brain to find out the name of my blog so they could read it. And i quickly deleted the whole blog! 😐 then less then a week later my ex (false twin flame) (months after we broke up) sent me a message with a link to a song by a band called the HoneyTrees. 😮 But i had deleted my blog and the only proof i had that i hard heard his voice and the Honey Trees prior to him sending it to me.

Again 6 months after we had been broken up i was talking to a guy friend online and he was kind of making fun of my ex sayung he didnt do much for me. And then i heard my ex’s voice tell me “get off the phone NOW”. I didn’t and then he calls me a moment later. You can only imagine how scared i was. The voices were making him out to be almost abusive. I mean he was a player and a jerk. But abusive was a whole other level.

They later foretold my Ex (false twin flame) getting married, having a son and moving to Jersey 3 years ago. The voices knew i wanted a baby. But it was something i never really discussed with my ex because he said he didnt want any. So far all i know is that he had a son a year ago with a beautiful woman. I didnt believe it till i saw the baby registry with his name. Even the shock wasnt that of the heart but that these voice told me this years prior.

Then the voices said they are “waiting for the shoe to drop”….. And “great day!” Which was a catch phrase my grandmother used. Basically telling me that my grandmother was going to pass. Again i didnt believe them. I didnt want to even though she was 97 years old. But she did pass after going into the hospital. They were making fun of it to make me upset.

Then they said they were “waiting for the other shoe to drop!” And “have mercy” as code for my mother, that was a phrase she used a lot too. Then two weeks or so after my grandmother passed my mother had a heart attack. Then a few months later a stroke.

This was all the while ” schizophrenia” just started in 2016. Even the times i myself had “predicted the future” it was mainly from a logical stand point.

Then the voices didnt want me dating the last guy i was with and would make fun of him and his penis to try to make me feel some sort of way about him. I enjoyed him and size never really mattered just that we both cared about each other. Then about 3 weeks into dating he started hearing voices. He said he heard his name called multiple times and no one was there. And then the week after i never heard from him again. While it may be a long shot….. But i mean since he started hearing them they could have easily influenced him with out him being totally aware. Because i didnt listen and leave him like they wanted.

Then we get to my best friend. When i first went to her home i did not see the entities as much but i still heard them. Then over time i started to see them on the windows and corners of the home and over the bed. They said they wanted to get me out of her house (just like they wanted to do at my parents) and said they “need to get her (my friend) a man” “play” this was week or so prior to her meeting her current boyfriend. Prior she was complaining about how she was going to be alone forever. I ignored them saying she was going to get a “man play”. But it happened. Spending time at her house was my quiet time and then i would take care of my godson. But they dont want me to build myself up. Or peace and quiet. Or to be around friends. Just isolated alone getting tortured raped molested electrocuted.

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So in a way these demons are foretelling my life or the lives around me or creating it. Im not sure if they are using NLP to influence my life or if that us even a real thing in this case. I try to stay as positive as possible believe it or not.

I have however used my logical mind to peel away what didnt make sense. The voices were trying to make it seem as though both my ex (false twin flame) AND my coworkers were energetically gang stalking me. They wanted me to freak out on them but i kept my cool for the most part. My coworker just said i left in a strange way. And i sent a pretty strange email to my ex (with out too much detail) as a plea for him to stop torturing in the spirit realm. I blocked him because i didnt want to read a reply i didnt want my body to shiver or convulse or my mind to race, to have his words twisted into something completely different by the demons.

I just wanted it to stop.

No matter how positive or better than positive ….. Truthful i am ….. These demons remain. I try to peel back as much of the beliefs and layers as possible. I try to stop the stories being created in my head as soon as they form. But they remain and harrass and torture me.

Can i change my destiny? I feel like these demons are controlling it in one way or another despite my best efforts.

I’ve given up so much.

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Targeted Individuals: Demon vs Alien (what i see) 😮

Soooooo………. Some days i am super confused as to what this expierence might actually be. Of course i lean towards my narrow understanding of the world and religion but im trying to keep a bit of an open mind. Being fooled so many times by thes being.

Now i have been observing the beings that i see over the course of maybe 2 years. I can only see them in part with my naked eyes most times. So i might see their dark/or misty white energy cluster hanging around the house most days. A few times i have woken up suddenly as saw them floating around in their full outline. This confirmed what i saw in photos.

One entity can make or project itself to look as big(ger) as a human or as small as a pin hole (can go into your eyes). I have notice that the smaller they are they can emanate light of sorts. Large projections tend to have deep black outlines not using light.

So i can see some stuff with my eyes. But not a lot and not for long enough to study. I took photos of them and studied them for a long time. Many of the entities (i am referring to them as entities for sake of argument) have a few different looks. It took a while to sort them out in photos because they can look all meshed together.

The “entity” actually said to many way too many times “my eyes are your eyes” meaning my eyes were the entities eyes (they like opposites to confuse people) and it had also said to me “i hope you never have eyes” my assumption is eyes to see them….. Which i now do, which they probably wanted so they can scare me, again working in opposites.

Now there are a few different types of eneties i have seen. One was a praying mantis. Another is a snake looking head with a circle around it with many other smaller skulls or snake heads around it. Another is a small troll looking one that kind of looks like a teddy bear with a droopy top lip (still havent figured out these ones), some look reptillian or snake like heads. A casper baby ghost looking one (the worse one tbh). A shapeshifter that shifts like a flip book. Long snake or parasite looking ones. Traditional alien looking ones. Funny enough they can “fly” or hover, looks almost like swimming or hurling themselves through space. But i have not seen any wings on any of them. Those are the major ones. You can also gonthrough my mefia gallery for some of my drawings.

Now at one point i was like WTF is this Mars Attack? You know when they only had heads running around. Anyway. WHAT I SEE ….. LOOKS very alien to be honest. The eyes are big. There isn’t a bunch of detail to them unless they use the “light magic” to create the illusion of something else (like a womans face) other wise their details are minimal. ALSO they are mostly just heads. I have rarely seen a full “body” of sorts. Now under this body many time i have seen what looks like a tripod “legs” or chicken feet or almost mantis legs.

A rabbi on youtube explains in a Kabbalah Series: Angels and Demons at the 20:00 mark he explains what the Khabalah says demons look like. To my surpise this is what i saw mostly saw if i didnt just see a head.

What also i saw was that they spew this flower looking tongue (or thing) to move or attach to people. Im not sure what to call it but i see them all over photos. Flower shapes with a line i cab follow back to an entity.

With my bare eyes if i look in the direction of a entity many times i will see flashes of light or tiny sparkles being spewed at me. Before i was viciously attacked i saw these and thought they were angels. “If you see sparkles it means your angels are around”. Actually this an entity moving closer to your field. I am not sure if they are actual energy attacks or smaller little copies of themselves. Its my belief it is the later.

Also if they are attached to me or if I put an EMF app reader next to a stagnant energy blob the reading goes up. This means they emanate EMF radiation, which means they use and solidified my assumption they use or are made of light.

So are the demons or aliens? Are aliens what we think demons are? Are demons pretending to be aliens to get us confused?

For the most part they i believe they are demons i mean they definitely ACT like demons ranging from mischievious and misguiding to straight up evil and vicious. They also have “toys” of sorts. Like masks and cover ups i have even seen them with sunglasses on. They werw saying i was “too bright” 😐 i honestly dont believe that shit since they are practically made of light.

The “alien look” may be a trap to misguide us. Not to say there arent aliens. Just saying what most are expierencing are probably demons.

Even the fact that there are “ufo” sighting where the balls of light drop down put of the sky or orb sightings. Again these being know how to use LIGHT. Honestly if aliens are trying to be covert all they gotta do is turn the head beams off. There is a sense of wanting to be seen (not in their actual form). Which is another trait of the demons. If they are not seen its like they don’t exist. The illusions…..they games…..the play. Im not even sure what is real in their world. Every thing seems to be make believe in one way or another. They are sadistic though.

The one(s) with me crave constant attention and even wake me up in the middle of the night. Last night they woke me up 3 times 😕! They love to copy other people. So they acted like my ex (false twin flame) for over a year. Using HIS voice and his image in my minds eye to convince me it was him telepathically communicating with me. If they can do this what is to say they are not doing that for all the angels and goddesses and aliens and even God! They want the glory. If they are not trying to scare the 💩 out of you they are trying to position themselves as an authority.

I really believe targeted individuals and schizophrenics are victims of demonic oppression. I am still keeping an open mind that it could be alien or government. I def don’t think this is government technology just because there seems to be an organic nature to it. From the way they move to the way they respond. They don’t want to be seen, they will turn around or hide in their dark every bubble. Its like I ALREADY SAW YOU! Its almost like what small animals or insects do when they encounter a human. That is a natrual response to run and hide. Not a “program”.

They also seem to have a hive mind. If one knows something all the others must know as well. And this can be near or far. Information is exchanged quickly. I have heard one of them explain my response to something they did to me to the others as if they did not understand. I have made my response minimal and more subconscious. But if i talk outloud in my mind or do something physical there is no explaining what my reaponse.l was.

If it is technology its def not human and its light based. At best maybe our technological advances such as all the EMF waves have allow the alien or demons to be more mobile….. Or something MORE over the last decade.

Just the quick response. The even subconscious response where THEY dont talk outloud to convey a message. The quick response to environmental visuals and sounds. It’s really impossible for this to be a human. Even a computer is pretty slow. The ability to make me feel like i should be smiling at something awful? Jerking my whole body out of my sleep.

I tried to lay this out as detailed and clearly as possible of my observations over the last two years or so.

I am leaning more towards demon as much as i do NOT WANT TO SAY I AM DEMON POSSESSED. I almost would rather it be alien to be honest. But i mean all the signs are pointing to good old fashion demon.

Uhg im really starting to hate this life. Why couldnt i just be boo’ed up, minding my own business like o king cute and making my coin and just enjoying life? NOoooooo i gotta be all demon possessed and missing four years of my life.

Best Friend Dating 👩‍❤️‍👩

So in my last post Dating vs Lonely I talked about how my friend found a boo piece less than a week ago. What I don’t think I mentioned is that the voices said maybe a week or two before hand “we gotta find her (my friend) a man to get her (me) out of here“. They said this multiple times prior to her meeting this guy who seems really sweet.

I dismissed it like most of their claims like I’m gonna die and every is gonna die (my family).

I take care of my Godson while my friend goes to NA meetings once a week because I want to support her. And while the voices still try pedo shit while I am with my godson I have trained myself to not to respond to it and get upset or agitated like I use to and just ignore it for the most part. It still hurts my soul. But I love my godson and my best friend. I also during the day I get a few hours of peace and quiet when they are not home unlike I do at my partners house and it gets me out of the house once a week and at least I’m exercising myself to be in the world.

For whatever reason they don’t want me to be here. But they don’t want me to be anywhere really. In the beginning at my parents house the voices started with the incest shit with my father and showing me images of him raping me and making me feel awkward around my dad all of a sudden. Then they were trying to get me to run away. I considered it many times because I wanted it to stop. I was going to kill myself a the beach in Long Island and I, for whatever reason maybe panic, I could not find the right train even though I was on the right track.

Either way it’s the same thing with my old job as well calling me a child molester and telling me to quit my job (which I did) and forcing me to leave and have nothing. Just tossing me around aimlessly at their whim.

So now I gained some footing. My friends house is a safe space for me (for the most part) and now the demons want to get me out of here too. And the way they plan on doing that I guess is by occupying her with a man. But at the same time making it seem like I am jealous (a running dialogue). Which I’m not. Now because she is seeing someone they are saying oh she is prettier than you, you are ugly that’s why you don’t have a man. And all that stuff. And I mean she is she is gorgeous always has been. But NOW they are saying that. It’s weird.

I guess what makes it awkward is knowing the voices foretold yet another situation. Just like the foretold my ex having a son two years prior to the actual birth to make me feel like shit. And I’m not even mad I just wanted to stop hearing about him and being tormented by the image or voice of him coming off the TV.

So idk if these demons actually foretell the future or create it. It seems easier for them to create it since they can influence people decisions to some extent mostly if it’s with in their parameters.

Part of me wants to just whimper and leave. The other part wants to stand my ground. But I’m just going to be me and go with the flow. And if I see less of my friend because she has a man oh well we’ve all done it to each other.

Just feel some type of way cause the foretold it was going to happen. Like I don’t have control over my life. Even though I am working on the inward, now it’s manifesting outwardly (more than just seeing them). So meh.

Racism is Demonic 💀💩

So first lets start off with an image like this. KKK burning the CROSS….. That shit is satanic. The ritualistic killing of black people …… Satanic. All that freemason-esque order and brotherhood shit satanic….. And thats me knowing very minimal about the KKK.

Now im not going to sit here and sing kumbiya and act like im colorblind….. But these demons out here are FOUL! Tgey really jumping into the mind of weak souls and making them literally loose their shit cause they saw an black, latino or asian….. Muslim person. Ect. Like LOSE IT ALL!

And honestly the civilized thing to do is shut the fuck up and keep it moving …… But no these people lose all sense of self and start cursing and screaming and causing a scene in some shape or faahion and really thats all i see on my facebook news feed.

Like they dont even know how they are being mind controlled by these demons to look like a fucking idiot or worse actually hurt someone.

Listen to this shit……… I, a mixed woman, have always identified more with my black side because honestly that is who raised me and thats my culture. Now these demons REALLY tried some racist shit…… They called one man Amistad 😐….. And had the fucking NERVE to call my MOM a nigger. I have never in my life called anyone a nigger or even thought it and these pieces of shit really tried to call my mom a Nword to get my blood boiling and a reaction.

How does this happen over night?

I kept my shit cool though.

And thats me being aware of these pieces of shit.

Racism is definitely an unchecked mental illness that stems from demonic forces while creating a structures that allow them to benifit in this life times from said structures.

There are spiritual forces at play …… And no one is getting into the minds of these racist people that lose their shit on camera……. Or a cop that shoots and kills innocent black people. These are unclean minds…..with unclean spirits…. That fester and become a mental problem that then DUH is a social problem that is socially acceptable and shows up in our everyday lives through institutions to policies.

Like why havent we evolved? Shit is so fucking old and dated and wrong.

Fucking over it.

Energetic Bodies

So I took a photo of my body in a dim lit room like I do to see other things.

And I saw that my energetic (I think it is mine or it could be another being) had 3 holes in it. It looked almost a cavern. I saw a pair of eyes in one of the holes.

Then I remember in January a gang of 30 or more Geckos all shot me in my stomach and then my eating habits changed. I wrote about in my blog.

Then maybe 3 months later a male face came to me and removed a band of maybe 5 astral parasites but left one that I could still feel and later saw.

My assumption was that the astral parasites were covering or closing the holes that was caused by the attack in January.

Why they were taken away or I was attacked in the first place I am unsure.

Pain is a Hypnotic state 😶

Anything to an extreme, for manipulation can be a hypnotic state where the individual is easily controlled.

So pain. I guess for some this is a DUH, but for my nieve ass I don’t think like that. To control. I am more interested in collaboration.

So when the Demonic Entities want to control me they UP THE PAIN FACTOR this will usually be in my head. My body and skin will become tight and warm as if we’re inflamed.

I will be so focused on the pain, that I become “second in line” to my own mind. The pain increases and I stare off into space and I hear one of the Entities suggesting some insanely absurd gross thought and at that moment I do not question it until I snap out of it because I’m focused on ……………….. THE PAIN.

This makes them feel powerful even though they are cowards and scum of the universe.

Once you are in this hypnotic state of pain focus deeply on the pain you become easily “suggestable”. That’s why you need to be careful what you allow people to treat during sex and certain points in your life. Being easily suggested is a step before brain washed.

So you are crying or sobbing miserable with pain and the Entity comes in and starts planting seeds and thoughts “you’re ugly when you cry” will turn into “you’re ugly”. These will be triggers to layer the pain and keep you sooo deep far down in the quick sand of pain and misery it will be difficult to see a way out unless you observe their bullshit and your own bullshit as well.

So …….. I see how they used pain against me literally pulling wool over my eyes and into a hypnotic state so I will believe their negative.

No positive or negative in this situation only ignorance.

These demons can kick rocks!

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Insectoid Mantis or Demon 😱

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Above is a quick description of Mantis Insectoids and then a long but GOOD lecture on Angels but mostly Demons. Really worth the watch.

One thing he said about demons is that the hey have “bird like feet” and I was noticing this WAY before I knew this was a trait of demons unless they were literally part bird. But many of them had a tripod like or bird feet like leg.

So that’s one aspect. Demon or what was seen as demon CHECK ✔️.

Now not all demons are …….. idk maybe like the beast monster with horns and breathing fire and eats children to replenish itself and steps on villages while smiting Gods name. For like decades on end no mercy.

SOME just like to hang around and fuck up all your romantic relationships so you end up alone. OR, side track you in life wit a couple of bad decisions. Maybe there are a few and each have there thing.

Again the voices/mantis CAN be funny sometimes but it’s usually and only at my expense. They can mimic other voices and sounds. They have many outfits and masks (even alien grey ones). Can take on any personality, although the ones I have encountered feel masculine in “nature” even if the voice is female. So they know how to party.

The one that was stalking me I guess was sweet with dreams at first but soon as it got together with other friends it really took advantage of my body and did not care if it was hurting me. So that is no guardian, friend or anything. And think that’s how many people innocently get wrapped up. Even if your not seeking anything.

So because their intentions are not pure and good they are demons even if their goofy or cute or funny. Doesn’t matter TRICKS OF THE DEVIL Satan knows we like cute goofy things like kittens……. DAMN YOU SATAN! Anyway don’t fall for it in the astral/spirit/etheric/dimensions beeeeecause they are liars and assholes and that’s pretty much it.

Mantids chill with Reptilians (if that’s what they even are). They work in a hive mind. But I’m honestly waiting for the next veil to drop. Now I can see this shit with my eye and by taking a simple photo at the right moment and you are telling my the the government or NASA can’t see this shit?

I really expect more from all parties at this point. Healer and shaman, religious leaders, government, Angels whatever else would be involved……. whistleblowers I guess….

So since Mantis’ have all the toys and masks, and dress up (even cars) they can easily be be many of the demons we think we know. And with a little light or black magic MEANING using light or shadow they can may show us a totally different image.

I once saw a random image/vision of a woman who face and when I stared are more deeply into my mind the black nothingness and then saw the face become the Mantis!!!! So these beings are master illusionists.

So a Mantis is DEFINITELY one of the main ones. No matter what your religion is that has nothing to do with the rape and terrible things they do.

So if I find a way BELIEVE I’m letting everyone know!

Monkey Mind 🙉🙈🙊

“Hear no evil, see no evil, speak no evil”

I heard about the “monkey mind” here and there in reference to meditation. I think I just assumed it was the normal “thoughts” when you are trying to meditate and your mind loops “make sure to do this or that , hmm I want coffee after this, my back hurts, ect” ….. very rarely I would get a random image.

After being attacked the loops became more subtle the visions more often and it was all with the goal of mind control. One thing the quote above doesn’t mention feeling. Often burns and pinches and buzzing and electrocuted….. feeling raped … either end ….. held down or harnesses or cuffs. Like someone held my hand or kisses me. There where a lot of feelings and then SUGGESTIONS by the Entities as to what those feelings were or what they meant or what they symbolized.

But essentially it was all a lie.

Where I thought there was a ring on finger was probably a astral parasite placed there by an Entity. The harness that forced me to sit up straight and was part of their “domination” fantasy was probably also a bunch of astral parasites wrapped around my body, because the wanted to “teach me how to be a lady”.

So I hear, see, feel, but TRY not to speak evil, although it is spoken to me…… lies. Lie after lie after lie after lie.

The monkey mind is real but I have a house party going on and I don’t know why or how to stop it even if I keep an “empty” mind, they just fill it…… with nonsense….. none stop talking about stuff that makes no sense. Stuff from tv in a different room, mixed with the title of an email from a week ago sealed with their normal sexual perversions. So I’m observing the babbling and occasionally will be like HUH? But will go back to just trying to an “empty mind” or pretending it is or just not engaging the Entities since they are completely insane.

There was a certain amount of monkey mind I agreed to or I thought was normal. The to do lists the getting things done ya know and then when the attacks happened and the house party happened I wasn’t totally aware what was truly MY internal dialogue.

There are spiritual concepts of “expanding consciousness” and I often wonder what is that? What or who or how is “consciousness” being expanded? Is this just another lie? Another trick to agreeing to allowing our bodies to being used until they can’t anymore.

I honestly don’t even see how these Entities can continue…… I can barely move some days. Again if I take a photo I can see ways in which I have been probed with their parasites and toy and tools and whatever else they use to do what they do.

I KNOW I’ve tried my best from many angles and I know I gotta be “patient”. But being stuck in the house because I don’t want these Demonic Entities to use little random children for pedophile shit in my mind is such a GRIM existence and I’m not sure if what I am waiting for will ever arrive. And I hear of so many schizophrenics who are stuck in the house for one reason or another for most of their life.

I once said something to the extent “It’s not how long you wait it’s what you do in the moments you wait.” This was to touch on being patient and intentional. But the things I would normally do in the “moments that I wait” I can’t engage in. I can’t go to the gym or farmers market …. lay out in a park for hours….. just take it easy until that next phase of life happens.

I don’t know how to cope or deal or heal with this one. All I have is faith that the demons are trying so hard to take away or condemn me for when I don’t have the perfect answer.

Big Deep Breaths! 🐨

I can’t believe this is real life. 😳

So like WTF?

How is this real life? Like I know life has ups and downs, but right now I hit a plateau of just going to sleep and waking up to nasty Entity voices saying and doing nasty shit all day.

And like a LOT of people are hearing the exact same nasty shit all day….. how is this real life?!

I just can’t believe this is my life right now.

I’m only staying alive cause I’m petty other wise I’m pretty grossed the fuck out by life at this present moment. All levels.

I’m done trying to understand my abusers on all levels. I can’t wrap my mind around their logic and I need to accept that I never will.

Spiritual, emotional, mental, political abusers!

I can’t rock with it…. I don’t get it…. especially when they don’t stop.

This is how people snap….

But I won’t…. I’m petty. Fuck that shit. I’m too cute for that.

I just never thought in all my life I would be harassed by some disgusting demonic reptilian 2D flat floating astral assholes 24/7 none stop……. and made to seem crazy.

A waste of time and life. Like I don’t even care about these assholes.

I wish the were like sucked into a black hole never to return.

I can barely get fresh air with out being harassed.

I just never thought this could be real.

I will never understand why or who or how or why….. because it’s insane. There is nothing to understand about the insanity. You want to pick out some pretty gems cool, but essentially this shits insane and pointless.

So……… idk.

Dr. Phil: Twin Flames 😳

Sheila says that when the love of her life, Simon, said goodbye, he claimed he was going away for a few days but promised to return with flowers in a limousine.
— Read on www.drphil.com/shows/my-sister-drove-from-canada-to-mexico-searching-for-the-ex-lover-she-claims-sends-her-secret-messages-via-songs-on-the-radio/

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I was initiated into this hell hole through the concept Twin Flame.

It was after a break up. It was with a man I lost a lot of confidence with and made me feel really insecure for the first time. So I was an easy target at the time. But these entities were still able to convince me that maybe all these insecurities were because of love and my hang ups and not because he just plain old didn’t like me and we didn’t work out. They even convinced me they were telepathic communication with him and sounded just like him.

Some commonality with her case was the constant obsession but keeping him away. Using music “as a form of communication”, saying there was a “bet” for a large sum of money involved or a large sum of money involved. And that some how death was involved (i.e. Forcing me into suicide for my “twin flame”).

So where does this all come from?

I mean ……….. I’ve heard some things but the actual application of it to my life is another thing. How these Entities applied it to my life were well deadly. Still are.

I mean even though I am over the “twin flame” I STILL to this day have to hear about this man (my ex). To the point where I’m like “can you please leave this man alone?” I’m tired of hearing about him.

But who came up with the twin flame rules? And how do these Entites know how to play? Like the money part?

Maybe twin flames in another dimension are the most amazing love, here they are not. If anything they show signs of if a incubus of demonic hold. No one should be running around in circles like that. I lost a lot since my twin flame experience. And yea I could be all “I’m grateful” but…… I got shit to do and this was not it.

I feel bad she went through this. It’s embarrassing. Now they are going to drug her to make her more presentable. But I still believe there is a spiritual health issue underlying. I just don’t know how to address it permanently.

Just moment to moment. Day to day.

I don’t know if these Entities go away permanently. Although I would like to think so.

I know myself just as I am writing to you honestly. But these Entities are another bag of beans.

It’s sad but I’m trying to keep faith that through fierce honesty and communication and compassion we can start to heal.