New Age: Channeled Messages 👽

So before i go into this topic i wanted to make a note that last night i was sleeping and these demon assholes woke me up at 5am shouting and screaming in almost a helium voice. And then i wake up and i felt a humming vibration leave my body specifically my head and move to the left of me on my bed.

I could see the energy swirling in the air and a shadow on the surface of my bed. I saw it moving around back and forth like a tornado standing still……My sheets started moving like there was actual pressure on the sheets. While i was frighten at first cause i just woke up i as always exchange my FEAR for CURIOSITY. I watched it for a little while to make sure i was seeing what i was seeing. And then i just said “you guys are assholes……” (for waking me up at 5am) and went to the bathroom.

So they make it so hard to sleep at night for some reason. Also as a note my eyes are very tender today. The vibration feeling was at other spots of my body as well. And i figured this is how they make dreams feel so real sometimes. But maybe im wrong. Not sure totally the purpose of vibration energy. Anyways just making a note.


So in the New Age community there are a lot of Channelers. Or people encouraging others to be “clairaudiant” or clairsentient ect. Which basically means you can sense or communicate with non sentient beings…. energy …. whatever.

There are some that listen and relay the message and there are people who allow the beings to speak through them.

Sigh. Yall!

Like first of all most of these people have no idea who or what they are talking to. Very few of us can see these beings fully. Only in part. Like you may only see the light magic illusion/vision they show you but not their true for walking the earth. Or you might see just the energy clouds of their being with your two eyes but not the actual form. The demon/aliens that I SEE…. LOVE to “play”. This can be in our waking life or dreams. They love to take on different personalities (real or made up). And they are able to do so THROUGH US. If they dont have a conduit to an audience, does it really matter? A bald headed casper the ghost looking alien was pretending to be telepathy with my ex in the begining. Even sounded like him too. But it wasnt my ex, it was and entity of sorts probably with a costume on. (YEA I KNOW THAT SOUNDS CRAZY!). But i have seen them use masks and like put coverings on. I honestly can’t even make this stuff up. Its not even what i want to bring into the world. Tbh.

Like y’all out here channeling and allowing just any ol’ entities to speak through you? They are PLAYING YOU! It is not some someones grandma or paladian alien or arch angel ect! Like get your shit together! You are renting out your body part time to a being you have no idea what it is or its true intention. Do you have sex with just anyone? And even if you did have sex with someone that is appealing (in one way or another) ….. What is to say they are not lying to you just to have sex with you?

That is what you are doing with these beings. Renting out your body to unknown beings. While these beings may enter my body …… I DO NOT CONSENT! So essentially they are rapists and trespassers. Who is to say they will not feel entitled to your body at some point? And just start taking you over and blacking you out when ever?

I mean i first thought it was a spirit or an angel (oooo pretty sparkles)…. Then telepathy with my ex….. Then reptillian and mantis aliens….. Then just old fashion demons….. Want to know why? Because no matter WHAT the situation was……… There was a LIE in there. They were lying about SOMETHING. And that takes time, observation and discernment to really see.

Like im not really trying to play with these beings. They hurt physically. Even when they try to give “pleasure” with soft touches or air lightly blowing or even forced orgasm….. It’s creepy AF.

One of the first times i encountered a “spirit” it pretended to be Zora Neal Hurston (who i adore) as my school project was on her life and legacy. And i wrote a piece about how she came to me in spirit during my studies. DO YOU KNOW Alice Walker wrote a short story “The Ghost of Zora Neal Hurston”. I found out because my professor asked if i had read anything by Alice Walker. I said No. And found out the Walker wrote a story similar to mine. So these demon alien assholes were out here trying to make it look like i was plagiarizing! Which could have got me licked out of school. ASSHOLES! It took me reviewing my life to see where they played me like this.

Im sorry but yall are getting played and spreading the SAME STUPID MESSAGE EVERY SINGLE TIME! EVERY TIME! from different channelers too! “The shift is happening” “ascension is on its way” “twin flames unite next month!” “New energies are on its way”. You all should be ASHAMED of yourselves for what you are doing to the public to get a buck or attention. Same messages since like 2011!

Yall are playing with/getting played by DEMONS. And misinformating the public at the same time which is opening more people to getting played and getting attacked and keeping them from God!. Thats an awakening right there!

Smh. So done with the shit!

Love and light! 🙏💩

10 Commandments: Adultery 😞

So……………… my friend said she had a vision God is coming back and I guess I wonder because of this experience what commandment I was breaking. I know I don’t hold sabbath, I say OMG a lot, and I had sex out of wedlock. So I was ready for that part.

But I guess I was really thrown back that prostitution, homosexuals, porno, masturbation where thrown in with child molesters, pedos and bestiality, and people who fuck corpses.

Like………. that shit made me so sad.

Like it made me wonder if that’s why these Demons Mantis’ called me a child molester because it’s all lumped in with the same things.

I know God doesn’t see a rank in sin just sees SIN but if that’s the case call me a murderah?

My ex who was a trans man (soul mate- not false twin flame) was the love of my life thus far. I never felt love like that. Respect. Old school love, open the door for you, dance in the middle of the kitchen to 90s r&b music love ……… the love you thank God for and his momma for having him kinda love. The love where no one else is the room in a crowd full of people kind of love.

But it’s a sin?

So currently I’m not sexually active 1.5 years (it’s a lot for m give me some credit) technically 2.5 year but whatever, I guess we can count that 2 time in 2 week in 2016 as a do over. Whatever.

Either way I’m not now cause everyone sucks. Mostly all the dudes I dated were jerks and THAT is NOT my fault.

Anyways I’m super sad that being Gay is considered a commandment sin and lumped in with pedos. 😥

And now I don’t know what to do with my life……………..

how do you ungay? De-queerify?

It’s still a part of who I am or was even if I don’t practice and I still strongly believe in rights and respect for the LGBT community so ……. I’m at a loss.

I told myself that I my gender and sexual orientation was Angel cause I’m tired of these disappointing relationships. I can be content with plutonic relationships. But then I heard some where that these demons try to trick you into chastity so they can keep you out of love and continue to control and torture you. 😞

As I said before I don’t feel right dragging anyone into this. I mean I have to live the fact that I unknowingly may have dragged my family into it but now knowing I don’t want to make any moves until I feel clear.

God Speaks?

I was half asleep this morning and my sister had the tv turned on to the The Real talk show and a guest said “when god speaks to you you listen cause god will bless you” and later went on about how she listened to what God told her to do and he blessed her life.

In my case if I would have believed it the loud voice telling me what to do I would have killed myself. Which I attempted twice purely because of the torture.

So how do you know its God?

Do you know what type of twilight zone I’m living in where there are 8 foot Mantis pretending to be God?

And POSSIBLY people listening to this thing and have wonderful blessed lives because of it?

Would the world better off with out me?

This is all just so confusing and weird.

Mantis outline

You can kinda see the outline of the mantis and how tall the can get.

You can also see a small one at the bottom near my family members leg. They are light beings that can go from light to dark.

Then bring your eyes to the right of the fan you see some stuff as well.

You have to relax your eyes to see them. I can’t even make this shit up. It was a surprise shot I did in my parents bedroom.

This is the crazy dimension I’m stuck between. I just wish they would shut the fuck up sometime……. at least!!!!!

Awake again at 3am

3am pattern is really annoying.

Actually they woke me up at 1:30 right as my sister was going to sleep.

So noticed I always wake up right when someone else goes to sleep.

I also realized along side this I would go to sleep during the day to cope with the voices coming from the TV or outside the window. Often it was just too fast talking or too much so sleep was the the only way to cope and this was the only time to get SOME PEACE but now that I’m trying to regulate my sleep pattern I can’t………. I can only get broken sleep in 2 hour intervals. And usually awake during the hours of 3am

Am I turning into a vampire 👹

Whatever …….. I’m not. It’s a joke….. just in case you were wondering.

I AM tired and grumpy AF.

I just wanna be on my health game again fuck this entity matrix !

Nope not a “demon” it’s a Mantis

So I slept A LOT on this seroquel stuff a bit broken sleep but I slept.

Because what Woke person wants to be awake for for this YUCK 💩🤢😥.

Anyways, the “demon” dark shadowy figure I had shown in the previous post I found out is a MANTIS. It’s like ALL these characters are Mantis’ and they are just playing games. They tried to confused me as I woke up when I saw him changing.

I should have known they can glow or be the blackest black you’ve ever seen (at least the outlines are) ….. so when I saw him in the same place the shadow demon was as a Mantis I knew I was duped …… again.

In the Kabbalah demons are described as having chicken like or tripod like legs if you look at a Mantis it is very similar.

@ 20:00 he will describe demons

That doesn’t make them any less Demonic or harmful or annoying. But I’m making sure I’m keeping up to date with what I see. Yes they are demons and yea they are shape shifting Mantis’ from God knows where.

I don’t know why they are so sexually perverse.

You can google the “72 demons of Solomon” and you will find conglomerated demons on a clawed foot of sorts. Keep an open mind. The foot is the base and then smaller demons hop on creating a larger demon. And your sitting there like like HUH? But I think over time they have come up with a few new ways to disguise themselves.

Im not sure if the Mantis are copying as a format or they are really apart of the 72 Demon and we just never made the connection between aliens, demons (and nature??????) idk. All I know is Mantis seems to be the default.

THIS SUCKS I WANT THEM TO GO AWAY!!!! I don’t want to have to poison myself for no reason cause they are fucking gross!!!

How Many Entities?

My family’s apartment (specifically my room) is lined in Entities. The ceilings are lined with medium size I can’t count how many but one wall could have maybe 5 to 10 gecko looking ones that will spew sparkles if I look at them. So let’s say a lot of those in the main room and on electronics too (TVs, Fans)


So in term of very different large entities I have seen quite a few. But apparently they CAN shape shift. So let’s say 5-10 larger entities. This includes Mantis (and their many looks), shadow demon, something that looks like ETs cousin, reptilians, ect.

Then I’ve seen countless parasites worms centipedes looking ones, smaller tiny versions of the bigger ones and small demons trolls, tiny human fairy looking ones, tiny black dot ones (almost like the soot from spirited away). Maybe hundreds of all of those. 😳

Then there are 🌺 flowers and cars and tree branches, mask, words, numbers, boxes of costumes. Yea it’s crazy round these parts.

OK. Yea so that’s my life right now.

And while I see ALL OF THIS……. I only hear 2 to 3 voices max on the regular. If there are like 100s of entities like I see and I have seen go in and out my body wouldn’t I hear more? I know they are “hive mind” or “group consciousness” but something still doesn’t make sense completely. At one point (before I saw them) I thought it was ONE Entity acting as many because of how fast they would talk or how often they would pretend to be other characters.

I see many, hear few, believe none.

Now my friend is telling me this is the government but idk. This is legit nonstop harassment. She said they want to give me cancer. Idk.

I just wish I could figure this out or it would just stop already. I’m not crazy. I’m not.

I hope the truth come out soon cause I never thought I would be the tin foil hat girl. Shit sucks.

Too Dope: Dopamine and Possession



So I will be 1000% honest and say I have taken WAAAAAAY too much sleep medication (specifically Diphenhydramine HCl 25 – 50 mg)  I could stay up for days if I didn’t listening to these assholes. I’m not addicted (an addict would say that wouldn’t they?) but I have cut out caffeine and cut back on sugars and I am always working on being at my zero point of a calm place. Which I am used to functioning in high-stress situation so been working on that too and TRYING TO go to sleep at night. but the voices ALWAYS wake me up around the hours of 3am – 5am depending on what time I go to sleep.

So my first question was WHY were these voice keeping me from last stages of deep sleep where the body restores and balances itself. And there is your answer. When you don’t get enough deep sleep you start to feel dizzy and cranky and other health issues can arise.

Now that I get my sleep I have yet more question(s).

  1. I have photos (also here in this blog) where people and I can see beings (entities: shadow beings, demons, mantis, mantids, reptilian, shape-shifters) in my photos. So these beings exist… whether or not if they are “real” is questionable and depends on the end of the means in which they have access to us as humans.
  2. Antipsychotic meds are known to BLOCK dopamine (D2). How is this interacting with the sleep aids AND the entities?
  3. Dopamine: Sleep Aids increase dopamine in the brain. Why when I take Sleep Aids the voices get quieter? They also start to make less sense, whereas I can still function normally. They will also stay quiet for days after taking a large dose of diphenhydramine.

Number 3 is a MAJOR question. Do they need my brain at full capacity to function properly? Which is why they don’t want me to sleep for long periods of time (2 hours max)?

What is happening to my brain that I can function fine but they are saying crazy stuff. I won’t be able to do it justice but as I was falling asleep one yelled something like “The CAKE HAT HAD A HORSE OUTSIDE”, and I was like HUH?! and I think even one of the other voices were like WTF? this wasnt the first time that has happened.

I also would feel releases in my body …….. specifically on my left hip/tailbone, tugging on my back, release like a band from around my stomach, pulling suction feeling on the top of my head. But never a FULL COMPLETE release at the same time. because they are often made up of many different parts or more specifically many smaller entities.

A friend of mine said that when she has a few drinks the voices go away for her. But when I have a few drinks they actually get louder and I end up cussing the voices out in my head like a drunk 5 year old.

If what I am doing is bad for me…. why does it feel like its the right thing to do unless they are tricking me. Worse case scenario I am getting some sleep BEST CASE, it’s assisting in releasing the Entities.

UHG I wish I was like super duper smart or like knew someone who was super smart that could actually help me answer or run tests on this. I want to know:

How does the brain and Entities interacting?

I mean everyone talks about salt baths to get rid of the entities. But that I want to know the scientific evidence behind it.

More updates as I observe. I will try to keep things safe as possible.

The Pen is Mighty

Categories open for intergalactic multi dimensional realness serving face and only face (seriously they look like just floating heads sometimes you know mars attack).

Yea, no wonder they were trying zonk me out or cripple my hand when I would go to draw the demonic alien Mantis or get help on this issue from certain healers.

Library is OPEN…… I’ve read and written them to filth because that is what they are! NASTY! Infestation on the consciousness of humans how dare they impose their filth on anyone!

Dead Ass!

They need to be locked in their own dimension so they can just feed on each other into nothingness.


Everyone is lulled like babies by their lies until they try to kill you cause you awakened. Fuck Them!

They are trying so hard for me not to see them and I still do. GROOSSSS!!! YUCK!

Imma take a page out of their book and tell them!!!

GO HOME!!!!!



Praying Mantis’

The ones I see don’t look like this. They look more traditional but have like other things with them like masks and necklaces and outfits.

Is this a joke that I’m seeing “PRAYING” Mantis’ but they are from another dimension and evil?

Like what le fuck is GOING ON?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!

I realized that the Mantis can shape shift into looking like a reptilian. Which makes sense. Because they want to feared. So they used the reptilian persona to scare the shit out of me and rape me and stuff.

Just like the used the God persona to condemn me, but who the fuck are they? Where do they fit in this grand scheme of life other than fucking mine up?

Everything I read about them are positive but this has been nothing but a nightmare. They even have a curse to scare me called “summer of Sam” .

How the fuck do I get this shit out of my life it’s so grossssssssssss!!!!

I use to like praying mantis too!!! I was going to even dedicate a fashion show to their color pallets and shapes. But now ! The FUCK!

God please tell what is going on!!!