I was raised Christian …… While i still hold some beliefs and belief in God and Jesus….. i dont feel like i fit in with Christians though. Be honest a large part of it is my love for the LGBT community and my distaste for the pedos that get away with hurting children by the thousands with in religion.
And while i looked to spirituality as way to grow my personal relationship with God and grapple with some difficult questions i have about the world …… The New Age slipped in to all media formats under the guise of spirituality and i thought there would be answers there, but it is nothing but lies and delusions and people trying to grow thrir spiritual business as well (?!?!?). While i can understand the mode or intent in healing, i can not agree with the actual information being disseminated most of the time.
I tried to fit in with the schiz community and its all good at least people are a bit more open but also super wounded and trying to heal. But many believe its a “broken brain”….. Struggling to find the right pill to make it go away. And i gave up on the pills. And the medications are known to cause other diseases and take 10 years off your life.
But the Targeted Individuals are an angry bunch and i have a hard time trying have a coversation with them about anything outside of goverment technology. They are pretty set in their beliefs.
I’m mean i use to be super active in the LGBT community and even though the queer indentity will always be apart of me ……. Im just not as involved in the LGBT community as i was. But i love and reapect my friends and the struggle. But i just dont feel like i fit in there anymore either.
I just dont know where i fit in or any one set of beliefs i feel strongly about anymore. I dont feel like i can belong any place but i can respect most walks of life.
I got close friends here and there. They believe their own things too. But i guess i feel super alone in my belief systems right now.
I guess its my anthropology background that makes me want to listen to others beliefs and personal stories while respecting their experience and not forcing my own views on them. Just a culture of sharing. Sometimes i feel like there are a lot of beliefs forced on me and wading through the already thick waters is getting tiresome and i am almost over having and opinion at all…… But at the same time enraged that the saftey of my people are at risk everyday. In someway shape or form.