Communities I Keep an Eye On πŸ‘€

Spiritual Community: This mainly includes: twin flames, 144,000, light workers, kundalini, spiritual awakening, ascension, channeled messages, The Event, 5D, entities attachments and attacks, energy, healing, empaths, occultist/ esoteric. Meditiation, Many different spiritual/religious belief systems in one place. Incubus, spirit husbans, reptilian,archons, matrix, star seeds, ancient cultures,

Alien Encounter Community: understanding acturian, paladian, grey, reptillian, mantis beings. Channeled messages. Earth bound conscious abductions. Star seeds, 5d earth, the event,

Targeted Individuls Community: gang stalking, street theater, mk ultra, v2k, project paper clip, nano technology, chem trails, electronic harrassment and torture, Morgenellas, CERN, EMF radiation, ELF waves, government patents.

Schizophrenic Community: paranoia, delusional states of being (even if you are right), anti-psychotic medications, symptoms mimick that of targeted individuals and spiritually opressed people (or vice versa), being seen as crazy, healing, theraphy, cognative behavioural therapy, transpersonal therapy, carl jung’s shadow work, hearing voices as a large scope of people rather than just schizophrenics (who twnd to have a negative experience). Sub vocal speech article,

Christian Community: Are they voice hearers? Hearing the voice of God? Is it God? The Event? Is the same as the rapture? Armageddon? Understanding demons/spirits through a Christian/ religious lens. Book of Enoch. Keeping/strengening my faith in God through all of this, the 144,000, Jesus, history. Story of Job, of Paul, of, Saul and Jesus all having been taunted by demons and the devil in the bible.

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Most people i have met are stead fast on their path and stick to their path. Thats fine. I found that there are MANY similarities between the the belief systems. And thats just in the 3rd Dimensional world explination.

Could it be that all the alien encounters, hundreds of praised gods and goddesses were just spirits or major demons trying take Gods glory because they simple could? I mean the Entity here with me has NO problem saying they are God and rape me in the next moment. Sick right? That is enough to make anyone to loose faith. Its a win win situation for them. Either they make someone loose faith in the One True God OR they Get some one to believe they ARE God or an authority of sorts.

But that is besides the point. These are the main communities i have studies and i have reached a plateau in my research. I can see them, hear them, feel their gross energy. Ive drawn what i have seen. They conflict with some of my research. And i havent found anyone i can use as a sound board to really confirm much of what i see. But definitely confirmed what we hear and feel. Visions and and hallucinations are a bit different. A vision is in your minds eye. A hallucination is standing in your living room you can walk around it. But they are not 3d theybare more flat 2d line drawings i can walk around.

Anyway the plateau is frustrating. Cause i want to move beyound this or i want it to be over.

Its my anthropological mind that got me here. Im always too curious. Why…. How? Whats the story? I could not accept this as a broken brain. I was hearing words and phrases i never even heard before. I had to google them.

I have heard people who have been cured of their affliction similar to mine to mine through medication, but also though shamic healing, also through prayerand the grace of God, some meditation, so im just wonder IF i will ever find my healing.

I mean being all over the map has both a blessing and a curse. In one way as i research and went to healers who gave me information that conflicted with something in the storyline the demons were creating. First it was telepathy as twin flames with my ex as were supposedly fractions of Isis and Osiris souls. πŸ˜” spare me. Then when i rejected that they went on to say i was being raped and called a child molestor because i was “paying for my father” which was my dad was accused of molesting me which he didnt (i wrote about it many times in this blog you can search it). Then they weree trying to convince me they were God by blacki g me out like 3 or 4 times. Then when i started seeing them and they looked like alien or reptilian or demon trolls heads floating around…. Things got UBER confusing but that didnt stop their torure one bit.

So jumping around helped me understand most of it was bullshit. BUT the path to actual healing looks future away. Or confusing. Amd no salt baths and picturing a bright white light around me did not work.

I was recently told i am one of the 144k and a light worker and i have no idea what that even means. To me i was wouldn’t have have the innate power to blast these things away? Just saying. I just feel like 4 years of my short life has been wasted all to a demon. This is not why i was born. To be raped by demons all day everyday.

Im still pushing through tho. I still wish i had a mentor that could help me ubderstand this stuff. If im going to stuck with them might as welm make them my lab rat expiriments. Since thats what they are doing to me. Fuck em.

Earth Abduction 🌎

So!!!

Abductions don’t happen off of earth any more. They happen on earth.

Another “dimension” or a matrix is placed over the persons electo-magnetic field. So you then have a false reality or a false spiritual awakening.

These are not spiritual awakenings.

These are abductions and attempts at pseudo possessions aka mind control or worse case scenario a false flag.

An “abductees” electro magnetic field, surface of body and organs are penetrated with what most know as Archons. Archons are round semi flat disc that can move around. They are bio technology. These Archons can project images, become portals, and build settings of sorts like a false chakra system.

They are toys and bio technology weaponry. Very few limits to what this can do. Now I have seen Reptilians projected at my field but I have not seen them actually. I have actually seen a little alien head in my house and I smacked him out my sick sisters room with a bible. Wasn’t too happy about that.

So I’m not sure if the tiny little greys are actually working for reptilians or it’s bullshit torture brogan they hide behind. Because there seems to be so many layers to the lie. Do reptilians even exist on this planet or are they being projected as an overlay system?

Do the greys just ensure that the Archon Bio Technology is working properly like maintenance dudes? Cause they seem to be walking among us, but the reptilians seem to be attacking from another dimension which is fucked up.

Emery from outside is involved as well so there is energy/”entity” entering my home from outside and attacking from outside like they found a loophole by not entering but letting there tenticals get in here.

I’m trying to understand this all from inside the illusion and confusion. So I am open to being wrong. But this is what I am seeing. I just want to be better. And I just cussed out ol’ grey alien dude out for trying to call me fucking lazy. Which sparked this post so. Whatever.

Photo of what I usually see

Like this is the most obvious photo I have taken. I would zoom in or not have it on a white background or in bright lights so your eyes can adjust. Im trying to look at it now in my bathroom lights and all I see it a black photo. 

If I’m totally bugging let me know. 

The photos of what I drew are here. I have seeming them for 6+ months. I think one or more contribute to the schizophrenia. 



Floating in Space πŸ‘Ύ

No sorry I don’t have a pretty story of etherically floating space amount the beautiful stars. I wish. If I had to choose which delusion it would be that one. 

Essentially I am making timed notes of my experience. So over the last few days (always make sure it happens a few times before making a post) I have been seeing archon attachments to my arm. 

They are two dimensional (2D) blobs of dark light energy with a clear space ripple around it. To notice it, it is like seeing heat wave off a hot summer cement only still. I can move my arm and see the different facets or none at all because its 2D. Partially 3D since there is a few centimeters of depth. 

Anyways I know there are a few on each arm. Top of hand, maybe wrists, right below the elbow on the top part, and middle of my upper arm.

Since I have also seem markings in these areas like rashes, welts, burns, pin pricks. The markings have looked like some of the pictograms I have seen floating around the house. 

Many of the floating pictograms / enojis have stopped floating but again… NOW on/in my skin. 

Yesterday and today I have felt a floating sensation in my arms. Not like involuntary movement but something pressing inside. A slight nudge that sways me more one ways than the other. I feel each one. Its like having 50 chakras in my body. 

Also my heart center becomes heavy. I keep meditating and clearing it and it keeps coming back. 

I don’t like it. I want to get rid of it. 

I mean if the aliens can lift my fat ass up ….. Whatever. Maybe that’s why my body started gain weight. Oh body… All we needed to do was tie me to an anchor of love. 

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Running out of options

I’ve done the shaman, light worker, meditation, prayer thing….

I’ve the targeted individual, Mk ultra, gang stalking….. Matrix’s of insectoid thing….

Committing suicide for a twin flame thing….

Loosing everything like the “Book of Jobe” thing. 

Girl interrupted shave my head psyche ward crayon thing…. 

Clearing trapped energetic emotions for humanity thing….. Angel and demons thing. 

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I wanna do that thing where this all stops and I can enjoy this brief existence sans being raped every night by an reptilian insectoid posing as my ex twin flame. 

When will I get that this is done thing …. Finished thing? They go away thing? Never come back again thing? 

Spelling Bee 🐝🐝

This has happened a many times now. At first I called this “word salad” basically feeling like the Entities purposefully spelled or said words wrong and disorganizing thoughts before me to through me off and drive me crazy. 

GRANTED! My spelling and grammar is pretty bad. But again I know how its bad. 

So an example that came up just now. I was looking up “milkweeds” because I saw a short film on not drinking cows milk and then wondered what other plant based milks we could use other than almond. So milkweed came up. But its totally toxic. 

ANYWAYS! 

So the word “swamp” was in the description and the Demonic Entity said, “swAMP” and I said you mean…. “SwAHMP“?

It was like this entity never heard or read the word before. But maybe they are fucking with me. 

Astral Rape πŸŒŒπŸ‘Ύ

I forgive my mom. She doesn’t know or understand. No one does. No one gets it it’s not their fault. 

My mom was watching a movie that happened to have a long loud sex scene in it and I held my breath anticipating the Archon Demon to do something to me. It waited until I started breathing again to then touch me again.

And I started to cry, cause I hate being touched. I have been raped and molested all day for two years. I dont even know know what a loving touch feels like anymore. 

Anytime I think about love, I’m molested. Anytime I’m happy, I’m molested or hurt. Anytime I think about my family lovingly I’m molested. Anytime I look at a new person I am having a conversation with, I’m molested…. TV show molested. Or just for fun Raped.

Then to realize the only “sexual” encounter I’m having is being raped an invisible demonic archon reptilian thing all day on some pedo incest rape bullshit. 

And its so sad. That’s all I know right now. That’s all that is on repeat in my head …. To take my life away.

I need love so bad….. I love myself and its not enough…. I love everyone and its not enough. I fight its not enough.

Im so tired of my vagina. I’m tired of thinking about it, having my attention drawn to it by these archon’s, I’m tired of it being burned or raped or molested.

So tired! I tried to ignore it.

And these dude out here….. Just make it worse…. When they sexualize everything. They don’t give a fuck about me…. Just fucking. And if I was elevated… Maybe cool. But now I need love. I don’t know how else to put it. 

I can only take so much of this before I break down.

Why are Archon’s and Reptilians Pedophiles?

Real question. 

I mean cause if it is about looks then they should really be the last to up hold any type of aesthetics.

I felt like soon as I turned 33 my life was over…. I was being forced into suicide because I no longer was attractive to these beings. Too old? Even though I didn’t feel old…. In a way I do no after all this torture. Even sprout grey hair from this invisible stress. 

I wish I was linked to someone smart who could quantify this experience scientifically with me. The studied studying. 

I’m still trying to understand WHY pedos?

Is it to create a race of submission? 

That still doesn’t explain like actual child sexual abuse.

I told you I met a young girl having sex with one of these things. Like her head is so twisted I would need to like…. Seriously like be with her to explain all of this. They convinced her she was the most beautiful woman in the world and she should not go outside and she is chosen to like get on the spaceship or something. 

And I’m like WoA! That was a while back. Anytime you challenge these things with in people they tend to yank the human back. Put them in anxiety or fear. 

So my life isn’t valuable to archons unless I’m young….. Let’s say under 28. 

I mean that was my first schiz episode…. 33. That was the first time. 

I don’t get it. Its like the worse thing in the world. So why is that apart of their agenda? 

Are different parts of your life handed off to different aliens?

Do some become more attached than others. I mean they couldn’t be that attached if they wanted to force me into suicide. But they probably copied my essence by now. 

The only thing is that you could never copy me for real.