What I see: False Matrix 💩

It’s like the difference between the sun and electricity. The wind and fan.

Over the last year through observation and photos and trying not to loose my actual shit I have seen what I would consider a false matrix.

It took some time to realize this but it is what it is. I’m in it I’m connected to it. It’s everywhere.

I’ve tried my hardest and I’ve tried nothing at all to make it go away. But if anything it’s grown more dense.

It can be light or dark or a color or clear. But I see a network of entities that take turns on my body. Suggesting the nastiest thoughts and then causing a sensation in my body. Even if I don’t respond.

They play on any belief or story line to upset you. Christian, you going to hell. Twin flame? Vow celibacy and never have a relationship so you can meet them “next life”. Dig a goddess? Yep that was your past life and you are a slave. Aliens? Yep you’ve been earth abducted. Want power? You will be a magician or light worker and I can use them. Trying to obtain enlightenment? Try harder almost there almost try harder meditate MORE.

These astral entities will play off any fear or belief creating duality for their storylines. “CONTRAST” the Entity yelled at me it wanted contrast for its story.

I have seen enough. I see them all over and in my body, my house, on buildings, in my phone, like literally a 2D overlay on my screen or camera (just look in my media section). They can switch up their look but generally stay the same. Some literally wear masks to look different. Some look like shadows others look like 2D drawings of Entities (centipedes, mantis, aliens, trolls, teddy bears, some semi human face) that are in constant movement. I can sit here all day and tell you what I saw and how it works …… but really it’s about how they made me feel. Be it their false sickness (in my tummy), or a false sense of love, or like I’m a monster (did something terrible that I never did) or forced orgasms (rape), or bliss like I’m a cat on XTC or complete anxiety like doomsday is coming….. I have felt all of their falseness and false feelings as they have attempted to mind control me. To this day they have attempted every moment of everyday to bait me in with something and I’m done.

I have made a personal decision to not photograph them as much as I was before. Like I have probably thousands of photos trying to capture a bit of what I see. I have enough people confirm I’m not crazy it’s really there. I’m not medical schiz unless the pills kill them but in my brain and eyes. So I need to chill on that.

I see how their connected and communicate. They can literally write words so semi intelligent. They can move or attach, speak. They create dreams with light and illusions. So they may look like an alien in the astral but in your dreams with some light and imagination (and reference) will be your ex lover or a monster. Yes they make dreams! These are dream makers that took it too far. Wonder why dreams are weird and crazy usually………. because most of them are psychopaths. I say this with compassion. It’s not an exaggeration. Their countless lies and torture ….. it would actually be an understatement…… at least a psychopath might take a fucking break.

So at this point all I have is my faith in God the true God and not these little minions out here trying to play God on the astral plane.

I want this to stop. I want detach from this false matrix if I can’t destroy it and all their little toys, tricks and games. But maybe it’s not mine to destroy.

I’m sickened and saddened by this experience. I thought life was so much more than this. Or simpler.

I just want out!!!

Gaia: Reincarnation

So. Gaia, posted a video speculating that early Christian text spoke of reincarnation. And the concept of heaven and hell was created to control people. While I believe this is false I find the argument intriguing enough to listen. Mainly because my personal situation.

So as a “decent” person, I have a dark entity stalking me over the last 3 years trying to make my like so schizophrenically unbearable that it forces me to commit suicide. This entity told me I needed to commit suicide because I molested 57 children in a past life, then said I needed to commit suicide for my twin flame by means of being molested.

So this idea of past lives has came up for me prior. Now if we were to learn from our mistakes why would we not know them? Why would a soul who is humble be tortured in such a way? If I was to commit suicide wouldn’t that only add to the karma wheel?

I tend to think about reincarnation, past lives all that stuff a bit differently from what I saw. No one could tell me anything about my past life self (or any other self) other than my childhood fear of child molestors.

So with intelligent beings this can be a teachable moment in forgiveness. Right?

But it was taken to heights of hell with torture and rape and all kinds of unspeakables that I speak about throughout this blog.

Someone said it was a generational curse (only me apparently), then told me it was implants and black magic from a past life (doubt I black magic’ed myself). I thought reptilian as symbolic representation of Satan BUT HEY who the fuck am I?

So these beings spin webs of lies to the point we are even living it. The lies go that deep. Untangling it would take lifetimes we do not have unfortunately.

If the beings are not lying maybe they projecting THEIR lives on us, and we assume this for as a gift of healing.

But there are beings. What their role is I am unsure. But I would prefer to interpret my own life from now on.

Tree of Life: Archon False Chakra system


This is EXACTLY how they set up the false chakra system over the body. I can see it. Except the first two on the side are closer to the temple/ears and the shoulder one is under the arm pit, the root being the most important extends from the thigh area (inner mostly) to the butt area so to debase your vibrations. 

It’s bullshit. I never had this shit before, I never agreed to it, I never asked for it.  I did yoga like what three in my life after this all started to calm mass ass down. Now a bitch can’t be flexible with out worrying about being possessed?

These chakras are made from the same stuff floating all over my house and spitting sparkle balls at my forehead or whatever it does. 

It’s soo fux up. No one should be forced into this. 

This is so sad that this is all false.

Lost Souls 👤🙏 & Fire

I have heard many theories on what these circular shape things are around my house. Some say its souls/spirits, some say angels, some say archon/ reptialian, I have yet to read anyone directly relate this things with Satan but they sure do come close. 

So one thing I noticed is that these things do NOT like heat. Although they can produce what may feel like heat (nerve / electrical). Actual heat is not what they love. This includes actual fire and HOT water, say in a bath or the outside of a glass of HOT tea.

I guess this came up for me because I woke up, felt one of these things on the top of my hand and the used my eyes to see if there was one there, and then saw the darker middle half way out my hand. I then placed my piping hot coffee cup on the back of my hand and saw it rise up slowly. 

Whatever these things are if they remove themselves from my body after being put in hot water then to me that means THEY ARE NOT SUPPOSE TO BE THERE! 

Maybe I am getting too biblical but maybe these are lost souls, that would endlessly burn in fire. Since they don’t die in heat, but don’t like heat they just run away, they often come back. Or maybe these lost souls are being USE by Reptilians (which i could def see them being thought of as demons back in the day).

They are slowly accumulating all over the house. Edges of the ceiling. And some so bold and big right in the middle of the room.

I’m just tired of these things attaching to me. I know my vibrations are “low” because whatever is orchestrating this, keeps using child sexual abuse to make me super sad and grossed out and cry. Which probably just feeds them all. But I TRY, and when I try to not allow the visions to bring me down (cause they are not real), I get attached even more. 

These things touching my skin are causing rashes, burning, vibration and discomfort. 

When I deal with emotional now its the physical with these things burning.

I’m TRYing SO HARD! 🙏

“Remember Who Gave You Your Crown” 👑

“Remember Who Gave You Your Crown”, the Entity said to me posing as my Ex (twin flame). The story was of Isis and Osiris. And I was to be his Queen. Many image themselves as Kings and Queens, Gods and Goddesses. But I wanted to be me. 

I hadn’t fully realized I was in what I called “Opposite World”. Everything was flipped, Everything was a lie, and even if I figured that something was a lie, that could be a lie too. Its a set up. And you never win. I had no choice but to play along until I figured out what was happening to me. I cried so much. 

I felt my head become hot and tender. I literally felt like my skull had been opened and exposed. Like my brain was bring directly spoken into. It was loud.

I had read that this COULD be symptoms of kundalini or the opening of the crown chakra, also known as a halo, and the “soul star chakra”. I tried to understand. Little did I know. 

In opposite world everything is a lie, everything is an opposing force to the very essence of your being. When I was told “remember who gave you your crown”, I didn’t realize the very opposite was happening. I wasnt being given a “crown”, my crown was being taken away. My mind was no longer mine. I didn’t have control, I didn’t have room. I mean I still don’t fully. 

This was a check mate.

Using my Ex (Twin Flame) as a guise to get inside my head for lord knows what, for god knows what reasons.

I was shot down from my throne. Viciously attacked ….. Constantly attacked to the point of debilitation. 

I will still never understand why.

Now my home is under attack. The are the shadow spots that spew these things at me. I can’t see everything. But I can see and feel enough. 

My body is reacting to the attacks again. Rashes, burning.

The Entities would say “I WIN!”, but it won by showing me visions of child sexual abuse until I gave up and decided to die crying in my bed. Everyday.

If that’s winning ….. I’m OK with loosing.

But I want to fight back. I’m tired of my mind being a canvas for its sick images. 

👑🙏😢

“Astral Sex | How to Achieve Out of Body Sex (Safely)” ? 🙅🙏👽

First Fuck this guy!

When I first heard of astral ANYTHING….. I read that one should be cautious of having sex there for they may attach to you and reek havok in your life. So that instantly turned me off since I wouldn’t know what I was doing.

Over the last two years I have an attachment that I have no idea how I got that was trying to seem like it was my Ex (“twin falme”) having “astral sex” naming my ex’s name, then Osiris and then Gregory. As soon as I said no it became daily rape. Constant rape…. To this day. Rape.

This dude is literally opening up a portal and allowing anything to come and go as they please for his own personally gratification.

Because communication is “telepathic” and can seem as mind control, the Entity has tried to convince me that I want it. Or begging for it, especially as I am waking up from sleep.

I’ve said in a previous post (Alien Love Bite) that I believe that many Astral Entities cause the drama of a “Twin Flame” love story so it can isolate you and keep you for its own means. Many people in the “separation phase” tend to stay celibate waiting for their lover to return, but all the while communicating with them “telepathically” during that time. Since you are too afraid (false implanted thought), to contact them you rarely have the chance to confirm this telepathy with them. I’m sure most are ashamed of having this astral sex with their supposed “twin flame” and won’t talk about it or admit it. Everything is sacred and a secret….. RIGHT! Except I’m being fuckint raped. That’s why they keep you from your lover! So they can use you in ways a narcissist hasn’t even dreamed of. 

Fuck this guy! Opening up portals and letting shit in that van harm people. All so he can get laid by some astral avatar looking chick?

Get your whole fucking life together! All of it! 

I have to sit here and be raped all day while there is completely willing idiots looking for this shit. It’s so fucked up! 

What Do You See? 👾

Y’all maybe I’m buggin. But my friend said she saw what I saw in both pictures. 

You have to zoom in on both. The 1st picture look near the dark entrance, the look near the divider screens, the look in the top left corner above the green lamp. The 2nd picture zoom in look near in the dark area to the top left. These are unedited and I took them on my sisters Mac Air while I was watching a video cause I figured it would be better quality than my phone. I took more some with me in the photos and and still saw them all over the place actually more than I originally caught with my eye. I have one or two more if you want me upload. 

What do you see? How many?

After I sent my friend the photos she sent me photos from her research today. She said the first had a bunch of “insectiods” aliens, and the second a reptilian.

I feel like the insectoids aliens are similar to the drawing I made. And the the second to the photo she sent me. 

My other friend sent me these photos of what he sees since I showed him my drawing. Which is also very similar to the first photo. 

In the second photo she sent me this picture which is what I see in the second picture more or less. I’m not sure if I see one big one and a small one. 

I mean I’ve been calling this thing a “pedophile dot”, but yesterday for the FIRST TIME EVER it called itself “ugly”, at first I thought it was making fun of me for the billionth time. But no it said “No, I’m really ugly” NOT ugly for all the pedo, incest, racist, nasty, homicidal, psychopathic thoughts, visions and sensations that it forces me to endure, but that it really thought it was physically ugly. Superficial and typical. 

So WTF? 

I only see a mist of impressions, dark light, false light, like photo negatives in space of these archon alien reptilian insectiod bullshit. Whatever it is it doesn’t feel good and it does NOT have good intentions. A few people (light workers or whatever) asked if there was a portal open near me because it seemed to be an infestation. One woman said there was a portal hiding inside of ME! 

Wtf y’all?

I told my friend that “I have proof you see what I see. So I’m not bugging. But I’m kinda bugging because I’m not bugging.”

So like now what? If you added all the Schizo’s, Targeted Individuals and a bunch of other people that don’t know what they are playing with. That is A LOT of people walking around with bullshit.

An Excerpt from the, “Cleansing Spiritual Portals” that I posted prior to this post;

“The end results of all these open portals are perversions, child molestation, abductions, nightmares, sleep paralysis, stolen babies which look like miscarriage, materialism, selfishness, greed, violence and misery, all of which the aliens relish because they produce energy that the aliens can eat for food or sell on to other spirits in the spirit-market.” NOT TO MENTION RAPE, RACISM, INCEST to say the least. 

Y’all ! WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?!

I took a second deep look at the I keep seeing infinity signs all over the place and the second look got scarier but kinda cartoony, like all the insectoid started popping out in the image. 

PS. The Demon just blacked me out as I write this for like 30 seconds cause im writing this. 

Anyway yea so then I started tripping on insectoids and like bla, either way there is some gnarly energy either way and I don’t need a photo to prove it. 

Its fucked up.


Woke up with Marks 😮👽

I woke up this morning with two circles in the same area on my left arm where I had numbers 8966 imprinted in September. 

There was also a bruise on the top of my hand in the shape of kidney bean. 

Last night before I went to sleep I started feeling stings all over my arms and legs…. Almost like what I would think jelly fish stings…. So I went to the bathroom and put some fold water. 

Not I have straight up circles on my arms. 

Uhg I’m the only being attacked and seeing all of this stuff. …. I’m so over this.

Soon as I go to sleep all these Archon Circles keep hovering around me making it almost impossible to sleep. I’m like DAMN y’all are so RUDE you can’t wait until I actually go to sleep? 

Shits so annoying. 

Understanding Space: Portal?

So there are a few things going on.

There is what I see, which look like Large Human Cells (sometimes with symbols inside) all around the house. And then there is what i see in Photos. Which seem a little more detailed, in appearance. Then there is what i hear and feel. Which i am not even sure correlates with whats going on.

I have been taking photos over the last 5 days of my house and my body to see if there was any progress. My friend sent me some energy with flowers and that was really nice. But for the most part I still see these….. projections of sorts.

Now i see the circles, and i am wondering if each circle (Human Cell/ Archon Jelly fish i talk about) is directly related to one of the Entity Projections I see. in photos At least the major ones.

So far I see in photos: A medusa/ banshee looking woman, reptilian looking dude, an insectoid (maybe 3), trolls (maybe a few), Buddha looking guy, “Osiris” looking dude with a reptilian under), and MAYBE an Isis near my bed. I see like other little thing here and there, like one that looks like Stitch from lilo and stitch, and a bunch that look like geckos heads, a pig, alien heads and bunch of other things. They all have a ghosty look to them. Almost 2D holographic appearance to them.

The Osiris and Isis are gone now from what i can see. Still see the medusa lady and i know reptilian looking dude is still here, and some crazy gecko things, a troll.

What i see with my eyes: X, O, 8 infinity signs, #, 4 horizontal lines, human cell looking blobs, one with many circles with in each other (sleep one), sometimes an alien head or just eyes, these kinda black spider blobs, My friends smiley face and flower energy she sent me. Most of it is purplish, blue, black or white tone to it.

SO i guess what i am wondering is if what i see (the symbols) are directly related or a portal for each spirit projection i see in photos. 

I am also wondering if this a human sending these entities, talupas, portals or whatever to me as well. Been thinking about this since my friend sent me the smiley face and flowers. 

I live in New York City, so there is bound to be many spirits or whatever these things are. Im not afraid of them, but when they attach to me in any way my energy is zapped and its extremely painful. Half the time i want to eat immediatly after. I don’t know if its just me or my family. If this has been going on before i got here, or if this is something i brought here because i was so sad after a break up.

Im trying to stay a bit logical.

I want to make sure these things are cleared out before i ever choose to leave for my families health. Whatever is here, i can not see being directly from my family to be honest (like a generational curse). And its not like its a loved on that passed on, and they seem to seek to harm.

I really want to clear this for my sister, she has been looking more and more tired lately. Not to mention they threaten all my family, friends and loved ones anytime i figure something out or try a method to get rid of them. My sister is pushing herself to the max to over come this stroke (which for some reason i associate with these entities). So like i really want my family to be ok now that I can see and have a better scope of whats happening or how they move around the house.

I put prayers on all of my mirrors as directed by one website, burned some sage, prayed. I’m trying so hard. This is not fair to my family or anyone if they are trying to hurt me.

I know this stuff sounds crazy, cause it is!!!

It doesnt even seem real. There is some part of it that is real, like the fact that it makes feel like shit everyday. But im not even sure about this ghostly looking projections in the photos.

OK THATS ALL FOR TODAY!!!