A square of black dots maybe 100 went into my skull.
I’m not sure what it is or why it hurt like all etheric things that keep going into my fucking skull but…… so yea…..
Then the demonic entity yells “do you know how blessed you are?” As it hurts me more. It’s makes me hate the word blessed and every one is going around talking about how blessed they feel and blessings it’s a trendy word and I’m triggered AF cause this demon has made “god bless” a curse some how.
I don’t know what’s going on anymore.
Below is a drawing of ONE of many of my attackers. My guess reptilian, I believe the others are Archons or their children and are easier to put in or around people.
Either way fuck this shit!
I can’t make this shit up. And if I did it definitely wouldn’t be through ruining my life.
So I have seen 100s of different “entities” during this 3 year long attack. Mantis, aliens, golems, reptilians, troll, teddy bears, parasites, dragons, regular demons, geckos, “acturians”, vampire, ghosts, Shadow “people”, lotus’, sunflowers and daisies, butterflies, infinity symbols, Isis and Osiris statue, cats, mermaids, like half woman half man human esq faces, and countless other ones I can not describe. MOST that I see seem to be just heads. Head cut off by a circle. They were almost drawings and could be anything or anyone.
Now I HAVE heard my ex’s voice actually still do unfortunately. I’ve heard my mother’s and fathers. I’ve heard pretty much all of my coworkers when I was really loosing my mind. And that is why I thought it was originally telepathy.
I also hear 2 male voices and a female voice that I do not know who they are but they the main harassers. (“Gang stalkers”)
And I guess that’s where I came to a am epiphany. I saw 100s of astrals all over my NYC apartment. On the TV, on the enclosing my room creating a matrix, on my dresser in the hallway…… like woa, but my assumption is that they are all derivatives fragments of the same whole and can conglomerate at anytime and …………. say………. go back to what ever layer of hell it came from? Maybe?
I will hear the same voice coming off the TV in the living room or in my sisters room depending. Both have a little purple energy blob (actually more than one) hanging around it. That’s why ambient TV kills me because the Entity can manipulate sound as long as sound is happening. If not they they resort to white noise in the ears.
ANY WAYS, besides all of the different costumes (out of the 100s of Entities I have seen I still don’t know who has been speaking to me), and ALL the different “personalities” they try to pull off (such as my friends, family, coworkers, ex’s, lololol GOD lol) one thing has remained the same is their ACTUAL personality. One I’m not familiar with. So I’m going to assume at least one is new, but if I assume too much that just create more story and story gives them more play time.
Generally speaking these entities fit the profile of a “reptilian” sexually perverted, controlling, mean, manipulative, liars, mind control, dark negative thoughts all that corny shit. Most will just call them demons.
Be it targeted individuals, attacked “awakened” (whatever the fuck that means now a days), schizophrenics, or possessed, the voices are all generally the same. Vile, sexually depraved, twisted “consciousness”. They repeat the same shit over and over and over and over 🙄 and over and over again. Looping the same gross ass thought and trying to convince YOU that’s YOU lol when it’s THEM! Even when you know!
So the fact that these Entities are generally the same either saying the same thing or with the same agenda speaks volumes. But of course each person has their own individual life so of course each fragment of this energy will be tailored to them more less.
But there are too many commonalities. And I’m starting to get really over this…… and I’m pretty sure others are as well.
I don’t need proof with all these photos (although I have it). I don’t need to listen to them because all they have done is caused pain and looped it, lead me astray in my true “spiritual” journey and distracted me from my joy.
I know it’s not easy that’s why they use mind control tactics in our sleep. But for those that are struggling in this fucked up false ass matrix……….
👾👾👾 GAME OVER!!! 👾👾👾
So they put me on ambify and lithium and I will give it a shot but if this shit don’t work I’m not taking it.
I am not even bipolar …. low key depressed but I thinks it’s with in reason for having a fucking Demonic reptilian shadow monster raping me all day and calling me names.
Like today I started seeing the outline of the beings in the middle of a manhattan street while I was in a cab. I didn’t notice at first but then saw blue sparkles and then my vag being touched and then I was like huh?! And I saw a clear sparkling thing move and then I look to the side and there was a large dark purplish blob in the middle of the street that didn’t move.
So WTF? Like they don’t have to be in my house they can just be in the streets molesting random ass people. I’m just saying. Saw it twice and two in my hallway.
Sucks that I have no one to talk to to understand what I am seeing. At least it could help some people.
But either way, I’m like depressed only cause these voices won’t go away and hurt me and makes me irritable and I don’t want to do anything other wise I would be regular sarcastic but optimistic.
Either way we will see. But I’m not taking this shit for fun. If it don’t work it’s in the trash.
I read revelations for the first time and unfortunately it made sense to me in a different way. Even though the Entity kept trying to say I was the slithering whore the whole time (one reason why is difficult to read the Bible) 🙄. And then there is so much imagery that that also gets difficult.
I mean as I have been opened to the a reality of astral/ and Demi urges or whatever you want to call it 4D or demons/ fallen angels/ false gods ….. much of the war seems to be in the “heavens” but of course we are affected. We are apart of it as well.
I never new evil was SO real. Like I thought there was like bad and evil people like Hitler or something. But it’s so much deeper what takes over humans. I thought monsters were just of the imagination.
But revelations says there will be a new heaven and that makes me happy. I told these demons all their toys were going to be taken away.
It also talks about men having the mark of the beast on their forehead and I know for a FACT these beings are always on my forehead (I have photos). So I guess I’m marked which kinda makes me sad, cause I know I messed up but I didn’t think it was that bad. They are on my forehead and in my eyes and on my hands and in my heart and tummy and genitals and they wiggle my toes…. they are in my home on my walls …. under my bed…. in my bathtub…….. I saw the white mist enter my home and I had hoped it was help…. my prayers answered…. but it was just more astrals setting up my house.
I don’t know anything….. I’m just describing what I’m going through.
But it was deep. The Entity voice is always bringing up my mistakes and asking me if I what I think about this or that. Then asks me about child abusers….. and my answer is always no. And I know I’m not suppose to judge it’s not for me to but if you ask me it’s a no. It’s fucked up and ruins lives.
Either way I hate this. All of it. I try to “stay positive” and be like aww look at the cute little demons and not judge them on how they look but how they treat me ………. but I hate it ….. all of it always.
And I’m not use to worshipping God from a place of fear but of thanks. Fear of going to hell or being sucked up in this Demonic matrix. But of thanks…… so I’m just trying to stay true to me and what feels right to me…. which that doesn’t.
I guess it was deep for me.
So my parents are away and I decided to turn off all the TVs, and cut off all the fans AND any other ambient noises (radio clocks).
I heard less voices and ONE voice…… and maybe a distant scream. Then the voices got SUPER MEAN like they became WAY more physical as I was trying to sleep I noticed a huge migraine (even though I took my migraine meds), anxiety in my body and a racing thoughts so I acknowledged them and tried to just breathe then the voices/ Entities started making me feel ill….. if not actually thumping my heart.
Then I saw this bitch come down into my third eye and give me a dream ….. one moment it’s about Beyoncé the next it turns into my father raping me AGAIN!!!!! And then I cussed them out in my dream calling them a piece of shit and then they start pounding on my heart…… and then how I now KNOW that shit is not just my heart acting up is that they started thumping my neck and I woke up.
This all happened in an hour and a half of sleep. So I didn’t even get to sleep.
All because they didn’t have voices to play off of with all from the TV and radios. Pieces of shit. I swear I’m going to disintegrate them.
This bitch down here said she’s Acturian. Said she “test before I sit”. This bitch needs to find another seat. This is just one drawing but there are other forms. If this bitch has anything to do with any of this she can not possibly be Acturian. And no she can not sit or mount or anything. Gross piece of shit Entity.
These Demonic Astral parasitic Entities are getting really desperate.
I BELIEVE Archons (or whatever you want call them), communicate through our photos on social media (specifically).
Like little digital watermarks only they can see or notice. (Or a trained eye).
I see words and beings that make no sense to me. Many of the words in other languages.
That’s all I got.
Just a hypothesis.
So I am currently upset with my sister because like all I do is do shit for her and like i was kind of forced into this role and the on top of it hearing the schiz shit and no respects that I don’t want to hear TVs and my sister is always telling me to shut up unless she wants me to do something for her.
Anyway totally separate complicated human emotion shit sister and then the voice comes in and says: “You are such a ……… B. A. B. Y. !!!! You want to be pedofiled like one!?!”
So fuck my life….. Threats don’t even matter anymore because they are still going to torture me anyway.
This is an all day everyday thing. And I’m kinda starting to really be over this life.
Being schizophrenic is totally not good for the economy unless you are Medicaid and taking their $350 a month drugs that don’t work.
Otherwise if I wasn’t demonically possessed schizophrenic I would TOTALLY be working paying these worthless student loans and traveling and buying shit, I’m way over due for a new pair of leggings. But oh fucking well.
Guess I will just lay in this bed battling demons all day as they fill my body with their dense Co2 hoping that they go away.