Awakened or Woke? πŸ‘€

Lol at this image tho. Like my skull felt like it was literally being cracked open like an egg by tgese demons.

Im not gonna lie. I drank the red kool aid. Like guzzled that bitch down like it was a chaser. I wanted answers and the New Age knew EXACTLY what to sell me.

Prepped with spiritual memes….. FB posts showing up on my timeline about the “1111 awakening” “are you seeing 1111?” Which is basically an initiation into their demon matrix to see how easily suggested you are. Angels and seeing pretty sparkles lights….. Orbs.

Awakening. I thought it would be like an awesome DMT trip. Maybe i would meet my “spirit guide” or a loved one….God…. Maybe the angels that i THOUGHT followed me all this time. I thought i would be in a different place some how. All the cool kids talk about astral projection. Who doesnt want to know what’s out there? Beyond.

But “the veils lifted” or maybe more so the wool was officially pullwd over my eyes…… the “shift happeded” i was “awakened” and i was not happy. At all.

See what i found was …. From my perspective is that from what i see this is just demon play. You are basically playing with little devils. And yea they maybe nice to you at first. Say they are an angel or a goddesss (mine did), but they lie and want to rape you and play with you and force you into suicide or misery. So that is the short version.

Ops so your awakening is fun…… Must be “the dark night of the soul”. Like yall got the juice for everything. Honestly dark night was being demonically attacked with nothing being able to stop it. They controlled my mind and body. They could insight false emotions ranging from a “happy/love” to “depression/suicide”. I knew it wasnt genuine. I could feel it in my body. These werent my genuine emotions. And it was sligjtly depressing….. But i knew the difference. “Dark night of the soul” “karmic lessons” are poor excuses for demonic torture really.

These demons place you in a matrix (for lack of a better word) of themselves which is inhabited by smaller little demons … And even smaller ones then that. So small there could multipul ones in your eyes. They are the vital structure and characters in our dreams/visions…… Even you as the onlooker.

So you are in this demon matrix….. Since you have no clue wtf is going on …… You can easily be dooped into thinking its an Angel or a nice being…. Alien maybe even who knows. But we only see or feel in part. Not the whole. Or mayne they only show you their light illusion version (can shape shift into anything) and not what they really look like.

When folks do their astral journeys and such they are really just having some really bright demons playing around in their head. I hate to burst the bubble. Its a dream. An illusion. The demons are the astral and made of aether (i think), something like that. They are made of light and work the aethers. Space. Lucifer was described as the “light barrier”. These beings/demons are made of light as well. And they are all attached to each other in a hive mind like matrix.

Its hell on earth.

So are people really awakened? Because honestly it feels like everyone is just telling a bunch of lullibys to some really scary shit. Like what they do with faries and vampires. Before vampires where like the scariest thing in the world….. Now we got movies where bitches is marrying one and having babies them. Like watered down shit.

I get it. Its scary. Its not fun….. To just accept a bleek reality that our world is over runned with demons who are using you and lying to you.

But its the reality. They are putting illusions over your eyes. And we are drinking the kool aid….. Its our own spiritual death really.

In the New Age community they are talking about awakening and acension ……. And 5D new earth…. 3rd eye astral…. and its always about getting some place other then where you are in the present like its some unobtainable video game. Find your TRUE “mission” when you awaken.

I was of service and dedicated my life to my community for 15 years and maybe even longer if you count as a child cleaning up the forests. And no this doesnt have to mean i was an”indigo child” , i cleaned it up cause it was gross and i wanted to play.

Like why isnt your mission some regular degular shit? Like why it gotta be “saving humanity”…… Buuuuuuuuut you are just basically sharing delusions and false information on youtube.😐

Unfortunately giving a fuck in this society seems like a super power. But its what we are suppose to do. I give a fuck. I give a fuck that my people that are being given false hopes and information to drive them into demonic play that will slowly lean them astray and further from God only confusing them more and possibly loosing all faith if not having some remixed version of the truth.

Are we going to be awakened or woke? Woke to the realities of both the 3D physical plane and the lies of the spiritual world?

Im not playing the game anymore.

To be honest with you (i wish)

To be completely honest …… I wish i was sold the lie. These demons didnt even try to lie very well. After the Osiris/Isis twin flame telepathy bullshit didnt pan out (posing as telepathy with my ex) they went straight for mediocre lies and then torture.

I mean beleive me. I WISH this mofo was my higher self, spirit guide, ancestor, benevolent alien sent to help humanity. ……….. I wish it was telepathy with my ex so i could tell him how much he made me feel insecure and didnt fight for us …… That these demons were using his voice to say i love you and i fell for it.

I wish this was some positive kundalini experience where “my chakras are activated” and my Soul Star is lit up and my health is intacted…… I wish i was the chosen one …… 144k sent to help humanity and these were the trials and tribulations that God put me here for…… I wish this was “the veil being lifted” as opposed to imposed. I wish this was “shedding old belief systems for the the collective”. In fact I GOT some new ones i would like to impose. I wish this was my ascension and NOT descension. I wish is was schizophrenia….. And the medication worked. I wish i was a warrior that wasnt tired.

There were so many options. But the torture remained. It hurts….. Its difficult to breathe sometimes. …. I feel this painful demons attached to my head or chest and or vagina sometimes my butt/spine. Waves of electrocution. I wish it was cosmic attunement.

I see them in my house. I see them attached to loved ones. People on the street…… In some peoples photos.

I wish i didnt see them. I wish I didnt stare at them long enough to recognize them now …. Because im useless. I cant help anyone. Telling someone they got a demon on their head aint gonna do shit but plant the seeds of paranoia for these demons to play with or for my friends to stop fuckin with me. All i can do is give testimony to those that are suffering and struggling.

I wish this was enlightenment…… All i did was awaken to a nightmare.

New Age vs. New World Order

I definitely fell into the New Age community because at the time they seemed to have answers for many of the strange experiences i was beginning to have. Seeing sparkles and flashes of light, dreams, “spirit” communication, visions, seeing “angel numbers” all the time 1111 to just name a few. But…… As soon as my experience took a left turn into a schizophrenic nightmare i was called crazy, dark, not of the light, negative ect by people in FB groups. And honestly those are things that me nor most of the people who know me.

I found that this was how many dealt with people in the spiritual community when someone was having a “spiritual crisis” or an entity attack if not that the basic elemantary suggestion of a salt bath and white light was prescribed to remedy the situation.

As i read on many of the posts. I found a great deal of many religious beliefs melded into one. Calling on Jesus and goddesses …. Metaphysically opening of the “third eye”….. Beliefs that the aliens were here to “help us grow and ascend” to the “new earth” or 5D as well as occult stuff.

Is was all one big tangled ball of beliefs. And while i originally come from a mindset of respecting everyones belief (with in reason), i also had a difficult time accepting Christianity as one i WAS queer and two i lost faith in the church when i was a kid when our pastor raped a 14 year old and everyone still accepted him as the pastor. Not to mention wars.

But i have come to terms. I can belueve in Jesus and God and the word and not necessarily be “Christian”. Im ok with that as apart of my current path.

A few problems i have with the New Age is the appropriation of peoples culture and beliefs with out much respect to the actual people. They use dieties and rituals and practices with out any regard to the depth of understanding thst goes behind that. Each symbol, each diety, figure, practices, food, holiday ect.

With that…. Much of the New Agers talk about “all is one, one is all” or “we are all connected” or “the veils are being lifted” …. Promoting telepathy and communication with “the other side”. Most are ok with the lie. The other side of “the veil” is fucking scary! Do you know that. Its absolutely insane and scary. But they are apart of this world. They are everywhere and NO irs not your deceased grandma Sally. Its a demon playing GAMES.

Now all these demons are connected. They have telpathic communication networks of sorts. And so the demon or some call it “a familiar spirit” that has been hanging around you or your family will tell a psychics demons all you want to hear. So you keep playing and paying.

All is one….. The melding of religions and beliefs seems soooooo….. New World Order-ish to me. One world one government one monitary system one belief.

These demons are out here melding belief systems to keep you confused. Half these people do not know what they are playing with. They THINK they are playing with angels but if they revealed their true form you would probably be shocked. And thats the lie! You really think Arch Angel Micheal is speaking to a thousand basic ass bettys on youtube? Right!

They are playing up “the event” and people think the aliens are coming down or a new earth 5d paradise will magically appear. Dudes? Really? If everyone believes this shit just enough….. When that veil actually comes down they can play whatever they want. Aliens, new messiah, ect. They will have officially dooped everyone because everyone believes in everything and we all sitting here confused as shit.

Im done with the game and lies.

You know what a 3rd eye opening is? A demon sucking on your shit feeding you useless visions, dreams, and suggestions. Mind manipulation. And you fell for it. I did too……. Of course i wanna talk to my ancestor or an angel or whatever…… But that aint them!

Just cause you got the bright side of the New Age rainbow doesnt mean your shit aint dark. It means you are naive and gullible.

Keep playing!

As of Today ☁ Archon Stuff

Last night a dark mass “cloud” swept over my body as I tried to fall asleep in bed. It said, “you feel so good” in a creepy voice. I figured this was just another trick to get me worked up. But I kept my cool and remembers all the times these things called me fat, ugly, a man ect. I just kept saying get out of my body get out of my home. 

As the black mass was over me the visions (illusions), were more intense than before. More vibrant, which was strange. They were kinda fading for a while. The flashes were more often. 

As of today, the Archon dots are not AS apparent as days before. I can see glimpses of them and mainly the sparkles. (I will never look at glitter the same ever again) And I wonder if that has to deal with the black mass that was trying to get inside of me. 

I don’t know if this is a good or a bad thing. Probably just another game. 

After I wrote my post Sister Sister, the Archon Demon went on to do this whole dramatic play that it was being tortured or carried away. Just screaming ect. It was annoying and I told IT that I knew it was doing. Just putting on a dramatic play so maybe I feel like it got what it deserved for what it did to me and my family. I’m not falling for it. And it immediately stopped. 

Shit is so wack.

I had to talk myself into taking a bath. Because no matter where I go, these things are here. Sleeping, outside, bathroom. So I can’t avoid them. 

Now I have to go take a salt bath with a bunch of hateful archon sparkle jelly fish blobs staring at me and trying to fuck up my night. 

False Chakra Systems & Archon Possession πŸ‘½πŸ’šπŸ™…

There is nothing wrong with chakras. They are a beautiful way of understanding our body and being mindful. The fact that we used these “chakra” systems as a tool towards some fantasy enlightenment is maybe where we fucked up and allowed for the system to be taken over by “Achons”. This means its purest intent was twisted and used misinform the individual.

I honestly only felt 3. But this was the beginning of my attack. “Root, heart, third eye”, the beginning I felt a cool icy hot swirl over these area and I made the wrong assumption that my chakras were being “activated”. Soon after slowly….. I would start to feel others. Feet, crown, tummy, uterus and smaller ones on my ears and shoulders. 

What I would come to find out is that these “energy centers” were only being exported and the only imported would be pain, confusions, fear, lust, sadness.

I would find out later that that these “energy” centers my body feeling entities burrowing their energy/vibration into my cells. 

There is also an…….. A hierarchy to these Chakra Archonic entities. The Crown (hearing, thoughts ect) is the head honcho and all the other ones fall in line. The next in line is the third eye (vision, imagination and our real eyes), they play off of each other to act as one cohesive body.

This is a false chakra system to make you believe you are actually making progress when really your cells are probably vibrating lower, you are being distracted from truly being in alignment with yourself. 

Almost no belief system is free from the distraction of a false archon play. In Christianity it would be demonic possession or “voice of god” (crown). 

Again the information/belief is not wrong or pointless per say, its just being used against you so you unknowingly allow yourself to be taken control of.

Having your Crown Chakra blown up basically will feel like possession or schizophrenia. Paranoia starts in the third eye, images memories of the past or future causing anxiety.

Discernment is our greatest tool in this world. I can’t say it will stop an attack but at least we will know we are being attacked and its not some etheric magical enlightenment happening. 

You Are Welcome πŸ™

I was practicing a Chi breathing technique on YouTube that a friend sent to me.

I noticed some blocks and add ons but whatever I always notice.

Either way, it talked about creating chi and then bringing it back into the body.

I rememered a moment when this all first started happening and my chest extending out past my shoulders felt like I was opened up. That’s when I first started to feel like I was dying.

I didn’t feel much in my center now, just this tender heart. I figured the entity took all my chi, that’s why all I can do right now is sleep, eat cookies and cry about the world.

The guy talking in the video said that we are “the most powerful free energy devices on the planet”.

So I immediately told the Entity, “you are welcome….” And I meant it. I wasn’t being sarcastic as usual. It was a gift.

I figured that I gave (well it took) my energy to this Entity. I just don’t know how to reve my chi back up yet……

…… Wonder if instead of scaring the shit out of me, disrespecting me, violating, if other entity beings whatever where to be upfront? Maybe we could live peacefully. 

Entity would be like, “Yo I really need this chi, I will make it quick.”

They won’t and… Maybe can’t tell me who or what they are. Maybe I’m too peace loving and just feel like if we just put the truth out there it would easier for all of us and work something out. 

Who knows, maybe I would be like “sure homie, you can have some of this chi love!” And i would just go wipe some more up later.

I can give with out receiving. But I don’t know I just need a bit of honesty.

Who knows maybe chi doesn’t even exists. Maybe I am pulling this out of my ass. Maybe they don’t need all this brain electric goodness or this golden chi.

All I know is, there has to be a better way.

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Crazy Talks: What I See πŸ‘€

Just jotting down some notes.

I don’t see this on anyone else but myself.

There are two very distinct things I see other than the visions. I see the these circle dots that can divide into multipuls. And I see this vibrating heat wave looking thing that moves in and out of me. Think like a clear slimmer from ghost busters. 

So I was commenting on a post to a lady that says she can remove implants and the slimmer thing shot out of my stomach and my stomach/ back area vibrated trembled and I could see it moving around outside of me. 

Noe occasionally I during the day will get headaches or I will feel the pressure on my head and I will hear almost like a distant train tremble vibration. I think this vibrating clear thing is the pressure I feel on my head, the anxiety, its like its the ….. Emotion and sensation maker. I don’t know if it is a separate entity or controlled. My guess it is controlled. 

Now the circle dot thing seems to be the visions/ dreams/ hallucinations/ Logo maker. But I’m not sure to what extent it morphs and uses light. If I pinch the corners of my eyes I see a circle of light in each corner. Not sure if this is bad or good. But I’m sure it plays its part. I have literally seen visions (waking dreams) fade away into almost a logo (a simple none color emoji vision), I have also seems dreams fade as well. 

So I see this dot thing that was never there before as the cause of the visions. And this energy slimmer thing as the cause of the sensations I feel. 
After it jumped out of my stomach it went for GUESS WHERE you guys??!?? My VAGINA! Of course! My vagina! I felt it go there after it shot out.

I’m really over this Scooby doo mystery. Seriously. 

Questions? 🌍

So like hella writers, leaders, teachers, scientists, artists, people who have “advanced” civilization in some way, many were/are hella racist, sexist, classist, homophobic, ect ect……. 

And I’m sitting here wondering if they supposedly advanced humanity can we trust their work?

This was sparked after reading a quote about hilter that Jung made. Something about how hilter was a mouthpiece for what whispered through Germans souls.

While, I CAN take the best and leave the rest. Can we trust someone, who in some ways may have been a Nazi sympathizer, construct frameworks for our mode of understanding and thinking and or psychological make up?

I think you get where I am going with this. Its everywhere and it’s overwelming. Its like can capitalism ever evolve or be fixed when the foundations snd roots are based in racist and imperial thought?

Same with science.

We need thinkers who can override this shit. From science, psychology, religion, governing, invention. We are all sitting here arguing shit, hoping it will change and all it takes is one dude to come out the woodwork to set us back 100 years.

Just saying. 

“Archon Mind Parasite Self-Defense”

This video is interesting and grounding. 

1. While I truly enjoy understanding the “chakra system”, I believe it is a great way of understanding and bring mindful of the part of our body. I also do not truly believe we have 7 cones of energy. I think it can be a good way to understand organs and parts of the mind by compartmentalizing these idesas but not as an actual system. The concept is fine….. But diving deep into the illusion of being some super human is where we get caught by these Entities. 

We are electromagnetic, this is true. We have metals in our body. But how that actually looks I have no idea. 

2. As stated these beings will pretend to be anything of authority. And will play off of both bad and “positive” emotions or words to control. So it really is a double edge sword. So I have narrowed the single most important thing is ignorance. Lack of awareness will have you pulled in so many different directions. Happy sad angry. So when we are aware that these being are trying implant mistrust or fear anger or even manic happiness we are not in control. 

3. More recently I “saw” visuals that were not visions of “light” that looked like a couple of different things. One looks like maybe 20 circles inside of each other, another like jellyfish lights, others are sparks of “light” or globs of colorful “energy” that looks like its leaving my being . This is false light , this is not real light. It is not coming from the sun, or a lamp. I doubt it is coming from me. But even if this “light” is coming from me, the fact that it is being tampered with to create “light” is still false. So be careful of being lured by “the light”. All that glitters is not gold.

4. Between being in spiritual forums and schizophrenic forums to just everyday interactions it is very easy to see how we are all affected. Its easy to observe.

5. I have no idea how to get rid of these things. Again prior to being “attacked” I was on an organic diet and fairly happy with only a break up that rattled my spirit. However prior to this full fledged experience, I can recall up until the age of 15 where these beings have been around me. Or have acted as “spirits” of loved ones, or “angels” or supposed “spirit guides. Being young, i just accepted it as such cause i didnt know any better. Movies, religion and so on talks about spirits, angels, demons, ect so it is socially acceptable. I moved on with my life. But this ignorance, because no that was not my deceased grandma or grandpa, and no that flash of light was not an angel trying to help you, that ignorance is what comes to haunt me later.  

Don’t get me wrong, that idea of believing in angels or the spirit of our loved ones “being with us”, there is nothing wrong with this idea. If we want to embody the archetype idea of an angel is fine,if we want to comfort ourselves with the idea of our deceased loved ones looking down on us or living on “through us” as a form of ancestry that’s fine. Poetic of sorts. But these ideas can also be manipulated by these beings. In fact anything can if we don’t have our Witt’s about us. 

So again its not a clear cut answer.

Lol but if I find one I will surely let you know. For now I am careful what I believe and keep things simple. Because these parasites are always trying to drag me into a storyline so they can position themselves in a place of power rather than what they really and truly are.