Please tell me if I’m bugging but there are X on my arm. The most visable on id near my wrist. Some of these are the same things I see float up to me.
I’m legit thinking about limiting my electronic time and getting a sun lamp until its warm enough to go outside.
I’m not depressed other that the fact I have endure the pain of this situation. And I already take vitamin D. My mood is only because of this experience other wise I’m pretty happy go lucky.
My friend who has also experienced this and has confirmed some things for me told me to look into making a DIY Earthing Grounding mat. I was so use to farming barefoot at my old job when I had the chance or being on the beach. Now I guess the best I can do is fake sunlight and fake earthing until I am able to purge these nasty entities.
The prayers I have been doing seem to only make me be attacked harder.
I know we are suppose to be on Gods side but…… The prayer is for protection from these things and to forgive them. But it doesn’t seem to be working soon after I feel sucked dry as if I’m about to die.
So idk. The Tai Chi by Eric Pilgrem seems decent. But they just come back.
I look forward to having my feet in the sand on a beautiful long island beach soon as I can.
So I took some antidepressants and I feel ….. LESS happy if I really explore all my feels. I feel less happy, more….. Dry? Is the best way to maybe describe it.
Just dry………… Are emotions just the boogers and mucous of our minds?
I mean believe it or not I’m pretty level headed. I even shocked my self with whole archon alien schizophrenia bullshit. Its an insane experience. Just like, “self what’s going on?” Self never replied BUT apparently these archon’s did.
My emotional reactions to this experience are not clouding my judgment, but I do want to figure out HOW can I be remarkably me and get rid of an archon while not being hopped up on meds that make me feel like I blew my mental/ emotions into a kleenX.
This whole concept of “dark night of the soul” is bullshit. At least my version is.
Life has its ups and downs natrually and yes we gain lessons from it whatever, some times we are lost…. confused, mistake are made whatever. But this concept of the “dark night of the soul”, while it DESCRIBES AN experience it is also spiritually misleading to say you did something to deserve this, or “this is a gift”, you’re turning into lil bitty butterfly to fly away into the astral planes.
Uhm NO, you are being spiritually and psychically abused for no reason AT ALL and you were given a really lame ass excuse fantasy lullaby as to why, called the dark night of the soul.
SO. You are told to “surrender” MORE, be MORE “healthy”, do MORE yoga, all this “trust the process”, accept the pain and karma and bla bla bla….
NO. You are enough at any given moment. “Learning to surrender” means what? To what? Cause honestly this whole shit was a set up and fuck all of the programs that limit your divine free will! All of them!
FUCK the “Twin Flame™” program (love, lust, heartbreak, relationship, obsession exploitation), FUUuUCK the “Dark Night of the Soul™” (spiritual and psychic abuse) program, fuck “Kundalini™” (spirit, possession, health) bullshit, fuck the “Conspiracy Theory™” program (mofos out here trying to find the edge of the earth, aliens that prolly don’t even look like REAL aliens, ghost goblins, government whatever ect). Fuck “Ascencion /Awakening ™” program (feeling all these crazy “energy”, new earth bs, religious, shamanism, activations, light body “evolution”, empathic, insane 1111 bullshit, “consciousness” bs, “ego death”, past life karma) bla bla bla bla bla. NOPE its all psychological mental, emotional and physical exploitation abusive warfare. No homie you haven’t transcended shit, just jumped from the frying pan into the fire.
NO, NOPE …. Just no. It’s just prolly possession, which is some “implant” demonic archon program (playing you like video game) you literally possess (have) playing out whether you are aware of it or not.
Fuck it all….. Fuck “the path“, fuck this fake ass “spiritual journey” bullshit that is meant to control you and make you feel like you’re doing something (wrong or good) with your life. Like your life has no meaning (which is does! And its not to sit here and eat bullshit flakes all day). I mean HEY if you are THAT bored in life be my fucking guest. If you want to take on some bullshit burden of some fake ass past life karma that you know nothing about and has nothing to do with your ACTUAL life, gah head. If that works for you! Won…der. ..ful…….
All this shit is basically excusing “spiritual violence / abuse” and we want to say as people who want a better earth for ALL, that because someone didn’t get cosmically JUMPED by some demonic archon alien jelly fish thing that they are “spiritually bypassing”, granted some people are just fake ass bitches, but if you want to wear a badge of honor for being spiritually raped and tortures for no fucking reason, cool. Wear your super star 🌟 sticker, I however could and would have done better with out this waste of time. Call me arrogant, but clearly you never had rape simulated on you everyday for two fucking years after being physically raped.
You don’t need it! It’s unnecessary, you don’t need a spirit guide if you are already your best self in each moment. Where are the spirit guides for the rapist?! Fuck fake ass spirit guides too, lying ass mother fuckers, guess what your spirit guides real name isn’t Jim, or Greg or Tiffany or Isis. So already your whole “relationship” is built on a lie! ANY MORE lies you would like to tell your subject JIM?!?
Its a matrix of lies. That’s a truth. That doesn’t make nature any less real or YOU any less human. This is not a “holographic” universe its a holographic bullshit mind matrix that is void of any actual truth or love to confuse and distract the shit out of people frim being their best selves.
Throat “chakra” game on point cause speak from the heart. Fuck out of here with all this bulshit! And all the lies and manipulation to misdirect and deceive people of the earth!
That’s the new earth!
AH fucking CHOO to all the Bullshit!
So I’m not saying this is what I experience. But I thought about this this morning for some reason. Many “targeted individuals” believe that this is the type of “electronic harassment” that they experience through the (I believe) V2KSkull technology. Many people believe that humans are being paid to control this known as (gang stalking), but again I believe this is a paranoid delusion played by the “archon’s” to make you flip out on someone who looked at you the wrong way. BE CAREFUL! For the sweet souls we are given the wonderful gift of schizo. Taking the paranoia into a full blown delusion causing us to push people away in our lives.
I’m pretty settled on it being a semi invisable Archon eyeball looking floaty things whispering (screaming actually) sweeting nothings of bullshit all day. I actually wanted to sage my whole house and poke em with my sage wand but that pointless I poked it enough to make it move, but not leave or die (even though it tried to guilt me smh, I’m like you touch me all day your doing it right now soo.) yea.
Whatever it is. Is intelligent enough to intake data (likes, dislikes, fears, dreams, memories, beliefs, life stuff ect), and weave this “data” ie your life into a delusional story that will get you killed, in jail, or outcasted by society and hopped up on pointless meds.
But its not intelligent in the sense it is constantly looping the same programs (topics) over and over and over again. There is not much of a progression. That’s in the case of schizophrenia. Prior I can look back when I thought it was “a spirit/ ghost” or just strange phenomenons, when it wasn’t “schizo”. But now I might question ever thought, feeling or sensation moving forward because its like ….. It could be anything. It’s just triggers, trigger words, trigger people, topics etc. It’s like AI or a computer, not quiet human, humans can be a bit unpredictable in reaction because our emotional responses are too mixed up with collected data that we probably never truly processed. SO if you don’t know yourself well enough then you may be easier to manipulate. Especially if you are habitual.
LOL I remember wishing I was more habitual like everyone else. I’m terrible at doing the same thing over and over (well now I am an expert at doing absolutely nothing), but I never went the same way to work at the same time, I don’t eat the same breakfast (even tho coffee is a must), I guess what I loved about my old job was there were so many parts and projects that if one became boring I just move on to another piece of my job and it was hella fun cooking and stuff, but whatever still grieving the loss (quitting) of my job. Either way I’m terrible at same ol’ everyday always gotta switch it up maybe its an “Aries thing”.
Either way, back to the Demonic Archon Aliens ( now they are trying to correct my grammar while I’m writing. Which I redo in a reread usually …. But also I don’t give a FUCK cause that’s my style, 💩 emojis, slang, cuss words and terrible fucking grammar. SUCK IT BITCH! ) So anyway these Alien jelly fish eyeball things are…. Annoying at best, and psychotic at worse but painful either way. I don’t even know if they can even tell the truth.
I don’t even want to look at them in my house anymore. They are not easy to find to be honest, takes some crossing of the eyes and a keens sense of space like “seeing auras”. Which I have scene but random.
Either way fuck them. Always and forever.
There is no reason to be spiritually attacked there is no excuse. That’s like a rapist saying she asked for it because wore a short skirt. Fuck THAT!
Victims of spiritual/astral abuse will blame themselves. They will say, “I deserve this because I lied when I was 12 years old” or something just as ridiculous. We seek peace and that’s the easiest route than grabbing at air. But we seek NOW. Dwelling on the pasts on shortens our time in becoming the person we wish to be the best versions of ourselves.
Our capitalist system says “you are not enough!” , so by this product and subscribe to this lifestyle. Spirituality /religion says you are not enough, you didn’t pray enough, you did something bad, some past life bullshit generational curse, that you didn’t meditate enough, that you didn’t eat organic enough. In relationships, we feel like we aren’t pretty enough, or doing enough or have enough money or enough love or trust.
So it is NO WONDER these astral parasites …. Spiritual abusers go on to say YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH. You’re ugly, fat, skinny, stupid, crazy, no body likes you, you have no friends, kill yourself, no money, you are not good at what you do, you don’t know what you are doing, you need our guidance, unlovable, unworthy, you’re an addict, you will never understand, you don’t have knowledge.
You will never be enough, when you are!
I am a complete being. I have my own “dark” and own “light”. I grow as needed. Forced “darkness” or this bullshit “dark nigbt of the soul”, is abused pushed by astral parasites. Saying it’s because you did this or that, that YOU weren’t enough is excusing this program and act of spiritual violence. Finding peace and “learning from” the abuse is the gift we give ourselves to cope and to heal. We weave stories of some past life karma, a curse, blame ourselves. “This happened to me because…………….”
Outside of that we are excusing unseen and intangible abuse. By subscribing to this idea that pain is our greatest teacher, is superficial and more than likely you never been in a full blown psychic attack.
You are saying our current system, all system are fine as is and should operate and function with no change.
This whole you “change your reality” is bullshit. You know how hard I’ve fought?!? All this law of attraction, most people want car, money love. I want the change, justice, peace, safety for all people!
NOTE: The demon suggested pain and my smoking cigs (cause you devils advocate). Now do I know smoking is bad? Yes. Do I wish to change that? YES. Do I think I should be raped everyday by some demon for going on two years? NO.
Whatever. But I’m the crazy one.
Fuck this demon!
So I can see the effects of the demon, I can feel them, hear them, but I can’t see the actual demon that’s conducting it.
I believe that many healer are able to remove the effects but not the actual entity. Maybe some can. But none of the ones I went to.
So, I see this jelly monster (looks like a clear slimmer) that moves around me. I state previously in my blog that, I don’t think this is the entity but the “energy” it sends kinda like and extension of sorts it copies. Its not easy to see but I see it. I think its the same “energy” that screams repeatedly, mimics other peoples voices and music, repeats what I say, the gives me tremors and that can copy cat emotions like anxienty or headache, intense tension, feeling ill, being high. Prolly other things too like images/vision. Almost like AI intelligence toy, but its not the main and I feel like its being controlled.
Today I was wondering HOW did the entity pull off things like knowing when my ex (false/ twin flame) was going to call, or what song he was going to send me, when the cat took my chair and I wasn’t in the room. And a few other “prediction” or plain old’ nosiness.
Either way. My assumption is that this jelly monster was being nosey with my ex or attached to my ex. Something maybe like that. And that’s how it copied his voice and knew info. Some people call it “attachment cords” this one looks like a clear jelly vibrating blob thing that moves around at medium speed in and out of vision some times sparkles if its close by like on my head. But then I’m like how the fuck did the jelly monster get to the edge of Brooklyn? Like it legit floated 20 miles?
I hope my ex wasn’t harmed in any way. In the beginning I did so many “cord cutting meditations” because I just wanted whatever this was gone. I blamed my ex, i did. But I kept away from him so this demon wouldn’t make another game out of it. I’m pretty sure he is OK and doing fine. But if he went through a fraction what I went/ going through….. I am so sorry, even though none of this was my fault. I never sent ANYTHING to him in any way. Only trying to get through my own heart ache to move on.
Either way. That’s my theory of the jelly monster I have been seeing floating around the house or stuck in the bathroom.
Crazy shit right? 🙏
God………. Why did I have to get the crazy one?
I feel like I need a blunt and I don’t even like smoking. 🌴
So everyone is on this sexual violence outcry which is important. Women and men are speaking up. This is great, from harassment to any form of sexual violence not being afraid to speak up is important. Most probably never reported it.
In conjunction with the topic of sexual violence, so has the topic of pedo’s come up. Again which is good. But something is not sitting right with me.
A friend posted a picture that said “Pedowood” talking about how Hollywood is just filled with pedos preying on children. Another guy said he saw a video on Facebook where Joe fucking Bidden told a little girl he “was horny and she was pretty”. Yes! I know.
This shit is so problematic because its sensationalizing. If bidden really said that on camera why is he not in jail?
The problem with this I because if someone made a fake video like that, they are basically making a form of pedo shit, they are sick and need to be banned from the internet. If they sat there and filmed it as well as circulated it with out permissions and with out saying something about it in that moment. Then its still on some pedo shit and they just basically watched a child get groomed for molestation for click bait.
I’m triggered on so many levels because not only do I have a schiz demon that rapes and molests ME while calling ME a “child molestor”, my father was falsely accused by a therapist that he did something to me when I was 2 or 3 years old and I never saw him not once until I was 12 years old. Then when they told me that I had to even think about such a thing. The false accusations ripped my family apart and that is time my father and I will never have back. Who knows who either/any of us would have been had the therapist not thrown that out there.
I know some women who (in general) blow the whistle on men saying they are child molestors, and because of this…… Because of false accusations like this people don’t take it as seriously as they should. Its problematic.
How do I say this articulately?
The recent upserge in revealing;
1. How many people have been sexually violated at the alarming numbers both is empowering and dispowering. (#metoo)
2. Because this shit is triggering as fuck.
I don’t want us as a collective to feel like super hero’s for exposing pedophiles without addressing the culture in which it thrives. That means ALL OF IT! I don’t know if I am making myself clear.
There has been a lot of “fake news” articles circulated, about lady gaga, angelina jolie, Brad and a bunch of other, “celebs” that are “speaking out”. About secret societies and all this Illuminati establishment stuff when ……. Boop R. Kelly walks around a free man and we all sitting here two steppin.
Am I making my self more clear?
Its sensationalism with out a solution or real care for the people and children who are victims from harassment to sexual slavery.
When will this end?!
Kinda over the world.
So last night I lit some dragons blood inscense to just to chill out.
So the demon started doing like some gregorian catholic “ahhhhhh” music.
First I wondered if I was coming from my parents TV. Then I realized that it wasn’t. And was trying not to freak out. But it was kinda nice so I told him (archon’s) that it didn’t bother me or freak me out. It was nice to be honest.
I started thinking about those commercials from the 90s of all those native american, chant techno songs. And then started kinda laughing to myself.
Then the demon flashed an image of the guy from Linkin’ Park who committed suicide. Suggesting yet again for the billionth time that I kill myself. PS. Never was a Linkin Park fan but its sad he suicided.
And I said wouldn’t it be funny if you did a goergarian catholic version of “crawling in my skin”, and the demon actually did it! It exceeded my expectation. I was trying to influence it but he waited until I stopped and then did it.
This demon has no chill. This was maybe the only funniest thing its done. Kill em with kindness. You tell me to suicide, I inspires you to remix linkin park gregorian style.
But don’t get it twisted. Still want it to go back where ever it came from. Always and forever.