“Remember Who Gave You Your Crown” πŸ‘‘

“Remember Who Gave You Your Crown”, the Entity said to me posing as my Ex (twin flame). The story was of Isis and Osiris. And I was to be his Queen. Many image themselves as Kings and Queens, Gods and Goddesses. But I wanted to be me. 

I hadn’t fully realized I was in what I called “Opposite World”. Everything was flipped, Everything was a lie, and even if I figured that something was a lie, that could be a lie too. Its a set up. And you never win. I had no choice but to play along until I figured out what was happening to me. I cried so much. 

I felt my head become hot and tender. I literally felt like my skull had been opened and exposed. Like my brain was bring directly spoken into. It was loud.

I had read that this COULD be symptoms of kundalini or the opening of the crown chakra, also known as a halo, and the “soul star chakra”. I tried to understand. Little did I know. 

In opposite world everything is a lie, everything is an opposing force to the very essence of your being. When I was told “remember who gave you your crown”, I didn’t realize the very opposite was happening. I wasnt being given a “crown”, my crown was being taken away. My mind was no longer mine. I didn’t have control, I didn’t have room. I mean I still don’t fully. 

This was a check mate.

Using my Ex (Twin Flame) as a guise to get inside my head for lord knows what, for god knows what reasons.

I was shot down from my throne. Viciously attacked ….. Constantly attacked to the point of debilitation. 

I will still never understand why.

Now my home is under attack. The are the shadow spots that spew these things at me. I can’t see everything. But I can see and feel enough. 

My body is reacting to the attacks again. Rashes, burning.

The Entities would say “I WIN!”, but it won by showing me visions of child sexual abuse until I gave up and decided to die crying in my bed. Everyday.

If that’s winning ….. I’m OK with loosing.

But I want to fight back. I’m tired of my mind being a canvas for its sick images. 

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“Astral Sex | How to Achieve Out of Body Sex (Safely)” ? πŸ™…πŸ™πŸ‘½

First Fuck this guy!

When I first heard of astral ANYTHING….. I read that one should be cautious of having sex there for they may attach to you and reek havok in your life. So that instantly turned me off since I wouldn’t know what I was doing.

Over the last two years I have an attachment that I have no idea how I got that was trying to seem like it was my Ex (“twin falme”) having “astral sex” naming my ex’s name, then Osiris and then Gregory. As soon as I said no it became daily rape. Constant rape…. To this day. Rape.

This dude is literally opening up a portal and allowing anything to come and go as they please for his own personally gratification.

Because communication is “telepathic” and can seem as mind control, the Entity has tried to convince me that I want it. Or begging for it, especially as I am waking up from sleep.

I’ve said in a previous post (Alien Love Bite) that I believe that many Astral Entities cause the drama of a “Twin Flame” love story so it can isolate you and keep you for its own means. Many people in the “separation phase” tend to stay celibate waiting for their lover to return, but all the while communicating with them “telepathically” during that time. Since you are too afraid (false implanted thought), to contact them you rarely have the chance to confirm this telepathy with them. I’m sure most are ashamed of having this astral sex with their supposed “twin flame” and won’t talk about it or admit it. Everything is sacred and a secret….. RIGHT! Except I’m being fuckint raped. That’s why they keep you from your lover! So they can use you in ways a narcissist hasn’t even dreamed of. 

Fuck this guy! Opening up portals and letting shit in that van harm people. All so he can get laid by some astral avatar looking chick?

Get your whole fucking life together! All of it! 

I have to sit here and be raped all day while there is completely willing idiots looking for this shit. It’s so fucked up! 

People Watching πŸ‘¬πŸ‘­πŸ‘« 1111 Curse

Part of my humanitarianism is having the strange lobe for humans.

I live in a large city so riding the train, or sitting in a park or looking out the window. I love observing people, looking at what they choose to wear, color combos, maybe they had a fresh hair cut, maybe I notice their ethnicity, maybe I can tell they are a torrist. Maybe I see two people gazing into each others eyes or holding hands and I get a glimpse of love and it makes me happy. 

Along with my people watching is my commitment to service/ helping because I know that this system is difficult to live in. And we want a safe world for everyone. 

This energy was turned sour by the Demonic Archon. Looking at a woman’s fashion, it turns into objectifying her and that felt really strange, new and gross for me. This love I had for people, strangers ….. Was hated. The Archon would tell me “keep your head down, don’t look at anyone” and if I did even by mistake or a simple task the Archon would make it gross, doing things to my “root chakra” and trying to convince me its my natural reaction. Uhm…. NO. 

Its almost like the reoccurring 1111, 222, 333, or symbols or whatever only its with peoples and body parts or a gross hyper sexual concepts.

That’s why I said I think 1111 or reoccurring numbers (angel numbers) is a curse….. Or the beginning of one. It’s like you are being tested how easily controlled you are. The sad part is when my friends are like “omg 1111 make a wish” on Facebook. I’m like “Aaaaaaah” and have to keep it to myself unless I see any signs showing of an attack. 

Although this Archon is here doing what it does (which is being gross), I try to jump over any of its thoughts, concepts and projected world views to just simply….. enjoy people…. In all their glory.

PS. The moon was beautiful tonight. 

PoetrΓ©: How to Arrive at a Thought πŸŒΏπŸ‘‘πŸ’«πŸŒΏ

I stare into space, eyes crossed like lovers that just missed each other, like whispers in the night that never get you there, other than to the destination of a thought that was never yours. A tremble up your back.

I look behind me, a trail of pain and beauty, but then wonder why am I so ugly.

Please hug it away. Let it drop from my temple to the pit of my stomach. Remove its grips from my neck. Sacrifice the things unsaid. Because we have cast enough spells of intention, thoughts desperately grasp at to make a sense of their own and we end up cursed. 

Let there be more of me to fill every hollow space that serves as a hiding space for these things, so I can love you more.

Advice: Going Nowhere ⏰

So, I see all these things in my house. 

Orbs, sparkles, mists, giant swirly mother load that shoots PokΓ©mon balls at me, flashes of light. 

As much a try to make light of the situation, well. ….  it physically hurts to have this attached to me and I have no idea what’s going on. 

Honestly if what ever is here was nice, I would show the same respect. But its not. So I have to stick up for myself and figure a way to protect my family the best I can. And I’ve tried everything!

I have yet to find a truth. 

I don’t know if this is all happening because of me, because its attached to me or because its just happening and that’s life. All I know is that I hear, feel and legit (like 80% sure) sure I’m seeing it.

But I also have this burden of wondering if my sister and mother both had strokes in the same year because of me, or this terrible entity attached to me. The entity fortold it, but could have also caused it. Because much of the head pressure was unbareable. So I can only imagine for someone who is older and or in poor health.

What’s done is done, I have no proof other than my own painful experience. The entity was trying to tell me to leave my family in their time of need. Like sister needed help and my mom was recovering. So it was on me to kinda not let that load be on my mom.

As both slowly recovered I tried to take more and more time for myself. This is around the same time I actually started seeing the orbs hanging in the house. But I’m not sure if its me or others. I would never be able to tell unless I’m there. Duh. 

But idk. If I should leave cause my terrible energy. Everyone in these light worker groups keep telling me I’m all low vibes and idk maybe I’m holding my family back from healing. 

I kinda don’t want to be around anyone cause I don’t want anyone to get hurt cause I have this terrible energy with me. Which I can seem to do enough about. 

I don’t know what to do any more. 

“David Icke – The Archons”

What I liked about this video is that it touched on my progression through every possible idea of what could be attacking me. 

The reason I settled on Archon is because i do see a 3D clear jelly embryo thing moving around. AND because I believe the other ideas say “Satan” “spirit” “jinn” all come with a “third eye” mental visual image.

This Archon went through every single, religious, spiritual,mythological, personal, cinamatic, alien, “image” of everything other than actual image, its real appearance. 

So that is why I choose to settle on archon because the symbolism of the other images (while they may play out) are not the actual being. They are playing the roll for shit and giggles I guess.

At the core its all a lie. Always a lie.

That’s why I keep things open to being wrong, but I’m pretty settles on archon’s cause they seem to fit the description ever though they pretended to be everyone.

Archon: Hypothesis : Movement πŸ’ƒ

OK. So I have a Hypothesis:

I was attack viciously each time I began to make strides in my health journey. Usually I lost about a 100lb but I also was super active. During these times I would start my health journey around when I was unemployed (less money for food and transportation) so I would end up walking or biking everywhere and had more time to think about this. 

Now this last attack had me floored unable to move from the physical, emotional and mental pain. So in some ways I gave up….. But that’s OK. However now I have two or three huge Archon’s (about the size of my head) comfortably “feeding off of me” one at a time. 

So there is something linked to my “health” and them. 

If something feels threatened what does it do? It attacks! 

It was a perfect storm….. Too perfect! My health was a threat and so it waited for the perfect opportunity to to attack and exploit any emotional or physical pain I may have had/have. 

Does being phsycially active drain them of opprotunity to steal your energy because in a sense you are using your own towards your wellness?

My only concern if for people who are not well and how this plays out for people who are unable to be active, then what?

I am sure many of you ARE in fact active but yet were still attacked. So I can’t conclude to anything just yet.

I can’t explain to you HOW aggressive this attack was. Like literally being in the pit of hell 24/7. Since it has mellowed out. The voice of the Archon does not me feel like my brain is about to explode, but I have also refused (protested in my body) to do much other than sit an observe these Archons for a year now making it extremely comfortable with in this cute chubby body.

Its like constantly being thrown off course each time worse than before each time you make major strides.

Meditation was good for learning to observe and discern what was me and what is NOT me. 

Yoga, messages, stretching, were all good in learning how to literally release energy in places you never paid attention to. 

Prayer, faith in God gave me hope that some day I, we all will be free. 

And Bruja, “white magic”, kitchen witchery, ancestory taught me the herbs, foods and intention of love that will heal/ clean the body and personal space. 

I just can’t seem to get all my gears going again cause these Archon’s are off the hook with attacking me anytime I make any strides. That’s why I just choose to sit here like a monk and not do anything. 

As much I want a reflection of love in my life, in a way I feel …… Diseased, dirty …. Even though I know we all have one. I guess that is real love, recognizing each other disease (archon) and vunerablity and healing that for each other in stead of exploiting the pain. That is a true power that very few can wield. 

I just don’t know why I can’t seem to do that myself. Alone. To banish these demons from every cell in my body. 

There has to be an answer, a way, a key, a perminate solution. 

“Audio Spotlight Case – In-Store Campaign” πŸ‘½πŸ™

So I’m not saying this is what I experience. But I thought about this this morning for some reason. Many “targeted individuals” believe that this is the type of “electronic harassment” that they experience through the (I believe) V2KSkull technology. Many people believe that humans are being paid to control this known as (gang stalking), but again I believe this is a paranoid delusion played by the “archon’s” to make you flip out on someone who looked at you the wrong way. BE CAREFUL! For the sweet souls we are given the wonderful gift of schizo. Taking the paranoia into a full blown delusion causing us to push people away in our lives. 

I’m pretty settled on it being a semi invisable Archon eyeball looking floaty things whispering (screaming actually) sweeting nothings of bullshit all day. I actually wanted to sage my whole house and poke em with my sage wand but that pointless I poked it enough to make it move, but not leave or die (even though it tried to guilt me smh, I’m like you touch me all day your doing it right now soo.) yea.

Whatever it is. Is intelligent enough to intake data (likes, dislikes, fears, dreams, memories, beliefs, life stuff ect), and weave this “data” ie your life into a delusional story that will get you killed, in jail, or outcasted by society and hopped up on pointless meds.

But its not intelligent in the sense it is constantly looping the same programs (topics) over and over and over again. There is not much of a progression. That’s in the case of schizophrenia. Prior I can look back when I thought it was “a spirit/ ghost” or just strange phenomenons, when it wasn’t “schizo”. But now I might question ever thought, feeling or sensation moving forward because its like ….. It could be anything. It’s just triggers, trigger words, trigger people, topics etc. It’s like AI or a computer, not quiet human, humans can be a bit unpredictable in reaction because our emotional responses are too mixed up with collected data that we probably never truly processed. SO if you don’t know yourself well enough then you may be easier to manipulate.  Especially if you are habitual. 
LOL I remember wishing I was more habitual like everyone else. I’m terrible at doing the same thing over and over (well now I am an expert at doing absolutely nothing), but I never went the same way to work at the same time, I don’t eat the same breakfast (even tho coffee is a must), I guess what I loved about my old job was there were so many parts and projects that if one became boring I just move on to another piece of my job and it was hella fun cooking and stuff, but whatever still grieving the loss (quitting) of my job. Either way I’m terrible at same ol’ everyday always gotta switch it up maybe its an “Aries thing”.

Either way, back to the Demonic Archon Aliens ( now they are trying to correct my grammar while I’m writing. Which I redo in a reread usually …. But also I don’t give a FUCK cause that’s my style, πŸ’© emojis, slang, cuss words and terrible fucking grammar. SUCK IT BITCH! )  So anyway these Alien jelly fish eyeball things are…. Annoying at best, and psychotic at worse but painful either way. I don’t even know if they can even tell the truth. 

I don’t even want to look at them in my house anymore. They are not easy to find to be honest, takes some crossing of the eyes and a keens sense of space like “seeing auras”. Which I have scene but random.

Either way fuck them. Always and forever. 

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Spiritual Abuse πŸ”ͺπŸ”«πŸ’£

There is no reason to be spiritually attacked there is no excuse. That’s like a rapist saying she asked for it because wore a short skirt. Fuck THAT!

Victims of spiritual/astral abuse will blame themselves. They will say, “I deserve this because I lied when I was 12 years old” or something just as ridiculous. We seek peace and that’s the easiest route than grabbing at air. But we seek NOW. Dwelling on the pasts on shortens our time in becoming the person we wish to be the best versions of ourselves. 

Our capitalist system says “you are not enough!” , so by this product and subscribe to this lifestyle. Spirituality /religion says you are not enough, you didn’t pray enough, you did something bad, some past life bullshit generational curse, that you didn’t meditate enough, that you didn’t eat organic enough. In relationships, we feel like we aren’t pretty enough, or doing enough or have enough money or enough love or trust. 

So it is NO WONDER these astral parasites …. Spiritual abusers go on to say YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH. You’re ugly, fat, skinny, stupid, crazy, no body likes you, you have no friends, kill yourself, no money, you are not good at what you do, you don’t know what you are doing, you need our guidance, unlovable, unworthy, you’re an addict, you will never understand, you don’t have knowledge. 

You will never be enough, when you are! 

I am a complete being. I have my own “dark” and own “light”. I grow as needed. Forced “darkness” or this bullshit “dark nigbt of the soul”, is abused pushed by astral parasites. Saying it’s because you did this or that, that YOU weren’t enough is excusing this program and act of spiritual violence. Finding peace and “learning from” the abuse is the gift we give ourselves to cope and to heal. We weave stories of some past life karma, a curse, blame ourselves. “This happened to me because…………….” 

Outside of that we are excusing unseen and intangible abuse. By subscribing to this idea that pain is our greatest teacher, is superficial and more than likely you never been in a full blown psychic attack.
You are saying our current system, all system are fine as is and should operate and function with no change.

This whole you “change your reality” is bullshit. You know how hard I’ve fought?!? All this law of attraction, most people want car, money love. I want the change, justice, peace, safety for all people! 

NOTE: The demon suggested pain and my smoking cigs (cause you devils advocate). Now do I know smoking is bad? Yes. Do I wish to change that? YES. Do I think I should be raped everyday by some demon for going on two years? NO.
Whatever. But I’m the crazy one.

Fuck this demon! 

Crazy Talk: Jelly Monster πŸ‘»πŸ’”

So I can see the effects of the demon, I can feel them, hear them, but I can’t see the actual demon that’s conducting it. 

I believe that many healer are able to remove the effects but not the actual entity. Maybe some can. But none of the ones I went to. 

So, I see this jelly monster (looks like a clear slimmer) that moves around me. I state previously in my blog that, I don’t think this is the entity but the “energy” it sends kinda like and extension of sorts it copies. Its not easy to see but I see it. I think its the same “energy” that screams repeatedly, mimics other peoples voices and music, repeats what I say, the gives me tremors and that can copy cat emotions like anxienty or headache, intense tension, feeling ill, being high. Prolly other things too like images/vision. Almost like AI intelligence toy, but its not the main and I feel like its being controlled. 

Today I was wondering HOW did the entity pull off things like knowing when my ex (false/ twin flame) was going to call, or what song he was going to send me, when the cat took my chair and I wasn’t in the room. And a few other “prediction” or plain old’ nosiness. 

Either way. My assumption is that this jelly monster was being nosey with my ex or attached to my ex. Something maybe like that. And that’s how it copied his voice and knew info. Some people call it “attachment cords” this one looks like a clear jelly vibrating blob thing that moves around at medium speed in and out of vision some times sparkles if its close by like on my head. But then I’m like how the fuck did the jelly monster get to the edge of Brooklyn? Like it legit floated 20 miles?

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I hope my ex wasn’t harmed in any way. In the beginning I did so many “cord cutting meditations” because I just wanted whatever this was gone. I blamed my ex, i did. But I kept away from him so this demon wouldn’t make another game out of it. I’m pretty sure he is OK and doing fine. But if he went through a fraction what I went/ going through….. I am so sorry, even though none of this was my fault. I never sent ANYTHING to him in any way. Only trying to get through my own heart ache to move on.

Either way. That’s my theory of the jelly monster I have been seeing floating around the house or stuck in the bathroom. 

Crazy shit right? πŸ™

God……….  Why did I have to get the crazy one? 

I feel like I need a blunt and I don’t even like smoking. 🌴