Furies: Demons of Vengance

So I was watching Once Upon a Time and they talked about a Fury demon that takes a life for another.

I never noticed the picture but it looked very similar to the Demon here that I see occasionally. I assume its female because of the long hair that’s always whipping around but that’s not necessarily true.

I always reference this as a Banshee or an Original Fairy. Either way I unsure what the vengeance part is for because I have never screwed anyone over. If anything I always got the shit end of the stick and I always did the work within myself to to eventually forgive and let it go. 

This is the shit end of a stick I received yet.

Cause I feel more and more clueless. 

One girl in my schiz Facebook group drew a picture of the exact same thing I see and it that demon kept asking “where is my child?”, I also had similar delusions with the voices saying “you will never be a mother!”. 

But that doesn’t bring any more clarity as to why this particular demon is here and or how to get rid of it. 

I thought it was cleared in the soul clearing work I was doing but apparently they just cycle through taking turns.

Do these Fury demons work for reptilians harvesting human souls or light or spiritual energy so they may live longer? 

Trick you into going mad and finally taking your life! 

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In Greek and Roman mythology, the Furies were female spirits of justice and vengeance. They were also called theErinyes (angry ones). Known especially for pursuing people who had murdered family members, the Furies punished their victims by driving them mad. When not punishing wrongdoers on earth, they lived in the underworld and tortured the damned. The Furies could also appear as storm clouds or swarms of insects.

Read more: http://www.mythencyclopedia.com/Fi-Go/Furies.html#ixzz5320xRn8B

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Imaginary Friend πŸƒπŸ‘»πŸƒ

I had some “the gruge” like or alien raptor visuals in the begining ….. But I laughed at them …. So oddly my visuals are not AS strong although I have like floating emojis around the house which are odd and visions of child abuse or which is terrifying or random photos of people. 

I guess I am more stern because of the auditory …. Speaking creates more of a relationship. So it’s like one moment the voices would have me crying from saying moms gonna die, then sucidial from a sick visual of child sexual abuse and then trying manipulate me back into a friendly demeanor by making jokes or saying they love me. I realized this was a cycle of abuse. 

The Reconciliation /Honeymoon phase is “The victim feels pain, fear, humiliation, disrespect, confusion, and may mistakenly feel responsible. Characterized by affection, apology, or, alternatively, ignoring the incident, this phase marks an apparent end of violence, with assurances that it will never happen again, or that the abuser will do his or her best to change.” 

The first time I was introduced to this was when my best friend in high school told me that her mom would beat her, and then clean her wounds and tell her sorry and it won’t happen again and do it again. I asked my mom if she could live us but she couldn’t. 

Once I found this habitual pattern of abuse…. As much as those funny moments are so important for relief to the constant verbal abuse… To love and not hate…. To laugh….. I sadly had to accept that these voices will never change…. And I can no longer enable their abuse. Nor can I trust any attempt to gain my trust. 

This is called trauma. Not being able to leave a state of constant distrust or being on gaurd…… Physically harms the body in itself as well as how I interact with others. I’m trying to simply be clear and stern about my boundaries rather than be become a full blown narc. But it hurts and its hard because this is NOT my true nature. 

Sans the sick twisted abusive stuff…. I have no problem having an imaginary alien rapture friend that remixes gregorian music, plays air ghost tic tac toe and makes decent jokes given a natrual break in communication and with out pain from them touching me is gone.

Yea…. I am liberal about being crazy.

Running out of options

I’ve done the shaman, light worker, meditation, prayer thing….

I’ve the targeted individual, Mk ultra, gang stalking….. Matrix’s of insectoid thing….

Committing suicide for a twin flame thing….

Loosing everything like the “Book of Jobe” thing. 

Girl interrupted shave my head psyche ward crayon thing…. 

Clearing trapped energetic emotions for humanity thing….. Angel and demons thing. 

😩

I wanna do that thing where this all stops and I can enjoy this brief existence sans being raped every night by an reptilian insectoid posing as my ex twin flame. 

When will I get that this is done thing …. Finished thing? They go away thing? Never come back again thing? 

Princess. πŸ‘Έ

So I was scrolling through Facebook and Bored Panda had the cutest clip about this Dad who Makes Transforming Dresses

I’m into fashion believe it or not. I use to sew crazy performance outfits for my friends who were in the Vogue Ballroom scene. So this dress had what would be called an “effect” ….  Just that little extra bit of wow or drama. 

Either way I’m watching this clip in aww my mouth dropped from the creativity. And I knew any girl or femme would love to have something like that its like you turn into an instant princess. 

BUT OF COURSE THE ENTITY COMES IN and starts saying I’m watching child porn. And I’m like HUH? 

And so I just started crying…. Because I realized I may never think the way I use to ever again. Just…. normal. I have this curse…. This entity……. This inserted thought constantly talking about child abuse in a gross manner. It doesn’t matter what the topic is…. It could furniture….. Or tree. This entity will find a way to pedo that topic to torment my life. And I’m over it. 

I’m sorry I just started crying…. And I write when I cry. I’m tired of being molested and burned and constantly having to think about this topic. I’ve really tried to ignore it…. But then I bust out crying and I can’t help it it upsets me and I know they love it….. its there juice. 

Maybe I should have been heartless…. I wish I had a different fear….. A different thing that upsets me so much…. Idk…. Maybe Protecting the Rainforest or something…..

Just sucks looking at something innocently and then having it turned into something disgusting as soon as you smile. 

Whatever. 😭

BIG Problem: It’s like in my Body Now

I have been ignoring it for a while. Something has to happen a few times before I validate it.

SO NOW the new thing is whatever these things are when they attack ME there is like an impression of them in my body. This was mostly in photos. but now they are seeming more apparent on my skin. So like actual marks that then fade.

So like just now, my right arm felt tight, like high blood pressure I guess… but my blood pressure had gone down the doctors said I’mΒ doing good. So I went to the bathroom and looked at my arm and my skin was moving. NOT like in the movies… but it was like moving side to side. ItΒ wasn’t like there was a bug or anythingΒ just moving. Then I just stared at it and it turned red and the impression of one of the things I see in photos appeared (the medusa banshee looking one) and then I just kept looking and it stopped and went away.

The time before that I saw my skin move on my forearm and then IΒ quickly squashed my arm and then it turned into an X and then like like 2 others X’s showed up on my arm going down to my wrist.

I always felt them vibrating my root chakra area…. or like the energy in my head giving me a headache … but this is totally different.

I’m really at a loss now. I’m not sure if what I am doing is correct. I pray… I’mΒ in the group healing… I’m over here doing ti chi. I am trying to be of service to others as best I can considering my own situation. But like I feel nothing I am doing is making it better.

I don’t know if the meds will officially knock them out or something I am willing to give it a try. I’m trying to go the holistic approach and the approach that feels right to me, but nothing seems to be working. If I do get SOME headway … I get attacked even harder.

like there at least 25 Archon Portal things in my house spewing shit at me if I even look in that direction. And its fucked up. I’m the only one in the house that feels or sees this. It’s insane. My friends can see them in photos so I’m not bugging out completely.

I just want to do whats right and will work in the long run.

Words Are Spells? (Repetitive Catch Phrases)

My eyes are your eyes. 

I can’t wait till you have eyes. (You see) 

I hope you never have eyes. (You never see)
I want to know who (my name) is. 

Now you know who (my name) is. 
I’m never coming back.

Go HOME!
When I try to say this phrases back the “female” one yells “OPPOSITE” out. 

I figure if these were spells I could figure who sent these demons and stop this insanity.

Occasionally the phrases will change with two or three words. But I don’t know what is the point of saying these. 

Maybe the two or three entities switch off (on me or) different parts of the body this way.

It hurts either way. But I know they don’t have and ounce of compassion that I once had for them.

At time I feel like I’m being energetically pimped…. Or like a circus show. 

If that wasn’t the case why was I stripped of my energy until I couldn’t move and in poor health?

When I have mustered up a little bit of happiness, energy/ motivation it is quickly stripped. Maybe with in half a day. 

There has to be a way……. I’m like in my prime. This sucks. 

UPDATE:

“Omg you are awesome”

“I love you”

Can you imagine these words being said to you then almost immediately after you are bing energetically raped. 

Understanding Space: Portal?

So there are a few things going on.

There is what I see, which look like Large Human Cells (sometimes with symbols inside) all around the house. And then there is what i see in Photos. Which seem a little more detailed, in appearance. Then there is what i hear and feel. Which i am not even sure correlates with whats going on.

I have been taking photos over the last 5 days of my house and my body to see if there was any progress. My friend sent me some energy with flowers and that was really nice. But for the most part I still see these….. projections of sorts.

Now i see the circles, and i am wondering if each circle (Human Cell/ Archon Jelly fish i talk about) is directly related to one of the Entity Projections I see. in photos At least the major ones.

So far I see in photos: A medusa/ banshee looking woman, reptilian looking dude, an insectoid (maybe 3), trolls (maybe a few), Buddha looking guy, “Osiris” looking dude with a reptilian under), and MAYBE an Isis near my bed. I see like other little thing here and there, like one that looks like Stitch from lilo and stitch, and a bunch that look like geckos heads, a pig, alien heads and bunch of other things. They all have a ghosty look to them. Almost 2D holographic appearance to them.

The Osiris and Isis are gone now from what i can see. Still see the medusa lady and i know reptilian looking dude is still here, and some crazy gecko things, a troll.

What i see with my eyes: X, O, 8 infinity signs, #, 4 horizontal lines, human cell looking blobs, one with many circles with in each other (sleep one), sometimes an alien head or just eyes, these kinda black spider blobs, My friends smiley face and flower energy she sent me. Most of it is purplish, blue, black or white tone to it.

SO i guess what i am wondering is if what i see (the symbols) are directly related or a portal for each spirit projection i see in photos. 

I am also wondering if this a human sending these entities, talupas, portals or whatever to me as well. Been thinking about this since my friend sent me the smiley face and flowers. 

I live in New York City, so there is bound to be many spirits or whatever these things are. Im not afraid of them, but when they attach to me in any way my energy is zapped and its extremely painful. Half the time i want to eat immediatly after. I don’t know if its just me or my family. If this has been going on before i got here, or if this is something i brought here because i was so sad after a break up.

Im trying to stay a bit logical.

I want to make sure these things are cleared out before i ever choose to leave for my families health. Whatever is here, i can not see being directly from my family to be honest (like a generational curse). And its not like its a loved on that passed on, and they seem to seek to harm.

I really want to clear this for my sister, she has been looking more and more tired lately. Not to mention they threaten all my family, friends and loved ones anytime i figure something out or try a method to get rid of them. My sister is pushing herself to the max to over come this stroke (which for some reason i associate with these entities). So like i really want my family to be ok now that I can see and have a better scope of whats happening or how they move around the house.

I put prayers on all of my mirrors as directed by one website, burned some sage, prayed. I’m trying so hard. This is not fair to my family or anyone if they are trying to hurt me.

I know this stuff sounds crazy, cause it is!!!

It doesnt even seem real. There is some part of it that is real, like the fact that it makes feel like shit everyday. But im not even sure about this ghostly looking projections in the photos.

OK THATS ALL FOR TODAY!!!

 

The Reason My Parent Divorced. πŸ˜”

When I was say 3 years old my parents spit up because my mom wanted to get their own place and not live with my father. 

The icing on the cake was when I kept talking about “the monsters” which they then took me and my twin sister to therapy where they assumed the monster I was talking about was my father, and took the leap to say that my father molested me. This sealed the deal on the divorce and I was never to see my father again.

I went my whole life thinking my father molested me not even truly knowing what it is but something bad. And I hated him for it. 

12 years later my mom contacts my dad, he said he would never, my mom believed him, they remarry and we move to the city. I finish high school but they soon kick me out because I was gay (19 yo.) So life sucked balls. 

I have tried for a long time to make it on my own and I think did a decent job of doing so while trying to help my friends in their time of need as well. But I slowly repaired my relationship with my parents in that time away and was proud of that. 

Now I moved back here, some 15 years later and guess what I’m seeing monsters again. And its molesting me, and trying to force incestious, sick perverted thoughts, and ruining my life yet again. AINT THAT SOME SHIT. 

The building I live in is a bunch of resident doctors and nurses who all work at the hospital close by, so combine whatever monster I saw as a kid, and whatever spirit, energies these doctors bring home, and living in the heart of NYC I’m sure this is just a cesspool of negative energies. 

My mom cleans the house every other day. We moved a lot of things around in the house, and redorated the whole house which usually kicks up energies as well. I just don’t know how to remove them or send them where they belong. 

None of this schizophrenia started until I moved here. Not at this level.  Its like yea I heard or saw a shadow here or there…. But this is woa. I have pictures of energy in my house. So I’m not crazy. 

Now that I can “see” these energies now, I looked at a picture of my sister prior to her stroke and there was a big purple circle thing around the eye that she went blind in. Thank god through surgery she was able to get her sight back. But what is the agenda of these Entities and energies?

So these entities possibly broke up my parents and blinded my sister and declinded all of our health all the while I am having a schizophrenic break down watching all of this shit play out. The storyline about my ex (twin flame) and getting him back and past lives was all a distraction for the pain and havoc they were reeking in our lives to obtain what I assume is the energy they need.

Tonight I cried at the dinner table because the Entity kept molesting me every time my Dad made a sound when he ate his diner. He had a tracheotomy because of the surgery so he makes this strange noise. But reasoning doesn’t stop these Entities from doing what they do, and I broke down, I was weak, I gave them what they wanted, I cried because I’m tiresy of being molested by sick, nasty, dark distgusting evil Entities at every opportunity. 

Part of me wants to run away and the other wants to stay and clear this bullshit out for my families sake, but they are duplicating all over the house. they are everywhere (TV, cellphones, microwave, bathroom sink handle, soap pump, above the diner table, above and side of beds, different sizes colors, forms) and I have yet to figure out how to physically remove them.

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Love + Light Energy πŸ’« πŸ™

My friend sent me real love and light energy. It didn’t hurt, it wasn’t invasive or aggressive. It was kind it asked permission to enter my house even after I gave her permission. That’s called consent. 

Unlike whatever entities have set up shop in my mothers house.

Now the demonic archon alien ai copy bot jelly fish blobs tried to copy her energy to act like her. Probably to get me distrust her. I could tell that it was them because it was aggressive, I could hear its janky frequency coming near me, it hurt and was trying to suck my energy and the smile was a bit different. 

Its like GMO spirituality. The difference between real clean natural healing nutritional energy and dirty, fake, dangerous energy. 

We have to learn to discern. 

I am so greatful for that experience my friend gave me. It made me have some faith in the spiritual world. That MAYBE, not all are mean or gross or eventually becomes that when it wants to control you. Maybe.

Many are out here seeking, doing drugs or are willing to listen to the first thing that pops up in their sphere just to have a “spiritual experience”.

Its like I find the words to put it all together but my feelings about all of this I haven’t sorted out. I’m amazed, shocked, sadden, hopeful, angry, grateful…… 

I just want our people to be OK. We do not need to suffer like this when we could be using that energy to help the planet and each other. And there are enough things that happen in the world that we have to deal with to then top it off with alien possession, is just. .. Lame.

Keeping the faith πŸ™