I’m speechless. πŸ‘½

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I just don’t understand

I just don’t understand why I was attacked like this. I don’t see legitimate ” feeding off of negative emotions” is as a theory.

Like it makes jokes. Yes I’ve done a buzzfeed quiz with a demonic archon alien asshole and it was funny. But you know gotta switch it up from the suicide, child abuse, twin flame topics.

So what’s the point? I’m these being are relatively conscious, so what’s the point of suicide, and “draining” a victim of energy?

Even the sensation of being “drained” is false simulation. I’ve been sick and drained from a flu…. And this will almost simulate that but will go away once I’ve changed my course.

So………….?

ARCHONS 🌚 β€˜interdimensional entities’ the negative controllers of humankind

http://ufosightingshotspot.blogspot.com/2013/03/archons-interdimensional-entities.html?m=1

So I think I have settled on the fact that what I see, hear and feel are archon’s. It took me a while to actually see them “3d”.

This sucks cause now I’m a crazy archon “conspiracy theorist”. But this is what I legit see and they seem to fit the description. 

Why I see one stealth in my bathroom and why they are attacking me, or how to liget get rid of them out of my home and life? I don’t know.

I’m not crazy, I hate conspiracy theories or actually believing them, and this kinda makes it more difficult on me in the sense now that I KNOW these are archon’s I have to figure out a way to make them leave.

Sooooooooooo i have a lot of data on them and their nature. As I said prior I gave them the opportunity to co-exist with me and do good in the world (gotta a least try). They refuse and would rather zapp me of alk my energy making it difficult to be active and call me a loser all day. So. We aren’t, can’t, won’t, be on the same team or friends. 

Fuck their racist, homophobic, classiest, religious lookist, sexist, xenophobic, pedophile jokes!!!

God why?! Now I’m a conspiracy theorist damned to be in the dark edges of the internet because its just too real!

GREAT! Now I’m basically illegitimate click bait. 😩

Looks similar to a human cell only the size of my head. 

Crazy Talk: What I See πŸ‘½πŸ‘€

So I finally drew what I see. These are not visions. They are like some times like the “logos” I described in a previous post. 

I posted this to a light worker group cause terrible drawing but this is what I see. The big ones are actually 3Dish like I can move but it won’t move is just kinda sits there in my bathroom. 

Most of the hallucinations are flat or super imposed. Or visions. 

Either way I got the normal “see a doc” thing. But mostly confirmation that they are negative Entities. As much as they want to convince me this is a “test” or have something to teach me.

I got the normal, salt, sage, other herbs, crystals, meditation, prayer, commanding them to leave, bright white light of protection, calling in angels and guides, eat healthy, be happy, grouding, dont talk to them. But I really really really did all of that. 

I don’t know if I or it or them are coming or going I just know I am tired.

Here is hoping I can push through. Just trying figure out if I shough do meds or not. I remember when I didn’t hear them, they were doing these crazy insane pass out almost headaches and sparkles and little tricks like that.

I will figure out what my next move will be. 

Real Talk: #MeToo πŸ’”

OK so it has been healing for me to write about my schizo demon freely in my blog because therapy was short and you never talk about the real stuff OR you get a gross bitch therapist who licks her lips like she was getting the juicy details of some ravenous sexapade when I tell I was raped, only for her to say, “some people like it like that”. Which is the same thing the guy who raped me said. My guess is her gross ass does. If I wanted to pay to be offended I would have just went on a dutch tinder date with another fuckboy. 

Point is. In my blog even though I mention rape, or child abuse, I try to be mindful of how I am writing it. I still have some shame. I don’t go into details of the rapes or nightmares or visions i recieve because well they are gross and triggering.

Same thing with the Hollywood/ Government rapist pedo call out and #MeToo stories coming out. How can we talk about this with out it being 1. Just sensationalism 2. Does not trigger sensitive people like myself 3. Does not become satisfying low key porn for people who are clearly rapists.

Telling our stories is important and healing. It’s just the internet is not really a safe space, there are trolls at every corner.

Idk. Hope it makes sense. 

Spiritual Abuse πŸ”ͺπŸ”«πŸ’£

There is no reason to be spiritually attacked there is no excuse. That’s like a rapist saying she asked for it because wore a short skirt. Fuck THAT!

Victims of spiritual/astral abuse will blame themselves. They will say, “I deserve this because I lied when I was 12 years old” or something just as ridiculous. We seek peace and that’s the easiest route than grabbing at air. But we seek NOW. Dwelling on the pasts on shortens our time in becoming the person we wish to be the best versions of ourselves. 

Our capitalist system says “you are not enough!” , so by this product and subscribe to this lifestyle. Spirituality /religion says you are not enough, you didn’t pray enough, you did something bad, some past life bullshit generational curse, that you didn’t meditate enough, that you didn’t eat organic enough. In relationships, we feel like we aren’t pretty enough, or doing enough or have enough money or enough love or trust. 

So it is NO WONDER these astral parasites …. Spiritual abusers go on to say YOU ARE NOT ENOUGH. You’re ugly, fat, skinny, stupid, crazy, no body likes you, you have no friends, kill yourself, no money, you are not good at what you do, you don’t know what you are doing, you need our guidance, unlovable, unworthy, you’re an addict, you will never understand, you don’t have knowledge. 

You will never be enough, when you are! 

I am a complete being. I have my own “dark” and own “light”. I grow as needed. Forced “darkness” or this bullshit “dark nigbt of the soul”, is abused pushed by astral parasites. Saying it’s because you did this or that, that YOU weren’t enough is excusing this program and act of spiritual violence. Finding peace and “learning from” the abuse is the gift we give ourselves to cope and to heal. We weave stories of some past life karma, a curse, blame ourselves. “This happened to me because…………….” 

Outside of that we are excusing unseen and intangible abuse. By subscribing to this idea that pain is our greatest teacher, is superficial and more than likely you never been in a full blown psychic attack.
You are saying our current system, all system are fine as is and should operate and function with no change.

This whole you “change your reality” is bullshit. You know how hard I’ve fought?!? All this law of attraction, most people want car, money love. I want the change, justice, peace, safety for all people! 

NOTE: The demon suggested pain and my smoking cigs (cause you devils advocate). Now do I know smoking is bad? Yes. Do I wish to change that? YES. Do I think I should be raped everyday by some demon for going on two years? NO.
Whatever. But I’m the crazy one.

Fuck this demon! 

Crazy Talk: Jelly Monster πŸ‘»πŸ’”

So I can see the effects of the demon, I can feel them, hear them, but I can’t see the actual demon that’s conducting it. 

I believe that many healer are able to remove the effects but not the actual entity. Maybe some can. But none of the ones I went to. 

So, I see this jelly monster (looks like a clear slimmer) that moves around me. I state previously in my blog that, I don’t think this is the entity but the “energy” it sends kinda like and extension of sorts it copies. Its not easy to see but I see it. I think its the same “energy” that screams repeatedly, mimics other peoples voices and music, repeats what I say, the gives me tremors and that can copy cat emotions like anxienty or headache, intense tension, feeling ill, being high. Prolly other things too like images/vision. Almost like AI intelligence toy, but its not the main and I feel like its being controlled. 

Today I was wondering HOW did the entity pull off things like knowing when my ex (false/ twin flame) was going to call, or what song he was going to send me, when the cat took my chair and I wasn’t in the room. And a few other “prediction” or plain old’ nosiness. 

Either way. My assumption is that this jelly monster was being nosey with my ex or attached to my ex. Something maybe like that. And that’s how it copied his voice and knew info. Some people call it “attachment cords” this one looks like a clear jelly vibrating blob thing that moves around at medium speed in and out of vision some times sparkles if its close by like on my head. But then I’m like how the fuck did the jelly monster get to the edge of Brooklyn? Like it legit floated 20 miles?

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I hope my ex wasn’t harmed in any way. In the beginning I did so many “cord cutting meditations” because I just wanted whatever this was gone. I blamed my ex, i did. But I kept away from him so this demon wouldn’t make another game out of it. I’m pretty sure he is OK and doing fine. But if he went through a fraction what I went/ going through….. I am so sorry, even though none of this was my fault. I never sent ANYTHING to him in any way. Only trying to get through my own heart ache to move on.

Either way. That’s my theory of the jelly monster I have been seeing floating around the house or stuck in the bathroom. 

Crazy shit right? πŸ™

God……….  Why did I have to get the crazy one? 

I feel like I need a blunt and I don’t even like smoking. 🌴