Searching Arcturians ๐Ÿ˜ฎ


Am I a Prism? ๐Ÿ’Ž

So people are so obsessed with being “the light” or light workers or having light bodies.

I had a white light mist and a dark light fill my body in ways very few could ever imagine. It has been so painful.

I wondered that maybe instead of “being light” I was just clear as fuck. I was or am a prism for both dark (false) and white light to penetrate through. Maybe.

Maybe I am just clear. Like a shiny crystal or diamond or glass.

Whatever just wondering . No delusions just wonder conceptually about what’s happening to me.

Pollyanna Principle

“The Pollyanna principle (also called Pollyannaism or positivity bias) is the tendency for people to remember pleasant items more accurately than unpleasant ones.[1] Research[citation needed] indicates that at the subconscious level, the mind has a tendency to focus on the optimistic; while at the conscious level, it has a tendency to focus on the negative. This subconscious bias towards the positive is often described as the Pollyanna principle and is similar to the forer effect.[2]”

โ€œThe name derives from the 1913 novel Pollyanna by Eleanor H. Porter describing a girl who plays the “glad game”โ€”trying to find something to be glad about in every situation.โ€

Some people in my group mentioned thisย term for people who have a “bleeding heart” and constantly think that if they work at fixing things it will work out, much like myself and them as well. As the extreme version, some people are so optimistic to the point of delusion. This seems like it can go many different way.

interesting new term.

seems like learning “when to let go” and “surrendering” I guess when it comes to others I at least try to give my best shot. But when it comes to me… I am fighting for my life.



Emotional Vampire ๐Ÿ˜ˆ

So I wonder if Garlic is to ward of vampire because it lowers your blood pressure and that makes you less susceptible to heightened emotions and pain and headache and general anguish…….. thrust strengthening your energy field around you and our your actual cellular body becomes less easy to merge or penetrate.

There is a science to the ancient or esoteric or the old wives tales and remedies. I always tried to understand or reconcile between them both while also allowing the imagination of storytelling and the starkness of science to coexist.

Question: Emo Feed?

So if these alien, demons, inter dimensional beings are feeding off all of our negative emotions ………….. what did they feed off of prior to us existing!?! Hmmmm?

I mean humans have only been around a short while in comparison to the earth and a blink in the universe sooooo ……… !?!?

Dooo da dooo?

More bullshit perhaps?

I mean there clearly so sort of truth to it but all the fluff and story behind it may be just doing too much. These entities like to make you feel like shit there is no REAL reason. Or galactic heavenly story behind it….. other than they just do.

Maybe. That is concrete. That is what they are DOING. I can’t speculate about some ancient shit I wasn’t fucking these. All I know is now and now is fucked up. I don’t need a reason. I need it to stop.

Pretty fucking simple huh?

I love your smile ๐Ÿ˜€

So any time I have a smile on my face from as simple as something silly happening on a tv show the entity comes in and will be like “dick”.

So the dude on tv could have made a comment on tv about a measurement say 88 inches long for a board (I watch a lot of HGTV the one with that couple) and the entity will come in a suggest that’s the length of his penis. Then as I write this the entity asks if I would rather it talk about my fathers penis.

So instantly my smile is gone.

I can’t even genuinely smile or laugh with out being punished.

Adult lie to Kids

Have you ever realize exactly how much adults lie to kids?

“Oh that boy makes fun of you because he likes you ”

-No he is an asshole and was taught to have zero respect for anyone let alone women.

I’m not going to get into Santa Clause or Easter Bunny or Tooth Fairy cause that bitch was cheap.

Let’s not get into to the lies of why our fathers weren’t around cause thats a toss up and dealers choice.

Either way I know SOME of it is about having an imagination and cultivating that. The other is about protecting our emotions and maybe there is no perfect way of handling it because eventually we will feel the pain of not being loved the way we want to.

What is Loosh??

“Extremely charged negative emotional energy, such as that achieved during Satanic Ritual Abuse, contains hormonal adrenalin cascades that course throughout the cellular energy within the human body, blood and brain. Under such intense extremes of painful suffering, the blood and flesh becomes charged with heightened molecular content, which is highly prized by Negative Aliens and Satanic forces. This is why they delight in the torture, suicide and killing of human beings, especially the innocent souls unable to protect themselves, like children.”


This is why I end up getting really upset. This pretty much sums up what too me a year to understand. It’s so fucked up.

There has to be a way to stop this.

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