I wonder if this is how the voices create out comes in my life. I mean most of it is outter manifestations of THEIR words and not mine. I mean they call me a child molester all day and im not one. But the way they have foretold the future a bunch of times im still wondering if they foretell or create it. But how?
When this first started. The voices started calling me “honey tree” i searched the internet trying firgure out what it could mean. The symbolism around it. I found an actual honey tree which was thorny. And a bunch of daycares called honey tree. And something about Jesus. I wrote a blog post on my Tumblr about it. And the voices sounded like my co-workers were hacking my brain to find out the name of my blog so they could read it. And i quickly deleted the whole blog! 😐 then less then a week later my ex (false twin flame) (months after we broke up) sent me a message with a link to a song by a band called the HoneyTrees. 😮 But i had deleted my blog and the only proof i had that i hard heard his voice and the Honey Trees prior to him sending it to me.
Again 6 months after we had been broken up i was talking to a guy friend online and he was kind of making fun of my ex sayung he didnt do much for me. And then i heard my ex’s voice tell me “get off the phone NOW”. I didn’t and then he calls me a moment later. You can only imagine how scared i was. The voices were making him out to be almost abusive. I mean he was a player and a jerk. But abusive was a whole other level.
They later foretold my Ex (false twin flame) getting married, having a son and moving to Jersey 3 years ago. The voices knew i wanted a baby. But it was something i never really discussed with my ex because he said he didnt want any. So far all i know is that he had a son a year ago with a beautiful woman. I didnt believe it till i saw the baby registry with his name. Even the shock wasnt that of the heart but that these voice told me this years prior.
Then the voices said they are “waiting for the shoe to drop”….. And “great day!” Which was a catch phrase my grandmother used. Basically telling me that my grandmother was going to pass. Again i didnt believe them. I didnt want to even though she was 97 years old. But she did pass after going into the hospital. They were making fun of it to make me upset.
Then they said they were “waiting for the other shoe to drop!” And “have mercy” as code for my mother, that was a phrase she used a lot too. Then two weeks or so after my grandmother passed my mother had a heart attack. Then a few months later a stroke.
This was all the while ” schizophrenia” just started in 2016. Even the times i myself had “predicted the future” it was mainly from a logical stand point.
Then the voices didnt want me dating the last guy i was with and would make fun of him and his penis to try to make me feel some sort of way about him. I enjoyed him and size never really mattered just that we both cared about each other. Then about 3 weeks into dating he started hearing voices. He said he heard his name called multiple times and no one was there. And then the week after i never heard from him again. While it may be a long shot….. But i mean since he started hearing them they could have easily influenced him with out him being totally aware. Because i didnt listen and leave him like they wanted.
Then we get to my best friend. When i first went to her home i did not see the entities as much but i still heard them. Then over time i started to see them on the windows and corners of the home and over the bed. They said they wanted to get me out of her house (just like they wanted to do at my parents) and said they “need to get her (my friend) a man” “play” this was week or so prior to her meeting her current boyfriend. Prior she was complaining about how she was going to be alone forever. I ignored them saying she was going to get a “man play”. But it happened. Spending time at her house was my quiet time and then i would take care of my godson. But they dont want me to build myself up. Or peace and quiet. Or to be around friends. Just isolated alone getting tortured raped molested electrocuted.
So in a way these demons are foretelling my life or the lives around me or creating it. Im not sure if they are using NLP to influence my life or if that us even a real thing in this case. I try to stay as positive as possible believe it or not.
I have however used my logical mind to peel away what didnt make sense. The voices were trying to make it seem as though both my ex (false twin flame) AND my coworkers were energetically gang stalking me. They wanted me to freak out on them but i kept my cool for the most part. My coworker just said i left in a strange way. And i sent a pretty strange email to my ex (with out too much detail) as a plea for him to stop torturing in the spirit realm. I blocked him because i didnt want to read a reply i didnt want my body to shiver or convulse or my mind to race, to have his words twisted into something completely different by the demons.
I just wanted it to stop.
No matter how positive or better than positive ….. Truthful i am ….. These demons remain. I try to peel back as much of the beliefs and layers as possible. I try to stop the stories being created in my head as soon as they form. But they remain and harrass and torture me.
Can i change my destiny? I feel like these demons are controlling it in one way or another despite my best efforts.
I’ve given up so much.