So like I have a handful of people I met through my schizo group that I tried to help when they were suicidal. … And my cousin and like…..
I can barely get through today and I am trying to talk people down from going on a suicidal rampage and burning themselves and having nervous break downs…. And I have no one there for me… As always.
I ignored my cousin…. The suicide rampage one stopped talking to me and the burn dude calmed down.
I have nothing to give. I feel like I’m dying. It hurts so much I don’t even know if this is the schiz or not anymore. It’s just so intense ….. I can hear my skull cracking from pressure like a sinus infection.
Idk. The only thing that listens is this blog. I don’t care if anyone reads it.
Idk I can barely make it …. Running on empty…. No end in sight…. And like my friend constantly saying he is going to harm himself …. Is like more than I can bare. But I want them to be ok.
Omg this hurts so much! I don’t know if it hurts more cause I know its fake.