So I met another woman on one of the forums who story is WAY WAY too similar as mine.
I almost wanted to cry. I mean I found people with parts or symptoms…. But the exact same thing never.
Hers was very similar in the sense that it happened after a break up…. She thought it was from her ex because the Demo. Tried to act like her ex (very twin flamish). She’s stayed away from him. She thinks he cursed her. Them the demon told her he loves her but also tortures her.
She’s knows she is not schizophrenic….. And the fact that our stories if not the words are all too similar is telling.
I am both happy and depressed. That I fell for it. I’m trying to help her disassociate the demon from her ex because I am pretty sure it has nothing to with him…. I mean sure it plays off the relationship…. But the longer she holds that thought the longer one of the hooks are in.
Its easy to blame someone else.
A person…. Someone visible. Tangible.
Yes there is this little part of me…. 1% that wonders once this Entity leaves if he will come back because I know I will never contact him. But that 1% could also be the demon….. Because I know I still have so much to worry about…. Like my family…. My livelyhood….. How to make myself happy again. Healing…. Health.