Vibrational Match ๐Ÿƒ

This Entity didn’t step in until I had a terrible break up. It also didn’t move to calling me child molestor until I realized I (personally) had moved on from my ex. 

However while it has “lessened” in volume the Entity is still here. Preparing to hide. Keeps me from enjoying anything as simple as diner with the family. So it must keep hitting the same buttons over and over and over again in order to maintain control or “keep me at a vibrational match”. 

I am having a hard time, figuring out that next step. I mean I keep trying to test myself and take baby steps like going to therapy. But my therapist quit and was told by the company that she wasn’t allowed to see me privately. So . . .. 

Going outside for something as simple as a walk is also difficult as this Entity takes the opportunity to go HAM an puts on a “set/cast” sounding like many different people which is overwelming. And even if i maintain composure through it all…. It still chokes me or tightens the grip on my head or exploits an emotion or even insights one usually ending in crying. So it must maintain these action of upsetting me in order to control. Oppress.

I still see the single flashing white light in my left eye that was never there before (apparently my eyes are perfect). I know that if I consume weed it also takes advantage of that as well to try and scare me.

This has moved far beyond “emotional clearing” or “residual subconscious material”. I can’t even see this as a “dark night of the soul” because half this shit has nothing to do with my soul or even shadow work and has moved into emotional, mental, physical and spiritual abuse long time ago. 

I have no idea what the next step is in order to step into my power. I keep trying though.

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