So I’m not the happiest person in the world. I’ve listened to my share of down tempo and witchhouse music. But I can’t totally understand the notion that like attracts like…. Energetically speaking. Especially if life is filled with the fucked up ironies.
How did I allow this entity thing into my life? And why is it here? I try to ignore it. I do. But even I find a moment of relief (which has only been recently)….. For one moment… Then either the entity draws my attention back to it OR I energetically look around and see if the coast is clear.
I know I’ve gone through some tings in life, always having to move around in my home city cause rent sucks and never knowing when someone might flip mode, a couple of bad decisions that I’ve gotten over….. but how did this happen? How does that concept apply?
How energetically could I EVER be at the same “vibration” as this entity? I try to understand…. I do…. But something is missing from all of this. Something doesn’t make sense. And I am willing to let that go but as long as I feel this entities presence ….. Hear its voice the question will be there….
Are “past lives” just an excuse to play in our heads? “Karma” a justification for not leaving? Fear a way to control? Unknown… To keep you going?
I was forced a sip of the kool aid…. And it tastes like shit. Bullshit.
I can sit here and make up some life lesson… And draw conclusions…. Some reason to excuse this experience. But I can’t . I can’t for this one.