My thoughts are like a 3 card Monte between me and this entity. Like I know my path of original thought …. Then quickly end up at one of the same 3 thoughts I hate having come up. My ex, my mom, and molestation.
Sometimes its completely random sometimes very rarely I can follow the train of thought. Either way….. Its tiresome…. It makes thinking exhausting…. And I like thinking…. Wondering….
I have to be aware how I get to the thought in question…. The switch happens really quick. Its not something I’m use to. Obsessive thoughts, random thoughts, dirty thoughts…. Just not use to any of it… But 2015 ushered that in…. I really thought it would end 2017…. I really did.