The disgusting visions are now seeping into my dreams.
I didn’t even use to dream everyday. Now I have dreams everyday. They feel different… The vibe…. Less magical than I remember from only maybe 2 years ago.
They are over runned with people now. Very few I know.
They are also violent, some I am being raped. Sleep poralasys….
Some involve my ex…. Which I never use to have dreams with people I know in it.
The demon is upset that I am talking to people about what us happening to me… I had a long talk with my mom yesterday.
Today was the first time he put child abuse in my sleeping dream where I didn’t have as much control.
I’m growing tired. I have no more tears.
He said, “let this be a lesson for sleeping so much.” Even though I know its not. I have slept a lot to escape him awake.
But there is no excuse for the images he shows me. He is not upset that I sleep he is upset that I am not being quiet about what is happening to me.
He said that if I talk about it that I will be labeled as a child molestor… And never be able to work with kids again.
After all this bullshit I don’t see myself being able to work with youth and I don’t care what anyone lablez me as because I know who the fuck and what the fuck I am and that ain’t it.