You will pay

This entity is always speaking of what I will “pay for” (illusionary karma). 

“You pay for your family”

“You pay for your ex (who I thought was my TF)”

Those are the main two but this idea of paying for something or imposed suffering is BS. Life hasn’t been easy (although I tried to make the best of it), but never have I experienced something that wants to impose. 

Thoughts/images imposed, “self” conflict. 

Almost like hearing a song in your head randomly. This is not to say, that there aren’t positive aspects or other don’t have positive experiences. But mine has not been that. 

“There is no way to get rid of this” he said. 

I beg to differ. 

Remove if not transform.

Honestly, I don’t think I’m anyone special. I just humbly work and will hopefully love again one day.

But what is so special about me that this thing needs to follow me, turn my life upside down, isolate me so it can have me all to itself. Sadistically.

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