“Awakening, kundalini, ascension processes” has felt more like a dream or more often a nightmare than one of wokeness.
The lies, dillusions, the illusions …. While I live on planet earth… In the “3D” I have always felt myself as a “humanitarian”, that we as a people … And ecosystem can evolve … Harmonize our qualities of life in a way that does not take from each other.
So say I have either “ascended” or what feels more like “decended” in vibes or energy. I still haven’t been able to wrap mind around 5D. All I know is how I feel and even that … I’m not even sure it is me.
I feel like I can’t go back… I have know idea the future or destination and currently I’m not happy with how things are going. I know that waiting … Kinda… For a sign… A green light to move on with my life.
I’m not sure how that affects the present moment. How can I … Weave things into my life that are small steps to the life I want with feeling like I’m totally stalled in any kind of movement. As I said before anytime I feel a little bit of motivation its either zapped from me or something terrible happens.
Today I went to the hospital because my blood pressure was 157/136 which is super high and abnormal. And I was feeling the pressure on my head, tingling, knocking ony legs etc.
The spirit voice continued to elicite fear. I wanted to start a water fast for my body. But it might not the best idea right now.
Not quiet sure what all this plays into ascension or awakening or twin flame thing.