“I want you to die of child molestation.”
I cried for months ran away from my job gave friends up food housing lovers …. Just for this to stop.
I don’t know why this spirit waits until I lost a lover or job to taunt me.
I’ve tried to maintain good thoughts… Prayer.. Meditation…. I’ve gone to psychics, church, tried to maintain a healthy lifestyle nothing seems to work.
Over 10 years.
Sometimes when I’m speaking I say something and then I wonder if I just said that.
I can’t watch TV, or sleep, social media. All once were stress relief become difficult to engage in.
I can’t say words anymore with out it being a trigger.
My genitals or head are then burned or a buzzing feeling.
I know what’s real…. Kinda sorta…
And less than year ago this was not the case.
Its like it enters through the pain of a lover. Slowly chipping away and taunting you with both truth and lies. Nawing at the pain.