I love him and he could have been anybody or nothing at all.
I hate him for the pain that he has put me through and yet love him at the same time. I am not sure where the lie is.
I don’t know why he has revealed himself to me , when he says he doesn’t want me at all. And yet he is still here. Everyday. We spend every moment together. Waking and sleep.
So …. How do I deal? I love him and have to forgive him everyday.
Great pain, great shame, great love, great hate, anger… Sewn together with ridiculousness.
Am I desperate? I have a boyfriend.
Am I being swayed into loving him? Do I love him because he has been there for a long time?